Yokohama Survival Guide

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He said that we would talk after dinner, but after seeing that you didn't know what to eat, on the way back, Zhongya thoughtfully packed two curry sausages and meat bread.

In the end, the hotel you stayed at tonight was a very simple and small homestay, and you agreed to give up the luxury resort hotel that Pengo Lie had booked.The conversation that followed was more personal. Neither you nor Zhongya wanted to expose more of the past to others.

Huddled in a corner of the single bed, Chuya arched his back, unscrewed the metal bottle cap casually, and threw it on the ground.

"...You know, my past name was 5158."

Taking a sip of dark beer, the orange-haired man opened the conversation with a calmness that made people cry.

"That's where we met."

——I am the dividing line of memories——

Yokohama at the end of the war had a living environment like hell.

Inflation, shortages, and the only people walking on the streets are the old, weak, sick and insensitive, who have not yet been captured to fight.

In this situation, three meals a day and no worries about food and clothing in the research institute are enough to make the job of experimental product an extremely rare job.Unfortunately, they only recruit children of a certain age group—after all, the value of these experimental products is based more on providing 5158 with a social reference template.Then, what researchers need, of course, are human larvae that look more similar to 5158.

The hatchling monsters spend most of their time in the petri dish.

In order to establish a specific response target mechanism, experimenters will inject thousands of biochemical agents every day.Participating in these experiments with unknown effects is 5158's daily class.

Every day, the schedule was repeated, until 5158, who had been born for a year, got used to it all: the adult individuals in the research institute were only responsible for conducting experiments on him, and the juveniles would only communicate with him.In human terms, these are his teachers and classmates.

It seemed to be a very regular and peaceful scene, however, one day, the morning experiment was stopped:

Today, researchers don't work hard to calculate and deduce around 5158 and computers; those white coats gather in a distant place, angrily denouncing something.They didn't mean to shy away from the experimental subjects. From their point of view, 5158's intellectual development was basically the same as its appearance. Even if they heard about the privacy of this kind of intrigue, they couldn't understand it.

And in the petri dish in the corner, 5158 opened its cobalt blue eyes, curiously listening to the human conversation.

"Damn O... Union..."

"...Unpleasant... Grabbing peaches..."

"...surveillance..."

The researchers, who have always been aloof, behaved as aggrieved as their "companions".This point puzzled 5158, but, relying on simple observations, he formed his own conjecture:

'So, because, will there be researchers who study them? '

Absurd conjectures grew wildly like weeds, and the orange-haired experimental subject inexplicably ignited a strange affection for the upcoming [researcher who studies the white coats].

This kind of wonderful feeling, after meeting for the first time, quickly shattered——

"child?"

"The appearance is indeed in the form of a larva, and it is estimated to grow slowly. It is currently speculated to be consistent with the growth cycle of humans."

"yes."

That is a man like ice and snow.

Silver hair, ice blue eyes.

He stood outside the glass with the researchers and observed himself.

However, this guy has a different look.

In the conversation, the emotion behind Ice Blue changed three times; at that time, 5158 didn't know what made him feel uncomfortable; however, it can be said very clearly in the Central Plains now that it was killing intent, and It is an unconscious killing intent.

——I am the dividing line of reality——

"...Wait? Are you saying that when I knew you were a child, I wanted to kill you? This... This doesn't make sense! I'm not a pervert, even if I lose my memory, I shouldn't even have a 180-degree attitude switch?"

You nearly choked on a currywurst, gulped down your beer, and complained like crazy.

"Chuya, you definitely remember wrong! I am a child protectionist! Even if Dazai asked me to kill high school students, I would be so entangled that I tossed and turned!"

"...Don't interrupt me! J," dissatisfied, clicked his tongue, Chuya picked up a sausage, and made a wonderful metaphor, "It is said to be killing intent, but it is actually more like unconscious malice."

You are at a loss: "What the hell is that?"

"To put it simply, do you feel guilty about pigs when you eat sausage?"

"Of course not! But I'm not an ogre, and even if I'm an ogre, it's impossible for an ogre to wantonly pretend to be rude when it sees the cooking process!"

"Tch, just take it as it is. When I was young, I felt uncomfortable when I encountered a natural enemy in the biological chain? It's like a frog seeing a snake. Even if the snake doesn't intend to prey, the frog will feel uneasy."

After taking a big gulp of beer, the man stuffed the sausage into your mouth, and continued his narration——

——I am the dividing line of memories——

Regardless of how 5158 feels, this silver-haired man has become a part of his life.

During the experiment, he would stand silently in the corner of the laboratory;

When relaxing, he also silently lurks outside the door of the lounge.

Most of those ice-blue eyes were using inorganic blades, if any seemed to brush against the potentially fatal places of the young: between the eyebrows, the throat, the heart...

Worse, no one has discovered this except 5158 himself.In the entire facility, everyone regarded the silver-haired man as a competent security guard.Even the researcher is no longer secretly dissatisfied with him, after all, he has done nothing but observe.

Being scrutinized day after day like this, 5158 is really restless.

Finally, one day, during the release activity, the young child caught the hem of the watcher's clothes.

"Do you want to destroy me?"

Don't know how to be roundabout, 5158 asked directly.He raised his head, and the figure of a man was reflected in his cobalt blue eyes.

"Even if I obey all the arrangements, do you still want to destroy me?"

Having been punctured like this, the silver-haired man still didn't change his expression.

He just squatted down, looked into 5158's eyes, and said:

"Then tell me, what are you. A machine, or a human?" [Note [-]]

"What are you talking about?" Orange-haired 5158 opened his eyes wide, unable to understand the other party's inquiry.

"you are not me."

The silver-haired man stood up, and for the first time there was a real reflection of 5158 in his eyes.

Gently rubbing the top of the little living body's head, the man introduced himself,

"I'm Darmstadt."

"Then, Darmstadt, I'm 5158." Imitating the actions and expressions of other children in memory when they met for the first time, 5158 stretched out his hand to the man.He even made a happy expression after being stroked on the top of his head, and also introduced himself,

"Nice to meet you."

"You are not 5158, you don't need to smile, because what we are doing is not a human self-introduction,"

Holding his small right hand, the man corrected him.

"5158 is just a symbol, just as Darmstadt is my symbol, that is not what is called a name. Human beings need a name."

"So, can you give me a name? I want to be human." Said without hesitation, 5158's eyes were full of longing.

However, to his disappointment, the man shook his head and refused: "Sorry, I can't give you a name."

Fortunately, this time, Darmstadt quickly gave an alternative solution——

"When you leave here, you can give yourself a name, 5158."

"Unfortunately, it looks like I can't have a name."

After listening to this passage, 5158 bowed his head in frustration, he sighed,

"I can't leave here, as DR. Kourmi-Nouri said, good containment cannot leave the facility."

"I don't think so." A pair of big hands landed on the orange hair and rubbed it vigorously.The owner of the hand said in a cold tone, closer to some kind of machine, "The war will end soon, and a new era is coming. Before that day, you always have a chance to leave."

"So, can we leave together?"

Quietly pressing the hand above his head, 5158 really showed a happy smile.

The man's expression remained unchanged, and he said calmly: "Why. You clearly know that I want to destroy you."

"Because, we are the same kind, right?" The child who didn't know how to hide laughed, and his tone was extremely brisk, "You look more like me than those human researchers and test subjects. They are all stupid, obviously The most obvious phenomenon, but no one noticed here."

It's 5158's secret, and he likes to hide parts of it from researchers that aren't asked.According to the white-haired child, this kind of deceit is also part of the essence of human beings.

Looking at the smug experimental subject, Darmstadt punctured the other's fantasy without hesitation:

"Unfortunately, in essence, I am also a member of human beings."

"Ugh?"

"However, I do differ from them. Broadly speaking, we also have similar properties."

He gave an ambiguous answer in a cold tone, and this time the conversation came to a halt when the bell rang for the end of the wind-off time.

From that day on, 5158 began to enjoy conversations with the cold Darmstadt.After getting acquainted with it, he realized that the Darmstadt in front of him was completely different from the silver-haired man in the eyes of others——

At least it was hard for him to imagine that the physical education teacher who was allergic and joking in Shirase's mouth would be the invincible creature in front of him.

"Is that your disguise, Darmstadt?" With his hands on his cheeks, 5158 tilted his head to look at the man who was cleaning his weapon.

At some point, he began to have more time to wander inside the facility—recently, the researchers seem to be busy with new problems from the big patrons of the grant; compared to those new biological weapons urgently called for, 5158 has temporarily become a shelved project.

"You mean my attitude? No, that's part of what I've abandoned,"

The silver-haired man calmly put down the machine gun, he raised a finger, and explained simply,

"Humans will show different responses in different states, just like machines will give different feedbacks when they input different codes."

5158 puffed his cheeks in admiration, he felt that he might never learn all of this: "It sounds so complicated, to be a human being."

"No, if you say that, it means you are closer to humans." The silver-haired man smiled slightly, and he didn't know what he thought of, so he repeated it.

"...you will feel that human beings are complicated, which means you are closer to human beings."

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——I am the dividing line of reality——

At the end of the story, Nakaya drank four-fifths of the beer.

His face was flushed and he looked drunk.

You eat all the snacks and have mixed feelings:

"...How should I put it, it feels completely unimaginative, Chuya. This sounds like a pervert or a philosopher, no...it's not an existence that ordinary humans like me can understand."

"Are you sure you didn't recognize the wrong person? Seriously, maybe it's just a look alike, or plastic surgery?"

Licking your fingers covered in sauce, you said in confusion,

"This is much more scientific than if you lose your memory and become a living person. Do you think I look like the [man like ice and snow]?"

"Hehehe, hiccup..."

The orange-haired youth's eyes were blurred, and he burped.Facing your question, he answered vaguely:

"It's very similar, J. But, you are more like the Darmstadt in disguise... Small movements, small habits, and even occasional micro-expressions when you calm down... Sometimes, I'm really curious,"

Before falling into a deep sleep, the orange-haired youth uttered his last words with a wry smile——

"...Is it true that the Darmstadt in my memory is a false disguise? But forget it...it's an old story anyway..."

Seeing partners close their eyes.

You sighed, got up and took out the thin quilt, and hastily covered him.

You simply cleaned up the wine bottles in the room, and you took a shower indiscriminately, planning to go to sleep.

When standing in front of the mirror and wiping your wet hair, you can speculate on the appearance of that [Darmstadt] from the past through the reflection of the mirror——

But no matter how you think about it, you can't really understand why you can act so calm, cold and lifeless; after all, even if you face amnesia and the death of your best friend, you can quickly recover and move forward to a new life...

"Wait... Shichaka."

Stopping the movement of his hands, the eyes of the person in the mirror are completely distorted joy.

"I can't be the Darmstadt in Chuya's memory, because I have a close friend, and my mission is to solve the mystery of death. A long-lived monster with no blood or tears, can't have such a bleak past? Even If you can’t keep your close friends, it’s too cheap.”

You muttered to yourself, your hands shaking slightly as you clenched the towel tightly.

Until the deep sleep, you are very peaceful and content, no longer troubled by the past.

You plan to confess everything to Hezhong tomorrow, and ask him to help you complete the mission that has been left behind for a long time.

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The author has something to say:

I’m a Mr. Tuberculosis who has experienced headaches and self-cultivation. Ah——mates, don’t kick the quilt. This is an experience. Cover your face. After taking the medicine, it’s much better now QAQ

I found out that the mystery of Dawster may need assist clues. Yesterday, the boss interpreted it correctly from the lyrics. Today's background music is "Living in the Shadows" by Matthew Perryman Jones.The German chapter has come to an end. It is estimated that there will be the promised Roman holiday in the early hours of this morning. Tomorrow will be event five, and we will return to Yokohama, friends 23333. [Event six is ​​the United States, and event seven is over~~~]

Hehehe, the biggest weirdness, about Dost, has actually been picked up by everyone, it is Shichaka, it is very strange, why Shichaka goes online for a while and goes offline for a while, this is a reminder.

So to continue with this, today’s question is: what is the core difference between Daust and the past Darmstadt?

PS, I didn’t expect Chuya and Daust’s past to be like this, right?I love this bondage so much!And, Note [-] is a classic joke, from "The Imitation Game", Turing Test, that paragraph, So, tellme...whatamI? Mm, am I...a machine? Am I a person? Am I a war hero? Am I a criminal?It is similar to self-torture, and it is especially tearful.

And here, draw the key point, Darmstadt, what did you see on 5158?This is why he gave up on the killer!

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