Daily life with uncle

The reporter told me clearly that he was going to see He Li, which was better than the moment when I faced the lie alone, at a loss and couldn't believe it.

Lin Ziqing, my wife who has a marriage certificate, may have cheated.

He may not have fallen in love with me from beginning to end.

Thinking of this, the buzzing in my ears overwhelmed everything, flooded me like a tide, and the whole room was spinning, faster and faster.I suddenly felt a fishy sweetness in my throat, flowing from the root of my tongue to the tip of my tongue, flowing through the roots of my teeth, and seeping into the corners of my mouth.I raised my hand to touch the corner of my mouth, and felt a burst of moisture, with a tinge of red on my fingertips.

I couldn't control it, the fishy sweetness surged up, the rust smell in my mouth became heavier and heavier, my hands went numb, and there was a buzzing sound in my ears.

In a daze, I saw a drop of bright red smeared on the stall, and then it turned red.I quickly took out a few pieces of paper to cover my mouth, and took out a few more, a mess of paper, red and white.

I leaned on the sofa and got up slowly, and staggered to the bathroom.

Standing in front of the sink, I turned on the faucet, bent down and picked up a handful of water to rinse my mouth. The blood stained the snow-white pool wall, and the rushing water diluted them until they disappeared.I poured water on my face continuously, and rubbed my palms several times, trying to wake up. I knew I was in a daze, and I couldn't get out.

During this period of time, all the confusion, all the entanglement, all the anxiety, all the thoughts all rushed up, blocking me in a dead end.

I stood up slowly, propped my hands on the sink and stared at the pale and embarrassed man in the mirror.

He was tall and strong, but now he was vulnerable.

I wanted to raise the corners of my mouth ironically, but I tried my best to only show an expression uglier than crying, so I could only give up and turn expressionless, staring straight at the mirror to examine myself.

What have I been doing all these years?

Self-righteously exhausting all your strength to love him, to maintain a family?

A home that may not make sense.

I can't be angry.

The blow is too big to be angry, more to be overwhelmed and dazed.

A sense of unreality looms.This was probably the most confusing time of my life.

what should I do?

I used to think that no matter what Ziqing did, I would forgive him.

I love him so much after all.

The Seven Year Itch Part16

I walked out of the bathroom slowly, in a trance.

I stood in front of the window and looked at the road through the glass. Even though it was past noon, there were still many cars and pedestrians moving.

Taking a deep breath, I walked out the door. Before I went out, I covered the photo face down on the table, and stuffed the blood-stained paper ball on the table into my pocket.

"Where's Xiao Shuang'er?" I asked one of the employees.

"Boss, he fell asleep, and Sister Li carried him to the staff lounge."

Then I carried him back to the break room in my office.If we divorce, who will Xiao Shuang'er marry?He is very clingy to Ziqing, and Ziqing takes good care of him, without me, he should be fine in the future.

I don't want to make myself think in a pessimistic direction, but I can't control myself.

I was in a trance all afternoon, imagining that Ziqing could explain it to me.But the phone has been quietly lying in my pocket except for official business; I even imagined whether he could come to the company and explain to me that this is not the case. When the door of the office was knocked, I sat down. Straight, my heart was beating fast, but it was Chang You who came in, and he handed me an invitation card.

"What is this?" I asked.

"Boss, this is an invitation from the chairman of Qinghe Group, inviting you to attend the 60th birthday banquet."

"Okay, I see, you go out."

I opened it and looked at it twice, and put it aside.

call.

For some reason, I breathed a sigh of relief.

After get off work, I sent Xiao Shuang'er to my parents' house again, and lied that the next two days were very busy and I didn't have time.Little Shuang'er's eye circles were so red, her little hands hugged my neck tightly, but she didn't say a word to come home with me when I left.

I have a sore nose.

I waited at home until nine o'clock, when Ziqing opened the door and came back.When he saw me sitting on the sofa, he rolled his eyes and smiled: "What are you doing?"

At this time, the moment I saw his frank smile, I suddenly felt that I was wrong, obviously he loved me.

I was silent for a while: "Wait for you." Normally, I would have gone up to him and asked for a kiss, or said some unscrupulous words to tease him, such a serious look rarely appeared.

He froze for a moment, then smiled again: "What's the matter? Are you in a bad mood today?"

"Are you tired from working overtime at night?" I asked him flatly.

He seemed not used to my attitude, so he hesitated for a while, maybe it wasn't because he wasn't used to it, but...

"It's okay... nothing urgent."

I laughed silently, suddenly a little disappointed.

"Rachel said you left as soon as you got off work, and you hardly worked overtime this month, but...why did you say you worked overtime?"

Ziqing's face turned pale, and his eyes widened in shock.

I didn't wait for him to speak, so I said to myself: "...I never thought that you would lie to me. I never controlled you, whether to work overtime, who to see, where to go, and what to do, because I believe in you because... I love you, I can't even describe how much I love you, since the first time I saw you, since you promised to be with me, all my thoughts have been on you... so I don't understand why you choose to lie to me, apart from going to see He Li, I can't think of a second reason to make you so abnormal."

Ziqing's face was stiff. After a long time, he said, "This matter has nothing to do with you. I... will take care of it."

I covered my face, very tired, and the voice came out muffled from the palm of my hand: "Are you still hiding it from me? Don't you know how I treat you?"

He was suddenly very excited: "Lin Shu, I want you to love me! I don't want to be your responsibility! I know you have done a good job, and I want to do the same as you. But now, you have already taken me as a burden, haven't you? ? You have always faced me with an attitude of condescension and charity. Yes, you are good in everything, and you deserve better..."

"What are you talking about?" I said angrily. Although he was incoherent, I still understood what he wanted to say. "Is it wrong for me to treat you well and take care of you? I love you, I think Hello, I want to give you everything, and you hold everything in your heart, well, I guess what you think, guess what you want, so that I can give it to you, for seven years, I have been giving you all the time I love you with the utmost sincerity. Recently, you have become abnormal to the extreme. I don’t want to think deeply, I don’t want to doubt, but I endured the sadness and irritability to promise you and protect you. I am also a human being. Tired and irritable, but you look at me like this, you, I am so disappointed!"

"……no……"

The more I talked, the more angry I got, I stood up all of a sudden, bowed my head and said to Lin Ziqing who didn't know what he was thinking: "Now, I don't care what you are going to see He Li for, no matter what happens or the resurgence of old feelings, I don't care. I won't let you go, don't even think about getting a divorce!"

In an instant, grievances, injustice, sadness, uneasiness and helplessness all filled my heart. I felt that I was about to shed tears, and immediately turned around and walked out. If I stay in this home that I have paid for for seven years, I will soon be weak I prayed to Ziqing, I want to preserve my dignity.

I walked towards the door step by step, the dim light came down, I walked very fast, and then involuntarily slowed down when I reached the door, I didn't look back, but I knew that I couldn't bear him after all.

Just as I was about to open the door, a strong force hit me on the back. I staggered forward and felt a tight hug around my waist—it was Ziqing, who hugged me behind and said in a crying voice, "No, there is no old love." Resurgence..."

The Seven Year Itch Part17

I didn't look back, and asked him hoarsely: "Then you... want to tell me?" I realized that my voice was obviously tired.

He nodded, sobbing softly, tears wet the clothes on my shoulders.

The house was very quiet except for Ziqing's voice.

I looked straight ahead, and my gaze slowly moved down to the door lock along the light, a little distracted: If there is someone who can make me indulge without a bottom line, who can make me forgive regardless of principles, who can make me live like a day for seven years Infatuation, that can only be Lin Ziqing.

I don't want to see him sad, see him have a bad life, cry, or be wronged, even if the wronged is caused by me, even if he does something wrong, I will compromise unconditionally.

I think that maybe I will never love someone like wanting to take my heart out.Falling in love with Lin Ziqing exhausted all my strength.

I wait for his answer.

After a long time, Ziqing calmed down slowly. He sniffed and hugged him even tighter: "I'm sorry... I didn't mean to hide it from you."

In fact, I didn't think about other aspects at first. I just thought that Ziqing felt that life was so boring. I was sorry that I didn't do my duty well and I was worried about his state. Later, I realized that there was such a terrible possibility. Sometimes, the pain is greater than the resentment and accusation, so an apology is not very important in my opinion.

I did not speak.

He said softly: "I did go to see He Li after get off work these few days." I clenched my fist unconsciously.He didn't notice it, and went on to say: "But it's not the revival of the old relationship. When I promised to be with you, I didn't like him anymore. You can doubt me about anything, but you can't doubt that I love you."

"Then why did you go to see him and hide from me?"

"Because... He Li has AIDS."