aftershock

There was a box of expired cakes in the fridge.

White, with a ring of purple-red grainy fruit and strawberries.They were stale, including the out-of-shape cream.

Auntie didn't dare to throw away the cake who didn't know who put it here, so she asked Gu Lv.She has been in a bad mood recently, with a sad face, and brought cake and tea to Gu Lv who came back early, with a strong smile on her face.

Gu Lv's eyes fell on the cake, and he rarely said, "He is already awake, and he has been transferred to the ward. You can go to see him after the wound closes in a week." Auntie understood Gu Lv's meaning belatedly, and nodded "Thank you Mr. Gu."

"You..." Gu Lu paused, "You can bring him some light chicken soup then."

The aunt nodded repeatedly, and after she left, Gu Lu began to taste the birthday cake little by little.

The taste of the cream was worse than any one he had eaten before, and Gu Lu couldn't help but wonder, if they had talked well that day, or hadn't had any accidents in the swimming pool, would they have eaten this cake together.

The answer is no.

Gu Lu will not eat a piece of sweet cake, he will refuse Jiang Yuan's invitation, or he is really in a good mood to eat it, and he will find the fault with this cake for other reasons, so Jiang Yuan will still feel it. Being unhappy will still hurt him, and Gu Lv is almost happy to see this kind of damage to the spirit.

Just like a late mutual injury, Jiang Yuan has been tacitly giving himself a chance, willingly accepting all the harm from Gu Lv.He can't be that "Xiao Hai", he wants to tell Jiang Yuan that he can't find Xiao Hai when he comes back now, but every time he sees Jiang Yuan's weak or tired or embarrassing face but doesn't know it, he still feels pitiful, he I always interpret the soreness that seeps out from the bottom of my heart as pity.Every time at this time, he would also think that he could also be Xiaohai, giving a dream hug and kiss, it was such a simple matter.

It's about as simple as injecting a drug, if you don't think about it being addictive.

Now, now why has it become like this again.

He began to have to face the question that he didn't want to remember and evade even more, why Jiang Yuan was injured so badly, and why he left quietly under such circumstances.

What kind of relationship does it have with himself and Xu Xuan's injury?

He watched Jiang Yuan push Xu Xuan down the stairs with his own eyes. Xu Xuan was in a coma for more than half a month before he woke up. When he woke up, Jiang Yuan had already left the country.It is impossible for Xu Xuan to do anything to Jiang Yuan in time, so why Jiang Yuan was injured, and why is he so afraid of the dark.

Liang Jiyi thought that he hated Jiang Yuan to the bone and wished Jiang Yuan would die. His eyes had been fixed on him for a long time, and even Gu Lv himself would keep asking, is this really the case.

Did you really want him to die?No matter how much he denied this possibility, in fact, Jiang Yuan really almost died.

It seemed that the vivid and bright person in his memory had faded into a piece of white, and the whiteness melted into the light. When he thought that this person would disappear, he would ask himself why it hurt so much.

Once those thoughts come up, they can't go away. When he was curled up on the ground with a fever, Gu Lv thought, don't let me let you go in this life, but when he is really lying in the operating room, Gu Lv I thought again, wake up, it’s a big deal that I don’t hate you anymore when I wake up, I even...

When Jiang Yuan was transferred to the intensive care unit, most of the tubes and electrodes on his body had not been evacuated. The doctor said he was afraid of being infected, and Lin Wang said he was afraid of being stimulated. Gu Lv often just stood outside the door for a while, listening to the daily situation, and leave.

Obviously there are mountains of documents to deal with, but sitting in the huge and silent office often can't think of a word.

This August, it has been raining.Gu Lv's mind was very distracted.

As the wounds on Jiang Yuan's body appeared one by one, Gu Lv has been passively falling into those adult memories, constantly waking up, and constantly remembering, he saw the expression on Jiang Yuan's face when Liang Ji walked into the ward , a 30-year-old man, when he saw the most trusted person and confirmed that he was in a safe zone and could be protected, his eyes suddenly lit up. Hugs and distress.At that time, Gu Lu thought faintly, obviously many years ago, he also played the role of Liang Ji.

Lin Wang said he liked him, and Lin Wang could visit him, help him, and touch him all the time.

Liang Ji was with him, what would he say to him, what would he persuade him, and when would he take him away again.

Gu Lu leaned heavily on the chair, it was only eight o'clock in the morning, why did he have to wait until eight o'clock in the evening before he could go to see the sleeping Jiang Yuan.

He has something to say, and he needs to tell him more clearly when he is awake.

The hospital is a very magical place. Generally, when you feel sick and come for a checkup, you must be panic and anxious, but once you lie down and live in the hospital, it may be the safest place in the world.

Jiang Yuan felt that the days lying in the hospital these days were the best days of sleep since he came back, and he was quite confused and couldn't tell the day from day to night.

After gradually removing the devices that had been beeping all day long, I felt relaxed.

Lin Wang was still the person who came to see him the most every day, and Gu Lv also came a few times, probably because of embarrassing scars all over his body, Jiang Yuan usually either indulged himself in a drowsy sleep, or pretended to be in a deep sleep.

This day was the same, as soon as Jiang Yuan woke up, a nurse lady came in to pull the curtains, pour water and even wipe his face. He always suspected that the nurse's desk was equipped with surveillance cameras here, and the ladies and sisters came in by pinch. The service attitude is better than that of a five-star hotel. better.

"Today is also a cloudy day." The nurse gently picked up his infusion hand and wiped his palm, and smiled lightly, looking not very emotional.

Jiang Yuan tilted his head to look, and also pursed his lips and smiled, "Yes, cloudy days do affect mood."

It was probably because of his dejected tone, the nurse realized something was wrong, and blushed and joked at him, "It's not true, it's much better to be in your ward, where handsome guys gather together."

Just as Jiang Yuan was about to say something, the door was knocked lightly a few times, and the nurse walked towards the door with an expression of "come as soon as you say it".Jiang Yuan thought it was Lin Wang, but he didn't expect to see Gu Lv during the day. He heard the nurse greet him in a completely different tone, "Mr. Gu, he's awake, please come in."

Gu Lu didn't respond to her, but just nodded, and when he came over and saw Jiang Yuan's eyes open, he didn't know how to speak for a while.

It was too late to pretend to sleep, Jiang Yuan was a little worried, the fingertips curled up by his side had been caught, and there was some dry warmth, even though it was not suitable for this summer, it still made Jiang Yuan a little dazed.

Gu Lu sat down beside him, that chair is an honor, Jiang Yuan thought nervously.

"Hands are cold."

Jiang Yuan moved his finger, but Gu Lv didn't let go.He had no choice but to look at the drip and said, "Probably the infusion water is cold."

Gu Lv looked down at his hands, and nodded in disbelief. Jiang Yuan's curled fingers were gently pressed straight by his thumb. The fingers on his palm were obviously a circle smaller than his own, slender, white, and delicate.Gu Lu's tone was a little dry and dry, "It wasn't like this before."

Hearing what he said before, Jiang Yuan was caught off guard. What Gu Lu probably disliked the most was that in the past, Jiang Yuan started to pull his hand back and used some force. Gu Lu was afraid of the needle returning blood, so he didn't continue to use force. He looked up at Jiang Yuan, his eyes straight Bai Zhengzheng, this is what Jiang Yuan has always been looking for, but he chooses to avoid it when he is really seen.

Gu Lu said quietly, "I'm sorry, Jiang Yuan, I shouldn't have thrown things into the pool."

Jiang Yuan opened his eyes slightly, a little puzzled and surprised.Gu Lu smiled softly at Jiang Yuan, without emotion, it could be called soft. "Thank you for remembering my birthday."

Jiang Yuan guessed that he was seriously injured this time, and even let Gu Lv take off his thorns, and even apologized. Although he knew that he would always be soft-hearted, bowing his head based on this kind of sympathy and guilt would only make Jiang Yuan more serious. feel humbled.

Gu Lv is decent, and it pales in comparison. Jiang Yuan looked out of the window at the heavy clouds, holding his breath heavily. The drowsy sky was waiting for a heavy rain, so what was he waiting for? Jiang Yuan looked calm and watched for a while The window, the only sound in the room is the spray of the humidifier. His eyes are big, black and white. He has been in the hospital these days, and his face is thin and sharp. Flesh, probably still like a child, occasionally a little straightforward, but he has always had such a personality, always like a child.

Gu Lu can figure out overnight that the shackles between two people are the shackles of him alone.

One piece of clothing, two buttons, it took almost 20 years for them to meet again, and they still meet again.

Even if they have met, does it mean that he and Jiang Yuan must wait another ten years before being together?

If the meeting of the button is inevitable, then it is inevitable that he and Jiang Yuan can be together, then why bother to torture him and torture himself for so long, isn't he waiting for Jiang Yuan for so many years? Isn't it more urgent than the sun to go to the earth in his time?

He only knows that when he occasionally thinks about his birthday, he doesn't want to eat cake alone.

"Jiang Yuan, I wanted to tell you that day, you don't need to borrow a spaceship to find me."

Seeing Jiang Yuan looking at him suspiciously, Gu Lv put his expression as softly as possible, even got up and kissed his forehead, Jiang Yuan's eyelashes moved quickly all over his body, Gu Lv couldn't help but smiled again.

He chose to face it calmly, which is naturally more calm. The reason why choosing is a choice naturally means giving up.Letting go of the years of hatred in the time when he left without telling, giving up guarding and resisting him, just like Jiang Yuan couldn't borrow a spaceship from the past, no one can change anything that happened, forgive a period of love. It's better to spend ten years than to suffer another ten years.

He unilaterally wanted to circle Jiang Yuan again, in a white, warm, and furry place, so that he would not be hurt again.

The wood rose in the yard blooms so well every year. If he can choose to let go when he appears in the flowers again, it is not a hallucination. Doesn’t it mean that Jiang Yuan doesn’t have to lie here and look at himself with completely ignorant and resisting eyes? .

Gu Lv knew that this soft little beast had finally learned to put up its guard after being seriously injured this time.

There's nothing wrong with it, you should learn to protect yourself.Gu Lv thought that since he had made such a choice, he could naturally suffer a bit, and take good care of him as before.

Jiang Yuan's eyes didn't light up as he thought, and he didn't answer, but seemed to be pondering every word Gu Lv said over and over again, feeling abrupt and uneasy, so much so that when Lin Wang appeared, he suddenly felt relieved , even Gu Lv felt his instant relaxation.