Who allowed me to live like a dream

Gu Jiachen's face was scratched, and a layer of oily skin was wiped off, and the medicine had already been applied.

The wound was covered with scabs, the brown ones were blood scabs, and the bright yellow ones were cell fluid exuded from damaged epidermal tissue.The ointment dispersed in the skin was a clear and transparent color, and under the cover of the bedside light, the surrounding skin shone with a strange brilliance.The scar as big as the lid of the wine bottle, like a dark river, surged inexplicable emotions in Ren Xiaoxu's heart.

There is water in the water, and the black water is full of red.Flames rose from his heart, burning everything in the world and everything in his chest like a destructive force.

Ren Xiaoxu gradually slowed down his breathing, and the whole room was silent, only Gu Jiachen's chest rising and falling could be heard.

Gu Jiachen lay quietly, with thin beads of sweat on his forehead.The sleeping pills didn't seem to be effective enough, Gu Jiachen didn't sleep as deeply as before in the past two nights, he was always sweating, and often talked in his sleep.

Living in a nightmare seems to be such a situation.Nightmares make people want to escape as soon as possible, but they can't wake up, so they can only endure the shock and embarrassment in their dreams.

Ren Xiaoxu asked Dr. Zhao if he could increase the dosage of sleeping pills.Dr. Zhao said that he does not recommend this. Mr. Gu is frightened now. Apart from suppressing the fright, the most important thing is to appease and treat him. It is not recommended to use more drugs.Because the human body has its own drug resistance, so the dose has been increased, and one day he will be immune to this drug.And it's not good to take too much medicine. After all, the medicine is three-point poisonous, and Mr. Gu's health is already very poor.

Now Gu Jiachen had to take four or five sleeping pills every night to be able to fall asleep, and the dosage really couldn't be increased.

"You should stay with him more." Dr. Zhao said meaningfully.

Gu Jiachen's hand suddenly jumped in the darkness.The light range of the bedside lamp was very small, and the half of the bed where Gu Jiachen slept was completely shrouded in darkness.Sensing his movements, Ren Xiaoxu stretched out a hand to cover the back of his hand.

The temperature is transmitted to the blood through the skin on the back of the hand, and then from the blood to the heart.Gu Jiachen seemed to feel it, and his heart settled down a little.Ren Xiaoxu simply turned off the light, then moved Gu Jiachen's entire body into his arms, and pulled the quilt over them both.Gu Jiachen felt the familiar body temperature, turned over and pressed up, lying in Ren Xiaoxu's arms, and buried his head in the position of his heart.

Ren Xiaoxu raised his head, and rubbed his face against his chest.There were scabs on the face on the other side, Gu Jiachen rubbed his face, and switched to the other side so as not to rub off the scabs in his sleep and bleed again.

That night, Gu Jiachen slept well until dawn, but Ren Xiaoxu suffered from insomnia.

He listened to Gu Jiachen's disordered breathing, looked at his eyebrows that sometimes condensed, and his unsteady appearance always made Ren Xiaoxu feel that something was wrong.

He couldn't help but start thinking about the definition of those two words.

Happiness is a state of mind.The state of mind when desires are fulfilled.It is a long-lasting satisfaction with life, a feeling of great joy in life, and a happy mood that naturally hopes to last for a long time.

Do these match up with his current form?

This nightmare every night, the little rabbit who can only fall asleep in his arms, is scared all day long...

Is he really happy?

Ren Xiaoxu hugged him and lay on the bed until dawn.He bumped himself that day, and the two of them had bruises on their shoulders. They hugged each other like this, and the injured parts just fit together.In this posture, the eyebrows and eyes are facing each other, every pore on each other's faces, every eyelash on the eyes can be seen clearly, the sound of breathing can be heard clearly, and the sound of heartbeat can be easily captured.

One of Gu Jiachen's legs was pressed against his body, his knee was bent and hooked his leg, his limbs were entangled inextricably, and they could feel each other's body temperature through the thin pajamas.

Ren Xiaoxu suddenly remembered an old Chinese saying, a husband and wife a day, a hundred days of kindness.

From being together to now, nine years, one hundred and eight months, three thousand two hundred and eighty-five days.That kindness has to be repaid for a lifetime, right?

It seems that he, Ren Xiaoxu, has been giving alms all along, while his family servant, Gu, has been receiving it.This favor does not seem to be equal.Now he finally has kindness to him, and a shot is a life-saving grace.Ren Xiaoxu was a little dazed, lamenting the justice of fate, how many small favors can be offset by this shoulder... So to be honest, it's not that they don't repay, the time has not yet come.

It's just that the time has not come.

Jehovah has said that it is more blessed to give than to receive.Thinking about it this way, in fact, he, Ren Xiaoxu, has always been the more blessed.With his acceptance, Gu's family fulfilled his charity.

Who is greater?

"Retainer." As if there was a ghost in his mind, Ren Xiaoxu called the person in his arms by his name.He closed his eyes, as if he didn't want people to see his expression at this time.

"Hmm..." Gu Jiachen mused and moved his body, as if he heard it, but he didn't seem to hear it.Half asleep, half awake, he didn't seem to know why the man in front of him called him.

"If...you think it's too hard to follow me, you can..."

There was a sudden chill in his chest.

Ren Xiaoxu opened his eyes, and saw that Gu Jiachen had already stood up, his big eyes were shining brightly in the darkness, and he was looking straight at him.

"What can I do?"

Gu Jiachen's voice was as gloomy as water, every word was bitten so clearly, not at all hazy like someone who just woke up.

"You really...don't feel regretful?"

Ren Xiaoxu turned on a bedside lamp, and the expression of the person in front of him became clear and clear.He stroked Gu Jiachen's cheek with one hand, the one without scars.That half of the face was pressed against his body, leaving a red mark, mixed with creases of pajamas and traces of hair, and the tentacles had a strange bump.

"Is there any medicine for regret in the world?" Gu Jiachen whispered.

Ren Xiaoxu suddenly growled impatiently: "I asked you if you would regret it!"

"What do you mean? You suddenly asked me this... what do you mean?"

"I mean..." Ren Xiaoxu looked at his little rabbit with two round eyes, and sighed inwardly.

"I mean, if it's hard for you, you can go. Leave me. If you want to..."

At that moment, Ren Xiaoxu seemed to hear something.Crisp, cold, like the sound of frozen flowers blooming, and like the sound of time stagnating.That voice was a bit like those cups that Shen shattered when she lost her temper, a broken croon.

Gu Jiachen froze, in a push-up position, frozen there.He looked puzzled and complicated, as if he was not sure what Ren Xiaoxu said just now.

The blood was cold from the top of the head, and the severe cold spread to every fingertip.

Is... do you mean to break up?

Ren Xiaoxu raised his head again when he heard a thud, and Gu Jiachen was no longer there.He appeared to have rolled out of bed.Ren Xiaoxu turned his head to the side, and saw the thin figure standing up from the floor unsteadily, and stumbling towards a corner of the bedroom.

Ren Xiaoxu froze for a second or two, then jumped up from the bed, followed Gu Jiachen, and found that he was walking towards the cloakroom.He followed up, and saw that a floor-to-ceiling wardrobe was pulled halfway open, his little things were huddled up inside, and the hanging clothes surrounded him like curtains.

The cloakroom was about the size of an ordinary person's two bedrooms and one living room. When Ren Xiaoxu was in the middle of the room, he unconsciously slowed down his pace, walking gently, as softly and slowly as if approaching a small animal.He raised a hand to push away the clothes, a ray of light penetrated into the closet, Gu Jiachen shrunk back hard, and buried his head in the corner.

"Retainer..." Ren Xiaoxu stretched out his hand to touch him, Gu's retainer suddenly jumped up, got out from the gap under Ren Xiaohuai's armpit, leaned against the wall, tremblingly said:

"I'll go right away!"

Ren Xiaoxu froze.

"I'll go..." Gu Jiachen continued trembling, stammering, "I'll go...I, please let me take it easy...I'll go right away...I won't stay here... ...is blocking your eyes here..."

"Who told you to go!" Ren Xiaoxu was furious, what was going on in this guy's mind?

"I...I..." Gu Jiachen raised his head, looked at his predecessor Xiaoxu's angry eyes, and then lowered his head uselessly, speaking incoherently and breathing disorderly.

Still tired at last?

Gu Jiachen thought to himself, are you still tired of me after all?That's right, you are such a strong and capable person, how could you stand a weak and incompetent guy like me...It's so embarrassing to be scared like this by a bullet...You're still a big man!

Ren Xiaoxu walked up in two steps in three steps at the same time, blocking Gu Jiachen in the corner, and looked at him condescendingly: "I ask you, who made you go?!"

Gu Jiachen still didn't dare to look at him. He lowered his head, tucked his pajamas tightly with his fingers, and murmured his lips: "You...you...didn't you say it yourself? Tell me to go, tell me to leave you !"

"I'll go!" Gu Jiachen suddenly raised his head to meet his predecessor Xiaoxu's eyes, his eyes were full of reluctance, reluctance and courage, courage and weakness, weakness and determination.He tried to use a normal voice to say:

"If you want me to go, I will go. I just hope you don't embarrass my family... I, I will keep my mouth shut and never reveal what happened between us. I, I will stay for the rest of my life In places you can't see, but you have to cooperate, don't go where I may appear... You know I will only go to a few places, the procuratorate or something... and my mother, you help her participate We will withdraw from the business we did...it won't have anything to do with you in the future...it's just that the money I earned before may not be able to be repaid to you, and my mother probably spent it on repaying the loan..."

Gu Jiachen's voice suddenly dropped, and he became a little hesitant. After a while, he continued: "It's just my father, can you just let him stay like that... You know he really wants to be promoted, let him He's demoted, that's worse than killing him. I... If you want to get it back, I, I will pay you back..."

Ren Xiaoxu finally understood what he was talking about, suddenly gave a low laugh, and asked jokingly, "What do you pay for it?"

Gu Jiachen hesitated for a moment, and said timidly: "Work...salary, pay in installments. But you have to let me go back to work in the procuratorate...I only have that job...You have to, give me a way out."