door of eternal life

[The text of this chapter: A seemingly unintentional hug, a light kiss on the water, like dropping a stone in the middle of a lake, like plucking a heartstring, no one sees the ripples of the water, no one hears the strings lightly, The road stretches under their own feet. 】

There are only three days left for the summer vacation, and Qing finished all five of Kuo’s diary assignments in just one day. In the schoolbag, I took Qing's summer homework home, and I was bored at home copying it day and night.Yu was going back the next day, and between Yu and Qing, there seemed to be a sense of parting and parting secretly floating in the air. For Yu, he enjoyed the days at his aunt's house very much, relaxed, comfortable and warm. With Qing as his companion, he likes to stay with Qing, he really doesn't want to go home; as far as Qing wants Yu to go back to his cold and ruthless home, and to be angry with his stepmother, he really doesn't want to Let Yu go back, he thought it would be great if Yu could come here to go to school, but his mother once mentioned it to his uncle, but he didn't agree.Neither Qing nor Yu proposed to go out, they were not in the mood to go out to play, and just nestled in Qing's room reading a book, wearing pajamas, without the restraint of formal clothes, very casual.

Yu didn't pay as much attention as Qing did when he read the book, and when Qing made any movement, he would raise his head to take a look.Qing felt that Yu was a little irritable, as if his mind was restless, and he was contagious so that he couldn't concentrate. He always felt that Yu's eyes were glued to his body. When he raised his head to look at Yu, Yu lowered his head to read the book again.Unable to calm down, the "Reminiscences of Things Past" in Qing's hand was difficult to read, so he put the bookmark in the book, and prepared to read other books.He got up and walked to the bookcase, reached out and put the book back on the top shelf, the cuffs slipped down, exposing his slender arms, his fingers became more and more slender, the sunlight coming in from the window reflected his slightly upturned face, like a picture An oil painting with a bright tone, a slender and graceful neck, half-opened thin lips, blinking eyes, eyelashes trembling slightly in the sun, delicate and clean eyebrows and eyes, eyes lingering between books, it seems that you haven't made up your mind which one to read Book.Yu looked up at Qing, wanting to hug him for a moment, the feeling kept rising in his body, holding up his heart, shaking it, and it was like a hot spring rushing up from the depths of the ground, drowning his feet first , then the legs, the chest, and finally the whole body was submerged in this warm spring water, swaying in the water, and needed to find a support.

Qing was embraced by Yu from behind.

Qing's heart seemed to be hit twice by a drum, a wave of heat quickly flushed his face, his ears were also hot, and one hand was still held high.Yu was a little taller than him, her chin rested on his shoulder, and her cheek barely touched his burning ear.

Yu asked nonchalantly, "What book are you looking for?"

Qing couldn't see Yu's expression, and listened to Yu's tone of disapproval, but he felt a little embarrassed and surprised that he was blushing so much, and then told himself that since Yu didn't take it seriously, he should be calm , Be sure to calm down.The red tide on his face gradually receded, he thought, it's okay for the two brothers to put their arms around each other and hug each other...it's nothing.Kuo would put his arm around his shoulder sometimes, laughing and laughing.Without much time to think, Qing casually took down the "The Tale of Genji" that was close at hand. He originally planned to read it again when he had time, and showed the cover to Yu. Yu still hugged him and followed him to the At the desk, he let go of him.

Yu stretched out his hand and took the book out of Qing's hand. The snow-white cover, lavender girdle, and vertical book titles were written with a calligraphy brush, revealing classic elegance. He flipped through it quickly, and said in admiration: "Look This book is amazing, amazing!"

Qing smiled and said: "What's so great, I didn't understand some parts when I watched it the first time, so I want to watch it again."

"I've already watched it once, will it be boring to watch it again?" Yu asked.

"I don't tire of reading old books a hundred times. If you read them carefully, you will know yourself." Qing smiled and replied, "And reading it again can better understand the structure of the article, and you can also find things that you didn't understand or missed the first time. There will be new gains every time.”

Yu turned to No. 40, a post "Yunyin", which only had a name but no content.He looked at the notes curiously, handed the book to Qing, and asked, "There is no content in this chapter. Will it affect the following content?"

Qing thought for a while, then shook her head and said, "I don't think it will affect it. From the perspective of the context, this post implies the death of Guangyuan. However, after you read the first forty posts, your impression of Guangyuan is: beautiful Guangyuanshi is a nearly perfect person. The only thing that can be criticized is that he is a little merciless, but he is by no means a frivolous person, and in that era, that is not a shortcoming. No matter where he goes, he is surrounded by It seems to exude a slight golden light, and the face, figure, and temperament are so beautiful that people can't look directly at them, which is rare in the world. His accomplishments in chess, piano, calligraphy and painting are unmatched. Meticulous and thoughtful, no matter the high or low, male or female, young or old, strong or weak, beautiful or ugly, including his rivals in love and politics, they are all full of admiration for him. Even the author herself can see from the lines that she also loves the character of Guangyuanshi Deeply admired, hard to let go. But human life is always limited. Guangyuan’s death is a great pain and sorrow for the world and the author himself. The emotions in it cannot be expressed accurately in any language, and readers It is emotionally unbearable for the people inside. This post, not writing is better than writing, let readers imagine, experience and feel for themselves, at this time, silence is better than sound." She smiled shyly and said, "But this is just my own idea."

Yu looked at Qing in amazement, it was different, he used to think that Qing was different from other children of the same age, but now it seemed really different.In his impression, Qing is a person who doesn't talk much. It's the first time he heard Qing say so much in one breath, and he said it so eloquently. Even Qing himself seems to be shining brightly. : "You will definitely be a writer's material in the future!"

Later, when school started, Qing and Kuo walked side by side on the campus, talking and laughing, Kuo unconsciously put his hands on his shoulders, and he remembered when Yu hugged him from behind, as if the warmth and breath were still there. .

During the winter vacation of the second year of junior high school, Kuo and his family traveled to the south, and Qing spent this winter vacation relatively quietly.Sometimes, he would look out the window idly, in the dry and cold air, the trees that had lost all their leaves, and the sharp-edged branches stretched out to the gray sky, lonely and stubborn, he felt that it seemed to be in another place far away. Yu lives in a city.He would always think of the time when the three of them were together during the summer vacation, of Yu's hand holding his body in the swimming pool, warm and strong, of Yu feeding ice cream into his mouth with a spoon, of that time when Yu hugged him from behind , the hot air between the words touched his hot cheeks, there was a trace of coolness, and he remembered the eyes of Yu standing at the door of the unit looking at him many years ago... He suddenly realized that something was wrong thinking about these things, and he Trying to recall that when I was with Kuo, he and Kuo were also very casual. Last time I ran 400 meters in physical education class. Be on guard, and almost fell to the ground.But why does he always feel that what Yu does to him is special? In fact, what Kuo and Yu do is unintentional. Naturally, this is a very normal thing between friends and brothers, and he shouldn't be so sensitive.He just thought it over and over again, but he didn't come up with any definite result. The thought gave him a headache, and he sighed heavily, put on his down jacket, put on his sneakers, walked out of the house, raised his head and looked deeply. Breathing the chilly air, he shook his head and ran forward.

Half of the winter vacation has passed, and Qing doesn't know if Yu will come for the winter vacation. Listening to the usual chats between her parents, her parents seem to want Yu to come home to celebrate the New Year, but her uncle is still a little hesitant, as if saying that Yu is about to take the high school entrance examination. I am nervous about studying, so I have to take advantage of the holiday to review and do questions.Qing somewhat hopes that Yu will come, Yu is already unfortunate enough, and he is so happy, if this happiness can be shared with Yu, it will make the lonely Yu feel the warmth of home, wouldn't it be great, but he also hopes that Yu will Because something can't happen, he always thinks, what should he do if Yu hugs him again, but then he thinks that there is nothing wrong with Yu hugging him, isn't Yu also very disapproving, maybe Yu's upbringing experience was too unfortunate, and he didn't have brothers and sisters to accompany him, so he likes to be close to him, and, it is undeniable, when he is hugged, he actually feels quite at ease.Qing secretly hesitated and entangled, and finally, a simple thought liberated him from his chaotic state of mind: If Yu comes, at least he can live a happy new year.

Finally, on the day of the 28th, under the repeated insistence of Qing’s parents, Yu himself also wanted to celebrate the New Year at his aunt’s house, and of course Yu’s stepmother’s secret instigation, Yu’s father finally agreed.

After dinner on the evening of the New Year's Eve, Qing's father, mother, brother, and sister gathered together around the square table, watching the Spring Festival Gala with love and hate while making dumplings, Qing and Yu were divided into children Among them, hands are prohibited.At twelve o'clock, Qing and Yu were assigned to set off the firecrackers, and the sound of crackling firecrackers came and went all around, deafening the ears. Huge fireworks bloomed in the dark night sky, incomparably gorgeous, Colorful blurred lights shone on their faces, flickering on and off.Qing covered her ears and looked up at the fireworks all over the sky. She was a little absent-minded for a while. That's what happened to the short-lived astonishment. It withered in the most prosperous moment. Although it was short-lived, it was so perfect.The fireworks were reflected in his eyes, and his eyes became blurred amidst the flashing light, Yu suddenly grabbed his arm, and quickly kissed his cheek like a superficial kiss.

Qing looked at Yu in surprise, but Yu smiled and said: "Just now I stood up too fast, I didn't stand firmly, and my head was a little dizzy. Fortunately, you blocked me, otherwise I must have fallen."

"Oh." Qing thought, it turned out to be like this, isn't this normal? Why is he so sensitive? He decided to stabilize his emotions when encountering similar situations in the future, at least not to show it on the surface. Suddenly realized how Yu was so thin.

On the morning of the first day of the new year, amidst a series of mutual blessings such as "Happy New Year to you", "Healthy body and good luck", "Study progress", etc., Qing's parents took out four big red envelopes, each The names and blessings were written on the red envelopes, and they were distributed to the four children with a smile.Before distributing the red envelopes, Qing went to the side of her mother who was enclosing the red envelopes, quietly took out part of the money in the red envelopes for herself, and stuffed them into the red envelopes for Yu.

After the third day of the Lunar New Year, Yu's father called and urged Yu to go back. He said that after all, it was a family, and it was better to get together during the year, which was auspicious.What he said made sense, Qing's parents couldn't refute it, Yu happily accepted his father's request, Qing's mother sighed and packed Yu's luggage, Ziyi and Qing sent Yu to the station, Say goodbye to Feather.Qing felt that the happiness on Yu's face was expressed too easily, which made the people watching feel sour.Fortunately, Yu can still come on vacation in the future, maybe when they all grow up, Yu's situation will improve, he thought.

Qing thought that as long as the winter and summer vacations came, Yu would come to their house, but in the first summer vacation after that, after Yu finished the high school entrance examination, Yu never came again.They are separated by more than ten thousand miles, each at the end of the world, Qing thinks, this distance also means that they each have their own lives, and it is impossible to always overlap.What Qing didn't know, and neither did his family, was that during that summer vacation, Yu officially ran away from home. At that time, Yu was in the first year of high school, and he was in the third year of junior high.

During the summer vacation, Yu started working part-time to save money, and later rented a house to support himself and earn tuition fees for himself.Although his father would secretly save some private money for him, it was pitifully small.He didn't tell his aunt and them, and it was difficult for his father to tell outsiders about the embarrassing things at home.During winter and summer vacations, Qing's mother would call again to ask Yu to come home, and his father would find an excuse to say that he couldn't go because he needed tutoring or something. In fact, he himself rarely contacted Yu during the holidays.