Frontier of rebirth

The first time I saw her was in a winter. There was a famine that year, and many refugees flooded into the capital, as if they could eat and clothe themselves here, which is a bit ridiculous.

At the beginning, I was attracted by her eyes, so desperate and so strong, people can't help caring but can't help destroying.So I decided to save her first.

She looked at me stupidly walking towards her, with a confused look on her face, as if she couldn't figure out why someone would be willing to save such an insignificant person like her.I smiled and touched her head, and told her in the softest tone: "Don't be afraid."

Only then did she come to her senses, hugged me, and burst into tears, snot, tears, dust and blood all over my body.I frowned, I seldom acted so close to others, let alone no one dared to do this in front of me.But I still held back and didn't push her away. Since I was pretending to be a good person, I just pretended to be the end, besides, the clothes were already dirty.

After crying for a while, she raised her head belatedly, looked at the clothes she had messed up, and looked at me timidly. I was almost amused by this cautious expression.

She also seemed to see my smile, so she didn't seem so scared, and even showed a small smile.What a lovely child!I've met all kinds of children, but never one as special as her, so it's not for nothing that I chose to save her.

Just as I expected, a little mention was all it takes for her to stay and stay and do anything for me.After all, I was the child's savior.

She's a quick learner and does a lot of things well, better than I expected, especially when it comes to things like killing people.Maybe it's related to experience, she always puts on a posture of dying together, and sometimes I even suspect that she is deliberately seeking death.

I am always watching her little bit of growth with great interest, and sometimes even I can't tell whether I am making her or destroying her.But it's not important in itself, the most interesting part of it is actually seeing her grow according to my ideas, as for other people's results, I have never paid attention to it.

But there are always more important things waiting for me than her, such as things about Mei.

I have always known that the Shu family has a big secret, even if all the insiders keep it secret, I can still find some clues.Thinking about it many years later, I can only laugh at my own ignorance and conceit.The reason why secrets can become secrets is that secrets buried in this kind of deep house and compound will never be discovered easily.But at the time, I never thought that someone would lead me to discover it.

I was indeed used by the charm, which I only found out when I couldn't look back, but that's all for later.

I thought that I had completely avoided everyone's eyes and ears by virtue of my own ability, and then found Mei.I made a deal with it, and at that time it must have calculated my thoughts correctly, no matter what price it offered, I would definitely accept it.

The next thing was much simpler, I helped it do many things that it was inconvenient to do, and she also contributed a lot in this regard, but she was unaware of all this.I didn't want her to get involved, but sometimes it's hard to find quiet people, and she's always been good at that.

I've noticed the look in her eyes, nothing but me.So I know she will never betray me, she has nothing but me, and I'm her only connection to this world.

Everything is bound to happen, but I did not expect to make mistakes.Someone knew of its existence and wanted to eradicate her.I just want to share the joys and sorrows with it, but I don't intend to share the sorrows.But something wasn't going my way, and I was so connected to it that I couldn't get out of it now.

I vaguely knew that the current scene was intentional by Mei.Even the clues found by the woman who came to investigate were all released by Mei on purpose.

When I found out, I asked it why it took the risk, but it just told me it had its own measure.I chose to believe it, at least it never lied to me before.In the end, I didn't understand why I believed it at the time. Maybe I saw the woman fall into its trap step by step without knowing it, but I never thought that I would be the same as that woman in Mei's eyes. no difference.

Afterwards, the situation began to take a turn for the worse, and the Shu family began to plummet, even to the point of ransacking the house.

Shu Zhiyuan couldn't sit still any longer, so he hurried to find Mei, and then he never returned.

I understand that it has nothing to count on, maybe as it said, everything is under its control, but there is no Shu family in its plan.

I scolded myself in my heart, I should have thought of this, I should have understood that the only thing it cares about is itself after dealing with it for so many years.In its plan, the Shu family is just an important and useful pawn, but it can be discarded at any time at critical moments.Mei looks at the Shu family the same way I look at her.

Mei finally abandoned the Shu family, and I finally abandoned her.I held her back with my own hands, watched her grow into what I wanted step by step, and then watched her die, pushing her to death with my own hands.

I finally saw resentment in her eyes, I finally saw resentment in her eyes.I couldn't help laughing, and in the end she finally understood that she should hate me.

I've tried countless times to make her realize that she should hate me, but she doesn't seem to notice at all.Sometimes I don't know whether to be happy or sad.

I originally thought that I would be able to escape the disaster by escaping at that time, but I found that I was totally out of tune with this world. Without the influence of the Shu family, I could do nothing. All the things I was proud of were all bound. my shackles.

I was hunted and wanted by the imperial court, and I hid for a period of time, but was finally caught.Everyone firmly believes that I am possessed by a monster and merged with it. As long as I am executed, the monster will not exist in the world.Of course I knew it was a scam, but no one believed me.This is another trick set up by Meiji.

I don't know what Mei is planning, but I know that these people will pay the price for their mistakes today.I looked at these people watching me die, and smiled very slowly. They were puzzled, but I knew that it would not be long before they would all come to accompany me.

The author has something to say:

In fact, I still made up a lot of stories about my previous life, and in the end I only wrote a little bit from Shu Jiaoyan's perspective.They all live in my mind, but the pen is really not strong enough to describe everything one by one, which is a pity.

Finally, I would like to thank all of you who have read here for allowing me to finish writing this story.