amateur stand-in

Gu An was stunned for a moment, and suddenly a strange feeling came to his heart. He asked Li Zeqi, "What do you mean by that?"

Li Zeqi thought for a while, and answered him, "Gu Anshen, I just figured it out. We have been together for two years, and you have never treated me. I only refer to Li Zeqi. You haven't said a word of liking to me, you Just let me not leave you, don't want you, then I think I should be just a tool for you to help you cure your illness."

"It's not like, nor is it love." Li Zeqi pursed his lips and said, "I admit that I am a cheap person. You used me as a substitute before, and I made all kinds of troubles with you because I like you. Later, I Finally decided to let go, you keep pestering me again, and being pestered makes me feel soft again..."

He obviously didn't want to cry, and obviously felt that he could talk about it peacefully.

But Li Zeqi's eyes were still sore.

The good mood I pretended just now disappeared with the remark, "I think, maybe I still can't let you go, that's why I agreed to be with you, take care of you, and help you heal your illness. A few words of kindness from you, a few actions make my mood go up and down...

He fiddled with his fingers, lowered his head and said, "Maybe our relationship was unequal from the beginning, you are the kind of person who is superior, even when you are humble and beg for help, you can still control the mood of the weak like us. You have been in control for two years, and during this time you wanted to escape, but it turned out that you couldn't escape, not only because of your coercive behavior, maybe from the very beginning, deep down in my heart, I didn't want to run away, and I made such a fuss because I knew you would catch me. I come back……"

He said, "You know everything, right? I know that you and Dr. Wen talked on the phone, so you should know about my family. I hope you can take me to see them after we ease the relationship. It’s good to see it from the ground, so I can feel at ease.”

After finishing all the words that were kept in his heart, Li Zeqi heaved a sigh of relief, and said to Gu Anshen, "Okay, you can continue to eat, and I will clean up the bedroom."

Gu Anshen just watched Li Zeqi get up and leave, his thin back gradually disappearing from sight.

He opened his mouth, wanting to say something, but in the end there was no sound.

The bedroom door was closed, and Gu Anshen sat alone at the dining table for a long time.

He wants to say I like you.

But can't say it.

Maybe Li Zeqi was right, his emotions and impulses came too quickly, and he was still plagued by these diseases, so he couldn't make the other party trust him no matter what he said.

He couldn't even make any promises.

He could vaguely feel Li Zeqi's liking for him, that's why he was so confident. He enjoyed the other party's kindness to him, but he never thought about how to give Li Zeqi a sense of security.

Being sick was not an excuse for him to mess around, as he should have known.

Even two people who like each other can't let one party keep accommodating the other forever.

Gu An thought, Li Zeqi's words finally woke him up.

He used to resist seeing a doctor, but now he feels that he needs to work together with Li Zeqi to treat these diseases.

On the day when he is cured, he and Li choose to start again, and on the day when he can say that I like you, maybe they can really be together.

Three days later, Gu Anshen took Li Zeqi to meet his family. In a small town under N City, Li Zeqi's father, mother and brother lived in a bungalow. The trellis is full of green vegetables.

His older sister is studying in a university in the city. Unlike him, her older sister is very good at studying and has been admitted to graduate school, which is very good.

His younger brother is more naughty. He has already entered junior high school, but he is as ignorant as he is, and he is the focus of the teacher's headache.

Li Zeqi stood outside the yard, looking at the middle-aged man lying on the rocking chair in the yard with a smile on his lips, very comfortable.

And his mother was watering the vegetables with a hose, bending over slightly, chatting with his father from time to time.

"Aren't you going to say a few words?" Gu Anshen saw him staring at him for a long time, and wondered why Li Zeqi didn't go in to meet him.

Li Zeqi was woken up by him, he let out an ah, but shook his head and said, "No."

He said, "I begged Dr. Wen before, hoping that he would allow me to meet my family, but now that I have actually seen it, I think it's good just to look at it like this.

"I was trafficked not long after I was born, and now I am a complete stranger to them. They live well, and there is no need for me to bother them."

He said, "When I work in the future, I will send them money regularly, as a repayment for their kindness to my childbirth. For the rest, forget it."

After speaking, he looked up at Gu Anshen and suddenly smiled.

He turned around and walked back, saying as he walked, "Gu Anshen, I suddenly found that my feelings for you are deeper than my feelings for my parents. It was you who picked me up and gave me a home. Not rare, but for me, that is my home.

He laughed at himself, "Probably that's why I keep being mean to you."