river bank, river bank

The room was still the same as it was when we left. The books were piled up in a mess on the table, the overturned milk had dried up in the corner of the cushion, and the quilt on the bed was half-opened, as if reappearing from yesterday.

In winter, the days are short and the nights are long, it gets dark early and the light is dim.

Afterglow floated in through the lattice windows, and two or three fan-shaped dark orange beams of light appeared in the room, and the water cups, cabinet handles, and teapots all looked blurred.

It's four o'clock in the afternoon, it's a bit late to do something, and it's a pity to let go.

Bai San didn't turn on the light, and lay down on the soft bed with all his clothes on, raised his hand to cover his eyes, there was light pouring down from between his fingers, and there was no sound at all in Nuoda's room.

After a while, he slowly sat up like a sluggish old man, turned on the small cat lamp, picked up two convenience bags on the table, and stared at the light with a rustling sound.

Lianhua Qingwen Capsules are four capsules at a time, and the next time to take the medicine is after dinner.

The wrapping paper of the big snow monster snowball is printed with a giggling white fat man. It feels cold and cold to the touch, but it is sweet inside.

He doesn't really want to eat now, the time when he wanted it the most has passed, or the next craving hasn't come yet.

But it’s like Jiang An’s tall and straight figure when he’s sitting or standing, like a newspaper, like porridge, like hearing a song by accident, thinking about it for a long time, remembering every rise and fall, and finding the title of the song after many years.

because of him.

The remaining two big snow monsters were put in the small refrigerator, and Bai San woke up the pain of the sick tooth after a long absence.

He brushed his teeth, swallowed the painkillers, and drank hot water. He kept his expression for a long time, and stood by the window blankly, as the sun set.

At night, Bai San received a message from Lin Guangyin.

- I've already arrived home, and it's already crowded with people before the Spring Festival travel season. I'm so tired (狗头

At that time, he was holding a piece of pure white glasses cloth and carefully wiping the model dagger. Three times a day, it was as bright as new, and it took a few minutes to recover.

- Touch your head and say hello to my uncle, aunt, grandma and sister for me.

Lin Guangyin immediately dialed the phone, accompanied by the noisy and peaceful background sound of the surrounding family.

"That girl snatched the phone from me again, and I wondered if I was her brother or you. Don't listen to her nonsense, just say a few words, hurry up, they happen to be here, just ask yourself. "

Bai San swallowed silently, "Save me some phone bills, brother".

There was another snowstorm outside, and this one was getting heavier, and the tables, chairs and glasses of water in the house were more peaceful.

There is a brown long-necked medicine bottle by his window, which is used as a vase, and there are two fake sunflowers in it. He grabs its leaves, and Lin Guangyin's mobile phone turns around. From work to love, they are all casual routines.

In the end, it returned to Lin Guangyin's hands. In the past nearly an hour, he complained, "Why are you so good at chattering? It makes me feel sleepy".

Bai San listened quietly, his eyes filled with the smile of drinking the first sip of soda in the summer.

"How is your tooth? After so many days, it has been cured, right?" Lin Guangyin's opening was a fatal blow, and Bai San couldn't laugh at all.

The last time Jiang An said that if it doesn't hurt, it can be sealed, so it should be understood as good.

But not only did he let Jiang An's pigeons go, he was also impulsive just now and got cold.The teeth were a little sore, and then I poured hot water again, and the pain was doubled now, so I guess it won't get better for a while.

He might as well wait until Wednesday before he goes to see the original doctor again.

The brief silence of more than ten seconds is equivalent to a negative answer.

Lin Guangyin reminded him, he reminded him, he persuaded him, and if he said something again, he would look like a mother-in-law. He didn't want to make the atmosphere so tense, so he changed the subject and said it casually.

"Actually, after I came back, it was almost the same as when I was in Beicheng. It was just that I felt at ease, and it was worth the busyness. There is still some time before the Spring Festival. I want to find a job. I can work half a day. Then I can help my family buy new year's goods. That little girl gets lucky money. You can't stay at home all the time, doing nothing."

Invisibly, Bai San got another arrow.

After talking on the phone for almost 10 minutes, someone called Lin Guangyin to bake a small cake for them, and then hung up.

In fact, there is nothing to talk about, they are all trivial matters, just because they are rare.

Bai San collapsed at the end of the bed with a history book on his face. He silently recited those back-to-back knowledge points loudly in the empty room, occasionally waking up to the white light, unconsciously dazed.

Now the part-time jobs he can do are handing out leaflets, restaurant delivery, and supermarket promoters. They are calculated on an hourly basis. After a day of work, he is so tired that he basically falls asleep when he gets home, and he has no time and energy to review.

He wants to be admitted to a good university, so he must make adequate preparations until the college entrance examination comes.He wants time to review, and he needs money for the time.

Inadvertently, Bai San's eyes fell on the model dagger beside the bed, and turned away in a second, with a little luck.The three years I have been with are more than three years. There are times of joy, times of frustration, good and bad, and the dawn and late night spent together.

With such melancholy, I probably can't sleep well.

He brushed up two sets of papers, took a public online class, and took a look at the time before going to bed. It was 04:30 in the morning, thinking that he must go to bed early tomorrow night. When he woke up, he found that it was still before dawn. six o'clock.

After less than two hours of sleep, he tossed and turned and couldn't fall asleep again. He turned on his mobile phone hopelessly, intending to listen to a song to hypnotize him, and saw the group message sent by the landlord 2 minutes ago.

-Good morning, remember to transfer the rent for the first half of the year to my card before the end of the month. I wish you a happy Valentine's Day in advance. My husband and I are going on a trip. Call us urgently.

The rent is paid quarterly, [-] a payment, Bai San opened his eyes wide, and now he can't sleep anymore, the matter of the rent has long been forgotten, and he can't think of it at all.

With an expression of "I'm not worth the price if I sell it", which was more sad than crying, he got up wearing pajamas full of little turtles, and squatted on the chair.

The soft fluorescence emitted by the computer screen, and the two bags of bitter coffee in the cup, he logged on to the same city website and browsed the rental and part-time job information one by one.

Regardless of whether a job or a cheaper house can be found, people have to eat. After a few days of instant noodles, he now loses his appetite when he sees the packaging bags of instant noodles, and he can’t afford the expensive ones. Yes, cheaper than anywhere else.

On the day when he met Shan Jia, a nurse in the dental department, Bai San deliberately went an hour late to miss the rush hour.

In front of him was a bowl of vegetable porridge and a small bean paste bun. His eyes stopped on his phone. The new email he just opened, a job in a coffee shop, and a day off from work was a reply from HR.

-Through yesterday's interview, we have a brief understanding of all aspects of you. Your appearance and performance are good in all aspects, but we need stable and long-term employees. It is a pity that we cannot cooperate. I hope there will be opportunities in the future, thank you.

At this moment, the chair opposite him was pulled away, and Shan Jia in a long skirt put down the dinner plate, still chewing on half of the fried dumplings, "Long time no see, little guy."

Bai San's frown slowly relaxed, racked his brains, and replied "soon", he lowered his head and took a bite of the bean paste bun, surprised to find that there was no bean paste, a little confused.

Although the red bean paste buns in the cafeteria look exactly the same as the small steamed buns, he has a mysterious confidence in his intuition and never thinks that he will choose the wrong one, except for the English questions.

He stared at the bean paste bun, then thought that the stuffing might be small, and bit down again confidently.

One mouthful, one mouthful, another mouthful.

When half of the white bean paste was eaten, his cheeks were swollen, his face was full of shock, and he let go, throwing away the small steamed bun in aggrieved manner.

so bad.

Shan Jia was probably amused by his stupid appearance, and waved to the window, "Auntie, I want another red bean paste bun."

The warm red bean paste bun was pushed in front of Bai San, he blinked, took out his pocket, and handed Shan Jia a piece of bubble gum, which was his favorite grape flavor.

"You are a good man."

Shan Jia laughed again, gnawed on a small piece of pig's trotter, and chatted with him with a sigh.

"My boyfriend is really a pig's trotter. He agreed to pick me up after work to eat donkey meat fire, but the leader made a phone call. There was a small mistake in the project, and he ran away. He kept saying that he would light fire for me to take out. Yes, I ordered it, but, I waited for an hour, and a pork one came! I'm so angry, I forget it, do I care about the food, he doesn't understand me at all!"

"Oh," Bai San nodded heavily, "Is that so..."

He couldn't answer this, so he thought about it in another way. If someone wanted to pick him up after school to eat delicious food, that would be great. Even if he didn't make it in the end, it didn't matter.

Shan Jia spat out a bone, then gnawed a pig's trotter, turned her grief and anger into appetite, and vented her emotions, "This kind of big pig's trotter can be okay, why did I fall in love with him? Thinking about it now, it's all because I didn't know people well back then." Qing, it's a pity that it's a bit late now, alas, if I wasn't too young, I would have gone after Dr. Jiang, where is there anything wrong with him—"

puff.

Hearing the words 'Doctor Jiang' suddenly, Baisan took a mouthful of porridge stuck in his throat, coughed so hard that he couldn't breathe, tears came out.

Shocked, Shan Jia quickly patted him on the back, handed him tissue and poured water.

After a while, Bai San slowed down, rubbed the wet corners of his eyes, and asked in a stuttering voice, "You mean Dr. Jiang?"

"Yes!"

At this mention, Shan Jia got excited, swept away the previous depression, and her whole body was completely new. Just sitting in the gray and simple canteen, she seemed to be in the midsummer afternoon where the birds were singing and the cicadas were singing, shining brightly. .

Her tone was firm, but also a little unspeakably excited and incoherent.

"Appearance, family background and status are too vulgar. It's just a small thing. I have remembered it for many years. Dr. Jiang and I are in the same university. I was a few years younger. I heard his deeds from freshman to graduation. At that time, Dr. Jiang was still a student. The old professor's class is still a major class. Of course, I was not there at that time, and I was listening to others."

Bai San listened quietly, feeling that he was also very similar to Shan Jia at that time.

"The old professor was very rigid. A girl was late for his class. He said some unpleasant things to the girl in front of many classmates. It was kind of insulting. Everyone kept silent. After all, the old professor Well. At that time, Dr. Jiang stood up. In fact, he didn’t really stand up. He just said that no respectable person would embarrass a lady in public, and then refused to listen to all the lectures of the old professor. In fact, there are many But this is the one that impresses me the most, maybe you can't understand, I have had this experience and understand what it means to be alone and helpless."

Then Bai San echoed a few words, he didn't remember what he said in detail, his mind was in a mess, he just had an idea, he wanted to see Jiang An very much, but he knew that he couldn't see him.

"So, he is really what I have been looking for and dreaming all my life." Shan Jia pawed at the pig's trotters on the plate and sighed.

Bai San nodded, knowing in his heart that he was very, very good, and wanted to hide it from others to find out.

Suddenly the phone rang, Shan Jia's cell phone, she glanced at it, connected it, snorted forcefully, and hung up.

She continued to vomit bitterness, "You gave birth to me before I gave birth to you, and I am old when I gave birth to you. If I could give birth four years earlier, I would be bankrupt and burn incense and pray to Buddha every day to chase after Dr. Jiang."

Blindly guessing that the caller should be Shan Jia's boyfriend,

Bai San swallowed the sweet red bean paste bun, and suddenly found a problem, and at the same time, he didn't say it for a long time yesterday.He asked dryly, "Doctor Jiang...how old is this year?"

"29, I'm going to be thirty soon, and I'm in my thirties."

The sweet bean paste buns are suddenly a little choking.

Bai San silently recited 29 several times in his mind, and then counted with his fingers.

—is an old man.