we are not twins

It was almost noon when he woke up, Zuo Xiaoxiao glanced at the computer, there was an ambiguous creaking sound from the case, it seemed that he forgot to turn off the computer last night and went to bed.He washed his face casually, and then pulled out his chair to continue working on the page, only to find that the computer had crashed.

It doesn't matter, the files are saved.

reboot.

I don't know if it's the reason why it's hot because it didn't shut down overnight, but the system runs slowly with the tenacity of an old ox pulling a cart, and doesn't care about Zuo Xiaoxiao's anxiety.Making a webpage in this state is like cooking a hot pot with matches.

So Zuo Xiaoxiao transferred the file to a USB flash drive and ran to Wang Mengqi's room to borrow his computer.

Wang Mengqi, William and a group of people have already set off. His room is clean and tidy. The rectangular table under the sunny window is full of trophies, and the photo frames are full of smiling faces with slightly upturned mouths.There is a notebook on the desk, which is specially used by Wang Mengqi at home, and he has another notebook in the school dormitory. Zuo Xiaoxiao often plays with it, but he has never touched this one.

After finding the power adapter, he took the computer back to his room and turned it on.

Please enter your password!

What are you doing so mysteriously?He wanted to stand up and look for the phone to ask Wang Mengqi for the password, but unexpectedly, his elbow touched the glass, and the freshly brewed coffee poured into the keyboard with a splash, and he was dumbfounded on the spot.

what to do?The power supply was still plugged into the hole, and the battery was not removed, so he called A Chao immediately.

"Shut down first." The professional suggested.

He didn't like the touchpad, so he unplugged his wireless mouse slowly, plugged it into this one, clicked on the menu, and a box to shut down the computer popped up. There was a noise, and the entire screen went black.

Send it directly, Ah Chao is speechless.So Zuo Xiaoxiao put on her clothes, put the computer in her schoolbag and left.After a few hours, I returned to the familiar urban village.

I hadn't noticed before that the decadence and contradictions here are so obvious. Everyone, every corner, looks so fragile but at the same time alive and well.There were a lot of telephone poles, a lot of fruit peels, a lot of dogs, a lot of colorful clothes hanging out, and the feeling of excess was beginning to tire him.

On the way, he was spotted by the cook of Fat Boy's Tea Restaurant, and hurriedly called him: "Xiao Xiao, did your grandpa find you?"

"No, what's the matter?"

"I don't know. He asked around and went to the hospital to deliver meals."

"Okay, thank you, I'll take a look when I'm done."

Achao’s store is not exactly a store. It only occupies a space of four square meters. It is located in the corner of a shop that recycles, repairs, and sells second-hand electrical appliances. It is a shared facade.A Chao began to disassemble the machine.

"I don't think the computer is flooded, it's your brain! Why didn't you know to cut off the power first? And why did you use the mouse to slowly click the menu to shut down instead of forcing it? The slower the action, the more damage to the computer. Big."

"Oh."

While Ah Chao was drying the motherboard, he had a phone call with Brother Chuan. When he hung up, his pupils were as empty as a reflective LCD screen, and he couldn't see anything.

When he came to the hospital, his grandfather was holding a bowl and drinking porridge, blowing his breath while telling his grandson intermittently about the situation of the past two days.In fact, needless to say, the inspection certificate and Brother Chuan's phone call have made Zuo Xiao careful like a mirror, and he knows it like the palm of his hand.The results of the re-examination the day before yesterday came out. Zuo Fuqiang's lumbar spine was still misaligned, and there was residual bone in the intervertebral canal. The collapsed vertebrae were painful and required a second operation.However, the property management company and the owner have refused to pay any further fees. They said that the hospital is not authoritative and should be transferred to another hospital for examination.

"How?" Grandpa asked.

No wonder he knew, he didn't even have the energy to figure out how desperate his situation was.

He floated back to Ah Chao's shop like a ghost.That laptop has been repaired, the system disk has been formatted, and the power-on password has disappeared, but the files on other disks have been preserved.Looking at the time, there are still more than ten hours before the delivery tomorrow, Zuo Xiaoxiao inserts the USB flash drive without saying a word, and starts to create the webpage on the spot.

The plan is to finish the webpage, send the computer back, and think about what to do next tomorrow.However, what I want to say is that procrastination is a problem that everyone on the planet has to deal with. There are reasons for the failure of his short 18-year life. The elephant nose icon is driven by a strong desire to avoid work to open it.

Evernote, a program that applies the technology of the former Soviet scientist "father of curve recognition technology", can synchronize data and data on your mobile phone, tablet computer, and computer at any time through its cloud service.In short, a powerful electronic diary notebook. Evernote's dream is to become the central memory platform for all mankind. On this computer, it has become a platform for Wang Mengqi to record his dreams.

Zuo Xiaoxiao felt happy, but he didn't expect Wang Mengqi to have the habit of writing a diary. After sighing twice, he finally decided to click on it.

His monologue about this is: It's not that I want to spy on you, but you jumped out and asked me to watch.With such a psychological foreshadowing, he felt that his behavior was really aboveboard.And I didn't plan to read it carefully, the diary, isn't it all things that moan for no reason.But when he found that his name could be seen in several abstracts, it was not ordinary curiosity, but serious concern.

At first, he didn't read it in chronological order, but later, in order to clear his mind, he started to read it from the sixth chapter, because strictly speaking, the sixth chapter was inextricably related to him.

The following are the notes that Zuo Xiaoxiao thinks are the most important and sad:

6. Title: Have You Changed Someone Time: January 2012, 1

Professor Cathy Davidson's lecture was really inspiring. It made me realize that so many interests and hobbies that I have developed inexplicably are actually the same thing. It turns out that "cross-border" itself is a choice.

At the closing ceremony, a group of children sat on the stage and talked about their understanding of Makeadifference in different languages. Finally, three huge balloons fell down, linking everyone together through their rolling and people's palms.Maybe it was this kind of atmosphere that made me lose my mind, so I grabbed the microphone and said that I want to change the world.Among the crowd, a thin, short-haired woman asked a sharp question: Have you ever changed a person?If you can't change even one person, how can you change a group of people, and even change the world?In front of thousands of MaDees from all over the world, I couldn't answer her question. It was the biggest shock and insult I have ever received in my life.

Later, I found out that the man was Dr. Li, the associate dean of the School of Professional and Continuing Education of the University of Hong Kong, and a partner of MaD.I believe that Dr. Lee's original intention is to prompt me to think and then act! !

The accompanying picture is a group photo of Wang Mengqi and his friends in Hong Kong. Judging from his appearance and figure, he is obviously much younger than he is now. The listing on his chest shows that it was the MaD2012 conference more than a year ago. At this time, the two of them knew each other There are many more months.

19. Title: Thinking Time: March 2012, 3

That's right, I haven't even changed a single person, so I'm not qualified to talk about changing the world.But what kind of person am I going to change, to what extent and what kind of appearance can I change to be considered successful?

I think it must not be ordinary material giving. Small material makes people numb and forgetful, and rich material makes people depraved and addicted. A person who spreads his hands and accepts alms certainly cannot become my symbol.It is necessary to create a brand-new, impressive and unusual philanthropic relationship in this public welfare world.

36. Title: Iamnotalook-alike Time: May 2012, 5

This is called God’s will. The large-format picture album recording the transformation of Shenzhen’s urban villages is placed in the most conspicuous place. The page that is opened casually is such a picture: the camera is facing a two buildings that are so close that you can reach out to each other. The narrow alleys collaged by the buildings we are holding together, a boy jumps out from the middle of the foreground, he looks almost exactly like me.If I didn't know Mr. Wang very well, I would definitely mistake him for my long-lost twin brother.

Just imagine, she looks miraculously similar to me, but her family background is vastly different.If I can change him and create some news effects, haha, wouldn’t it be possible to dispel doubts about me from the outside world, and maybe I can use this to apply for TEDActive speaking qualifications, Dr. Li, Dr. Zhang, Dr. Xie, Dr. Liu, who would be so young? Look at me.

twin?What a genius I was to immediately think of that photography project: Iamnotalook-alike!Yes, use this plan to approach him.

Zuo Xiaoxiao became vigilant like a hare, he knew his name was about to appear:

43. Title: Give me strength, snooker!Time: May 2012, 5

Ma Pingchuan is really a brainless social worker with a big mouth, hehe, it's much simpler than I expected.

The target background is as follows:

Zuo Xiaoxiao, an immigrant, 17 and a half years old; her mother ran away from home when she was just born, and her whereabouts are still unknown; her father is a security guard for a property company, with a meager income; she dropped out of school because of gang fights in the first half of the semester of high school; her comprehensive grades during school are actually in the middle (This proves that his brain is actually enough); now the tea restaurant delivers food; likes to play billiards and DOTA...

Well, as long as he has enough brains, my plan can be implemented.The bad thing is that Mr. François has already arranged a time to come to China, but the kid surnamed Zuo didn't agree. It seems that he has to go there in person on weekends.

If everyone can still remember, the next two people will have a destined meeting, but part of it is the appearance Zuo Xiaoxiao sees, and the other part is the truth he doesn't know.

46. ​​Title: Just a month of study Time: June 2012, 6

I went to Zuo Xiaoxiao only because of some kind of luck, but the sentence "I just learned it for a month" got the fish hooked...

47. Title: MynameisLeftdoublesmall Time: June 2012, 6

Like Master Ben, Mr. Leftdoublesmall is quite photogenic, but a little awkward, as if he cares about his privacy.Strange, what do people who have nothing have to worry about.

52. Title: Xiao Ming and Xiao Qiang Time: June 2012, 6

Brother Vincent's acting skills are really good, he didn't show his timidity after being stunned for an hour and a half, the manuscript is well written, and the title is shocking enough, it will come in handy in the future. 1500 yuan plus French fries, shredded squid, and cola coffee, one word "worth it"!

Zuo Xiaoxiao almost vomited out what he ate last night, and Wang Mengqi paid someone to write a report, deliberately digging a trap.

59. Title: Thumb Boy Time: June 2012, 6

Starting today, even if this transformation plan is officially launched, there is no turning back.I said he was an ugly duckling, he said he was a thumb boy, Whatever!Anyway, it is a fairy tale after all, a world masterpiece that no one can write except me, Mickey.Wang.

The wonderful sky built by Wang Mengqi himself is collapsing.

Thinking of that stormy weekend, Wang Mengqi gave him encouragement and hope that he had never had before. From that moment on, he completely trusted that person.But in that person's eyes?What about under his pen?What about in his heart?

153, Title: Another Version Date: January 2013, 1

Reporter Lin performed well, and naturally pierced that layer of veil just right, and this person can continue to cooperate in the future.

It's just that I didn't expect Zuo Xiaoxiao to take the initiative to push the matter to such a high level, and the effect was even more explosive than I expected.But everything has two sides, and now everyone is staring at Master Ben's transformation.

Zuo Xiaoxiao, to be honest, it is difficult for you to even graduate now, and you still have to direct the uncut and extended version... Do yourself a favor!

Reporter Lin?It should be the woman wearing black-rimmed glasses.How about saying that things are divided into groups and people are flocked together, everyone you know is just like you, and their acting skills are superb.

161. Title: Totally Convinced Him Time: January 2013, 1

Completely convinced!Does he think that learning art is just swipe a few times with an oil paintbrush?Does he have an idea of ​​how expensive the tuition for art majors is?

I can't figure out how this person can be so stubborn and has no perseverance, fishing for three days and drying the net for two days. You must know that no one has ever been able to get away with it in SCC!

I had invested so much in him, and the return was as thin as oxygen at [-] miles. Looking back, I was a little too optimistic.Do I really believe from the beginning to the end that people like Zuo Xiaoxiao can change their destiny through reading?

197, title: not enough brain time: March 2013, 3

Something happened at home!so what?Doesn't he understand that only by changing his own destiny can he be able to help his father and family?But he is a poor guy who can't even change himself!

Another sudden flash of lightning.

It turns out that you knew my whereabouts well before March 3, no, all the time. Mickey.Wang, you are such an amazing big boss!

But Zuo Xiaoxiao sat slumped in the chair, feeling that she didn't have the strength to move.Powerless to resist?Or is it that he has realized that he has become dependent on Wang Mengqi's charity.

201. Title: Talk with Mr. Wang Time: March 2013, 3

He was so open-mouthed, he actually wanted to make his father the next rescue target of VOL!It seems that if I don't make a move again, I don't know where he will throw his face.However, it is impossible for my dad's foundation to help him, so it can only stabilize him.

Damn, this thing is a little out of order.In the evening, I had dinner with Mr. Wang. His suggestion was very pertinent. I asked him to repeat it and record it for reference.

(Insert a recording here, press play, and the voice of Wang Mengqi's father comes out)

I didn't agree with this before, but you have always been a person who will not die until the Yellow River, so I let you try...

(Hey, don't repeat this sentence, just talk about the key points later)

good.In my opinion, it is impossible to completely change a person, and it is impossible to change the world. I am not talking about you, but those guys who shout slogans all day long are just self-deceiving and deceiving themselves.Cambrian biological evolution, did you see who promoted it?Who is responsible for the movement of the earth's crust and the reorganization of the continents?Our human society and the natural world have the same principle. They have the inner power of change. Usually they are silently brewing the environment. Once the external conditions are ripe, the change will come naturally.The so-called revolutionaries, innovators, and participants are nothing more than randomly selected players.

(According to what you said, why did you set up a charitable foundation in the name of your company?)

Hey, it's just to establish a social image and add a little convenience in taxation. It's just a tool, nothing to worry about.

(recording ends)

Mr. Wang's words are very profound, and this matter needs to be discussed in the long term.

It seems that Wang Mengqi is already thinking about how to get rid of it. Recalling all the scenes of the two together this year, it is full of beautiful gray humor than Chaplin's silent movies.

Right now, my head hurts, my stomach is rolling, and my throat is very uncomfortable.He bit his lower lip, wanting to go to the toilet to wash his face quickly, he didn't want to shed tears in front of Ah Chao, even if his eyes were wet.

The last note was written last night.

233, Title: The Meaning of All When: April 2013, 4

Fyodor Dostoevsky said: The world is complex, and it is not as simple as two two makes four, and there is no all-encompassing, immutable law to follow; people are also complex, and cannot be changed by education alone , because people have personalities, have their own independent personality, and sometimes have rebellious psychology. They know that it is not good and it is not good for themselves, but they deliberately do it... The happiness system drawn up according to the principles of science and rationality is just fantasy and cannot be realized. of.

So, ashes to ashes, ashes to ashes, let us disappear from each other's world, now he has no value at all.

……

What is the need to read any further?

Zuo Xiaoxiao turned off the phone calmly, and his face was reflected on the slowly blackening screen.If you have to use a percentage to describe the similarity between him and Wang Mengqi, 90% is the answer in the affirmative.It was only at this moment that he finally understood where the 10% difference was, and he fell from abstraction to concreteness in an instant.

At this moment, his phone rang, and Wang Mengqi called to tell him that he had other arrangements tonight and would go home tomorrow morning.

He said lightly that he knew, then hung up, and then walked out of the house with a trace of sadness, even forgetting to say goodbye to Ah Chao.