Ah, it's better to die

When Lu Qingrang went downstairs to throw out the garbage today, he ran into Bai He who had just returned home. He was carrying the bag, and he rarely asked first, "Do you want soup noodles?" After he finished speaking, he was silent for a while, "Supper."

Lu Qingrang maintained the posture of throwing garbage bags, and was momentarily dumbfounded.Today is really a day to remember.

Bai He took him to his house, Gu Qingrang originally thought that when he opened the door, he would see a lot of garbage pouring out, but unexpectedly, the inside was neat and clean.

"Come on, change your shoes." Bai He bent down, took out a pair of shoes and handed them to him.

His gentle eyebrows and eyes at that moment made Lu Qingrang dazed for a while. "Thanks."

Bai He asked him to sit down in the living room, and then took out a can of juice from the refrigerator for him. After he finished this set of actions, he thought hard for a while, and finally remembered to turn on the TV and put the remote control on Gu Qingrang's at hand.

Gu Qingrang was dumbfounded.

Bai He recalled his series of actions, raised the corners of his mouth in satisfaction, then sat down and opened the bag. "It's pork knuckle noodles." He also helped him take apart the chopsticks and open the box.

"Thank you."

"Uh-huh."

As the two got closer, Lu Qingrang realized another thing, "Have you been drinking?"

Bai He covered his mouth, "Yeah, does it smell great?"

"Drink a lot?" Gu Qingrang also opened the chopsticks for him.

"A little bit." He frowned, "Actually, I don't want to drink."

"I didn't want to pursue it." He bit his chopsticks.

"Drinking all the time, I feel uncomfortable in my stomach, so I bought powder and came back."

"Then why buy two?" Lu Qingrang began to eat.

Bai He said: "It's a rare weekend, I feel like you will want to eat late at night."

He was careless, but Lu Qingrang almost choked himself. "Cough." Is that what the director he knows would say?Isn't he dreaming now?

"It's so dirty." Bai He looked at him with disgust.

Very good, this is Baihe.

"Wipe." He handed him a tissue.

After Gu Qingrang took the paper towel, Bai He picked up the bowl and started to eat the noodles.

He felt that it was impossible for Lu Qing to have an unstable supper, but how could he tell Bai He for sure that he would not be gay.

Looking at each other silently, we finished our supper.

Lu Qingrang touched his swollen stomach, and was about to rest on the sofa when Bai He spoke. "Goodbye then."

Gu Qingrang was stunned.

"It's already 11 o'clock, go back to sleep." Bai He felt very considerate, "I will collect the garbage."

Lu Qingrang was pushed to the door, and then he watched the door close.

"You..." He raised his fist, not knowing whether to laugh or cry, "You deserve to be single."

Lu Qingrang went up the stairs, and when he returned home, he remembered an important question.Why did he complain about Bai He's lack of winks? Could it be that it was interesting to him for Bai He to keep him, so would he submit obediently?

too frightening.

Recently, there were various special topics in the news center, and everyone was so busy, Gu Qingrang gradually forgot the doubts of that night after going out early and returning home late.

On this day, he was still busy until ten o'clock in the evening before returning home.When he walked to the flower bed, he heard a terrible retching sound coming from the side.He frowned, then walked over looking for the sound.A familiar person was standing next to the trash can, his face was as pale as paper under the yellow and orange lights.

"Director!" Gu Qingrang ran over immediately.

Tears of physiological reaction welled up in the corners of Bai He's eyes, and his voice was inaudible when he spoke, "I... my stomach hurts so much."

Lu Qingrang looked at the body part he was covering, and his voice was trembling with anxiety, "That's not the stomach."

He immediately picked up Bai He and ran out of the main road to take a car to the hospital.

It turned out that Baihe had acute gastroenteritis, and it was a very serious one.Lying on the hospital bed, he hugged the quilt and sucked it, the medicine in the hanging bottle drop by drop.

"Sure enough, I should have committed suicide a long time ago." Bai He only had this feeling.

Lu Qingrang spread out on the chair, quite touched. "You can feel pain because you are alive."

Bai He agreed, "So there will be no pain after death." There will be no hard work, no worries, and you can see the people you have always wanted to see.If his mother saw him and wanted to teach him a lesson, he didn't even think of an excuse.

Because there was no one to hold me, and I encountered a landslide on the edge of a cliff.

"Take a break." Gu Qingrang was tired, "It's almost dawn, I have to go back to work later."

Recently, the workload has been heavy, and the person who took Gu Qingrang was impatient. Gu Qingrang lost his former charm after being tossed about in this fucking day. There were serious dark circles under his eyes, and his whole body exuded A sense of decadence.

With Bai He's other hand, which did not contain the medicine, he pulled the quilt on the empty bed not far away, and then covered him.He would have told him to sleep in the empty bed next door, but he had already fallen asleep.

The next day, Gu Qingrang went to the news center and asked for leave for Bai He.Due to Bai He's absence, everyone's work is even more arduous.The importance of Baihe's existence is self-evident, so they made a big mistake on the third day of his leave and the whole group had to stay to accept Lin Rui's criticism.

Lu Qingrang dragged his footsteps under the full moon to go home again.

In fact, Bai He was right, he had thought about it once.It's not that I really want to die, but sometimes I do have such thoughts.

When he had a huge conflict with his parents, when he was confused because of the future, when he knew the cruel reality and couldn't change it.The arrogance of the past has become worthless now, and when the air-conditioning of life is blown, the price has to be reduced and packaged out.

Bai He: "You are very hypocritical."

Lu Qingrang: "Director, I braved the cold wind to come to see you anyway, can I not have such a poisonous mouth?"

Baihe asked him to come over.

Gu Qing let his upper body lean over.

Bai He reached out and patted his head lightly.Gu Qingrang raised his eyes, just as he knew, Bai He's expression softened and became gentle like water. "It's better to die with me." He said.

Lu Qingrang immediately flashed his hand, with a respectful expression on his face.

"Just kidding." He grabbed him, "And you, live a long, happy life, and succeed." He smiled, "Then you can slap them in the face."

Lu Qing felt a strange feeling in his heart, "What about you?"

Bai He took a deep breath, "I've already slapped those people in the face many times."

"I'm asking you, don't you want to live a long, happy life?"

"Only me?" Bai He pointed at himself, "A gay without the slightest charm?"

"It's not like that..." Gu Qingrang was silent for a while, "By the way, Director, you used to be pretty good-looking, right?"

Bai He chuckled, "Who do you listen to say such ridiculous things?"

Bai He lost a lot of weight in the hospital for a few days, but it may be because he kept enough sleep and food instead, his complexion looked much better.Even with a messy beard now, he still looks better than before.

Naturally, Gu Qingrang would not say that he met Zhou Que.

"Before?" Bai He thought, "It's average, and it won't be easy to see where to go."

Lu Qingrang really wanted to refute, he had seen the photos, he was obviously very handsome.

So this week, big projects are done in a thrilling way.Lin Rui invited one of their departments to dinner instead of Bai He.

Lu Qingrang toasted at the banquet, smiling subtly.

In the second half of dinner, he received a message.

"I'm out of the hospital."

Bohe.

"Go to KTV later! Let's go to the second gear!" Zheng Xiu rejoiced.

Gu Qingrang smiled.

After singing until 10 o'clock, Gu Qingrang absconded on the grounds that there was no bus.By the time he wandered back home, it was already past 11 o'clock.

He casually sent a message to Bai He, and received the message after a while. "I haven't slept yet."

Gu Qingrang immediately ran to the stairs and went downstairs.

"What are you doing?" The door opened, and before anyone saw it, Bai He's impatient voice came out first.

"Everyone bought gifts and asked me to bring them to you." He smiled and held up the fruit basket.

Bai He frowned at him.

Gu Qingrang was dumbfounded.

Bai He shaved his beard and tidied up his hair, and his whole person was rarely refreshed.Even if he was wearing simple home clothes, he looked amazing.

"Okay." Bai He went to get the fruit basket, he tried several times, and finally sighed, "Can you let go?"

"Uh......"

Bai He took out an apple from the basket and gave it to him, "Okay, dispatch fee, thank you."

Gu Qingrang let go.

Bai He pulled the basket in and closed the door.But the door couldn't close, he lowered his head, and Gu Qingrang put a foot on the door to block it.He inhaled and exhaled repeatedly, "Would you mind taking back your noble feet?"

"When did you go for plastic surgery, Director?"

Bai He couldn't laugh or cry.

With Bai He's consent, Gu Qingrang went in again.Bai He poured water for him, and then took out an obviously old photo album from the bedroom and gave it to him.

Lu Qingrang opened the photo album, and admired it.

This is really a growth photo album of handsome guys who grew up well.

But this photo album is limited to Bai He, who is in his 20s.He was lying on the table of the bar, giggling, he probably didn't shave that day, and he had a slightly gloomy atmosphere.

Bai He packed his things in the bedroom, leaving Gu Qing alone in the living room.

Looking at the last photo, Lu Qingrang felt an inexplicable sense of familiarity.

Although it was unbelievable to say such a thing, he seemed to feel that he had seen this person before.

Not just Bai He, but the Bai He in this photo.

This bar...

It was the bar over there when he was in high school.

Lu Qingrang kept leaning forward to look at the photo.

"Gu Qingrang! Let's go to the bar together!"

Yes, he is not such an honest kid, he did go to bars in high school.

"play games!"

He really used to play those crazy games with them all the time and do some really outrageous things.

"Go kiss that man!

"Tongue kiss!

"Tongue kiss!"

Lu Qingrang's hand softened, and the photo album slipped from his hand and fell straight to the ground.

His eyes were wide open, and his whole body seemed to be struck by a thunderbolt.

"What's wrong?" Bai He just came out of the bedroom and looked at him suspiciously.

Gu Qing let his throat dry, and gulped.

He remembered that he used to go to the bar with those crazy classmates, and when he lost the game, he was directed by them to kiss a man who was drunk in the bar.

At that time, he walked over, looked at his good-looking face, and smiled when he leaned over.

"Brother, let's kiss."

He held the back of his head with one hand, and kissed his lips.

In his memory, there were stars twinkling in his eyes widened with shock.

The author has something to say:

Maybe it's because the novel next door is over, and I'm in a state of coming~going to be happy~.I have been playing for a long time~~

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