Prosperous Love

My name is Hua Zhongjing, Hua from Hua Tuo, and Zhongjing from Zhang Zhongjing. If you have a good history, you will know that these two are famous doctors in the late Eastern Han Dynasty. My grandfather gave me this name in the hope that I would become An excellent and responsible Chinese medicine practitioner.However, I let him down, almost 30 years old, I am still a crybaby, a coward, a coward.When I was young, my father rejected me, and it was my beloved grandpa who embraced me in his arms and grew up with me.Now, the person I've been in love with for more than ten years rejects me, how I wish I could hide in my grandpa's arms like when I was a child.However, my grandfather was killed by me a long time ago, and I have nowhere to hide, so I came to this place closest to heaven, hoping that this pure land can give me stability.

In my 29 years of life, I have lived enough without myself. Before I was seven years old, I looked up to my grandfather, took him as an example and took him as my best.After I was seven years old, I met Zheng Yueze, and from then on I looked up to him, and gradually, it became secret love, love, infatuation, bitter love, but no matter what kind, it turned out to be unrequited love with no results.When I was just born, I killed my biological mother. On my seventh birthday, I killed my grandfather. Now I want to kill my heart with my own hands. On my 30th birthday, I want to return to City A with a brand new attitude. From then on, I will no longer stop and feel sad for that person, no longer look up to that person, and live only for myself.

Under the blue sky, outside the majestic Jokhang Temple, I closed my eyes tightly, clasped my hands together and raised my head above my head, knelt on the ground, fell down with my whole body, and lightly tapped my forehead to the ground, got up, clasped my hands together and raised my head above my head, knelt on the ground, prostrated my whole body, and lightly tapped my forehead Ground, loop, repeat, repeat, loop.Beside the ears are the six-character mantra murmured by believers, and the body feels the pain brought by the hard ground.Seeing devout believers performing their worship over and over again, so solemn and solemn, I can't help imitating their appearance and worshiping with the most sincere worship to Buddha. I don't ask for the next life, I just ask for a quiet and peaceful heart .

In the dim study room, the young Hua Zhongjing copied over and over again the prescription given by his grandfather.Grandpa said that he would eat birthday cake with me after he finished copying these prescriptions. He has been out buying cakes for a long time, so he didn’t come back so late because he wanted to choose a beautiful cake for me?It's really annoying, water is always dripping from the roof, which wets the prescription I wrote, so I can't complete the task given by my grandpa, so grandpa doesn't come back to celebrate my birthday with me.Please, stop dripping, I can't write well, please, please, stop dripping, stop dripping...

Grandpa, you liar, you said that it takes seven years for a person's body to go from good to bad, and seven years to go from bad to good. You said that if I take medicine to recuperate until I am seven years old, I will be healthy and healthy, but I am so short now , who is a head shorter than Xiaozhi next door who is one year younger than me, and now he can even see things blurry, am I going to go blind, Grandpa, come back quickly and get my pulse, and make me drink medicine.Please, Grandpa, come back, I don’t want to eat birthday cake, you can cook me a bowl of longevity noodles.Grandpa, come back, didn’t you enroll me in the first grade? I’m finally going to study like other children, and I can make new friends, but without you leading me, I’d be scared, I’d be scared Yes, although I always say that I am a man in front of you, but without you, I would really be afraid, so come back quickly.But no matter how I call, Grandpa will never come back.

Some people say that I am a life-threatening ghost, who killed my biological mother before and now kills my grandfather.When I was seven years old, I finally understood why I didn’t have a mother, my father ignored me, I was weak and sick since I was a child, and the neighbors and children didn’t like to play with me. It turned out that everything was caused by myself. I figured it out without warning, and then tossed until I was born at midnight on July [-]th, yes, July [-]th, the Ghost Festival, commonly known as Ghost Festival.Dad will not celebrate my birthday because I killed his favorite wife. Only grandpa will cook me a bowl of longevity noodles on this day, and now there are no more noodles.

Since then, I have no birthday.

It's the first time I go to school, but I don't have a deskmate. It's not that the number of people in the class is just odd. It's that they would rather three people squeeze into one table than no one wants to be at the same table with me. They say I have a strange smell and don't want to be with me. I sit together.I thought I would have friends when I went to school, but I still don't have any, and I don't care anymore, it's nice to have a table for one person, it's spacious.Occasionally, I hear some students say that I am a little monster, a short winter melon.Hmph, it doesn't matter, the death-killer has been called before, you think I will care about this.I will not talk back to them or take the initiative to talk to them, and gradually no one pays attention to me, I am alone in the corner guarding my own world.

My home is very close to the school. I refused Aunt Zhang to take me to and from school. I arrived at school early and left at night alone every day, so that I could feel the process from quiet to noisy and noisy to quiet around me, instead of being quiet at home every day. Quietly.Once again, I felt that the noisy world around me became quiet again. I stopped copying the prescription and was about to pack up my things and go back, when a crisp voice suddenly came from my ear:

"Hi, hello, my name is Sheng Yuankai, what's your name?"

"Hey, I'm calling you, why are you ignoring me?"

I turned my head and looked out the window with some uncertainty. A boy was lying by the window, blinking a pair of big eyes.The boy saw that I didn't answer, so he came in directly from the front door and sat on the chair in front of me, lying on my desk with his hands crossed, and asked me curiously:

"Are you dumb? Why don't you answer?"

"My name is Hua Zhongjing, Hua Tuo's Hua, Zhang Zhongjing's Zhongjing."

"So it's not dumb, but, Hua Tuo, what is Zhang Zhongjing?"

"Hua Tuo, Zhang Zhongjing is not a thing, but a person. They are famous doctors, and I will become a famous doctor in the future." It was the first time someone took the initiative to talk to me, so I answered seriously, and then wrote my name seriously show him.He stared at me as I finished writing, his eyes sparkling.

"Your handwriting is so beautiful, and on your paper, I don't know many words. You are amazing."

"My grandpa taught me."

"That's great, I don't have a grandpa to teach me how to write, I only have a stinky brother."

I didn't answer, I don't want to say that I don't have a grandfather to teach me now.

"Why do I always see you sitting and walking alone, no one wants to be with you?"

"Well, they say I smell bad."

"Is there any? I'll smell it." Xiao Yuankai approached and sniffed innocently and curiously.

"Indeed, I have smelled this smell sometimes, but I can't remember what it is. I'll tell you when I ask my brother."

"Really? I can't smell it myself, so you don't want to talk to me anymore." I was worried. I thought I could be friends with him, and I didn't want him to hate me because of it.

"How come, it's a pity that we are in different classes, otherwise I would definitely be at the same table as you. You write so beautifully and look so cute. I have always wanted a younger brother or younger sister. You will be my younger brother in the future. "

"Then can I be friends with you?" I finally have friends, I pretend I don't care, but I really care, I really don't want to be alone anymore.

"of course can."

"Yuan Kai, why did you come to the next door? I almost couldn't find you. Let's go." A deep voice came from the door of the classroom, with the unique hoarseness of the voice-changing period.

I looked at the door and saw a tall and slender boy.

"Brother, come here. This is my new friend, Hua Zhongjing, Hua Tuo's Hua, and Zhang Zhongjing's Zhongjing. He said that Hua Tuo and Zhang Zhongjing are famous doctors, and he will become a famous doctor in the future. He is amazing. , the handwriting is more beautiful than yours, and you can write a lot of characters I don't know." Sheng Yuankai waved his hand cheerfully to greet the person at the door, while introducing me excitedly.There are very few people I come into contact with, either people of the same age or aunts and uncles who see a doctor. I am inexplicably nervous when I see a tall boy walking towards me.

Sheng Yuankai grabbed my notebook and showed it to his brother, and said as if inviting a prize: "Brother, look, isn't the writing beautiful?"

Zheng Yueze took the notebook, smoothed out the creases by Sheng Yuankai, flipped through two pages and said, "Well, it's very beautiful.":

Zheng Yueze put the notebook back on my desk, stroked my hair suddenly, and said to me with a smile, "Come on, little Chinese medicine practitioner." Then he stepped back and sat on the table next to me.

Looking up at his smile, I suddenly became less nervous. He is really tall. I don’t know if I can grow so tall in the future.

"Brother, there is a smell on Zhongjing, I can't remember what it is, you smell it and tell us."

"You are six years old now. He looks much younger than you. He may only be four or five years old. It must be the unique milk fragrance of children."

Sheng Yuankai hastily retorted: "No, no, sometimes he smells at home, so it's not the smell of a kid."

"You're a little kid yourself."

"I'm not a kid, I'm a handsome guy." Sheng Yuankai has been narcissistic since he was a child, and when Zheng Yueze said something, he immediately became upset and forgot about my smell.

"Yes, you are a handsome boy." Zheng Yueze smiled dotingly.

Looking at his smile, I suddenly wanted him to smile at me too, so I looked at him and said firmly: "I am seven years old, I will grow taller in the future, not a child, let alone a brat."

Maybe it was frightened by my "advanced age", Zheng Yueze really smiled after being stunned for a moment, touched my hair again, and said: "Little Chinese doctor, I believe you will grow taller."

Maybe it was Zheng Yueze's smile that gave me confidence all of a sudden. I wasn't worried when Sheng Yuankai clamored for my younger brother not to want me as a friend, because I knew it wouldn't happen.That day, I still remember that the sunset that day was extremely beautiful, Zheng Yueze drove me and Sheng Yuankai home on a bicycle, I grabbed Zheng Yueze's clothes, listened to Sheng Yuankai who was behind me chirping along the way, and laughed so hard brilliant.After my grandfather passed away, I never smiled again. It turns out that it is quite simple to lose and return a child's smile.

I remember one time after school, I was tricked by Sheng Yuankai to climb up a tree and was so frightened that I hung on the tree and cried. It was Zheng Yueze who hugged me down. I hugged Zheng Yueze's neck tightly and sobbed. Touched Zheng Yueze's shoulder.Zheng Yueze patted me on the back, softly comforting me not to cry, but suddenly said: "As expected of a little doctor of Chinese medicine, I thought you had the fragrance of milk from a child, but it turned out to be the fragrance of medicine."

It turned out that it was not a strange smell, but a smell of traditional Chinese medicine. He said it was the fragrance of medicine.

Sheng Yuankai's parents were worried that Sheng Yuankai would go home by himself, and asked him to wait every time, and asked Zheng Yueze to pick him up on the way after school. Since Sheng Yuankai knew me, it became the two of us waiting together, and Zheng Yueze dropped us off on the way Going home, until now, I am still very grateful that my family was on the same road as Sheng Yuankai's. Every morning, I no longer walked to school alone, but waited at the door of my house with full expectations. Zheng Yueze would carry Sheng Yuankai Yuan Kai came to pick me up. After school, I followed Sheng Yuankai or did homework or played games while waiting for Zheng Yueze to pick us up. This kind of happy treatment lasted for a year.The six years of elementary school may be the happiest time in my life. I was young and ignorant, and I was simply happy because of his arrival and joy because of his praise, without any extra thoughts.

Zheng Yueze is seven years older than Yuan Kai and six years older than me. I am in Primary One, he is in Junior One, I am in Junior One, he is in Freshman, and I am in Freshman. He has become the general manager of Shengshi Group.Even though I am an adult, he still sometimes calls me little Chinese medicine doctor, and I will always be a little brother in front of him, but since he went to college and hasn’t seen each other much since then, I understand that I don’t want to be his little brother, I I want to grow up quickly and become a person who is as powerful as him and who is qualified to stand by his side. From the age of 15, I engraved a seal for him every year on his birthday. I carve his name bit by bit. Every stroke and painting is written with my thoughts, but he won’t understand, he will accept it with a smile. Next, and then asked me what font I engraved this year, and then teased my gift is really simple, every year is a seal, no surprises at all.In my senior year, I was anxious because Sheng Yuankai was going to France. Sheng Yuankai was the bond between me and Zheng Yueze. If he left, I couldn’t imagine how I would take the initiative to contact Zheng Yueze in the future. I engraved a dice and gave it to him. After he opened it, he was pleasantly surprised and asked me why I gave the dice.I can only say that he usually works all the time and doesn't know how to combine work and rest, so send him a dice to remind him.But he said that I must have no fonts to engrave his name, so I came up with such a strange trick.Even though he knows that his younger brother has had a boyfriend for almost four years, but for me, he doesn't think about that, he never thinks about that.

Linglong dice and red beans, you don't know the lovesickness in your bones.

Finally, I decided not to hide anymore. Before Sheng Yuankai left, I wanted to confess my love to Zheng Yueze and asked Sheng Yuankai to help me, but Sheng Yuankai asked him out to play tennis. I am not good at sports, but I tried my best to make him play well. I had a great time, but when I fell to the ground panting, he stood up suddenly and walked away after staying with me for a while, saying, "Yuan Kai, let's play a game."

The hot sweat all over my body suddenly turned cold, and my mood was instantly humbled beyond compare. It turned out that I was not even qualified to be his opponent.

Escape from here.

In seven years, we have been in contact three times.Once, because Yuan Kai officially broke up with him, he accompanied him to drink until both of them entered the hospital. He came to visit and expressed his disappointment instead of worry. When I went home, I didn't know anything; once, he rejected me clearly.

On the day of Sheng Yuankai's tenth birthday, the Sheng family held a birthday party for him. I went to congratulate him, but Sheng Yuankai asked me when my birthday was. Yuan Kai insisted that I go home and ask my father, and tell him next time, and then every day, every time he asked, I always answered perfunctorily.One time, I was so annoyed that I randomly made up a date. That time, I was studying in Sheng Yuankai's room, and Zheng Yueze was teaching by the side. He suddenly interrupted and said, "No, it's August 8th." Sheng Yuankai asked me for confirmation, I nodded and said yes, it was this day, I remembered.Sheng Yuankai asked his brother how he knew, but he just said: "I just know." Sheng Yuankai adored his brother again.I went home and checked what date August 26th was, but there was nothing special about it. Although I didn’t understand why Zheng Yueze made up this date, my birthday has been August 8th since then.

Because of him, I have another birthday.

There is still almost half a year to go, and it will be August 8th again. I used to look forward to this special day because of him, and now I will use this special day to say goodbye to him. For half a year, I allow myself to miss you for another half a year, half a year back,

Zheng Yueze, goodbye.