door of eternal life

[The text of this chapter: It's late at night, who said I love you in his ear, and who flew to him in the middle of the night and hugged him in his arms.The corners of his eyes were slightly wet. 】

Qing rubbed her sore eyes, and saw that the time was already past 01:30 at night.The acquaintance with Cheng Xiaobin in the afternoon made him seem to see a unique scenery that he had never seen in his life. ,So funny.He was lying on the bed, constantly thinking about the fragments of the afternoon, ready to conceive and use it in his works.

The phone rang suddenly, startling him.

"Qing, are you asleep?" It was Ye Rong.

"Not yet, just about to go to sleep." Qing felt strange.

"Then why don't you come to Yinhe Bar, Kuo is drunk." Ye Rong said.

"Huh?" Qing didn't understand for a while.

"In the evening, Kuo took me and Cao Yilin to drink together. Kuo drank too much, and he was almost muddy. The waiter helped us two to carry him out of the bar with great difficulty. Now he is sitting at the door of the bar, yelling all the time. Your name, you don’t say anything, you have been tossing for more than an hour, he is so big, and he is drunk, we both tried our best to suck him, and we can’t hold him. Come on Come on? He might be willing to leave when you come." When Ye Rong said, Qing heard Cao Yilin beside him still persuading him.

Qing asked about the specific location and said that I would go there now.

When Qing came to the door of the bar, Kuo was sitting on the steps, with his head bowed down, and his hands were holding his head. Ye Rong and Cao Yilin were sitting beside him, holding him.Ye Rong patted Kuo on the back and said, "Wake up, wake up, Qing is here!"

As soon as Kuo looked up and saw Qing, he grinned big, stood up staggeringly, said Qing, you are here, and threw himself on Qing, hugged Qing, Qing was thrown staggered, repeatedly He took two steps back, tried his best not to fall, and then heard a low voice in his ear: "Qing, I love you."

Qing was taken aback.

Ye Rong and Cao Yilin also got up and stood aside. Ye Rong stretched out his hand and pulled Kuo away from Qing's body, saying, "Kuo, stand upright, Qing's body can't hold you up."

Kuo couldn't stand still, Cao Yilin stretched out his hand to support his other arm, and the two of them finally helped him to stabilize, Kuo still swayed back and forth, smiling.

"Kuo, let's go home and rest, huh?" Qing stood in front of Kuo, one step away.

Kuo looked at Qing intently, and said, "...um... okay, I'll listen to you."

Ye Rong and Cao Yilin couldn't laugh or cry, if they knew this, they should have called Qing earlier.

Qing asked Ye Rong and the others: "Are you sending him back? Or me..."

Ye Rong paused for a moment and said nothing, Cao Yilin said, "Let's send him back, the two of us can still hold him, you can't handle him at all."

When Qing returned home, she lost all sleepiness and leaned on the sofa in a daze.

In fact, he had already been vaguely aware of Kuo's feelings for him.When Kuo took him to that gay place, although Kuo didn't say anything or do anything, they just drank tea, listened to music, and talked in the booth, but the obvious ambiguity in the surrounding air showed that Kuo Mood.He pretended not to know, he hoped that he and Kuo were just friends, because he only had Yu in his heart.Kuo said that he should open his heart to him that day, but the meaning was already obvious.He thought that if he didn't respond for a long time, Kuo would change and give up his feelings for him. After all, in today's society, it is difficult to express such feelings to his family and friends, let alone a relationship that cannot be responded to. emotion.Didn't Kuo say he was his family?Looking at it today, Kuo still didn't give up, let alone that Kuo would say it so straightforwardly, if he wasn't drunk, Kuo probably wouldn't be able to say it.Tell the truth after drinking.

Kuo called Qing at noon the next day, sorry that Qing also ran away because he was drunk last night, and scolded Ye Rong and Cao Yilin, saying that he shouldn't have called the young master out in the middle of the night, affecting his rest, and another day You must make a good apology, and treat the young master to dinner when you are free.

Qing Jiankuo completely forgot again, so he pretended nothing happened, and said casually: "Okay, but don't drink so much in the future, don't you feel bad too."

Kuo laughed and said: "The ancient sages are all lonely, only the drinkers keep their names. But, listen to you, I must pay attention to it in the future, I must pay attention to it, then goodbye, young master."

Last night, after Ye Rong and Cao Yilin supported Kuo into the car, Ye Rong asked Cao Yilin to watch Kuo in the car, and he motioned for Qing to stand a little further away. He lit a cigarette, looked at Qing, and said slowly, "Ko I like you. Actually... I knew it a long time ago. I didn't know anything in high school, I only knew that everyone gets along well and it's okay to get close. At that time, Kuo himself probably didn't realize it.

When I got to college, he rejected all the girls who had a crush on him and confessed to him without even thinking about it. I didn't think much about it at that time. People with big events don't want to fall in love too early.Until the third year of junior year, a group of us celebrated his birthday in his rented house. Everyone had a crazy time on that day, mixing beer and white wine. Usually Kuo pays attention to controlling his alcohol consumption. After drinking, the result is too drunk.

He tasted good wine, he didn't make trouble when he was drunk, he just sat quietly against the corner with his head in his hands, didn't say a word, and ignored people.Later, I just fell asleep like that, and when everyone was mad enough and left one after another, I pulled him onto the bed, he raised his head and looked at me in a daze, and then said something..."

Ye Rong paused, took a deep breath on the cigarette, and popped out the cigarette butt: "He said 'Qing, I love you'."

Green did not speak, do not know how to say, what to say.

Ye Rong didn't intend to ask him to say anything, so he took out the cigarette case from his pocket, took out a cigarette, lit it, and continued: "The next day when he woke up, I asked him if he still remembered last night. He said he didn’t remember the matter, and only said that he seemed to be dreaming, and it was in high school. Later, I asked him if he liked someone, and hinted to him that I understood homosexuality, so he admitted, but Don't say who it is, but if the other party doesn't know if it's an insider, I'm afraid I won't be able to be a friend. I encourage him to follow up, and he just smiles. From the time I know him, today this is him It's the second time he's drunk like this. You can see that Kuo is usually open-minded, carefree, and doesn't mind anything, but he is actually very bitter."

When Qing listened, his heart ached, and his heart ached for Kuo.He can feel the feeling of being deeply loved but not being able to get it, and he once had it but lost it, and he has long been devastated.

After that night, Kuo was silent again, and hadn't contacted Qing for several months.Qing Xiangkuo has probably figured it out. For his career, establishing a normal family will help him gain a foothold in society. Maybe Kuo has a lover now. After all, he is the type who easily attracts girls.

During the quiet days, among friends, Bin was the one who had the most contact with Qing and met the most.

Qing stayed up all night, fell asleep in a daze in the early morning, and woke up until noon.Looking at his phone, there was a message from Bin, asking if he was free in the afternoon, and showed him the costume photo he took last time.

Qing replied to him: "Okay, come over this afternoon."

When Bin entered the door, he took out a half-bulged envelope from his pocket and put it on the coffee table, then went to the kitchen, saw Qing was washing fruit, and stood by the door and said, "I'll put your filming fee on the coffee table." Already."

Qing didn't look back, she just said, "I'm just doing you a favor, and I didn't do much, what kind of appearance fee do you want?"

"I know. But I didn't give it to you. Whether it's a convention or a rule, the brand owner has to pay for it." Bin took a peach and ate it.

Qing didn't say anything else, he didn't like arguing or pushing others about money, and he didn't care about such things.

Ever since he met Bin, whenever he had the opportunity, Bin asked him to be his "soul character" to make a film, and called him to ask him to have dinner with him when he had something to do. Like friends of 20 years.Some time ago, I asked him to shoot a set of print advertisements for a clothing brand. He was doing makeup and hairstyles, changing clothes one after another, and wearing shoes one pair after another. Fortunately, there was no special display. In any posture, Bin said he can stand or sit however he wants, and his expression is also casual. He doesn’t have to smile or look at the camera. What he wants is his faint, absent-minded, absent-minded feeling. Only occasionally will he raise his hand. Lift your face and put on a certain pose.Qing was surrounded by a group of people, at her mercy, feeling so tired that she was about to fall apart.

He didn't like to go out all the time, so Bin made an excuse to let him stay at home, and sent him samples for review. He realized the long-dreamed entry into the house. , but it also suits the taste of green.

After serving the fruits and photos, Qing led Bin to sit and watch in the garden pavilion.Bin opened his eyes and looked at the garden of more than 100 square meters back and forth three times, as if he had discovered a new world, and said that next time he must take a home and leisure topic in this garden, and Qing must agree to be him. model.Qing smiled helplessly and said that we can talk about it later.

Qing held the photos in his hand and looked at them one by one slowly. It is undeniable that the photos were taken well. No matter the angle, light, movement or expression, Bin captured them well, showing the style and taste of the clothes well. Yes, although I have an indifferent face most of the time.But even with makeup on, people who are familiar with him can still recognize him at a glance, because the makeup is too light, and they frown from time to time.Bin watched nervously from the side, not daring to show his breath, for fear that if he was not careful, Qing would reject all the photos.After reading it, Qing read it again from the beginning, raised her head to look at Bin, and saw that Bin had an inquiring and nervous expression, and felt unable to speak.He tried hard to convince himself: Fortunately, there are not many friends, and there are not many people who are usually in contact with, and it may not be possible to see this magazine, as long as it is not unacceptable to not put the name of the model, then... How about this.

Bin happily took the photo and left, and gave Qing a big hug before leaving. Qing smiled and watched him walk out of the door, her mood seemed to be brightened by Bin's infection.

When Bin held Qing in his arms, he was very happy and took another step forward with Qing, and tried his best to restrain the urge to kiss Qing.He has known Qing for a long time, and every time he looks at Qing's faint smile, he can feel that there is someone in Qing's heart, which is deeply pierced.He thought he had to take his time, Qing is a slow-moving person, he wanted to impress him bit by bit, and then get into his heart and never come out again.

Within a few days, the group of clothing photos was quickly approved by the brand owner and was ready to be published with the next issue of the magazine.Bin called Qing immediately after receiving the news, and the phone rang for a long time before he got through. When he told Qing the news, he heard Qing say on the other end of the phone: "...um... Panting heavily, his tone was suppressed, as if he was in pain.

Bin felt something was wrong. "Qing, what's wrong with you?" He asked immediately.

"...No... nothing..." Qing's answer was intermittent, very difficult, and felt weak.

"Qing, what's the matter with you?" Bin immediately became nervous.

"……stomachache……"

"Qing, can you still open the door? Now you unlock the door and wait for me. I'll go over now!" Bin didn't finish talking on the phone, and he took the motorcycle key and ran out of the door quickly.Speeding all the way.

When he rushed through the door, Qing was lying on the sofa, holding his stomach tightly with his hands, his eyes were tightly closed, his face was pale, dripping with cold sweat, and he was panting heavily.The pain in his stomach made him curl up involuntarily, like a helpless baby who just came into the world.Bin suddenly saw a trace of blood on the corner of Qing's mouth, and his head buzzed.

"Qing, if you persist for a while, I'll take you to the hospital right away!" Bin yelled close to Qing's ear.

Qing opened his eyes, looked at him blankly, shook his head with difficulty, and said intermittently: "I'm fine. I'll be fine in a while... I don't need to go to the hospital..."

After getting along for a period of time, Bin knew that Qing said what he said, and he didn't dare to go against Qing's wishes. He really couldn't figure out the current situation. Hearing Qing's words, it seemed that this was not the first time. He couldn't Forcibly send him to the hospital.He stared at Qing closely, not knowing what to do, and fearing that Qing's situation would worsen, he held the mobile phone in his hand, and he had already lost three numbers of 120, and he was always ready to dial out as soon as possible.Right now, he can only hope that it will be fine in a while, as Qing said.He rubbed Qing's chest, pinched Qing's legs, and held Qing's hand in his palm... He could feel that Qing's whole body was gradually becoming stiff and stiff, and it was difficult for him to breathe. He kept rubbing and pressing Qing, I want Qing to feel better, but fortunately Qing is clear-headed.Looking at Qing's pained and pale face, it seemed that something was blocked in his throat.

Thankfully, Qing's breathing gradually calmed down, and he was sweating profusely. The attack just now made him exhausted, and he sank heavily on the sofa, weak and weak.Bin wiped the sweat off Qing's forehead with pity, and still held Qing's hand gently, the cold and stiff hand seemed to move.

"It's uncomfortable to lie on the sofa, shall I carry you to the bed?" Bin whispered in Qing's ear.

Qing didn't respond, he didn't have the strength to answer.

Seeing that Qing didn't express anything, Bin picked Qing up from the sofa, walked towards the bedroom, put him gently on the bed, then took off his coat, sat on the bed, gently picked up Qing, who was limp and limp, and wrapped her gently around her. In his arms, he let Qing, who was cold all over his body, rest in his arms, and leaned his head on his shoulders. He hoped that his body temperature could make Qing feel a little warmth.He stared at the light green wallpaper on the opposite wall, remained silent, and listened to Qing's weak breathing, which seemed to be nothing, sometimes there was a long pause, his heart was tightly pulled by Qing's breathing, and he seemed to want to Not breathing.

After a long time, Qing Qing said softly: "I'm fine. It's late, you go back. Thank you."

Bin let him go, put a pillow on his back and said, "Okay, I'll pour you a glass of water first, and then I'll look at you for a while."

Qing didn't speak any more, she leaned against the pillow and closed her eyes to rest.Bin came to the bathroom, turned on the light, and took a look at the toilet. Sure enough, the water in the toilet was stained red with blood. The sound of water sucked his nose hard, then returned to the kitchen with his head down, poured a cup of hot water, and brought it to Qing's mouth. Qing drank a few sips, shook his head, Bin put down the cup, helped Qing, and rubbed Qing gently. Rubbing his stomach, rubbing it for a while, then rubbing Qing's back, Qing let him do it.

"Just a stomachache?" Bin asked.

Qing nodded.

"Why did you have such a sudden attack? Did you eat something irritating?"

Qing shook his head and said nothing.At night, when he accidentally opened the drawer of the coffee table that he hadn't opened for a long time, he saw a key with a heart-shaped keychain on it. It turned out that Yu was holding his house key. It still remains, and there is always a trace of fantasy and expectation in my heart.But I don’t know when Yu returned here, it must have been a long time ago, which means that Yu never wanted to come back, which means that the weak emotional connection between him and Yu was completely broken. Broken, it's ridiculous that I'm still wishful thinking for so many years!That's when the pain in the stomach started.

"Do you want to take some medicine?" Bin asked softly, the pool of blood was always swaying in front of his eyes, making him anxious.

"I've taken it." Qing replied simply. In fact, he didn't have any medicine. After he finished speaking, he quickly searched for possible medicine names in his heart. Buy a bunch of "right" drugs.

"I won't leave at night, I'll stay with you for one night, and I'll leave tomorrow, okay?" Bin asked tentatively again.

Qing shook her head again, and said after a while: "I'm fine, I'll be fine after a night of rest."

"I'm worried. I'll just sleep on the sofa." Bin still wanted to persevere, and he knew in his heart that his persistence was basically fruitless when it came to Qing.

Qing really shook his head: "It's really okay, I can take care of myself." A vague figure floated up in his heart. At this moment, does he really need anyone by his side?Falsely strong, he couldn't help laughing at himself.

Bin no longer insisted, and said in a low voice: "Then I will accompany you for a while."

Qing didn't say anything anymore, and he also knew that there was nothing false and artificial in Bin's concern, so he couldn't bear to continue to brush off Bin's kindness.

Bin saw that Qing seemed to be a little bit out of strength, so he helped him lie down, covered him with a quilt, stroked his face lightly with his hands, and said in a low voice, "I'm leaving, you should sleep well. I'll take you The mobile phone is placed by the pillow, and my number has been dialed out on the screen, call me immediately if you have anything to do! I will come to see you tomorrow."

Qing nodded slightly, but did not open his eyes, which began to get wet.