Wind

Xiao Sheng sat alone in his bedroom, looking at the paintings and photos on the wall, with a faint smile on his lips, the self at that time was really... worth remembering.At least at that time, Lu Feng and Xiao Sheng did not have such a bond, and there were not so many people involved.At that time they were very happy and happy.Although there were occasional quarrels, they all ended with Lu Feng's soft apology.Actually, think about it... At that time, I was really unfair to Lu Feng, because Lu Feng took all the initiative, whether it was ten years ago or ten years later.

If... I knew the ending like today, would I still fall in love with Lu Feng?Xiao Sheng didn't know...because the process was too painful.However, Xiao Sheng knew... there would never be a second Lu Feng in his life, never again.

Xiao Sheng held the diary in his hand, it was full of his past with Lu Feng...

"He said, his name is Lu Feng... It was him, I recognized him at a glance, he was the one who secretly took pictures of me that day, he smiled and stretched out his hand to me..." Xiao Sheng can still think of the scene back then, The heartbeat is still fast.

"He's really different. He's always clinging to me, but I...don't want to refuse. What's wrong with me?"

"I'm really scared, afraid that one day he will really forget me, the way he joked to me today, I'm serious, I'm angry...I don't want to lose him."

"His smile is very warm... I feel like I'm about to melt. Oh, how did I become like this!" At that time, my face was red, and I couldn't help thinking about Lu Feng.

"He said he liked me...I didn't refuse."

"I know...I like him too."

"He said that his parents will come back to see him tomorrow. He will take me there. There is a feeling of seeing parents, so nervous! What will I wear tomorrow, what will I say, and what will I bring? He said don't be nervous, his parents are very nervous. Charity. But I'm still very excited and nervous. If this is the case, then...does it mean that Lu Feng...wants to be with me forever?"

"I saw it, his parents... I held his hand tightly, and I suddenly didn't want to go! How should I tell him, how should I tell him, I hesitated."

"Lu Feng broke up with my family because of me. Yes, which parent can accept that their son is in love with a man, or a... person like me!"

"Lu Feng and I are happy every day. Although sometimes we worry about money, but... Lu Feng gives me a sense of security, so that I will not be lonely or afraid."

"I received a call today. Lu Feng...had a car accident...I think I must have heard it wrong! A second ago, he called me! Yes, I heard it wrong! It must be like this..."

Xiao Sheng fell asleep after looking at it... and fell asleep while holding the diary on the table, his face was covered with tears.

Xiao Sheng did not contact Lu Feng for two consecutive months, and Lu Feng did not come to Xiao Sheng either.Lu Feng just puts a photo at the door every day, sometimes it will be the morning sun, sometimes it will be a bouquet of flowers, or a child playing by the side of the road... for two consecutive months.

Every time Xiao Sheng opened the door, he would see the photos on the ground, and fog would appear in his eyes.

Every day of Xiao Sheng's life is painful, he really doesn't know how to deal with Lu Feng.Smile, pretend nothing happened, it's a big deal, and walk away with Lu Feng.It's still a showdown... Tell Lu Feng everything.Xiao Sheng had to admit that he was very selfish, he didn't want Lu Feng to know the truth, but also thought that nothing had changed.

And what about myself?There was actually a hint of jealousy that day.However, his dual identities really exhausted Xiao Sheng physically and mentally.The lack of maternal love when he was young, and the misfortune of childhood made Xiao Sheng yearn for maternal love extremely. Now he saw his own mother, but she is already someone else's mother, and this person is still Lu Feng!Who is Lu Feng?It is the person you love.What should Xiao Sheng do?

Xiao Sheng's spirit is in a trance every day now, he wants to drink water, but when he walks to the water cup, he forgets his purpose.

Xiao Sheng walked to the desk in a daze, and sat there blankly.With a sudden wave of his hand, he accidentally dropped the diary to the ground.Xiao Sheng quickly picked it up, for fear of breaking it.Quickly blow off the dust on it.Suddenly remembered something, Xiao Sheng turned to the last page, but saw densely packed words on it.

In this diary, Xiao Sheng didn't write it to the end, but closed it when Lu Feng left ten years ago.

The last words... belong to Lu Feng.

"Xiao Sheng, I don't know when you will see these words, maybe tomorrow, maybe never. Why did I write these? Can I say that this is my life-saving talisman?" Xiao Sheng He chuckled lightly, as if he could imagine Lu Feng's expression when he wrote these words.

"Actually, I understand very well that you are very scared and uncertain. There are indeed many factors between us. Because of these, I am afraid that you will leave again. I think... If you see these one day, will it be because of me? , keep a little bit of reluctance, stay by my side? Sometimes I am really sad or even angry, why don’t you want to believe me? Actually... I also understand that it’s not that you don’t trust me. It’s just that the reality is too scary. There is an insurmountable horizontal ditch between us. You really want to swim to me, swim to me desperately. I am also desperately holding your hand. But suddenly there is a vortex, rolling towards you and me, you are afraid that you will be hurt I, had to let go of my hand. But you know what? I would rather fall into the whirlpool with you, than stay there alone, waiting for you, counting the days, thinking about when you will come back. Shaw Sound... Someone once asked me, when was the happiest day? I think it should be Japan. Why not Bruges? Because at that moment in Japan... I have a feeling of regaining it. The most precious thing in the world is not so much Yes. Xiao Sheng, don't let go of my hand, okay?"

Xiao Sheng closed the notebook, already crying sobbingly.

Lu Feng, Lu Feng, Lu Feng...my brother, my...lover!

Xiao Sheng didn't know where the strength came from, he stood up and ran outside, he didn't care about other people's eyes, he just wanted to see Lu Feng at this moment, hug Lu Feng, tell Lu Feng... he really loves him!