Classmate, your pants are fading?

Wu Kaiming told Qi Heng that the location was a park not far from the school.But the park is very small and there are no sports facilities. There is a larger central park with complete facilities 10 minutes away from here, which attracts a large number of citizens, so not many people come here.

Qi Heng walked around in a panic in the small park twice before he found Wu Kaiming sitting on a bench with his head bowed.He held a beer can in his hand, and there were empty bottles lying crookedly beside him.

"Brother Ming?" Qi Heng walked over slowly, as if speaking louder would scare him away.

Wu Kaiming shook his shoulder, then raised his head.The figure reflected in his eyes gave him indescribable peace of mind.

"Xiao Heng..." He tried his best to move the muscles at the corners of his mouth, but in Qi Heng's eyes, that expression didn't look like a smile at all.

Qi Heng walked over a few steps and squatted in front of him, covering his knees with his hands: "What's wrong, Brother Ming? What happened?"

"I..." Wu Kaiming rubbed Qi Heng's fair cheeks with his fingertips, "You...can't be like me...be strong...brave...resolute...honest..."

"En." Although Qi Heng didn't understand what he meant, he still complied.

Wu Kaiming was very confused.He seldom drinks alcohol, and even refuses on the pretext of allergies.But today he felt that he should drink it, it was worth drinking, even if his stomach was perforated.

A few days ago his ex-boyfriend came to him to get back together.

The two secretly dated from high school to college graduation.But because the family knew about it, he couldn't resist his family's opposition and finally gave in, breaking up with Wu Kaiming.

After two years of unexamined life, Wu Kaiming finally agreed to the introduction of his parents who didn't know his sexuality, and married a woman.

For a period of time after marriage, he was more entangled than before marriage.

On the one hand, he felt that he should give up struggling and treat this woman well.Her own misfortune is already doomed, at least she must be happy.

On the other hand, he was very unwilling and didn't understand what he did wrong to be punished like this.

Confused about life, he stepped into a pornographic place for the first time in his life, and that's where he met Qi Heng.

The first time he saw Qi Heng, he was taken aback.The child has beautiful eyes, just like that man.These eyes are always bright, full of curiosity, anticipation and hope for everything around them, but they really don't match the place where the child is.

Wu Kaiming remembers that once upon a time he was so clear and pure, and felt that his future must be full of hope and sunshine.There are people you love, things you like to do, and a warm haven.

And now, I didn't get what I expected.

But Qi Heng still has a chance.Wu Kaiming wanted him to get what he didn't get, everything.

He raised Qi Heng with enthusiasm and gave everything he could.And Qi Heng is also very sensible, he will never make trouble unreasonably, nor will he ask for excessive things.He never asked for anything like a mobile phone, Wu Kaiming gave it to him on his own initiative.The things Qi Heng wants are always simple, which makes Wu Kaiming feel distressed: the broken ruler was wrapped with tape and used for several months, but the teacher said that the line was not straight, so he wanted a new ruler; He didn't know it was lost, so he wanted new schoolbags and textbooks... Besides, what he wanted the most were all kinds of painting supplies, but the requirements were not high, as long as the color was what he liked. It will be all right.

Just when Wu Kaiming wanted to formally propose to his wife to adopt Qi Heng, he learned that his wife was pregnant.

Because he was physically unable to have sex with a woman, the child was conceived through test tubes.

This is the third time his wife has done it, because Wu Kaiming decided that he would not have his own children because of the failure of the first two times, and he was a little lucky.Unexpectedly, things are always unsatisfactory.The matter of adopting Qi Heng had to be done.

During his wife's pregnancy, he felt no joy at all. Looking at her growing belly, he once pretended to work overtime, asked for a business trip, and even secretly went to the toilet to vomit.He felt that he was so pathetic and hateful.A man who seems to others to have a successful career and a happy family actually has to do a lot of mental construction before he goes home every day before he dares to step into the house.

During these ten months, he wanted to tell his wife and his parents the truth countless times.But every time he saw everyone's expectant eyes and heard those hopeful words, he retreated again and again.

He waited in fear for the birth of the child.He was very afraid, afraid that he would hate this little life, that he would not be able to accept him as a continuation of his life, that he would not be able to be a good husband or father, and that the child would become another reason for him to escape this marriage.

However, as if the world did not abandon him, this child not only did not become the last straw that broke the camel's back, but became the angel who saved him.

When he saw his daughter for the first time, he cried. Others thought it was the joy of being a father for the first time, but only he knew that it was release and relief.He is glad that he loves this child, no matter how she came into this world, she is also his hope and motivation.It is both a pressure and a hindrance.

Wu Kaiming felt that if his future life was to maintain the superficial harmony of the family, he really couldn't do it, but if it was for the little guy in his arms who didn't even open his eyes, he was willing to try.

And a week after the baby was born, a piece of news almost broke him.

The Marriage Law was amended to legalize same-sex marriage.

I have struggled for so long, sacrificed so much, and endured all of this, and now it suddenly seems so meaningless.

Wu Kaiming stayed in the hotel for a week on the pretext of a business trip, and then lived in the house he rented to Qi Heng for another week.In the past 14 days, his finger has swipe a name on the phone countless times.After the breakup, Wu Kaiming did not delete his number, and the other party would send blessings like group text messages during New Years and holidays.

Wu Kaiming himself couldn't explain why he still kept his number.Maybe it's an expectation, maybe it's just a commemoration.

Two weeks later, his wife called to say that the child was sick and told him to rush to the hospital, so he spent a few days in the hospital in embarrassment.

After half a month of tossing, he let it go. Although he hasn't figured it out yet, he decided to let it go.

Forget it in this life.

At least there is Xiaoheng, his daughter, his wife and parents.I am not nothing.

So he did the job that he didn't love but made a lot of money step by step, and treated his wife like a relative.She is a good woman.There has never been any complaints about Wu Kaiming's inability to be a husband and wife.This made Wu Kaiming very grateful, and tried his best to meet all her requests.

After all these years of peaceful life, when he had adapted, the man came back.

Wu Kaiming is entangled, and he hates it.

He hated why this man still pestered him.He hated why he hadn't come sooner, before he had so much to let go of.He hated himself, why after so many years, he still couldn't help but fall in love with him.

So today he finally couldn't bear to tell his closest mother what was on his mind, watching his mother cry into tears, talking about committing crimes one after another.He woke up slowly.

That person was always a dream to him, a dream he always wanted to grasp but couldn't grasp no matter what.

After comforting his mother, he walked on the street and suddenly felt that he had nothing.He went into the supermarket and bought every beer on the shelf.He doesn't drink baijiu, because the day he met him, he was drunk because of drinking baijiu.

He subconsciously walked around Qi Heng School, and drank alone in the park for several hours.I don't know if it was because he was drunk, but he suddenly wanted that child whose eyes looked like his.So he called Qi Heng.