Stop flirting, I was offended

Before Ruan Yi had time to react, the figure turned around.

Lu Bingchen's Adam's apple rolled up and down, and said softly, "You are back."

Not seeing each other for half a year, Lu Bingchen lost a lot of weight, especially looking extremely haggard.When his eyes were raised, the emotions that were so deep that they couldn't be resolved could almost turn into substance, piercing the air that separated them.

Ruan Yi paused, "What are you doing here?"

Lu Bingchen stared at him without blinking his dark eyes, and said in a low voice, "Let's go in and talk."

"No." Ruan Yi subconsciously refused, "I have made it very clear before. If you have something to say, just say it, and if you have nothing to do, go."

Lu Bingchen's eyes became wet in an instant.Ruan Yi didn't expect that such a simple sentence would cause Lu Bingchen to have such a reaction, and he froze for a while.Then he saw Lu Bingchen trembling slightly, pulled out his right hand that had been stuck in his pocket, and stretched it out in front of him.

That hand was covered with dried or wet bloodstains, scars everywhere, broken glass stuck in the flesh, it was shocking.

Ruan Yi was startled suddenly.

Lu Bingchen moved his mouth, tears suddenly fell down, "Ruan Yi, I'm in so much pain."

"What's going on?" Ruan Yi grabbed his other intact arm, "I'll take you to the hospital."

Lu Bingchen lowered his head, shook his head stubbornly, and did not speak.Ruan Yi only saw big tears falling from his eyelashes.Lu Bingchen was like a child who had suffered all kinds of grievances, with endless sorrow in his tears, standing at the door of his house without saying a word, refusing to move no matter what.

Those tears seemed to wet Ruan Yi's heart.

He suppressed the trembling of his fingertips, took out the key, and turned the door lock, "Come in and deal with it."

There is a medicine box at home, which was prepared by the second aunt for him when he rented the house.Ruan Yi found it and put it in front of Lu Bingchen, "Can you do it yourself?"

Lu Bingchen nodded, and unscrewed the cap of the medical iodophor.He is left-handed and very clumsy, and he twisted it a few times before he could unscrew it.Ruan Yi couldn't stand it anymore, and quickly sterilized the tweezers and handed them to him.

Lu Bingchen took the tweezers and pinched out the glass slag embedded in the meat.He acted so exaggeratedly outside the door just now, but now when he entered the door, he was too quiet, as if he didn't feel any pain at all. Pieces of broken glass stained red by blood fell on the gauze, and blood gushed out. , but his face didn't even change at all.

Ruan Yi couldn't help asking, "What's going on?"

Lu Bingchen's tone seemed to be talking about something ordinary, "My brother locked me up. I broke the glass and ran out."

Ruan Yi looked at his bloody hand and clenched his fingers, "What are you messing around with?"

"It's not nonsense, I really want to see you." Lu Bingchen smiled lightly, "Really. Actually, after my brother took me back, I didn't plan to run away. If he wants to lock me up, he can lock me up. It’s time to live, sooner or later.”

As he spoke, he poured povidone iodine into his hand without changing his expression.Large pieces of broken glass have been picked out, but there are still small glass shards, which can only be dipped out as much as possible from the opened flesh with a cotton swab.

Ruan Yi's eyes hurt from seeing it, and he said sharply, "Then what are you doing?"

Lu Bingchen's long eyelashes trembled, and he said hoarsely, "I can't help it."

He really couldn't help it.He thought he could hold back.After being brought back to Yanshan, he was kept quietly in the ancestral house, neither resisting nor compromising.Because he knew that only by winning this tug-of-war with his brother, could his brother truly accept Ruan Yi's existence.

In the six months since he was separated from Ruan Yi, there was not a day when he didn't miss him, and he couldn't wait to rush to Ruan Yi in the next second.

But he endured it, no matter how hard he thought, he gritted his teeth and endured it.He let his brother cut off all communication with the outside world, suppressing the emptiness that seemed to be suddenly empty, and the torment of not being able to hear any news related to Ruan Yi

"I always thought that as long as I persisted, my brother would gradually soften. By then, there would be no barriers between us in my family. But I didn't expect that"

Lu Bingchen put his hand between his eyebrows, "A few days ago, my brother told me about your situation in the past six months."

The information Lu Yi gave him was very simple. It contained the results of Ruan Yi's exams in the past six months.Not only the monthly exams and mid-term and final exams, but also the scores of the weekly exams and quizzes were recorded.

That's a really nice report card.

In the six months since he left, Ruan Yi's grades have not slipped at all, not even ups and downs, but just like an arrow soaring into the sky, flying upwards at an incredible speed.

The upward broken lines on the inside and outside were really like arrows, piercing straight into the bottom of his heart.

Lu Bingchen's expression was distorted in pain for a moment, "Do you know what my brother said? He threw the information in front of me and asked me, you are going to die or live for a person who doesn't have you in your heart, are you ashamed to lose it?" "

Ruan Yi met his eyes.At that moment, he experienced the long-lost feeling, as if his throat was choked and he couldn't even breathe.

He chuckled "Oh, so you're here to trouble me"

it is ridiculous.

Lu Bingchen shook his head, "No."

In fact, Ruan Yi's grades were not affected at all, but what really made him unacceptable was that he realized that if he disappeared from Ruan Yi's life, Ruan Yi would really let him go.It's just been half a year since I've seen him, and Ruan Yi is already trying to erase the traces of him in his heart.If things go on like this, one day, Ruan Yi will completely pull out all the roots connected with their past from his heart, and then the wound will heal, love and hatred will subside, and he will come out and live a comfortable and happy life. But in that life, there will be no He, Lu Bingchen, has a little place.

Lu Bingchen knew Ruan Yi too well.This person looks gentle on the outside, but is actually determined on the inside.

For a moment, his heart ached almost out of control, as if he had been hacked into pieces.

He clenched his teeth, tasted blood from his lips, "You don't want me anymore, you still want to forget me, don't you?"

Ruan Yi looked into his blood red eyes, "Yes."

"No"

Lu Bingchen's pupils constricted and his lips trembled, "No, I won't allow it"

Ruan Yi gently closed his eyes, "It has nothing to do with whether you agree or not."

He suddenly felt that his these two lives were like living in a dream.In this dream, he was searching hard for a treasure. He thought it was real, but it was hard to get.So he tried his best to fight for it, but in the end he was covered in bruises and got nothing.

Then, he finally woke up from the dream, and he also wanted to understand, how could there be anything real in the utterly empty dream

But when he woke up from the dream, the treasure that he wanted so much but didn't get, suddenly appeared in his palm.

It seems that he got it, but after experiencing everything before, how can he believe that this thing will be real?

What's more, now, he no longer wants to spend that effort to distinguish between true and false.Too late, too late if it were true.It was so late that he could no longer feel the joy, and he no longer had any expectations.

Ruan Yi said softly, "Lu Bingchen, there is indeed something that we didn't make clear before. In the last period of my last life, I didn't bother to say anything, and then there was an accident, and I didn't have the chance to say anything. After I was reborn, I didn't know you at first. I also remember what happened in my previous life, so I never thought of telling you about it, and then Ruan Yinong and your brother came, and you were taken back to Yanshan. It just so happened, now is an opportunity."

"You told me before that you didn't play with me like that to get revenge on Ruan Yinong. Then let me ask you, what kind of feelings did you have for me in your previous life when I was still alive?"

"At that time, you probably never intended to be serious with me. So you went abroad halfway through high school. After we got back together, you never admitted or accepted our relationship from the bottom of your heart. Yes no"

Lu Bingchen lowered his head, regretful in his heart, "I'm sorry."

Ruan Yi shook his head, "I didn't say this to ask for your apology. An apology is useless to me. I just want you to know that you can't say that you have no feelings for me, but that is definitely not love. Maybe I wholeheartedly I love you, treat you well, and you are touched; maybe my death made you feel guilty; maybe you have been used to having everything since you were a child, and you can’t accept the possessive desire that you can’t get anymore.”

Anything is possible except love.

To be honest, he has always doubted whether Lu Bingchen knows what love is.When he loved Lu Bingchen before, Lu Bingchen didn't take it to heart at all; now that he sees it clearly and quit, Lu Bingchen insists on chasing after him.what is this

Ruan Yi suddenly felt very ridiculous.He and Lu Bingchen were like two people taking turns dreaming.

Just as he woke up, he dreamed of Nanke again.

It took him his whole life, one life, to wake up from the dream.It shouldn't take so long for Lu Bingchen.How ruthless this man is, no one can experience it more deeply than him.Ruan Yi could foresee what Lu Bingchen would look like when he woke up.

He really didn't want to mess around like this anymore.

"What your brother told you is actually quite right. The two of us have never been together, and there will be no chance of contact in the future. Since I have come back to this life again, I will let go of those things before. Lu Bingchen, you Don't be too horny anymore."

When Ruan Yi spoke, it felt as if he was pulling out the silk thread that sutured the wound from the newly grown flesh. The pain was not to say how intense it was, but it was like a never-ending pain, grinding the innermost part of the person. Vulnerable places.

Lu Bingchen reached out and grabbed Ruan Yi's sleeve.He grabbed so hard that he didn't even notice that the wound burst open and the gauze was soaked in blood.

Ruan Yi patted him, "Let go of your hand."

Lu Bingchen slowly let go of his hand.He even wished that this hand would hurt a little more, so that the pain in his heart would not be so unbearable.

"After all, you still don't believe me." His eyes were red, and he said word by word, "I, Lu Bingchen, how could I approach a person because I wanted revenge, how could I be tempted by him because he was kind to me, How could it be possible for him to be inseparable from him because he loves me, how could it be possible to keep him by my side just because he couldn’t stand being rejected by others”

The buzzing in his head almost pierced his skull.Trembling, he pressed his bulging hand on the table, and the bulging muscles in his arm were almost ferocious.

Ruan Yi straightened up and stared at him warily.

Lu Bingchen murmured, "Ruan Yi, are you afraid that I will go crazy? In fact, I am also quite afraid. In front of you, I can't always control myself. The education I have received since I was a child is to be restrained and restrained. , there is nothing in my heart, and nothing is in my mind. Before, no one could find my fault on this."

He choked up and asked, "In my life, all the out-of-control and gaffes were either for you or for you. I'm already like this, I'm already like this, Ruan Yi, don't you believe that I really love you? "

Without any warning, Ruan Yi's heart burst open.

This person who has humiliated him thoroughly, why does he keep saying that he loves him now? It's like slapping him and saying it was for his own good, but it's just the wrong way.That's ridiculous.He felt no comfort at all, only double the irony, double the absurdity, and double the disgust.

He would rather that Lu Bingchen was taking revenge on him from the beginning, and it would be better than this moment, the endless sourness and pain, like a flood that burst a bank, blocked every hole in his body, suffocating his soul as if Dying.

"I don't believe it." He looked at Lu Bingchen coldly, "Look at what you have done, which one is worthy of my belief? I won't talk about those things in your previous life. The situation you designed last time made the Zhang family feel right. I did it. This should be after you found out that you have feelings for me. From the beginning to the end, did you feel that there was something wrong with what you did? Yes, you feel guilty, you regret it. What you regret is that this matter was not fully followed. Your idea developed, and an accident occurred in the middle, which caused me to be injured. But, why do you treat everyone other than you as a toy, a chess piece, design whatever you want, and play with it however you want.”

"Lu Bingchen, I don't care whether you can love someone or not. I don't care whether you can learn how to love others with mutual respect. I have no obligation to teach you, let alone practice with you. I voluntarily messed with you in my previous life. , but it’s impossible in this life. I’ve told you many times, this is the last time,” Ruan Yi said at the end, feeling that he couldn’t even feel his lips.

He pointed at the door, gritted his teeth, and spit out two words "get out"

Lu Bingchen's expression seemed to be stabbed in the chest by someone, and then he took the bloody long knife out of his chest bit by bit.

His face was pale, and after a long while, the corners of his mouth were slightly bent, "Ruan Yi, I calculated all of this so that you can stand firm in the circle in the future. Yes, I knew that the Zhang family would do something to you, but I didn't Stop it. Because I need an excuse to attack the Zhang family. I was going to give you four-fifths of the Zhang family's property as a birthday present. I did. But I haven't waited for me to tell you all this , my brother is coming."

He asked, "Do you know why my brother came over and brought Ruan Yi Nong?"

Ruan Yi stared at him.

Lu Bingchen smiled miserably, "Because the news of my troubles in Yangcheng reached him. In fact, before Ruan Yi Nong appeared in front of you, I didn't even know that you, like me, were born again. In my worst nightmare I never dreamed of this possibility."

"And Ruan Yinong. If possible, I don't want you to know that I have anything to do with her in my life. Because I know, I can't prove it, and I can't convince you of my explanation on this matter."

"But my brother is here. What I don't want to know the most, and what I don't want you to know the most, has all been revealed. Ruan Yi, you said I did something wrong, and I also think I did it wrong. This consequence is for me maximum punishment."

He looked at Ruan Yi, opened and closed his lips again and again, but couldn't even utter a word.

Until the end, like crushing his heart and liver, he squeezed out a sentence from the muddy blood in his chest, "Isn't this enough?"

isn't it enough

It hurts so much.Limbs and bones, internal organs, there is no place where the pain is unbearable.His eyes were blurred, and his heart throbbed like it would suddenly stop beating in the next second.

Suddenly, the doorbell rang.

In the silence of the room, Lu Yi's cold voice came in from outside the door, "Lu Bingchen, open the door."

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