aftershock

"What are you thinking about?"

With a sound of "clang", the car key crashed into the glass bowl of the porch, Lin Ze was lying on the sofa, his whole body just took up the entire sofa from head to toe, he lazily opened his eyes, but there was no sound at all. Wulan said, "Believe it or not, I will sue you for trespassing."

Peng Yang pretended not to hear, changed his shoes, stepped up the stairs in the living room skillfully, and knocked on the glass of the fish tank on the entire wall with his fingers. A group of colorful fish was immediately scattered by him. He curled up his mouth and laughed, He went to the sofa and grabbed Lin Ze's chin and pressed his lips intimately.

"Well, how much coffee did you drink today?"

Lin Ze was indeed unable to fall asleep after drinking too much coffee, he raised his foot and lightly kicked Peng Yang's waist, "Why are you here?"

"I know something important. Gu Lu couldn't get through on the phone, so I had to come and tell you in person."

Lin Ze has long been accustomed to "big things", he exhaled, and asked, "What else can be big things" regardless of Peng Yang moving around on the sofa

The TV in the living room was not loud, but it was noisy. Peng Yang hadn't spoken for a long time. Lin Ze opened his eyes and saw that he was contemplating, with a strange expression on his face. Lin Ze closed his legs and sat up from the sofa. "What the hell happened"

Peng Yang was half hesitant and half curious, "Do you know what happened to Mao Yun?"

Lin Ze frowned, and his ears seemed to be pricked up, "What happened?"

Peng Yang clicked his tongue, "Xu Jingxing was supposed to go abroad yesterday. With his identity, several countries are staring at him black and white. The longer he stays in the country, the more unsafe he becomes. Suddenly, he doesn't believe it."

"I don't believe it? He disappeared?" If Xu Jingxing disappeared, to be honest, it would be too normal. Lin Ze had followed Gu Lv for so many years, and knew Xu Jingxing's identity more or less. Hide or be caught.

Peng Yang shook his head hesitantly, "I played with Xu Sheng too, and he didn't go out recently, so I checked it out of curiosity."

He looked at Lin Ze, what was funny was that Lin Ze was listening seriously, and Peng Yang suddenly said, "Have you collected your ant energy?"

"what?"

Peng Yang laughed and said, "Xu Sheng and you have a common habit. The first thing you do when you wake up every morning is to receive Alipay Ant Energy."

Lin Ze silently rolled his eyes in his heart, "How do you know?"

"Didn't you find that no one accepts me except you? I won't let them accept it"

"Are you so boring, talk about business"

"That's the business. That day, a few friends complained that Xu Sheng was so stingy that he had to get up early to collect his ant energy, and then found out that he hadn't heard from him for several days, and he didn't even confiscate his ant energy."

"and then"

"People who are familiar with him went to inquire, and they said that something happened. Mao Yun was exposed a lot of scandal, Xu Zhilin was interviewed by the superiors, and even Xu Sheng was controlled. I heard that Xu Jingxing's illegitimate son... "

"Xu Xuan? What happened to him?"

Lin Ze's eyebrows furrowed tighter and tighter, as if Gu Lv's business was my business.Peng Yang reluctantly said, "He's missing."

"Missing?"

"Well..." Peng Yang put his arms around Lin Ze's waist, leaned on him, and said while changing the TV channel, "So Xu Jingxing didn't leave the country. Their surname Xu is a mess. Even Gu Lv You’ve never been far away, so don’t worry about it.”

"So why did Xu Xuan disappear?"

"Some said they were taken away by Xu Jingxing's enemies, some said they were locked up by Xu Zhilin, and some said..."

Lin Ze suddenly understood a little bit, his eyes met with his friend, and he couldn't help feeling chills. He didn't say anything, but Peng Yang smiled as if he knew everything, "You guessed it too, didn't you?"

"Impossible, Jiang Yuan is still in the country, Liang Ji can't reach so far, and, so many years have passed..."

Peng Yang couldn't deny it, "Not necessarily, everyone knows that Xu Jingxing is dying now."

"what?"

"Cancer, intestinal cancer, I heard it's a recurrence, don't ask me, I don't know when he got it."

Gu Lu's wound had already solidified, but Jiang Yuan never went downstairs. He stayed there for too long, which made Gu Lu a little upset. Just as he was about to go upstairs, there were gentle footsteps on the stairs. , Jiang Yuan lowered his head and watched the steps under his feet. He didn't hold a band-aid or alcohol in his hand. He grabbed the handrail of the stairs, raised his head and smiled palely at Gu Lv. What kind of expression should I have on my face, but I can't let others notice my mood. It's like trying to squeeze out "I didn't find it."

"...you"

Jiang Yuan took two steps down and was held by Gu Lv, with a rare nervous tone, "Did you go to the study?"

Jiang Yuan nodded, "The phone rang, and I went to answer it. It was Lin Ze, who said that your mobile phone could not be accessed."

Gu Lv hesitated to speak, Jiang Yuan took the opportunity and slowly withdrew his hand, "It sounds like the company has something to do, I want you to call him back as soon as possible."

He said something seriously, and after going downstairs, he took Gu Shan by the hand and walked to the living room. Gu Lu saw that his expression was normal, but he couldn't let go of his hanging heart for a while.

Gu Shan's mangoes are too much to eat. Children are sensitive and can easily detect the emotions of adults. They observe silently for a while, and follow Jiang Yuan's footsteps.Jiang Yuan really didn't know what to eat for the little girl, so he looked around for oatmeal that could only be soaked like rice cereal, Jiang Yuan asked her absent-mindedly if she wanted to eat, but Gu Shan said yes without being picky, This made Jiang Yuan a little surprised, after all, it was really unpalatable to him.

Jiang Yuan hurriedly found a small milk pot in the kitchen, and heated the milk to make oatmeal. He was quite familiar with these steps. When he put it in a bowl, Jiang Yuan was afraid that she would be scalded, so he clumsily used a spoon to stir it. Move the noodle soup to dissipate heat.

Even if he was eating by himself, Jiang Yuan probably didn't put so much thought into it. There was no special spoon for children at home. The porcelain spoon was held by Gu Shan in her hand, and it was too big for her. With a knocking sound, Jiang Yuan took the spoon, filled it up and asked her to blow it, and then feed it to her.

The two of them didn't speak, and Gu Shan raised her head and smiled at him after eating for a while, repeated this several times, but Jiang Yuan's eyes suddenly became foggy.

He is not a person who is willing to let himself cry. Sometimes even if his eyes are crying, he may not be able to find the reason. Most of the time it is not voluntary. He knows that he should control his emotions. It can also be controlled.

In architecture, there is a construction process called lightning protection grounding down conductors. The principle is to pre-embed the leads in high-strength concrete and disperse them in many places. When lightning strikes, the huge strong current can be evenly distributed. Everywhere, keep the building within a safe limit. This is very similar to the way Jiang Yuan has always controlled his emotions. He usually has many ways to distract himself. He keeps thinking, talking, and doing other things to distract himself. Force, so that those bad emotions quickly sink and bury it, it is best to distribute it into every capillary, after all, they are more than 15 kilometers long, and the number is more than 200 trillion, if they can be selfless Jiang Yuan, the master, shared a little bit. When a lightning strike struck, it actually didn't hurt so much.

Lin Ze waited for a while before returning Gu Lu's phone call. He had already sorted out the matter earlier, and his talk was a simple summary and clear.

During the time when Gu Lu was silent on the phone, Peng Yang silently applauded Lin Ze.

"Is Peng Yang beside you?"

Lin Ze was slightly shocked, and looked at Peng Yang in a blink of an eye. Peng Yang waved his hand immediately to express that he had done nothing. Lin Ze bit his lip. Scalp out the word "in"

Gu Lu said coldly, "Give him the phone"

"What do you want me to add?"

Peng Yang's voice passed over, Gu Lv thought for a while before saying, "Are you sure Xu Jingxing is still in the country?"

"determine."

"Are you sure it's because of Xu Xuan's matter that you stayed in the country?"

"pretty close."

"Is there any room for change in Maoyun's affairs?"

"none."

"understood."

Gu Lu hung up the phone and didn't seem too flustered. He turned his head and looked at the restaurant. It happened that Gu Shan raised her head and smiled at Jiang Yuan. Jiang Yuan also smiled and stroked her hair. They were very close. The slender five fingers on the side of her head were very light, and they were slightly closed, almost smoothing Gu Shan's hair that was raised in the air, probably feeling the sight, Jiang Yuan turned his head again, seeing Gu Lv In an instant, his palms were quickly closed, and they were slowly drawn back to his side. The sudden stop made Gu Lv's face stagnant.

It started to rain again outside the glass, and the bright yellow raincoat hanging at the door was probably the only bright color in the living room. After eating, Gu Shan asked Jiang Yuan to draw her a small animal. Their school had to hand in homework.

Jiang Yuan didn't know how to draw, so he looked at Gu Lv hesitantly, Gu Lv looked at the similar eyes of the two people in front of him, and shook his head.

When Uncle Xu came back, Jiang Yuan had just drawn two circles, an oval and a thin oval, on the white paper. Uncle Xu entered the door in the rain, and when he saw children there, he narrowed his eyes with a smile. warm.

Gu Lu used the pad to find a picture of an animal for Gu Shan. Jiang originally drew it for her, but after looking at it, he gently put down the pen.

"I can't draw well."

That Tigger is so familiar that it hurts people, Jiang Yuan is a little tired, his head is lowered with a thin layer of eyelids half drooping, I don't know what he is looking at, the back of the hanging neck is clearly knotted, and he can almost count his bones Spine and bones, he wears a lot of clothes, a sweater and a T-shirt, but they cover him empty, and he still looks very thin.

"Let me do it"

Gu Lv took the white paper and pen, and quickly drew an outline with one long and one short circle. He drew it simply, with a serious expression, as if the pen was not just a small cartoon, but a list that needed to be reviewed. Jiang Yuan Put your head on your knees and look away from Gu Lu's face. There is a low-flying dragonfly outside the door. It may be because its wings are wet. It hits the glass and is quickly bounced off. It is reasonable that there should be no such thing in this season. The dragonfly is gone, the season is out of season, coupled with the continuous rain, it should not be able to survive.

"What are you sighing for?"

Gu Lv has already drawn the little animals, it's like that, he was successful in everything he did, luck, talent, hard work, Gu Lv has it all, except for meeting himself, maybe it's something incidental to luck Ups and downs, everything else was smooth.

As for fate, it’s up to people to believe it or not. Believe it happens like this, or it will happen if you don’t believe it. Jiang Yuan doesn’t believe in fate. Yuan coins, the man told him that he would live a long life, but the Chinese and Western doctors who saw him clearly said that his life would not be long, and Jiang Yuan had already accepted this fact, whether it was Western medicine or Chinese medicine. , maybe the process of seeing a doctor is different, but the results that the more experienced people can foresee are the same, there is no deviation. He believes that Liang Ji can agree with him to go back to China for a visit, and he should also believe the words of these doctors. □ points.

He doesn't have a long lifespan, half of it is ruined by himself, and the rest may be a little shorter than others imagined.So it is better to believe in yourself than to believe in fate.

The reason why he insisted on going back to China at the beginning was really very simple. It was similar to what Gu Lv asked him earlier. He just wanted to come back and see if Gu Lv was doing well.

It doesn't matter if he is selfish, he is a person who doesn't live long, so selfishness should be forgiven, besides, he is afraid that if he doesn't come back to see Gu Lv, maybe one day he won't be able to see him again, he subconsciously noticed it at that time I didn't last long, and even after I got my visa, the first thing that came to my mind was, will I still live to renew my visa? , next year, I probably won't be able to see them.

Seeing Gu Lu every day has certainly been the most satisfying thing for Jiang Yuan in a long time, but Gu Lu is poisonous. While fulfilling his thoughts for years, he is hanging on Jiang Yuan's desire to survive with poison. When he grows up, Jiang Yuan can be numb and at ease with the situation, not to mention that his heart is not big in the first place, it is the size and shape of Gu Lv, if Gu Lv is not there, it will be empty, if Gu Lv is there, it will be full, his The heart is used to hold Gu Lv's shadow. When he is still there, he will hold on to it, and when he is no longer there, he will seal it up and take it away. Jiang Yuan persistently and enthusiastically engraves Gu Lv's name on his heart deeply. One layer after another was peeled off, and the next layer still had the same name until it was completely used up.