Prosperous Love

My name is Zheng Yueze. I grew up in an orphanage until I was adopted by the Sheng family at the age of nine. I know they adopted me to find a playmate for their two-year-old son and a future work assistant. I always thought that I was just a tool. Unexpectedly, after a long time of contact, they discovered that the reason why they came up with the idea of ​​adoption was only because the father felt sorry for the pain of the mother's childbirth, and he didn't want the son to have no brothers and sisters.They really treat me like their own son, so I also sincerely accept the Sheng family, and I am also grateful to the Sheng family for giving me a happy family.The Sheng family is really a very warm family, and there is deep love in the family relationship. I don't think I can understand that my feelings for Zhongjing may be influenced by my father and mother. I thought the family relationship was love, but now I am really worried about me. If I understand it too late, I will lose the person who looks soft and waxy since childhood, has a gentle appearance, but is extremely persistent and firm in his heart.

I have been in Lhasa for a month, and I have searched all the hotels, hostels, and homestays in Lhasa, but there is no trace of him. When he went to Z City, everyone knew when he asked Hua Zhongjing. Now I have his Photos, but not even a single person who has seen him.Where are you, do you really want to disappear and forget me from now on?

Under the blue sky, I knelt down in front of the magnificent Potala Palace, closed my eyes and prayed: "The Sixth Lama Tsangyang Gyatso, please tell me, where is my little Chinese doctor? I miss him , I want to tell him that I love him, please help me and let me find him."

Kowtow, open eyes, get up, turn around, at a loss, which direction should I go, and which direction can I find the person I am looking for?

When you enter meditation and practice meditation, you open your eyes and beg the three treasures to come down to the altar. The saints in the temple have never seen it before, but you don't ask your lover, but you count it.

Hua Zhongjing actually lives in the home of a poor Tibetan couple. The family still uses candles for lighting. Hua Zhongjing lived in a simple environment for almost five months.When the believer couple began to chant, he listened to it, and when they didn’t chant, he read it by himself. When he thought of Zheng Yueze, he came to the nearby Jokhang Temple to kowtow. At the beginning, he kowtowed almost every day. The protective measures made my hands blister and bleed. Gradually, my hands became calloused, and the number of times gradually became less and less.

Hua Zhongjing came to the Jokhang Temple again and found an open space at random to start his worship. He couldn't help asking: Buddha, I haven't thought of him for a long time, but why do I think of him so frequently recently?Please tell me what should I do?

Hua Zhongjing's heart gradually regained his composure, and a sudden word in his ear caused a complete disturbance.

I was walking in the direction of the Jokhang Temple, and I was shocked by the sight of groups of believers kowtowing at the gate of the Jokhang Temple, waiting for their bodies to grow. What are they pursuing with such devout beliefs?Can it be achieved?If it can be realized, I am also willing to offer my 1 life-length heads to the Buddha, or even more.But I dare not put Zhongjing in this illusory hope, I have to go to him and look around while walking.Zhongjing has been in Tibet for five months, and he probably won’t appear in the Jokhang Temple again. He may not even be in Lhasa anymore, but I don’t want to miss any chance of seeing him. A satin shirt and a brown Tibetan robe. The person kowtowing is the one I was looking for. I stared at him closely. He has lost a lot of weight and darkened a lot. Looking at his thin body directly in contact with the ground Contact, the heart aches, what is he begging for?The moment he saw him, his body had automatically walked in front of him, and he asked the question in his heart: "What are you asking for?"

I know Zhongjing heard my voice, because his body paused for a while, but he didn't want to pay attention to me, he still closed his eyes tightly, clasped his hands together and raised his head above his head, knelt on the ground, bent down with his whole body, lightly tapped his forehead on the ground, stood up, and knelt down He fell down, prostrated himself, bowed his head, and repeated the cycle. His pious appearance and wearing a Tibetan robe made him look like a true believer.I didn't dare to interrupt him, and I didn't dare to touch him, so I knelt down next to him, put my hands together, and looked ahead, feeling like I was praying to the Buddha to myself, but in fact, I said that I wanted to say goodbye to him. I don't know if he heard what he said, but I kept talking softly next to him, starting from knowing him, and saying what came to mind.

"Zhongjing, I'm here to find you. I re-examined our acquaintance this month, and found that many things are still fresh in my memory, and I also found out that I was wrong."

"I still remember the first time I saw you. At the beginning, I only saw your small back. The slightly long hair was that kind of dark brown, which looked extremely soft. At that time, I wanted to touch you. It must be the same as Yuan Kai. The black board cuts are different. Then Yuan Kai introduced you to me excitedly. I was surprised that you are a child who can write well and have a clear goal. Your hair feels just like I imagined. Medium and soft. Then you looked at me and said, 'I'm seven years old, I will grow taller.' Although I was surprised by your age, but somehow believed that you will really grow taller in the future, and you will grow as tall as me .”

"You were tricked by Yuan Kai into climbing the tree but couldn't come down. When I arrived, you hugged the tree and cried. I was happy at the time. It turns out that you are also a monkey child who can climb trees, not just a quiet and steady side like an adult. I I held you down and smelled the faint medicinal fragrance on your body. I suddenly felt that this medicinal fragrance was very suitable for you. It was slightly cool and slightly astringent. I was quite disappointed, so I gave you three sandalwood bracelets one after another in the third year of your junior high school, although the taste is different, but the artistic conception is the same. At that time, I felt a little nervous, but now I realize that I just miss that distant taste. "

"Occasionally, I hear neighbors discussing about you. When I know about your birthday and about your mother and grandpa, I feel very distressed at that time. You, who should be held in the palm of your hand, can't enjoy it because of an unexpected date of birth. The warmth of a normal family, but you still have to bear unnecessary rumors at a young age. Knowing that you don’t even want to mention your birthday and want to make up a date to deal with Yuan Kai, I set a date for you. The date of your birth is just the national calendar. I think I will help you celebrate your birthday on this day in the future. After that, I have prepared birthday gifts for you every year. Although you have not received them in the past seven years, I am also prepared. And brought them here."

"I don't know if you will accept these late gifts. Let me tell you. Your 22-year-old gift is a seal, which is similar in shape to the one you gave me. 23-year-old gift is a ring-shaped jade pendant. 24-year-old gift is a seal. 25, 26, and 28 years old are a Bianstone, a medicine bottle, and a set of silver needles. Do you want to ask me why I skipped 27 years old? age? Because I was too embarrassed to say that the present for my 27th birthday was a lollipop, and I forgot to prepare a gift at the time, so I bought it to make up for it.”

"On your 24th birthday, I went to City Z to look for you. When I saw you flirting with a little girl, I was furious and came back. At that time, I thought that my brother who couldn't bear it just became a wanderer. Now I understand that I just I can’t stand my little Chinese doctor turning into someone I don’t know.”

"Back then you ran to City Z without saying a word and stayed away from me for three years. Is it because I didn't understand the meaning of the dice you gave me and left sadly?"

I turned my head and glanced at Zhongjing, hoping that he would take care of me, or give me a little reaction, but the person next to him was still doing his worship, solemnly, without answering, and the answer is not important, my words have not yet Finished, so I continued.

"When I was 21 years old, you started engraving seals for me as a birthday present. I never knew that there are so many ways to write a name. Although I will say that you always give seals without new ideas and surprises, I lied to you. , I am very surprised every time, and want to know what font you engraved for me this time."

"You suddenly gave me a dice instead of a seal. I thought it was strange at the time, but I didn't think much about it. I really thought you wanted to remind me to pay attention to work and rest, and to rest more. After all, you were 22 years old at the time, and your medical skills had already improved to a certain extent. , I must not be used to my state of working all day without taking a break. I'm sorry, I am dull, and I can't understand your lovesickness."

"You accompanied Yuan Kai to drink and drink until he was poisoned and hospitalized. At that time, I was really worried and angry. Yuan Kai's mischief was understandable. Instead of persuading him, you were even worse than him. If you weren't too angry at that time, take care of yourself." If you think about it, you should know that you must have been drinking in the same bad mood as Yuan Kai, instead of just being with your friends. I'm sorry, I was stupid and failed to understand your infinite sorrow."

"The day you were drunk, you hugged me and begged me with tears: don't get married, I've loved you for more than ten years. But you kept calling 'Ze' over and over again, I thought you liked someone named 'Ze' It's been more than ten years, and he's getting married, that's why you're so sad. I was mad with jealousy, you've loved that man for more than ten years, and I've known you for 22 years but I don't know who he is, I thought you He cherishes it so much that he doesn’t even want to let me know. I’m sorry, I’m an idiot, I didn’t understand you were calling me.”

"Afterwards Yuan Kai said that you were unhappy and asked me to accompany you. I also wanted you to forget that 'Ze', so I asked you out and told you to forget him and don't like him. I'm sorry, Zhong Jing, you were very sad at that time, right? I want me to give you a clear answer. And I finally understood that the "Ze" you said was me, but I avoided it at that time, and with Lin Lizi's intervention, I blurted out that you are my brother, Are you in extreme pain? That's why you are so determined to be a stranger to me."

Feeling that the people around me were no longer ups and downs, I suddenly panicked, afraid that he really didn't want to see me, didn't want to listen to me, so I just left, and hurriedly turned to look, only to find that Zhongjing was kneeling behind me, covering his hands with his hands. Face, I know that the face covered with both hands must be full of tears again.

Heartache, it turned out that it was heartache to see him cry, not only heartache, but then turned to the front of Zhongjing, and finally took the courage to grab Zhongjing's wrist.

"Zhongjing, I'm sorry, Yuan Kai said that you liked me and it was a bad luck for eight lifetimes. He was right. I made you sad and sad for so many years. These three times made you cry once when you saw me. But you can forgive me. Me? Can you forgive me for being an idiot who doesn't understand feelings, a coward who escapes feelings? I don't know when I started to have more feelings for you than my brother. Maybe my feelings for you were not feelings for my brother from the beginning. Love you, can you forgive me? Forgive me, please?"

Zhongjing put his hand down, his eyes were red from crying, and the tears on his face made my heart ache, but what he said made my heart ache even more.

"But now I don't know what I should do. You seem to be an unattainable goal. I have been thinking about it and chasing it, but I can't figure it out, and I can't catch up with it. Now I am tired and just want to flee and cry."

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, you don't have to do anything now, I'll do it." After speaking, he held Zhongjing's face and kissed his lips. There were tears on his lips. A kiss that was seven years late was bitter.It would have been sweet if he had kissed him according to his own will seven years ago.The two lips touch each other, and if Zhong Jing does not leave, I will not leave for a long time. I hope he can find some courage to like me again from this.

"Zhongjing, this kiss is seven years late. When I was playing tennis with you, I saw you sitting on the ground panting with a red face. I wanted to kiss you, but I ran away in shock. Now I won't run away again." , you don’t want to run away, okay?” But just after I finished speaking, Zhong Jing burst into tears, before he was just crying, but now he was crying like a child, as if he wanted to cry out all his grievances and pains Shouting out, I don't know where I provoked him, and I didn't dare to speak casually anymore, so I could only hug him tightly and keep saying I'm sorry.

Zhongjing cried for a long time, and gradually stopped, sobbing, hugged me tightly, leaned his head on my shoulder and said to me intermittently: "Back then... I went to City Z... not because of you... You didn't understand my confession, but that time when I played tennis, I originally wanted...to confess again, but I...couldn't let you play to your heart's content, and I fell down in embarrassment, and then... You went to Yuan Kai to fight, I thought...you despised me, I fled to Z City, I was the coward."

"I am, I am. If we had kissed that time, we may have been together for seven years now. We missed seven years. Now let's not miss it again, okay? Zhongjing, I love you, we are together Let's go together."

Zhong Jing hugged me back tightly, buried his head on my neck, I could feel him crying again, the wet and hot tears slid down my neck, but his low hoarse voice came up, that is the most beautiful note.

"it is good."

Before the sincere conversion to the Lama, the Dao was clearly announced for me, but my madness did not stop, and I still went to that person when I returned.

What are you asking for?

I beg you.