Hard to be a master

Song Jian, as the closed disciple of Elder Shanyue, even though he traveled abroad after he became alchemy, he often needed to return to his master's school to hand over tasks, or to do things for Elder Shanyue.Every time I delay returning to Shushan for a little longer, I have to settle in Taoyuan Town, so I am very familiar with Taoyuan Town.On his recommendation, the three of them went to a restaurant called "Yuan Ke Lai" and ordered a table of authentic food.Shu people are addicted to spicy food. After a meal, Guan Jingxuan and Shen Ziliu, who usually eat light food, were so spicy that their complexions turned rosy and they broke out in sweat.However, if it is spicy, the taste of the dishes on that table is very good, which is endless aftertaste.

During the dinner, Guan Jingxuan and Song Jian had a pleasant conversation.Song Jian also loves spirit beasts very much, and he has a high level of cultivation, and he has a good relationship with spirit beasts. He has tamed many spirit beasts. During the discussion, he picked a few small and cute ones and released them for Guan Jingxuan to see. Guan Jingxuan was very envious of them. The love of those well-behaved spirit beasts is beyond words.Shen Ziliu looked bored, and felt that the dishes on the table were so hot that tears were about to flow out, so he found an excuse to go out to breathe, so as to calm himself down.

When Shen Ziliu left the private room, Song Jian asked in a low voice: "Young Master Guan, did I offend your little apprentice in any way? I saw that he was always depressed and his face was not very good."

Guan Jingxuan said helplessly: "Mr. Song, don't be overwhelmed. It's the young man who was rude. I'll apologize to Mr. Song on his behalf. He doesn't know what happened recently. It seems that he is always a little restless. Sometimes it's cloudy and sometimes sunny."

Song Jian said: "Mr. Guan is serious. How old is Mr. Shen?"

Guan Jingxuan said: "Counting the age that has grown in the illusion, it is about 22 or [-]."

Song Jian said: "Oh, that's no wonder. Previously, when my two disciples were at Mr. Shen's age, they were almost like this. One was preoccupied and moody all day long, while the other was particularly rebellious. He couldn't listen to anyone's words. Sometimes I get angry for no reason, and I offended many people during that time."

Guan Jingxuan thought for a while, and although Shen Ziliu didn't hit all the hits, he was not far behind, so he quickly learned from the scriptures and said, "How did Mr. Song deal with it?"

Song Jian said with a smile: "You don't need to deal with it specially, just follow them, take less care of them, and let them go outside for a few rounds. It's right and wrong, these children know the importance, and they can't touch it. What a big mess, it’s not a bad thing to polish it outside. After a year or two, it will be fine.”

"It will be fine in a year or two..." Guan Jingxuan nodded thoughtfully.

After the meal, Song Jian went back to the inn first, and Guan Jingxuan took Shen Ziliu for a walk along the small river outside the town.

When I was eating, I was so dizzy and had no time to be distracted by the heat. At this time, I was blown by the evening wind, my mind cleared up, and I was alone with Guan Jingxuan. Shen Ziliu suddenly felt a little cramped, and he walked more and more slowly. a lot.

Sensing that his apprentice was getting farther and farther away from him, Guan Jingxuan stopped and looked back at Shen Ziliu in puzzlement: "Xiaoliu?"

Shen Ziliu stopped almost at the same time as Guan Jingxuan stopped, with a dejected look on his face, he did not dare to look at Guan Jingxuan with his head down.

The more Shen Ziliu thought about what happened in the afternoon, the more annoyed he became.He didn't know what happened to him at the time, those words that should never have been said almost blurted out without thinking, and after coming out of Guan Jingxuan's room, he felt a little scared, but at the same time he was a little thankful—fortunately, he never said something irreparable, Never made a more transgressive move.Seeing that Guan Jingxuan didn't think of anything other than being shocked by his words and deeds, and instead comforted him, Shen Ziliu felt more and more irritable and unwilling.He couldn't tell whether he wanted Guan Jingxuan to know, or he didn't want him to know.

Seeing Shen Ziliu's tangled expression, Guan Jingxuan sighed and turned back, sitting on the ground beside Shen Ziliu.

Shen Ziliu stretched out his hand reflexively to pull him: "Master, the grass is already covered with dew, don't sit down..."

When Shen Ziliu was hesitating to withdraw his hand, Guan Jingxuan grabbed his hand and pulled Shen Ziliu down with a little force.

"It's okay. Xiaoliu sits too, let's chat."

Shen Ziliu swallowed with difficulty, and paused for a moment before he sat upright on his knees, but his eyes dodged and he didn't dare to look directly at Guan Jingxuan, and his heart pounded.

Guan Jingxuan sighed again, and said helplessly, "Xiao Liu, is being a teacher so terrible?"

Shen Ziliu immediately retorted: "Of course not—"

Glancing at Guan Jingxuan, he lowered his head in frustration again: "It's my disciple who feels ashamed."

Although Song Jian said that it is normal for children of this age to have mood swings, and it will be fine to let it go for two years, but seeing Shen Ziliu like this, Guan Jingxuan still feels a little distressed, and always feels that as a master, he should do something right.

"Liu, don't embarrass yourself."

Guan Jingxuan's soft voice was like his flute, it seemed to have healing power, which relieved Shen Ziliu's mixed and contradictory emotions a little.

"You know, I confiscated apprentices as a master before you. In Qinghui Palace, being a master was more willful than you, and the master and brothers all let me mess around. In the words of your uncle Sun, being a master is more self-willed than you. It’s good to be able to take care of yourself, how dare you teach others. So even though I accepted you as an apprentice, I don’t know how to be a good teacher. In terms of talent, being a teacher is not as good as you, and in terms of practicing as a teacher, it’s nothing Good role model. So before I was a teacher, I often thought, how can I be a teacher?"

Shen Ziliu looked at Guan Jingxuan, and said anxiously, "No, Master is fine—"

Guan Jingxuan stretched out her index finger and pressed Shen Ziliu's lips, shaking her head and chuckling.Shen Ziliu suddenly became hoarse, the warmth from another person's fingers on his lips made him a little dazed.

"But later we experienced a lot together, and as a teacher, we gradually understood that the fate of master and apprentice is not only about preaching and receiving karma, nor is it just the so-called support and guidance of the weak by the strong, but more importantly, the fetters established between the master and the disciple. .Being a teacher is my first time as a master. Many times I don’t know what to do, when to care about my apprentice, and when to enlighten my apprentice. What to say, and what to say will make my apprentice sad—”

"For example, in the past, as a teacher, I always thought that I was thinking of you, and asked you to transfer to other people's sect several times, but never considered your feelings."

Shen Ziliu's eyes were red again as he listened.

Guan Jingxuan smiled gently, and said: "This matter is wrong for my teacher. If I reflect on it as a teacher, I won't be entangled for a long time. Just like what happened today, people are not grass and trees. Sometimes it is normal to be unable to control emotions. As a teacher, I also know that you are not There is no malice, so Xiaoliu doesn't have to dig into the horns anymore, he has to look forward."

Finally hearing that Guan Jingxuan made a big circle to explain himself, Shen Ziliu's heart ached, guilt was unbearable, and tears fell out of disappointment.

Guan Jingxuan wiped it off for him, dumbfounded, and said, "Why are you crying again? After Xiaoliu behaves like this, be careful not to be rejected by other female cultivators and not find a Taoist companion."

Guan Jingxuan was originally just a joke to amuse the apprentice, but Shen Ziliu said seriously: "The disciple didn't intend to find any female cultivator as a Taoist companion."

Guan Jingxuan smiled, just thinking that his apprentice Qingdou said childish things.When Shen Ziliu's mood calmed down a bit, Guan Jingxuan continued: "After listening to Xiaoliu's words today, I also thought a lot about my teacher."

Shen Ziliu's heart suddenly rose again, Guan Jingxuan couldn't help laughing when he saw that he was facing an enemy, squeezed Shen Ziliu's bitter face, and said: "Silly boy, what are you thinking about? Teacher I want to say, after listening to Xiaoliu's words, as a teacher, I realized that there are some things that I should tell you."

"For me, Xiaoliu is unique, a very special person."

Shen Ziliu suddenly opened his eyes wide.

Guan Jingxuan raised his hand to straighten Shen Ziliu's hair that was blown by the wind, and then said: "It is impossible for a person to live in the world completely alone. Mr. Ye and Mr. Song are acquaintances who met by chance, and Xifeng is a teacher's best friend. , Shangzun Fengzheng and Shangzun Yumo are senior brothers who are teachers, Shangzun Qiyu is an old friend, Master Lingshan... well, Master Lingshan is probably also a friend, but they are different from Xiaoliu. You He is the first apprentice of the teacher, and like the family members of the teacher, he is someone who is willing to help and protect the teacher as much as possible. Xiaoliu has lived with the teacher for these years. You should know that being a teacher is actually a bit cold. I am a loving person, but my teacher will care about your troubles and sorrows and joys, and worry about your safety. Speaking of selfishness, although Zi Lan is also worshiping under my sect now, Xiaoliu is far more important in my teacher's heart. It's more important than him. Does Xiaoliu understand what my teacher said?"

Shen Ziliu trembled slightly, and the tears that had just been put away were about to burst again: "Master, I..."

Seeing that his apprentice was about to cry again, Guan Jingxuan sighed and reached out to hug Shen Ziliu into his arms.

Guan Jingxuan knew what Shen Ziliu had experienced since he was a child, and also knew that this child had always felt insecure, but he didn't expect that his momentary neglect would make him so entangled, and he couldn't help but blame himself when he realized it.

"Okay, okay." Guan Jingxuan smoothed Shun Shen's hair from the back of his head, and softly comforted him: "Let this matter pass, Xiaoliu is not allowed to be horny anymore. I am a bit slow as a teacher when it comes to interacting with people. But from now on, Master will care more about Xiaoliu, and tell Master if Xiaoliu has any troubles, okay?"

Shen Ziliu hugged Guan Jingxuan's waist tightly, buried his head in the hollow of his shoulder, and wept silently.

He said he was unique, a very special person.

He said he was someone he wanted to help and protect in any way he could.

He said he was different from them.

Be content, be content, be content.

Don't let your ugly jealousy break the balance you've been trying to maintain, and don't let your dirty desires break that person's tenderness and trust.

Be content.

At least for now, the only one by his side is me.

"Master, I'm sorry."

Shen Ziliu tightened his arms, and melted all the feelings he couldn't express into this hug.

"sorry."