Treat hypocrisy

July 2045, 7.His tenth year.

I always thought that one day I could forget him.

I'm wrong.

The diary spread out on the table was blown to pieces by the wind.Ling Xiao returned to his residence outside the human gathering area, opened his eyes, waited for the mottled roof, and thought about life.

After submitting the task this time, he received a generous reward.

Perhaps it was another near-death experience, Ling Xiao felt that the time he recalled was getting longer and longer recently.

Some people have said that when a person starts to recall the past often, it means that he is getting old.

Thinking of this, Ling Xiao's face showed a look of distress.

For ten years, I haven't changed in any way, and I don't even know how he died.

Heidegger said that life has meaning only when it is towards death.Without the threat of death, life becomes cheap.He has lived for ten years without knowing why, wandering aimlessly in the world like the lowest zombie.Perhaps the only difference between him and zombies lies in memory.When he gradually couldn't tell the difference between his own zombies, his subconscious mind began to replay the memory over and over again, bluffing to emphasize that he was still a human being and had not fallen, even though this memory always made him feel painful.

It's not that he didn't think about whether this was Bai Jing's punishment for him, and then he denied it with a wry smile, why lie to himself, this is probably a self-protection mechanism, because the relationship is broken at the most regrettable moment, so he is always there Avoid responsibility and glorify yourself as a victim.The superego despised and laughed at his naivety, the id... the id probably died along with Bai Jing.He has developed a growing dislike for food, sleeps very short and wakes up easily, has lived alone for years, has lost all social needs, and has no idea what makes him happy.

My body has become the prison of my soul[1].

After the end of the world, Ling Xiao took Bai Jing to join his father's friend.That is a very mysterious person, very powerful in the north.On the way, Ling Xiao's ability awakened and he developed a high fever.

Bai Jing grew up being pampered, and his mother divorced him when he was very young. Since he came to the Ling family, he has been doted on in every possible way, always teasing others, but he never gets hurt.

Ling Xiao found that he had a fever and was very anxious.They were running out of food, and if he couldn't get better, Bai Jing might starve.He even thought that if other teams passed by here, Bai Jing would definitely follow them.

But he didn't leave.

In fact, Ling Xiao had never seen Bai Jing like this.

He had a usual unscrupulous smile, but his face was dirty with a lot of dirt, and his white shirt was already torn, revealing the scratches on his waist.Ling Xiao struggled and stretched out his hand, wanting him to put down the medicine he got from the pharmacy outside, but Bai Jing grabbed his hand.

"You have to be obedient. I took a lot of ugly photos of you. If you don't obey, I will post all your black history on the Internet." Dirty little fox.

Ling Xiao knew that there were two or three zombies wandering downstairs all the time, and Bai Jing was alone with the broken leg of a chair, risking his life to find medicine at the pharmacy, and also went to the abandoned supermarket to find food.

Ling Xiao had a fever and felt hot, so Bai Jing rubbed his body with alcohol brought from the pharmacy.He felt cold again in the middle of the night, so Bai Jing took off his clothes and hugged him to sleep.

At that time neither Bai Jing nor Ling Xiao knew how long Ling Xiao would be sick with this illness.On the third day of fever, Ling Xiao asked Bai Jing to bring his letter to his father's friend and seek shelter while he was awake.But Bai Jing refused to even give him a pen and paper.

Bai Jing gently wrapped his arms around his shoulders, and the days of day and night taking care of him made him mentally exhausted, and he just muttered in a daze, "I haven't used your black history yet."

One day, Bai Jing made porridge for him, and as soon as he handed it to him, he jumped away with a scream, and the porridge fell to the ground.Ling Xiao took a closer look, and there was a golden electric current flashing across his fingertips from time to time. Thinking of the other supernatural beings he saw on the road, he guessed that he had also evolved supernatural powers.The haze of the past few days was swept away, and he smiled at Bai Jing, "I have a supernatural power, and I won't make you suffer again in the future."

"Of course, I will never leave you, and you must make it up to me."

After arriving in the north, Ling Xiao joined his father's friend's team of supernatural beings.Bai Jing doesn't have supernatural powers, so he would go out with them on weekdays. At first, he was only responsible for driving, but in just a few days, he got blackened a few shades, and then gradually joined the attack. Although he was still weak among a group of supernatural beings, But it was enough to protect myself.

There is a healing power user named Cheng Shui in the team.From the first day they met, they always confronted Bai Jing tit for tat.Bai Jing has been a young prince for many years, and he can't bear any grievances. Every time he is run on, he has to go back immediately, and he doesn't stay at night to affect the quality of sleep.

Ling Xiao thought it was funny, but he didn't expect Cheng Shui to have such deep resentment towards him.It is not so much resentment as it is jealousy.As the only mid-level healing ability user in the team, Cheng Shui was not willing to be wronged, especially when he found that no matter how hard he tried, he couldn't get in between Ling Xiao and Bai Jing.

The two are brothers in name, and they behave well on weekdays, and rarely have ambiguous actions, but there is an aura between them, and there is a strange tacit understanding between their frowns and smiles, which makes people unable to get close.

Cheng Shui liked Ling Xiao, he liked it at first sight.All the good things in Ling Xiao are what he wished for.

Jealousy can create demons in people.

July 2035, 7.Ling Xiao's birthday.Early in the morning, Bai Jing mysteriously prepared a birthday present, Ling Xiao went over to see it, but he slapped him away.

But the birthday celebration of the two did not go as expected.Suddenly there was a zombie attack, and everyone went out to fight the zombies.

Bai Jing clapped his hands, wiped the flour off his face, and followed him out.

So what happened after that day was the memories that Ling Xiao had undergone constant repression, denial, distortion, reconstruction, and forced replay in the past ten years.

Cheng Shui pretended to miss and pushed Bai Jing into a group of zombies.Ling Xiao rushed over to block the attack for him, but he hugged him tightly, watching him being scratched by the zombies.

Ling Xiao was also pierced through the back by the zombie's claws, almost hurting his heart.No one expected that at this time, Bai Jing's healing ability erupted, and he dragged back Ling Xiao's leg that had stepped into hell.

He gave Ling Xiao all the abilities he used for the first time.Then he closed his eyes himself.

Ling Xiao began to lose control of his abilities, the lightning in his body burst out uncontrollably.

For a moment, apart from Bai Jing in his arms, there was no living creature standing around him.

Ling Xiao hugged Bai Jing and walked back to the residence.

He passed a bakery.An abandoned bakery.

He knew this cake shop because Bai Jing used to love it.Bai Jing went to this cake shop yesterday and boasted that he wanted to find out their recipes.

He paused without stopping.

Bai Jing is in his arms, and has become a corpse. His body has begun to stiffen, and his body spots have begun to develop. After two days, the stiffness will be relieved. He should be buried properly by Bai Jing. Bai Jing has talked a lot about wanting to be together in the future Suddenly, there is no need to prepare for things to do.

He put Bai Jing on the bed, went to the bathroom to find a towel, and wanted to wipe Bai Jing's body.

Passing by the kitchen, I remembered that in the morning Bai Jing stretched out his flour-stained hand and slapped his face away.

He went into the kitchen.

There is a lump of dough on the chopping board.

Next to it is a small biscuit recipe printed on beige paper.

Below the recipe is a cake shop wrapper.

His hands trembled a little.He pulled out the wrapping paper.

A line of words is printed in a cute font.

"If you love him, just be his cookie."

Ling Xiao felt his body hurt from his fingers.The pain slowly spread throughout the body.He huddled next to the sliding door of the kitchen, crying with tears streaming down his face.

The author has something to say:

【small theater】

Bai Jing: Oh, I still haven't eaten the cookies...

Ling Xiao: What to eat, you have tooth decay.

Bai Jing: You elbow away!

[1] Michel Foucault