Stop flirting, I was offended

Lu Bingchen couldn't move.

For a moment, he even wished that he was deaf, so that he couldn't hear what Ruan Yi said.

The entire space distorted and collapsed before his eyes.He looked straight at Ruan Yi.Amidst the buzzing that almost tore the eardrums, the brain went blank.

Why didn't he think earlier that Ruan Yi was also reborn?

It's not that he couldn't think of it, but he didn't dare to think about it.

Since his rebirth, Ruan Yi's almost undisguised vigilance and resistance when facing him, no matter how nice he is, he remains unmoved. It's not that he hasn't noticed or doubted all kinds of performances that are diametrically opposed to those in his previous life... …but he dared not think about it.Even when he saw Ruan Yi brushing his teeth with his right hand that day and felt that something was obviously wrong, he only tried it a bit and then stopped, not daring to investigate further.

Because he couldn't bear the result.

He really, couldn't take it.

If Ruan Yi had the same memory as him, what should he do?If Ruan Yi, who was heartbroken by him and died because of him, is the person standing in front of him, how can he get Ruan Yi back to him again?Will Ruan Yi give him a chance to make amends and save him?

He knows Ruan Yi, he knows him too well—so he refuses to think about these issues from the bottom of his heart, refuses to imagine from the bottom of his heart, and the possibility of Ruan Yi being reborn with him.

The two worlds are boundless.

Lu Bingchen seemed to see another world slowly descending from the sky, infinitely overlapping with the world he was standing in.The dazzling white light flooded everything, and the moment it devoured him, there was a sharp pain in his internal organs as thousands of arrows pierced through.

He murmured: "I really like you."

Ruan Yi seemed to have blood in his mouth, and asked word by word: "Do you have a heart too?"

Lu Bingchen's lips were pale. Facing Ruan Yi's eyes, he felt that his eyes were dark.

There was pain all over his body, his throat seemed to be scratched by a knife, and he couldn't make a sound.

It was indeed because of Ruan Yinong that he approached Ruan Yi at first.

His mother died of illness at a young age by this mistress who was always thinking about getting into the house.So, when he knew that this woman had a son who was about the same age as him, on a whim, he asked someone to find the boy's information.

That day he flipped through the documents and thought, it's interesting that a woman like Ruan Yinong actually gave birth to a son like Ruan Yi.

Almost at that moment, he changed his mind and planned to go to Yangcheng to meet this person.

Anyway, since he was a child, he has always been willful, and he does not know how many times he has done more outrageous things than this.So no one around him reacted too much. His dad always let him do whatever he wanted, and his brother took a little more control, but he didn't take it seriously at all.

So he came to Yangcheng and entered the sixth middle school according to Ruan Yi's high school entrance examination volunteer.

Coincidentally, he met Ruan Yi on the first day of school.That boy was even more serious than in the information... The first time he saw it, he couldn't take his eyes off it.

He squinted his eyes in the bright sunshine, thinking lazily, it seems that it would be nice to have a boyfriend?

After that, things went smoothly.

At first I just wanted to try, but then it seemed that I tried to try, but I couldn't let go.Once he returned to Yanshan on the way, he didn't realize that the corners of his mouth turned up unconsciously when he was chatting with Ruan Yi.

The elder brother stared at him and asked suspiciously, "What are you laughing at?"

He also warned: "Shut up your little thoughts, don't make trouble outside all day long."

He hummed lightly.

At that time, he had already moved his mind on Ruan Yi, but he didn't realize it.And when he noticed this sign, he had already subconsciously found a reason for himself:

Ruan Yinong.

His unusual attention to Ruan Yi was only because Ruan Yi was the only biological son of the woman he hated the most.

The first time he vaguely realized that he might be serious about Ruan Yi was after Ruan Yi broke up with him.

They had been talking for almost a year by then.Since he was sensible, the Lu family arranged for someone to teach him how to be a director. Lu Bingchen didn't care about that little thing in school.The reason why he goes to school on time every day is actually to see Ruan Yi.

When I first went to Ruan Yi, I always saw someone coming to Ruan Yi with a test paper to discuss the topic. He was left alone, feeling very uncomfortable.

He couldn't stand another person appearing in Ruan Yi's eyes, even if that person had nothing to do with Ruan Yi, even if such an interaction was so insignificant that it wouldn't affect him at all.

So when Ruan Yi was doing his homework in the room again, Lu Bingchen deliberately hugged him from behind and acted like a baby in a low voice.Later, as soon as Ruan Yi saw him, he put down all his homework.

Lu Bingchen has never been in a relationship, so he doesn't know how abnormal his eagerness to possess all of a person is. He only cares about enjoying the attention and love that Ruan Yi wholeheartedly surrounds him.

Until Ruan Yi was demoted from the key class to the ordinary class because of a severe drop in grades.

Not long after that, Ruan Yi found out about his plan to go abroad, and broke up with him that day.

Ruan Yi finished speaking and left.Lu Bingchen stood where he was, dazed at first, then angry.

He has always been a character pursued and admired by others, and this is the first time he has been kicked mercilessly.

He had never been humiliated like this, and no one dared to humiliate him like this.He held back his anger and thought, if Ruan Yi came over tomorrow to apologize and ask for reconciliation, then he would forcefully give him another chance, otherwise, Ruan Yi would never want to have anything to do with him in this life!

But Ruan Yi did what he said, and even avoided him consciously.

Lu Bingchen waited for one day, two days, three days, and finally blocked Ruan Yi in an alley.

He grabbed Ruan Yi's arm and questioned him: "If you want to break up, break up, what do you think of me?!"

At that time, Lu Bingchen's head was swollen, and his ears were buzzing. He didn't hear what Ruan Yi said at all. He only remembered that he hugged Ruan Yi hard. He didn't know whether it was out of anger or the sadness of being abandoned by this person. , He refused to let go no matter what, and even said in a nasal voice: "Ruan Yi, you said you like me, why do you dare to kick me now?"

In the end Ruan Yi reunited with him.Lu Bingchen's heart was indescribably complicated.

He woke up like a dream and realized that he seemed to be too serious, so serious...even himself, he could no longer use those excuses such as "revenge" and "playing" to whitewash the peace.

At this moment, he broke out in a cold sweat.

It was the first time in his life that he felt apprehensive.Before, no matter how big the risk he took or the biggest disaster he got into, he would never be so anxious as he is now.

It's one thing for him to play with Ruan Yi out of revenge, but it's another thing to plunge headlong into it with real feelings.These years, he single-handedly controlled Ruan Yi Nong to death.Letting this woman be her rich wife without worrying about food and clothing is already the result of his patience and patience.

He never forgave Ruan Yinong or his father for a single moment.He couldn't let his mother be betrayed by her husband while she was alive, and betrayed by her son after she was dead.

He called his brother and said that he wanted to advance the time of going abroad.Lu Yi didn't think much about it, he snorted happily and asked when he was going to go out.

Lu Bingchen gritted his teeth and said, "In half a year."

He told himself in his heart, another six months.Only give him and Ruan Yi another half a year, and then everything will be completely reversed.

When going abroad, he waited at the boarding gate until the announcement reminded him a third time.

He is very eye-catching, and many people come and go secretly look at him, they don't know that this tall and handsome boy, who is more eye-catching than those stars on TV, is actually waiting for someone, waiting for him to suddenly appear in front of him .

Lu Bingchen knew in his heart that Ruan Yi would not come, and Ruan Yi had no idea that he was on today's plane.But he thought, if Ruan Yi came...then he wouldn't leave.

This is just to think about.But he only dared to allow such expectations to emerge in his heart when he knew he was "just thinking about it".

Lu Bingchen gave a low self-deprecating laugh, dragged his suitcase and boarded the plane.

Then there is the reunion ten years later.

He recognized Ruan Yi at the first sight.Ruan Yi's face is not much different from his youth.At that time, Lu Bingchen had already practiced a faceless face in the mall, but when he saw Ruan Yi, he froze suddenly.

The companions were all spirits whose eyeballs had been simmering in the alchemy furnace of Taishang Laojun for 49 [-] days. They noticed his unusual moment and arranged Ruan Yi in front of him when they turned around.

Lu Bingchen knew he should refuse.No matter from any point of view, he has no reason to approach Ruan Yi again.

However, he can't.

He opened a bottle of wine for himself, and for the first time dared to put his hand into the pile of dusty memories, flipped over the felt cloth that was tightly covered, and let himself recall the bits and pieces that should have been buried in the deepest part of his mind drop.

In Ruan Yi, he experienced countless firsts.Chasing someone for the first time, being dumped for the first time, and begging to go back after being dumped for the first time to get back together.For the first time, worries arose, for the first time I struggled in every possible way, for the first time I wanted to forget someone but I couldn't forget it, for the first time I knew I couldn't reach out, but I couldn't take it back at all.

Lu Bingchen lit a cigarette, and the smoke drifted away.He thought, maybe... I just haven't played enough?

This was the only reason he could use to paralyze himself.Only by deceiving himself under such a guise can he allow himself to get close to Ruan Yi, and stay beside this person who has been secretly attached to him for countless days and nights in his memory.

It didn't take long for his brother to know the news.

This actually did not exceed his expectations.Many of those who sent Ruan Yi to him had various relationships with his brother.

Lu Yi bought the latest flight ticket and came back, standing in front of Lu Bingchen.

Looking at him, Lu Bingchen felt as if a boulder had fallen to the ground in his heart. He had been struggling to support it, not wanting the stone to fall. Now, he felt a sense of relief.

Looking at his younger brother's expression, Lu Yi knew that there was no need to ask anything.He paused for three seconds, then raised his hand and slapped Lu Bingchen across the face.

He didn't say anything, but Lu Bingchen clearly saw disappointment in his eyes.

He knew that he had hurt his brother. In his impression, the elder brother who had always been used to being tough and who was always too proud to allow himself to show weakness to anyone, at this moment, his eyes were ashen and almost fragile.The tall man in front of him overlapped with the red-eyed boy in front of his mother's hospital bed who stubbornly refused to shed tears. It was like facing the fate that he gritted his teeth and refused, but was still unstoppable.

The self-blame Lu Bingchen felt at this moment was stronger than ever before.

He whispered, "Brother, I just want to play."

This is an extremely clumsy lie, Lu Yi only needs to do a little research to find out that he had a relationship with Ruan Yi when he was in high school.After so many years, he got mixed up with Ruan Yi again, it is absolutely impossible for him to be "playing" in such an understatement.

Lu Yi's eyes changed again and again. For the first time, he didn't speak, but turned and left.

As if to prove something, Lu Bingchen never allowed people to get close to him, but after that, he relaxed the boundaries slightly. Sure enough, some people with a keen sense of smell began to boldly approach him.

He doesn't touch them, but at first glance, some of the photos are surprisingly subtle.Those photos were placed on his desk, and he could destroy them with a single sentence, but he didn't, but let them flow out.

It seemed that as long as he did this, he and Ruan Yi would really be just "playing" for nothing.

The non-existent engagement object was found by his brother to test him.He didn't agree to the engagement at all, but this woman bypassed him with the help of his brother and met Ruan Yi directly.

He received the news as soon as she passed, but Lu Bingchen didn't stop him after thinking about it.Because he suddenly wanted to know, what would Ruan Yi's reaction be when he knew this, and what would he do?He didn't know what he was expecting, but after Ruan Yi asked him with those documents, and he didn't make an excuse immediately, when Ruan Yi immediately broke up with him, he heard something that he couldn't even explain. Looking forward to the sound of hitting the ground and smashing into pieces.

Ruan Yi has always been like this, never dragging his feet.This kind of decisiveness almost made Lu Bingchen feel hatred in his heart.

The pain accumulated in his heart during that period burst out uncontrollably, and he uttered the words that he regretted countless times later, but it was no longer helpful.

"Ruan Yi, do you know why I slept with you?" He said, "It's just that I didn't have time to sleep before, and I missed your taste. Now that I have tasted it, I find that it's actually not that bad."

"Break up with me, are you worthy?"

He saw that Ruan Yi's eyes turned red little by little, not stimulated by tears, but squeezed into the eye sockets like the blood all over his body screaming, bursting from the capillaries, that kind of dazzling red, giving people the first feeling The feeling is not sad, but pain.How can people's eyes be so red?Like a hole filled with blood, even the pupils seemed to be washed away by the scarlet blood.

Ruan Yi raised the vase, smashed it on his head, and rushed out the door.

Lu Bingchen looked at his back, he forgot even the pain, and he couldn't feel the sticky blood running down his face.He gritted his teeth and exhausted all his self-control to stop himself from chasing out.

But such restraint only allowed him to persist for three days.

A week later, Lu Yi, who had flown urgently for more than ten hours from the southern hemisphere, appeared in front of him.

The first time Lu Yi saw him, he accidentally smashed a glass.He rushed in front of him, grabbed his collar, but didn't dare to use any force at all, his lips trembled, and he growled: "Do you want to die? Lu Bingchen, do you want to die?!"

It took Lu Bingchen more than a week to find Ruan Yi.At that time, he no longer wanted to explain to anyone, not to his brother, nor to Ruan Yi, not even to himself.

He refused to think about what Ruan Yi meant to him. He only knew that he would rather die than bear Ruan Yi not in front of him.

He has fought.Every day when he was with Ruan Yi, he was fighting against his uncontrollable love for this person. He raised the flag again and again, and fell the halberd again and again.All the mistakes, all the failures, all the failures, all the disintegrations of his life were all done on this person.

To love someone so much that you can't extricate yourself, is this a gift from God or a curse from God?

He began to spend most of his day in the house where Ruan Yi stayed.Ruan Yi always wanted to run away, but he didn't want to lock him up, so he could only guard by his side.Lu Bingchen had no way of solving the messy situation between him and Ruan Yi, so he could only be careful not to let Ruan Yi's attitude towards him deteriorate further.

But Ruan Yi still disappeared.

Lu Bingchen continued to investigate for several days and nights without sleep, and after many investigations, he finally found Lu Yi.

He went to find Lu Yi, but Lu Yi seemed to have expected it, and told him coldly that he had been sent abroad.Lu Bingchen's passport has also been locked at the customs, and it is impossible for him to leave the country within three years.

He said to Lu Bingchen: "All along, you have been playing wild in front, and I have been behind. If you want to make troubles, I will let you make troubles, and if you want to be wild, I will let you be wild. But as a member of the Lu family, Lu Bingchen , you have to remember, you can be willful, but you can't be stupid; you can be paranoid, but you can't lose your mind. You have to learn to let go of things that shouldn't be yours. If you can't let go, I will help you let go .have you understood."

Lu Bingchen suddenly understood why his brother rushed back after a bunch of high-level meetings after receiving the news that he and Ruan Yi were together, but didn't say a word when he saw him.

Because at this time, there is no need to say anything.

He knew what his brother meant, and he also knew that his brother would not change, so what else was there to say, there was no need to say any more.

He turned his head and walked out, checking Ruan Yi's whereabouts from the beginning.It doesn't matter whether he is too sensitive or there is a strange feeling between the brothers, he feels that Lu Yi is hiding something from him.Even his brother's words and deeds were impeccable that day.

Until one day, because he pursued Ruan Yi's whereabouts day and night for a long time, he suddenly passed out and was taken to the hospital.

Lu Yi was talking with his attending physician in the cubicle of the ward.

The attending physician sighed: "It's only been half a year. How many times has he come in? I suggest you tell him everything about the situation. Although it's hard to accept for a while, short-term pain is worse than long-term pain."

Lu Yi was probably too distracted to notice if Lu Bingchen was awake.He said in a hoarse voice: "You don't know my brother. Before my grandfather died, he was the most worried about him. He said that he was the smartest one in our Lu family, but his personality is too stubborn. If he still can't turn around in the future , I will definitely suffer a lot. So I will give him whatever he wants since he was a child, and I want him to have everything, and he can get everything easily, so I won’t take anything too seriously.”

The attending physician was silent.

Lu Yi closed his eyes and took a deep breath: "I must, must give him a thought. Even if I tell him that the price for Ruan Yi being sent away by me is that he wants to find Ruan Yi for the rest of his life, I will not I admit it. If he knows that Ruan Yi is dead, you can't imagine what will happen."

He still didn't say a word, if Lu Bingchen knew why Ruan Yi died...even he didn't dare to think about what his brother would do.

At the very first moment, Lu Bingchen felt that he had lost his hearing, vision, and ability to respond.He even felt that his heartbeat stopped for a moment. In that moment of absolute silence, his mind was blank, just like the place where people would go before dying, and the whole world melted in white light.He watched all the colors and shapes being eaten away by the white light little by little, and finally turned into a part of nothingness, as if feeling death in a trance.

He didn't make a sound, but Lu Yi subconsciously felt something was wrong.He opened the door and looked at Lu Bingchen in blank dismay.

The depth bomb that silently crossed the sea suddenly exploded at this moment, and millions of tiny pieces of shrapnel were stirred into his body, cutting the fragile blood vessels, and drilling deeper and deeper into the flesh and bones.Indescribable pain exploded in all limbs, Lu Bingchen supported the table and spat out a mouthful of blood.

If a person is in extreme pain, he may have to shed tears, bleed, or lose his life in order to use one kind of pain to resist another kind of pain.Lu Bingchen finally understands why some people say self-injury is actually a kind of self-protection sometimes.He felt that his body was like a precarious container, which contained too much pain, as if the cracked bottle would be completely crushed in the next second.So he can only cut open his own flesh and blood, let other things flow out, no matter what it is, whether it is tears, blood or life - only when these things flow out can his body make some space. Swing, to settle those out-of-control, almost crazy emotions.

He couldn't help thinking about the little things between him and Ruan Yi, until he was exhausted in the end.

All the heart-piercing, regretful, and painful things have become very light.People are exhausted to the end, and they really don't have the strength to support its intensity anymore.

Lu Bingchen suddenly remembered that the first time he saw Ruan Yi was on the boulevard of No. [-] Middle School.Ruan Yi walked through the light golden sunlight, while he was leaning on the thick green camphor tree in midsummer with his arms folded, looking at him from afar.

……

It wasn't until this moment that he realized that he had fallen in love with this person at first sight.

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