Who allowed me to live like a dream

Not only is it not very good, it is simply terrible.

At that time, Ren Xiaoxu was still a young boy, unable to control himself well.At that time, he was generally free-wheeling and simple and rude.

At the beginning, Gu Jiachen only knew Cheng Yizhou, and the interaction between him and Cheng Yizhou was limited to going to the cafeteria to eat together at the beginning, and later serving him tea and water to do his homework.To Gu Jiachen, Ren Xiaoxu was just "Cheng Yizhou's rich friend", he basically didn't eat in the school cafeteria, and he didn't meet Gu Jiachen much.

As for why Ren Xiaoxu did it on a whim later, Gu Jiachen still hasn't figured it out yet.The fate between people is really amazing.No. [-] Middle School was better than him at that time, I don't know how much.Let alone their first time, it was downright rape.It was also the first time for Ren Xiaoxu to have sex with a man, his movements were unfamiliar and out of focus, he only cared about his own pleasure and ignored other people's feelings.As a result, Gu Jiachen was either hurt or injured for a while, and sometimes he couldn't even sit on a stool in class.

At that time, when you were in pain, what did you think?Gu Jiachen slowly recalled, he remembered that he seemed to have greeted Ren Xiaoxu's [-] generations of ancestors countless times, cursing and cursing with a guilty conscience, for fear that people would see some dissatisfaction from his distorted face.After scolding too many times, he got tired of it, so he hated Wuji and Wudi, and brought up Ji Zetong and Cheng Yizhou.Ji Ze and the demon king know how to instigate recklessly and work for tigers; as for Cheng Yizhou, he is hypocritical and sanctimonious. When he sees him being bullied by others, he comes to help him out, and when he sees him being bullied by his friends, he is fine. Not letting one go is called legal omission! (error)

Ren Xiaoxu's fingertips gently touched Gu Jiachen, from hair, to ears, across eyes, to face, to mouth.Finally he leaned down, sucked those thin, flushed lips in his mouth, and repeated vaguely:

"What was your first impression of me?"

The sudden tenderness made Gu Jiachen's consciousness blurred, he stretched out his hands to hug Ren Xiaoxu, his eyes were foggy, and he responded to the kiss.The touch of lips and teeth, the entanglement of tongues, the exchange of breaths, so that when they finally left, each other's saliva was still lingering reluctantly.

"Huh? What do you think?"

"At that time... I thought, you were a beast..." Gu Jiachen gasped and said, it took a few seconds to regain consciousness, and after he regained consciousness, he said, "No, I thought you were not as good as a beast at that time... say You insult them even as a beast!"

He kind of wanted to laugh.Thinking back on how I felt at the time now, I find it ridiculous.If you love him so much now, how could you feel that he was so unbearable at that time?In other words, at that time, I thought he was so unbearable, but now I actually love him so much!The direction of people's hearts is really unpredictable.

Seeing the smile on the mouth of the person below him, Ren Xiaoxu patted his head like a kitten, stared into his eyes and asked, "Why am I such a beast?"

Probably remembering the time when we were still so young, Gu Jiachen smiled unconsciously and said: "At that time, your skills were so poor, and it hurt me every time. I would always want to ask, what did you do like that?" , will you be happy yourself?"

Ren Xiaoxu thought about it seriously and said, "It will still be fun."

Gu Jiachen hooked his neck in satisfaction, and said shyly after three minutes: "But now your skills are very good... As long as you don't get angry, I will feel very comfortable..."

"Really?" Ren Xiaoxu buried his head in his shoulder, his voice became a little distant because of the layer of flesh, "You think I'm a beast, so why are you still with me? We don't There will be a happy future..."

Gu Jiachen paused for a moment, thinking that at that time, where did you care if I wanted to be with you?You treat me like a toy, you come to me when you think of it, you go to me when you think of it, you go up when you pick up your gun, and you leave when you're done, it's extremely inhuman... At that time, we couldn't use "do you have feelings" at all. Let's talk about things.

Of course he didn't dare to say so much. After thinking about it for a while, he whispered, "I...I dare not resist you. And I can't do anything..."

Ren Xiaoxu laughed: "It's as if I raped you every time. In fact, except for the first time, every time after that, you haven't resisted me much. You can talk at the beginning, but you can't even talk later. I said it. If I knew that you really didn't want to, maybe I wouldn't come to you again. Is there a man I want to find?"

"Ah?" Gu Jiachen was stunned, and said to himself, didn't I resist you?I try my best to convey the meaning of "I don't want" to you every time!Often the word will be on my lips from the beginning to the end.Who knew that as soon as I said "no", you would become more and more excited like chicken blood, which made me dare not say this word again.Then I can't say "I want" right?Of course I can only shut up in the end... How do you think I'm not resisting?

"Nonsense, I obviously resisted you! I struggled and called..."

"With your actions, those who don't know think you're flirting with me!"

Gu Jiachen was so taken aback that he almost bit his own tongue.And this person always thought that he slept with him willingly?

"At that time, my family was poorer than it is now. I couldn't eat any good food. Where did I have the strength to deal with a rich man like you who has excess energy and desires?" Gu Jiachen said dissatisfied.

He really felt wronged. At that time, he really thought that Ren Xiaoxu was a pervert, and every time he asked him to have sex with him, Gu Jiachen would want to die.During that time, his grades plummeted. Under the double blow of emotions and studies, he thought about jumping off the top floor of the teaching building more than once.And the culprit who made him suffer so much, he thought he was flirting with him? ?The world is so ridiculous.Even though they have had the closest contact, their hearts are still unfamiliar, and there is still such a misunderstanding.

"Since you thought I was a beast at that time, why are you still with me now?" Ren Xiaoxu's fingers climbed onto the buttons of Gu Jiachen's clothes, brushing them one by one, but he did not untie them.It wasn't until his fingers reached the hem of his clothes that he pulled the hem of Gu Jiachen's shirt out of his pants little by little.

Gu Jiachen felt the clothes rubbing against his skin, a slippery touch, and then a slight chill on his stomach.In just a moment, Ren Xiaoxu's fiery hands had already covered his waist and abdomen.His calloused fingers drew circles on the delicate skin of Gu Jiachen's abdomen, reaching around his navel, and then slowly stroked the edge of his deep-set navel, feeling the one closest to his internal organs The place.

Gu Jiachen only felt a numbness in his abdomen, as if some animal had crawled over, which made him itchy and made his body tremble involuntarily.Having been together for so many years, Ren Xiaoxu is familiar with every sensitive zone on his body, and the belly button is undoubtedly one of the most sensitive places on his body.That position is where he connects with his mother, where he sucks his mother's blood as nutrients... Less than an inch inside is the soft intestine.

Ren Xiaoxu used several fingers, rubbing that spot lightly or heavily.Gu Jiachen couldn't help raising his face, and involuntarily grabbed the little bug on his navel that was teasing him.

Why does he love him?Gu Jiachen thought very seriously.

Literary answer, do not know the origin of the love, and go deeper and deeper?

To put it more academically, love is a strong attachment, closeness and yearning between people, as well as a selfless, dedicated and exhausting emotion.This kind of emotion will arise, at first it is a physical attraction, and when the hormone secretion fades, and the time spent together is long enough, this kind of feeling will turn into family affection?

In fact, at the beginning, Gu Jiachen also thought about their relationship carefully.He thinks that the relationship between them is a very typical long-term relationship.At first it was because of sex, but later I gradually got to know each other, or I could say that I got used to having this person by my side, and felt that it would be uncomfortable to separate, so I developed feelings.I want to stay by his side, I want to share my joys and sorrows with him.Hold your hand and grow old with you.This is the most common way of love between human beings.When marriage just started to appear, human beings used the method of "locking two people together until they develop feelings" to promote a marriage.Because the place of detention is often a cave, this situation is called "bridal chamber".

Gu Jiachen expressed his thoughts in a soft tone, and love grew over time.

Ren Xiaoxu snorted to show that he heard, and his kiss had already begun to deepen.He started from Gu Jiachen's neck and kissed him all the way to his waist.The soft and wet lips brushed across the skin, creating a sticky pleasure.Clothes were taken off, skin was touching, breathing was touching... Gu Jiachen almost instinctively opened his legs to greet him, and didn't realize until his legs were weak that today seemed a bit too much.

Fortunately, this time Ren Xiaoxu didn't do it for too long, he simply resolved his desire, and then retreated in a well-mannered manner.Gu Jiachen was lying on the bed panting slightly, his moist eyes were like a pool of autumn water.He lay in Ren Xiaoxu's arms and asked:

"Why do you ask me this? How could I... I won't be like your mother, I won't force Shihua to do anything."

Ren Xiaoxu caressed his face gently, and said dotingly in his eyes:

"I know you, you are such a soft-hearted person. But when you saw your sister having such a boyfriend, your first reaction was to object desperately and let them break up. I don't think this should be your original intention, But you acted like that. So I can only think that your reaction like this is completely a conditioned reflex... It was learned from your parents, and it became a habit after being influenced by your ears and eyes. Therefore, your parents It must be the same, when you, or your sister, make a choice that they are not satisfied with, they will try their best to correct it...or force you to give up your choice and obey their wishes."

Ren Xiaoxu smiled helplessly, and continued: "Even you have been trained to be like this, which shows how stubborn your parents will be. They are like that, more difficult to deal with than my mother. My mother objected to us because interest, then I can use pure interest to restrain her. But your parents are purely a habit they have lived for half their lives, and this habit cannot be easily changed..."

Gu Jiachen also sighed softly, and said: "It's good that you know... They are old and stubborn. Sometimes I don't judge a matter according to my own thinking, but according to my parents' thinking. Because I know, even if I like it, so what? If they don’t like it, I still have to give up. So, for a boyfriend like Shihua, it’s better to break up as soon as possible.”