that love, that youth

Fate has come to play tricks on me again.

Just when the marathon was about to run to the finish line, I completely collapsed, without warning, without consciousness, and fell on the last mock monthly exam.

The classmates were frightened. When my parents arrived, I was helped to rest on the bed. They took me home for an infusion. up.

The days to come will no longer be three o'clock and one line, no longer will the stars be above your head, and you will no longer be unable to eat or sleep, but spend it bit by bit. What you can finally achieve when lying on a white hospital bed is to sleep with peace of mind. caught.

When there was no place for the needle on the back of the hand, my mother cried. She said that we would rather not take the exam than fight with our lives. forgotten memory.Sickness, weakness, and sorrow have always been with me, ups and downs and downs together.I was on a white hospital bed, and saw Weiming Lake go far away.

I miss Zeng Xiaowu terribly. In my dream, I pulled him: Please promise me a future, a promise that I don’t have to keep, let me accept it with a smile, and then forget it in time, but he silently Fade out of my dreams.

I started telling myself seriously.

From tomorrow onwards, no one will come to take care of my messy steps. It's time to love myself. After all, to get out of this embarrassing situation, I must rely on my own efforts.

After thinking about it this way, I was able to calm down instead. The hatred that was once full of hatred actually retreated slowly, leaving behind some sore beauty.

Fortunately, I have cried and hated myself, and I have become stronger and my heart has grown. I have not lost anything because of this, but I know how to cherish life and myself.

A month later I was back on campus, with a tired voice and an overhauled self.

Can I tell the world that I have recovered, freed from the torment of the virus, and no longer need to rely on drips to provide life. The medicine liquid in the hanging bottle has penetrated into my skin and internal organs, and I no longer need to rely on the medicine liquid The support has survived, and honestly, it feels so good.

There are faintly visible pinholes left on the hands, and the slightly blue color is still proving those bumps.

Even though the penicillium poison has dyed all the cells in my body, even though the bitterness of the medicine has become the taste of my body, and even though there are many unknowns before me, I still want to shout happily, I'm healed, it's like finally crawling out of the dark night. By dawn, it was as if dead and resurrected.

The days went back and forth like that, and I fell down in the final sprint, and finally ran to a good university, living an ordinary life, living an ordinary life.

Wei Wei successfully got admitted to his favorite school.I am very happy for Xiao Shizhi to be admitted to a prestigious university in Shanghai. I just heard that he broke up with Zhao Ya. It doesn’t sound sad, but love has thorns. Now that the wound doesn’t hurt, it’s over.

Although my university was a little far away from Weiming Lake, I didn't complain because I was still victorious.

After taking every step or even falling down, I didn't stop, but kept moving forward. Maybe after walking for a long time, I gradually got used to each step. The previous step became the motivation for the next step, and the latter step became The reason for the previous step.

Now when I was looking back at the road ahead, I suddenly came up with a reason, and I smiled and said it to you, okay?

In fact, there is no other way to retaliate against the injustice of life, the only thing you can do is to love yourself well.

Life is like a butterfly breaking out of its cocoon. While enjoying the sunshine and rain, you must also accept the wind and rain. Even if no one in this world loves you anymore, you must work hard to learn to love yourself. Love yourself, understand?

After I was admitted to university, the first thing I did was to go to Dalian.Unbeknownst to everyone, I still haven't woken up one morning after the military training.

I took the train and went straight to Dalian, the place I wanted to go to.

I arrived and found Zeng Xiaowu's class according to that address.I didn't see him, but his classmate told me his address, of course because I was in the name of his sister.

I found him in a village behind the school, that Zeng Xiaowu with still long hair, studs on his ears, and such a sunny smile.At that moment, he was holding a girl by the hand.

I didn't appear with a black face, but I was as happy as Zhao Ya.He was very anxious when he saw me and asked me to wait for him.

I waited for him to leave in a hurry and come in a hurry.The first sentence is his complaint, don't worry about the second sentence, it was just a classmate just now.

I don't care too much, it's just yours.

"Xiaowu, how are you?"

"It's okay, the school is not good, I can only rely on myself"

"I thought you would wait for Zhao Ya, she has already broken up with Xiaoshi"

"Tiantian, it's too hard to love someone, let's not be hard on ourselves"

"Then tell me, Hu Lancheng missed Zhang Ailing, did you regret it?"

"Then you have to ask Hu Lancheng"

"What about you"

"I can't be Hu Lancheng, and you can't be Eileen Chang"

"Then did you ever love me?"

Zeng Xiaowu was silent for a long time.I think I have my answer.

I still misread him.

What happened to Zhao Ya once made me think it was the seed of infatuation, and I also believed that the seed of infatuation always grows a heart of infatuation, but at this moment, I don't think he is, he is just promiscuous, but he still uses some excuse to say How hard it is to love.

"I'll come today and return the letter to you"

"You don't have to pay them back, those are all written for you, what's the point of taking them back?"

"Since you don't want it, I'll take it back. I want to know if Xiaoya is still in touch with you?"

"Contact, but I haven't called for a long time."

"Does she still have nostalgia for Xiaoshi?"

"What do you think? That's her favorite. She has been stalking her for two years, but she just got someone who is neither painful nor hot. It's not that easy to let go."

"In this case, why not insist? There are many long-distance relationships."

"Long-distance is not the distance, the key is whether anyone cares"

"Yeah, what's the relationship with long-distance relationships? The key is that no one cares anymore. I have nothing else to do. I have to go. I won't waste your time"

"Hey, Tiantian, I want to take you to see the sea"

"No need, where can't you see the sea, besides, you're already married, so you don't have to be so polite with me."

I choked back a lot and wanted to talk, because with this answer, and those others, I never wanted to figure it out again.Love is nothing more than that, like fireworks that have bloomed, beauty is beauty, but after that effort, only cannon fodder remains.