amateur stand-in

When Gu Anshen took Li Zeji back to the living room, the food was already cold.

After such a long meal, it was only eleven o'clock in the evening.

But for Li Zeqi, these few hours made him see through his own position.

Just like what Gu Anshen said, the other party doesn't need his liking, and he can't afford to waste his feelings on a man. If you take your heart back earlier, it will save you a lot of pain.

Gu Anshen glanced at Li Zeqi, "Heat up the food, let's eat first."

Li Zeqi sneered, but still turned around to heat up the food.

After the two of them had finished eating, Gu Anshen went to the bedroom, took out several medicine bottles with different labels, a total of three medicines, poured them on his hands, and returned to the living room after eating.

Li Zeqi had already cleaned up the kitchen, and sat on a chair at the dining table. Gu Anshen looked at him. His gaze paused for a while on the bruise on the young man's neck, and then he turned and went to the room that was arranged as a ward. Li took out an ice pack and walked in front of Li Zeqi.

"Come here, I'll give you an ice compress." He opened the chair and sat down, holding an ice pack in his hand, and was about to stick it on Li Zeqi's neck.

Li Zeqi frowned because of his actions, he blocked the ice pack, "No need."

He doesn't use this false concern.

And the person sitting in front of him is the chief culprit who caused him harm, so why bother to show hypocritical tenderness to him now.

"I didn't mean to hurt you."

Gu Anshen withdrew his hand, put the ice pack on the table, looked at Li Zeqi, his cold hand held Li Zeqi's hand, as if absorbing warmth.

"I'm just very angry, angry that you are with Liang Yuming, angry that you don't listen to me."

"Why are you angry?" Li Zeqi suddenly thought of something, he asked, "Are you jealous of the senior?"

Gu An was slightly taken aback.

"If all you want is a puppet like Shen Yu, then I ask myself that I have done what I should have done some time ago, why are you still so angry because of my private contact with seniors? After observing us for so long, you You should know that I have always been myself in front of my seniors, being Li Zeqi. Don’t you want me like that? Don’t you hate me for not pretending to be Shen Yu? So, why are you jealous?”

Li Zeqi sneered and asked him, "Gu Anshen, it is Li Zeqi who likes to be with Liang Yuming, not your Shen Yu who wants to be with Liang Yuming, so what right do you have to be jealous?"

After he finished speaking, the living room fell into silence again.

Gu Anshen stared at him blankly for a long time, then his face sank.

"You got caught in my heart, so you don't talk?" Li Zeqi laughed, but the smile was full of sarcasm, and he said to Gu Anshen, "Gu Anshen, I suddenly started to sympathize with you, you said you don't need me I like you, but you ask me to only look at you, and I only have you in my heart, but you don't know that your request is the most basic condition for liking."

The young man put his hand on Gu Anshen's wrist and pulled it off forcefully, he said.

"On the surface, you dismissed my liking, tortured me and punished me again and again, but in fact, you are always angry, jealous, and begging me to like you."

Li Zeqi seemed to understand everything at once.

"How ridiculous. Now I finally understand your heart and understand the reason for your actions. However, I don't have the energy to play this kind of game with you anymore."

He came to a conclusion about Gu An, "From now on, I promise I will never like you again."

Pointing to his heart, Li Zeqi swore, "This heart will never leave any room for you, Gu Anshen."

After saying this, Li Zeqi stood up, "I will sleep in the guest room tonight, so you should go to bed early too, good night."

His wrist was pulled, Li Zeqi turned his head, and saw Gu Anshen looking at him, panic and confusion that he had never seen before flashed in his dark eyes.

Li Zeqi asked him, "Is there anything else?"

Gu Anshen woke up suddenly and let go.

"No."

After Li Zeji left, Gu Anshen sat on the chair and did not move for a long time.

He actually wanted to stop Li Zeqi, telling him that your guesses are groundless and unrealistic, that your behavior is nothing like Shen Yu's, he will follow me, he will listen to me, you I don't care about what you said, because I don't need your likes, those feelings don't need to exist, I just want you to be Shen Yu, stay by my side, and accompany me for the rest of my life.

But when he grabbed the opponent's hand just now and was stared at by those indifferent eyes, he felt timid for the first time.

Such a boy felt strange to him.

What he wanted was not Li Zeqi like this.

wrong……

What he wants is Shen Yu, what does it have to do with Li Zeqi...

What does it have to do with Li Zeqi...

He had just taken the medicine, but his head hurt like it was going to burst. Gu Anshen stood up, but fell to the ground due to the severe pain.

He hugged his head and curled up on the ground, and there were many noises in his head.

"This bitch looks really good-looking, let the brothers have a good time first!"

"Let go of her! You bastards!!"

"Fuck! How dare you bite me! See if I don't beat you to death!"

"Don't hit him! Don't hit him, let me do anything, please don't hurt him! Please..."

Women's cries and begging for mercy filled the dirty and damp cabin, and the boy with a bruised nose and swollen face was tied to a pillar, watching his biological mother being abused by men in order to protect himself.

I want to die, I really want to die...

Why did he survive...

why live...

The overwhelming sense of guilt overwhelmed the young Gu Anshen, and his heart seemed to be sealed in that small cabin, and he died with his mother.

Without Shen Yu, he might never be able to get out of that shadow.

To him, Shen Yu was the beam of light shining into the cabin. Without the light, a person would surely die after a long time.

That's why he kept holding on to Shen Yu and never letting go, and that's why he was so demanding on Li Zeqi.

But, in fact, with the passage of time, when he recalled Shen Yu, the only thing he remembered most clearly was that gentle child's angelic smile.

Is this like it?

It seems... not like...

But to Li Selected, to Li Selected, to Li Selected...

"Gu Anshen, I dare not like you anymore."

"From now on, I promise I will never like you again."

"This heart will never leave a place for you, Gu Anshen."

It hurts.

My head hurts.

Gu An shivered from the pain, curled up on the cold ground, but cold sweat broke out on his forehead, his lips turned white from being bitten by himself, and he let go, trying to adjust his breathing, but it still couldn't work.

His eyes began to blur, and noises and hallucinations appeared at the same time. He hugged the chair beside him with his hands, and bumped his head hard, and blood came out after a few bumps.

Li Zeqi was startled when he saw Gu Anshen like this when he heard the movement. He hurried over and hugged Gu Anshen to stop the man's self-harm.

"What are you doing? What's wrong with you!" Li Zeqi yelled while pulling Gu Anshen's arm, not daring to touch the wound on his forehead.

This hug from Li Zeqi made Gu Anshen's nerves relax suddenly, and the noise seemed to be less.

A sense of dizziness struck, and Gu Anshen finally passed out.