Picturesque mountains and rivers of the motherland

Huaxia Star, West Lake Villa.

Today's sunset is extraordinarily bright, like a ruby ​​inlaid in the clouds.

Bai Ting was about to reach out to pick gems, when he heard the sound of shattering bowls and dishes.

Bai Ting hurried to the kitchen and saw Xiaoqing who was busy.

Today, Xiaoqing had a whim and said that he was going to make a dinner, and he was dealing with the ingredients at the moment.

"Let me do it." Bai Ting couldn't bear it.

Xiaoqing refused. "No, I must show my skills today."

Bai Ting looked at Xiaoqing's bitter and bitter look, and at the raw materials of dark dishes such as Maodan, Zheergen, Jiuxiangworm, etc. on the table, and he knew it well.

In the past few days, Lou Kaimo has come to the villa to have dinner with him. To be more precise, after the two went sightseeing together, he asked out of politeness if he wanted to have dinner together. Okay" agreed.

Xiaoqing is obviously about to show off.

The last ray of setting sun gradually shrinks into the night, like a drop of blood dried on the glass.

"Why hasn't the person arrived yet? I made such a delicious thing, so I'm not here soon." Xiaoqing said while tearing off the cicada pupae.

Bai Ting: "Xiaoqing, my mind is full of lines now."

"what?"

"Dalang, come and take the medicine."

Xiaoqing: "Hmph, he deserves it too."

Bai Ting looked at the silent authenticator. Fifteen minutes ago, he sent a message to Lou Kaimo.Usually, it is basically a second reply, but now there is no news.

It was another 15 minutes, and the galaxy outside the window was brilliant.

Bai Ting was vaguely uneasy. "I gonna go see."

Xiaoqing wanted to say "you worthless", but swallowed the words.

==

Lou Kaimo's rented place is not far from Bai Ting's villa, just turn one street and two alleyways.

The house is a small western-style building with a sense of age, with lush flowers and trees outside.

Bai Ting pushed the courtyard door, it was unlocked, and stepped in.

The door of Xiaoyanglou was open, Bai Ting called out twice, but there was no response.

Bai Ting's mind flashed through the "Top Ten Bloody Cases of the Federation" that he had watched with Xiaoqing a few days ago, and he suddenly felt uneasy, so he hurried into the room to check.

There was no one on the first floor, Bai Ting went up the stairs and heard rustling in the bedroom.Cautiously walked outside the door, habitually trying to fumble for the switch on the wall, when suddenly he heard "Don't open it."

It was Lou Kaimo's voice.

Bai Ting's heart hanging in the air finally settled down, and after a long while, he felt something strange again.

Why is Lou Kaimo's voice a little hoarse, as if he's been crying?

This cognition made Bai Ting feel absurd and funny.

Lou Kaimo hid in an empty room and shed tears. This is roughly equivalent to Trump declaring "I think the socialist system is the best system in the world" at the White House.

With the light from the window, Bai Ting vaguely saw the situation in the room.

The room furnishings are simple, and the houses in this area are specially designed for long-term rental by tourists, and they can add objects and decorations by themselves.Obviously, Lou Kaimo didn't have such a leisurely mood.He sat on the sofa chair that came with the room, facing the window.

Bai Ting walked behind the sofa chair, saw Lou Kaimo lowered his head and could not see his face, he wanted to tease a few words to adjust the atmosphere, but the words fell out of his mouth.

"Are you OK?"

"fine."

It was short and hasty, with depression in forbearance, and exhaustion in hoarseness.

Bai Ting was at a loss for a while.

Bai Ting did a lot of things to comfort people when he was young.Whether it's my little sister, a mother who is still full of teenage hearts, or a classmate who collapsed due to academic pressure, a donkey friend who suddenly lost control during a long journey, or an NPC who likes to pretend to be autistic after messing with moths, Bai Ting can handle it with ease.

Facing Lou Kaimo, Bai Ting's ease with ease failed.

Or in his consciousness, he never thought that Lou Kaimo would need comfort.He is strong and perfect, without flaws.

His consolation, there is no way to start.

After hesitating for a while, Bai Ting only said the most disgusting thing among all Chinese women: "Why don't you drink some hot water?"

"Ah."

Bai Ting brought hot water and chocolate from downstairs, and he felt like a younger sister who took care of his aunt when he was a teenager. This realization made thunder roll in his mind.

Putting hot water and snacks on the window sill, Bai Ting looked around the room under the dim light, but failed to find the second chair, so he simply sat on the bed, at the oblique rear of the sofa chair.

From this position, one can vaguely see Lou Kaimo's side face, with his lips tightly closed and the corners of his jaw tensed.

Bai Ting was silent with Lou Kaimo.

After some time, the hot water on the window sill stopped smoking, and Lou Kaimo suddenly asked, "Do you remember what happened when you were a child?"

"Huh?" Bai Ting was taken aback by this leaping question, and then said "Huh" soon.

"Remember, it's clear."

Childhood is always one of the best memories.

Bai Ting still remembers every midsummer, the iced watermelon in the heat wave, the air conditioner and animation, wearing a vest and spraying a spray of toilet water, and walking around the streets with his neighbors and friends.

He likes the square one kilometer away from his grandma's house. Someone built a children's playground there, a carousel that always sings songs, and the children's favorite trampoline.

Next to the Children's Paradise, there are small stalls that have not been targeted by the urban management. The fancy and cheap daily necessities are mixed with the most delicious roadside stalls in China. The mundane fireworks are always memorable.

Bai Ting didn't share his memories, he remembered the video he watched with Lou Jingming in Hasuhai, and Lou Kaimo's past.

Lou Kaimo's childhood obviously had shadows.

Some wounds, if the other party didn't tell, Bai Ting naturally wouldn't ask.He knew that it was not a golden medicine that could cure all diseases, so there was no need to check the wound out of curiosity.

Lou Kaimo: "I lost a memory. More precisely, I blocked a memory."

Bai Ting didn't think so, dissociative amnesia is not uncommon, if it doesn't affect life, it might be a good thing.

Bai Ting reassured: "If you lose it, you lose it. Maybe it's fate, maybe it's your subconscious choice. Humans always have to look forward. If you don't want to think about it, don't force it."

Lou Kaimo stretched out his hand and picked up the boiled water that was no longer steaming.

"Shall I get you another drink?"

"No need." Lou Kaimo stopped Bai Ting and talked about the past.

Bai Ting had already heard about this past event in Lou Jingming's place, and even had video data.Xiaolou Kaimo, who trusted the housekeeper wholeheartedly and regarded the housekeeper as his half-mother, was mercilessly betrayed by the housekeeper.

Bai Tingdao: "You are young and ignorant, you always look at the world with sincerity and simplicity, so when you first face the malice in the world, there is always a heart that you can't overcome."

It seems that everyone must experience it when they are young. Some people have rough lives and experience it early; some people are well protected by their families and experience it later.

It's just that most people have a gradual process, such as Bai Ting.He can slowly adapt from a little bit of injury——

When I was a child, I gave all my pocket money to the poor beggar on the side of the road, but that night I saw the beggar eating and drinking in a high-end restaurant;

When I was in school, I was well-behaved and obedient, but was framed by my classmates for stealing stationery, and I couldn't argue with it;

Encountered school violence, stood up for the girl, but the girl refused to clarify for him, and was punished...

But every time he hurts, he has a process of relaxation, he can get comfort from relatives and friends, heal the trauma, and gradually create a more adaptable self

If you want to say that someone's life is smooth sailing, there must be no one, but if you want to say that there are stormy waves, most of them don't.

Most people are like this, happy, sad, and growing up in the ordinary.

And Lou Kaimo, who belonged to an extraordinary minority since his birth, suddenly encountered great malice in his peaceful life.

Bai Ting: "You don't have to think about things you don't want to think about. It's good to forget. People are looking forward. Nostalgia for the past is nothing more than remembering the good things that have passed away. But if the things gone are not good, you don't have to torture yourself."

Another long silence.

Bai Ting lamented from the bottom of his heart, but it really wasn't enough to comfort him.Ordinary people should not try to interpret Mr. Lou's thinking.

Just as Bai Ting's stomach was rumbling, Lou Kaimo spoke again: "I received the Qi Zuohe case file report from the group this afternoon."

Bai Ting was stunned for a few seconds before realizing that this Qi Zuohe was the murderer of the Gao Jin case captured in Mount Wutai earlier.Thinking about it now, I still have lingering fears, such a vicious criminal appeared on Huaxia Star.

Bai Ting eased the atmosphere: "The Shenglou Group is also powerful enough to get reports on important cases from the General Police Station."

Lou Kaimo: "The investigation revealed that Qi Zuohe is the son of An Yiding."

"Who is An Yicho?"

"It was my former housekeeper."

Bai Ting: ...

The mother is kidnapped and the son is murdered. Is this to prove the criminal gene theory?

Bai Ting: "Because of this, you think of the unhappy past again?"

Lou Kaimo shook his head: "Unhappiness is second, and more importantly, I want to recall what happened back then."

Bai Ting: "At the end of the day, you still don't want to be betrayed by your closest people?"

Lou Kaimo was startled, never thought that Bai Ting would see through it at a glance.

Bai Ting: "It's a good thing to be willing to face it. If you don't want to find out the truth, forget it and forget it, and the past will follow the wind. But you have already developed curiosity. If you suppress curiosity, you will not be able to ask for it due to subjective reasons." , easy to regret and blame yourself.”

Lou Kaimo: "So you support me in retrieving my memory?"

Bai Ting: "Why don't you support it?"

Lou Kaimo: "Are you not afraid that I will be traumatized again, depressed and unhappy?"

Bai Ting: ...

Brother, can you have a correct understanding of yourself?Your personality is really not suitable for Qiong Yao's "I'm so sad, I'm so sad, I'm so painful."

Bai Ting said softly: "I believe in you."

Lou Kaimo was taken aback.

He remembered that three hours ago, he had just received the case file report from Cheng Zhi.After careful consideration, he told Cheng Zhi that when he planned to pursue the lost memory, Cheng Zhi denied him without hesitation.

"The fact that Steward An kidnapped you back then will not change because her son is a murderer. You chose to forget that memory back then, which means that that memory hurt you, and there is no need to hurt yourself again."

Lou Kaimo shook his head, looked sideways at Bai Ting, and smiled wryly: "You don't believe me, but because you don't care."

Some hungry Bai Ting stretched out his hand, took the chocolate on the window sill, ate it three times and five times, and then said: "To explore the past is not just to open a wound, but to break the spirit that you have built up over the years. oasis."

Bai Ting got up suddenly, leaned against the window, and stared into Lou Kaimo's eyes.

"Back then, you chose to escape, and after spending many years, you finally planted some greenery on a piece of collapsing wasteland. But your choice now may destroy the oasis you worked so hard to build. Under the broken land, there must be The endless abyss, there may be hell under the abyss, or there may be evil dragons."

Lou Kaimo looked at Bai Ting, not knowing whether he was discouraging him or supporting him.

"But whether it's hell or the evil dragon, if you don't look at it, you will live in the shadow of demons under your feet for the rest of your life. Instead of this, it's better to find out, meet gods and gods, meet ghosts and ghosts, and Mr. Lou is now With a strong heart, I believe I can do a job with ease.”

After a long pause, Bai Ting emphasized "I believe in you" again.

Lou Kaimo looked at Bai Ting.

Unknown flowers in the small courtyard peeked into the window, and the fragrance of flowers was tangy.The stamens are like a cup, wrapped in the moisture of the night wind, like a bearer of fine wine.

I believe you, that seems to be the most beautiful love words in the world, making him intoxicated.

==

When Lou Kaimo and Bai Ting sat back at the dining table, Xiaoqing, who was looking forward to the autumn water, had already finished eating the third roast chicken.

Xiaoqing's eyes wandered from the two of them. Bai Ting went out for such a long time, enough to happen many things that Jinjiang couldn't write about.

Bai Ting calmly reheated the food on the table, and greeted Lou Kaimo: "You can try Xiaoqing's cooking."

Hearing this, Xiaoqing scooped a spoonful of steamed Shuangqi into Lou Kai's ink bowl very attentively.

"Boss Lou, try it."

Lou Kaimo was flattered.

The double smell of steamed double smell is stinky tofu and moldy amaranth stalks. The smell is fragrant, but most people's taste buds can't accept it.

Xiaoqing is full of expectations.

Lou Kai swallowed without changing his face, and his tone was very sincere: "Miss Xiaoqing is really good at craftsmanship."

Xiaoqing: ...

So angry.

Xiaoqing scooped up another spoonful of "Spring Tide Surge", the name sounds nice, it looks like a piece of gold, and it looks really good-looking, but if you look closely, you can see that the raw materials are all maggots.

"I may not be able to control the heat very well, maybe there will be raw food." Xiaoqing said sincerely.

Lou Kaimo still swallowed it calmly: "Miss Xiaoqing, you are welcome, the frying is very familiar."

Xiaoqing: ...

In the end, the meal came to an end with Xiaoqing's "repeated frustration" and Lou Kaimo's "continuous praise".

Xiaoqing was so angry that she jumped out of the window and never came back.

Lou Kaimo wondered: "Isn't my praise not enough?"

Bai Ting was speechless and put away the dishes.

The lights in the villa are bright and bright.

Lou Kaimo helped Bai Ting clean up.

The atmosphere is warm, as if they are the most ordinary family among the thousands of lights in the land of China.

"I used to like staying in bright rooms." Lou Kaimo said suddenly.

Bai Ting poured the leftovers into the food waste disposer, put the dishes into the dishwasher, and didn't answer the phone.

Boss, the house should always be magnificent and splendid.

Lou Kaimo: "Because I'm afraid of the dark."

Bai Ting was a little surprised. Fear of the dark is a common problem among many children, and maybe it is not a disease. The darkness can easily magnify the loneliness and fear in people's hearts.

Lou Kaimo: "The housekeeper told me that sleeping with the light on is bad for my health, so she bought me a night light and put it by the bed."

Bai Ting imagined the appearance of the young version of Lou Kaimo holding the night lamp, it was so cute.

Lou Kaimo: "But I would still get up in the middle of the night and secretly light up the lights in the whole house. Later, the housekeeper discovered that she would pull a sofa bed and sit next to me every night. Every time I opened my eyes, , I can see her shadow under the night light. Since then, I have slept peacefully."

Bai Ting imagined that scene, but couldn't equate it with Lou Kaimo for a moment.

Why did the cute little baby turn into a cruel young man?Is it the distortion of human nature or the loss of morality?This can be done as an issue of "Approaching Science - Lou Kaimo's Shocking Changes".

Lou Kaimo: "It's just that later, there is no shadow that can make me fall asleep at ease."

He learned to grow up alone.

Bai Ting was very unaccustomed to Lou Kaimo's dejected appearance, so he walked to Lou Kaimo's side, turned off the extra spotlights, and left only one in the middle, pointing at the wall.

"Look, isn't our shadow very clear?"

On the wall, the two shadows were incomparably huge, like giants.

Bai Ting stretched out his hand, but did not touch Lou Kaimo, but the shadows on the wall overlapped.

"You see, aren't they very close, but we keep a distance. The shadow is a shadow after all, he is not real, and the sense of security he brings to you is also false. He can't listen to your thoughts, and he can't solve your problems Doubt. He is just your inner sustenance."

Bai Ting turned on all the lights again, the chaotic spotlights and light sources from all directions made the shadow on the wall disappear instantly.

Bai Tingdao: "Instead of relying on the illusory, it is better to find the truth to rely on."

Lou Kaimo turned his face to the side and looked at Bai Ting: "So, are you real?"

Bai Ting pursed his lips, but did not answer.