Who allowed me to live like a dream

Han Ru was staggered and couldn't stand firmly. Ren Changhua naturally reached out to support his waist.

With a flash of instinct, Han Ru also saw the hatred flowing from the corner of the woman's eyes.

The woman by the door seemed annoyed.She came to accompany Uncle Ren, right?What were you going to do just now?I don't know if I have disturbed the two of them by appearing here... Uncle Ren's wife is separated from him now, he...he also needs a woman, right?

Han Ru was extremely embarrassed, but she seemed to have an answer in her heart.

It turns out that Uncle Ren needs women.

The kiss just now was probably because he really thought too much.

In this situation, should we explain it, or should we not explain it?Not explaining seems to leave a misunderstanding, but explaining seems to be trying to cover up, and it is inevitable that the description will become darker and darker.

Just as Han Ru was struggling, Ren Changhua was the first to speak: "What's wrong? Are you still leaving?"

The woman at the door sneered: "Hehe, you drove me away like this? Didn't you say that you would never touch another man again? I thought you really kept your former little lover in your heart! The result is still the same, When you have a new love, you forget the old love."

Ren Changhua felt a slight pain in his heart, but on the surface he raised his eyebrows and said to the woman: "You still say these sour words... How old are you, have I ever told you anything that you misunderstood? I remember that I said it very clearly, I Between you and me, we just get what we need, I am looking for you because you are straightforward and won't stalk... Don't forget your only advantage."

"What do you mean?"

"You are also in your 30s, and you don't understand this at all. Do you want me to explain it to you?"

"...Okay, I will contact you tomorrow." The woman took a deep breath, resisted to change her attitude and said, "I hope you can give me... worthy of what I have given in the past..."

"I know. I'll confirm your request myself tomorrow, okay?"

Ren Changhua made a "please" gesture.

The woman turned and walked away, the soft-soled high-heeled shoes stepped on the thin carpeted floor very softly.After the figure of the woman disappeared outside the door, Han Ru's mind began to show the appearance of the woman.

She is a very charming woman.A woman with that appearance should be memorable to a man... It's so strange that he only started to care about her appearance from now on.

What was it that distracted you just now?He seemed to come here to ask some questions, but was forgotten by this incident.There were only Han Ru and Ren Changhua left in the room, and a sense of uneasiness arose spontaneously. Han Ru almost subconsciously said, "I'm leaving too..."

As he said that, he took a step towards the door, but his arm was grabbed. Feeling the strong and huge force, Han Ru was startled at first.

Old and strong... that was the first word that came to his mind.

Ren Changhua has done a good job in sports and maintenance. He is tall, muscular and well-proportioned. Except for the deep wrinkles at the corners of his eyes, his skin is still young. He doesn't look like a 50-year-old at all.But he is not young anymore, he was already in his 20s when he got married, and now his second son is 28, so he should be in his fifties.

Han Ru looked at the hand on her arm, and sighed how could there be such an old and powerful man?He and his son are really similar, and so is his son. In front of people, he wants to ask for it, regardless of what his lover thinks in his heart, and he doesn't care if he is shy or embarrassed... When they are father and son It's not easy.

"You came to see me for something?" Ren Changhua asked while pulling Han Ru's arm.

"No, nothing happened."

"It's okay, you came here in the middle of the night?"

"I just wanted to ask something, but now... nothing. I'll go back first."

Han Ru pushed Ren Changhua's hand away, and was about to go out, but was pulled back against the wall. Ren Changhua's force was so strong that Han Ru's shoulder blades hit the wall with pain.

"Please don't do this!" Han Ru couldn't help but said.

"I'm sorry, I won't do it in the future." Almost at the same time, Ren Changhua's voice came out of his mouth in a hurry, as if he wanted to explain something.

"In the future, won't you?" Han Ru repeated incomprehensibly.

Ren Changhua thought he didn't believe it, so he raised his hand to promise: "I won't do it again, I promise."

"What will you do in the future?" Han Ru smiled wryly.

"I will never look for a woman again." Ren Changhua solemnly vowed.

"But, what does it matter to me whether you will find a woman in the future?" Han Ru tilted her head and asked, as if she really didn't want to understand.

"Oh? Then why did you come to see me in the middle of the night?"

"...It's nothing now."

"Han Ru, as a housekeeper, it's not good for you to disturb the master's rest." Ren Changhua put on a posture of being frank and lenient and resisting strictness.

"Uh... I don't care."

"Then what did you want to ask me for in the first place?" Ren Changhua persisted.

Han Ru couldn't resist, so she could only say helplessly, "...I told you not to be angry."

Ren Changhua nodded: "I'm not angry."

"I just... want to ask if you like men."

"Oh? Why do you ask that?"

"Because..." Han Ru couldn't tell the reason, because I was kissed by you today, so I want to ask if you often kiss other men like this, and you can also kiss people with feelings?What kind of shit question is this.

"...But now that you've found a woman, you'll know the answer."

"Han Ru..." Ren Changhua said earnestly, "Don't you know that many people are bisexual?"

"what?!"

"Just because I'm looking for a woman doesn't mean I can't accept men, it's just that I happened to find a woman. So, what do you want to ask?"

"Coincidentally?" Han Ru frowned.

"if not?"

"I think that woman is very beautiful... Don't you feel tempted at all?"

"Hehe," Ren Changhua laughed, "Maybe you are too young... just being pretty is useless."

"At least she attracted you, didn't she?"

"Yes, I admit that she has a good face, a good figure, and excellent skills in bed. She is liked by any man."

"Don't you like that? Why drive away?"

"Isn't it because you came to me? There are many such women, but you only have one."

Hearing the phrase "only one", Han Ru suddenly felt bitter.The woman's words echoed in his mind, those words were like sad songs, lingering in his heart, he couldn't help asking: "Do you think the same about that person?"

"Which one?"

"That...you said that for him, you would never find another man in your life, that..."

"..."

Ren Changhua was silent.

It has been more than 20 years since that person passed away without knowing it.

These years are like a dream to Ren Changhua.He didn't know how he was going to get by.For ordinary people, losing the person they love the most would probably feel heartbreaking, but he was blinded at that time.Xu Ru was hit by a car and flew out, and then fell back to the ground. At that moment, Ren Changhua's whole body seemed to be out of his body.

Feel no pain, honestly.At that time, he felt as if he was watching a movie, in which people were separated from each other, and he was like an audience, maybe he could feel a little pity, but he seemed to be separated by a layer, unable to blend in.

He also cried and resisted.Drunk in the middle of the night, deep alcohol poisoning, almost died.Walking through the streets where they once walked hand in hand, suddenly laying down on the main road, hoping that a car would hit him and kill him... He has done those things before.But those feelings are so unreal.He even felt that God's taking Xu Ru away was God's punishment for his fickleness when he was young. He crushed the hearts of countless people, so God was going to crush his heart too.

Later he forced himself to come out of that state.He is the heir of the Ren family, he cannot continue to be decadent like that, the reality in front of him forces him to be as strong as steel.He began to divert his attention, and those things that used to be seemed to be separated by a layer, like someone else's experience.

Looking back now, I realized that I was also deceived by myself. It was obviously a painful loss, but it was forgotten in such a short time. Everyone felt that Ren Shao’s heart was really cruel. It’s only been a few days. forgot?

Only he himself knows.Sometimes, at a certain lonely time, a certain intense climax, or a certain time when you are so tired that you don’t know the meaning of life, when you think of that person in your life, you will still cry secretly.

He thought he couldn't survive, but he has survived until now.So when he knew that his son was going to be with the one he loved, he didn't stop it because it was too difficult.Since he can bear the pain of loss, his son should be able to bear the weight of gain.Only in this way can he be regarded as the heir of the Ren family, and he will not be overwhelmed by either gain or loss. His life is always advancing, and he will not retreat due to difficulties.

"Ren... Uncle Ren..." Han Ru was moved by the silence, he could feel tiny ripples spreading from Ren Changhua's heart, affecting the surrounding air and infecting him.

He felt as if he had done a bad thing, opened up someone else's old sore, and saw the blood and flesh that was still oozing pus inside.But the person concerned didn't seem to feel it, because he had long been used to such pain, became numb, and became indifferent.

Souls out of body, walking dead...it turns out that this world is everywhere.So inadvertently, you can come across one.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to mention him..." Han Ru felt very guilty, because he was not a doctor, and he didn't know how to treat this horrible pile of carrion. Apologize.

Ren Changhua finally smiled with the corners of his mouth tearing open: "It's okay. In fact, for so many years, people have mentioned him in front of me every day... You don't need to apologize, it's not a bad thing. Although I can't catch him in front of death, at least , I can make everyone alive remember his name. Let everyone who tries to get something from me know that I, Ren Changhua, got him... that is the proudest thing in my life."

That smile is bleak after all.

Han Ru didn't know what to say other than sorry, she felt like frying an egg in her heart, even though she knew the egg would hurt, she cracked it open and put it in the frying pan, enjoying the process of it solidifying... It's really abusive.

He wanted to ask, today by the lake, why did you kiss me?But now he understands that, having tasted the pain of loss in his heart, he will unconsciously comfort those who have also lost.Because I have tasted that kind of pain, so... Please live a good life, remember that someone once gave you such an affectionate kiss during your hardest and most tormented time, and supported you through it tough times.

Is there such comfort, even if it's just for one night?Even if it is only for a second, he is also the dawn to you.

That's what it means to live, isn't it?

Han Ru didn't think much anymore, a thread in his heart slowly tightened, pulling him in the direction of Ren Changhua.By the time he reacted, his arms had already wrapped around the man's neck, his chest was pressed tightly together, his lips and teeth were glued together, and there was the sound of sticky water.