Belly Trojan

"It was the guide who brought me here, a mountain man," Ling Yanzhi said quietly, he had completely calmed down, "He wanted to abduct me from the hospital, I don't know if it was because of me, or because I was a pregnant woman. Pregnant OMEGA... He said that there is a way to save the child and let me go with him. I was anxious to leave there immediately and escape to find you. I knew you were here so..."

Ling Yanzhi finally started to talk about what happened at that time.His memory of that time was also muddled, so he can only briefly outline it.But he did not say why he escaped.Fan Shu just listened, looking intently at the slim and tall Omega in front of him, with his hands folded.Is it bad to remove the artificial uterus?Isn't that what he longed for?He'd wanted to escape from being an OMEGA for a long time; and this was probably the way to really save his life.We all know the horrors of Myers' disease, and no one blames him.But he escaped, although it is said that fear can make people do many unreasonable things, but it is unlikely that it happened to Ling Yanzhi.

"He said that he wanted to take me to see the wolf head. It should be true. The hospital is in charge of favors, and he can pass the checkpoints and outposts all the way, and drive the car to the col. Only one person can take me in the mountains in the middle of the night. …If there is no strong enough backing, it will not work. If it is not just right, if there is a firefight, maybe everything will go well. Because of the gunshots ahead, we had to abandon the car and walk. At that time, I still couldn’t think about it, but My body told me to run away, so I ran along the mountain road...the man pinned me to the ground with this machine on him. Then the hounds came after me." Ling Yanzhi said intermittently while propping his forehead , "We fell into the stream of the mountain col together, and I saw him communicate with a monograph. I realized that he was organized and prepared. Once I went to their territory with him, I didn't even have the right to choose." Yes. Survival got the upper hand at that time, and I knew that once he contacted others, no matter what he wanted to do with me, I would never escape. Fortunately, the hounds were chasing us, and we fell into the river , he fell and was injured."

Zhou Quan stared closely at this weak OMEGA, he knew too well how much the mountain people knew about this place. "Did he fall and hurt himself?"

"I'm a very valuable commodity. He couldn't bear to let me get hurt, so he had to get hurt himself... This also made me confirm my opinion: he can't be allowed to contact his organization."

This bean sprouts from the city will fall when the wind blows, pregnant, and suffering from a terminal illness, just now, like every OMEGA, she was crying and messing with her husband, using extremely boring jealousy.But think about it, even though he suffered a huge mental blow and was extremely unfavorable, he was still able to judge his situation calmly and make an immediate decision—even if it was a decision to kill someone.He may be more dangerous than anyone the old Orion has ever met in his life, which made Zhou Quan vigilant, "If you killed him, if you wanted to escape, why did you wear a one-way device? That would reveal your position, right?"

"In order to take the initiative. If one day I want to sell myself, at least the payee must be myself." Ling Yanzhi said flatly, looking at Fan Shu, "Now, you want to see the wolf head, right? You You also need to talk to him about Yihua Zang’s business. You take this and talk to him; tell him that you have someone he wants.” He unknowingly removed the battery on the heater and gave it to the one-way instrument. After charging it, and without even asking for the consent of the two ALPHAs in front of him, he pressed the switch of sending the letter neatly.

"Your wife is a lunatic." Zhou Quan said to Fan Shu, "I have never seen such a lunatic. There are many outlaws in Yuncheng, especially those who work in our profession. I have seen a lot. But none are crazier than him. It's gone."

Fan Shu looked at Ling Yanzhi's back, and finally said, "He has suffered a lot."

"Is this normal? He doesn't even feel scared."

"He's scared."

"I was scared for about an hour, judging by the speed at which I smoke."

Fan Shu smiled, and even looked a little shy, as if he was very proud; in fact, he was also covering up his nervousness and anxiety.He is going to sell his wife to the leader of the hunters because they are looking for him.He wanted to find out why they did this.After the communication was connected, the other party was simply willing to cease the war and accept the "deal", and even allowed such harsh "conditions" as a private meeting.Fan Shu made it clear that he belonged to the prince, but also implicitly revealed that this was a personal transaction.He knew that the more harsh and cautious and the more conditions were attached, the more the other party would believe what he said.And the more obedient the other party is, the more it shows the importance of this matter.

But after he finished the communication, looking at Ling Yanzhi lying beside the stream that almost killed him yesterday and couldn't stop vomiting, he suddenly realized something. "You should go to the hospital."

Ling Yanzhi washed his face, his face was covered with crystal drops of water, he raised his head and smiled.

"...I don't have much time left and I don't want to waste it in the hospital. Do you know how much time I've spent in the hospital in my life?"

Fan Shu couldn't stand him talking lightly like this, as if he was talking about other people's affairs.He raised his voice: "Then what do you want to do here?"

"I saw babies in Yihuazang's factory. I want to find out if those babies are real. If you've been here all this time, you should have known about it?"

Fan Shu glared at him. "I know. But what if you figure it out? I can do this kind of thing."

Ling Yanzhi looked at him with a sarcastic arc on the corner of his mouth. "And then? What about me? I'm lying on the hospital bed waiting to die, before turning into a puddle of blood. Can you tell me how many medals you have won?"

He spoke very loudly, and when he finished speaking, he was suddenly startled, knowing that he might have revealed Fan Shu's identity in front of Zhou Quan.But Fan Shu didn't realize it at all, he seemed to have been slapped in the face. "Those are all liars," he said bluntly. "The people who made them are criminals and murderers!"

"It's useless for you to scare me, I'm also a murderer." Ling Yanzhi said, "Don't look at me with your righteous eyes, I have killed people before this time, I told you! I am such a person .You don’t know me at all. I’ve been in jail and even in a psychiatric hospital for a while. I’m paranoid or something, why do you care about me?!”

Zhouquan, on the other hand, raised his head slowly and said, "It's true, those babies. Otherwise, why are there so many people crowded in Yuncheng?" He sighed, "But that's too difficult. Now, when I'm old, You will think, is it really important? Reproduction, human survival, is it worth fighting so much? People are mortal. Is this important? Is it important enough for you to quarrel? You are like just now Hug me." But Fan Shu turned around and walked away, Ling Yanzhi started to vomit again, his face turned pale.

Fan Shu hid behind the tree, holding his head, twisting the cigarette with his fingertips, and the filter tip was crushed into powder. "I don't want to quarrel with him," he said to Zhou Quan. The old Orion seemed to have a fatherly air, and neither of the two young men had a father. "He came to rely on me. I am so happy. He never relies on anyone. I used to ask him if there is anything he wants or wants to buy, but he doesn't have it. Whatever I buy him, he says, okay, thank you. He's like a delicate doll that I can play around with. It's finally gone now, but I was just looking at him and it occurred to me that I'm going to lose him, soon, like I'm losing all of my family." His head bowed If you can’t see it, bury it in your arms, "But even so, I can accept it. I can talk to him with a smile, hug him and kiss him. But he doesn’t seem to care at all,...he doesn’t care about his own life, he doesn’t care Whether I am alive, whether I am hurt, whether I am in pain.... He doesn't care about what I care about most, he has never cared. I used to think he was out to get revenge on me, but now I know he is not, he seems to be revenge on himself, Or take revenge on the world. I don't know what to do... I can't save him, I can't stop him, I can't even make him feel better. The more I show that I care about him, the more he resists."

Zhou Quan listened quietly.He finally said: "I also had a child before, probably about the same age as you are now, at that time. He was gay - it was still said that way at that time, there was such a word, and it was called transvestite at that time, he liked to put Dressing himself as a woman, wearing a dress, wearing his mother's lipstick."

"It used to be secretly, and we didn't dare to let us find out. Later, he went to study abroad, came into contact with new ideas and so on, and made a boyfriend. They came back holding hands, and they came out to me—how do you say that word? ?That's when I finally broke down and his mom screamed hysterically and I hit him hard. I beat him and blamed myself for being too nice to him and not teaching him manhood like this. His mom Arranged a lot of blind dates for him and forced him to go. His mother said that his problem was that he had never been in touch with women, and he didn’t know how good women are; when he married a woman, his disease would be cured. He refuted, using A set of modern learning to prove it. I said it is abnormal, men and men should not be together, it is disgusting, against the laws of nature, unless he understands, he will never come back, don't recognize me again Father."

Fan Shu looked up at him in shock.He was young when Myers' disease hit, and his generation's views were far less solid.They have been with men almost since they went to school. Even if they have the idea of ​​​​"violating the laws of nature" in theory, in practice, at least they will not feel disgusting.

This is really strange, the gap that was considered absolutely insurmountable back then has been crossed so easily.

"and after?"

"Then he came back again. This time he had sex reassignment surgery abroad and became a woman completely. He looked healthy and happy, as if he was finally himself again. He said to me, Dad, I am now Now that you are a woman, you can be with the person I love openly and aboveboard."

Fan Shu didn't ask further, he thought he knew the ending of the story.Zhou Quan laughed: "You thought he died of Myers' disease, right? No. He was killed by me. I told him, I only have a son, no daughter, and I don't even know a ladyboy. How can we look up in front of our neighbors? I scolded him bitterly, saying that we gave birth to a son, but he insisted on saying that he was a woman, and turned into such a shameful appearance. In fact, he is nothing, he is just a fake and shoddy product. His mother didn't want to see him, saying that her son died, and she didn't want to live anymore. When he collapsed, I gave him another fatal blow: I said man You can have children with a woman, that life is complete, what are you? You are just a cock with its hair pulled out, a eunuch, a liar, and you will never have children."

"He committed suicide, a month before the onset of Myers' disease."

The old Orion looked at the mountains in the distance. "I didn't even go to his funeral, and then 20 years passed like this. Now, I can also be with other men, as I said, against the laws of nature. Because a person has no There is no way to live, it is too lonely, there is no way, is it because homosexuality is not at all—or there is no such line from the beginning. This line is drawn by ourselves. What is right and what is wrong, What should be and what should not be. People of our generation have to be tortured like this repeatedly every day, pretending that this is normal. I quickly accepted it, as you said, it is actually revenge on me Myself, fate gave me a slap in the face. I think if my son is alive now, he should be quite happy, no need to pretend anymore, no one will think he is a different kind, everyone is like this, he will be There are very few normal people in this society who are really happy. It's so stupid, obviously it only needs to last for another month."

He stopped. "I understand now that there is nothing more important than holding someone you care about. If I were given the chance to go back, I would hold him and tell him I don't care if he has children or not. What does it matter? ?Why do we have to risk our lives, give up our dignity, and even leave our lover? I like to see you hugging together, which tells me that love has not disappeared. I have watched it disappear with my own eyes for so many years, all for the sake of fertility. It seems Passing on the family line is our only goal. Our generation lives like pigs waiting to be bred in a pigsty without needing love. Only then did I realize that the courage of my children to stand in front of us and confess their love despite everything, How precious it is."

Zhou Quan looked back at Ling Yanzhi, he stopped vomiting now, and sat by the ditch in a daze.There was a kind of determination that Fan Shu was afraid of in his eyes.This is an indifferent, an ungrateful age, when everything is isolated, divided, and broken.In such a high-pressure situation, does love still have a place?

There was the sound of footsteps in the distance.Fan Shu immediately became nervous, but Zhou Quan didn't raise his gun. He pushed down Fan Shu's shoulder.

"It's okay, I know them, I'll go; you stay with your wife, he can't be alone now." He stood up and walked forward.

Fan Shu clumsily walked to Ling Yanzhi's side, giving him a moment of relief.He's not very good at saying sorry. OMEGA said angrily: "Don't touch me, I'm just disgusting."

"...Is it uncomfortable? Ah, I've heard..." Fan Shu racked his brains in a panic to think about the symptoms of pregnancy that only appear in books and novels; in their lives, this kind of Common sense no longer exists.

"I mean, I feel disgusted."

Looking at the figure approaching in the distance, he whispered, "I know I'm going to die, there's nothing I can do about it. I've always acted like I'm not afraid of death, I don't care, I even threatened you with this. But that For a moment, I still want to live, even if I kill someone... I do this every time. Isn’t it fine as long as I just let nature take its course? Why do I have to resist? I can’t take it anymore, I can’t take it like this yourself. You are the police, you catch me."

Fan Shu thought to himself, I also want to catch you, lock you up, and never let others see you.That's what he used to do, and he was secretly proud of the favorable conditions and freedom he gave him when he was "detained".He suddenly understood why Zhou Quan wanted to tell him that story. In the story, his son was very similar to Ling Yanzhi.They are the ones that cannot be restrained, like some kind of wild animal that lives by instinct and can never be domesticated.If you caged him and tried to tame him, you'd never see him alive the way he is now.

He curled his thumb and index finger into a circle, encircled Ling Yanzhi's Xilingling's wrist, squeezed it hard, and pressed it against his chest, letting his palm hear the fluttering sound underneath.

"Okay, I've got you."

Zhou Quan walked over with two people.They also looked to be hunters; one had a thick white cloth wrapped around his head and was suspended in an elastic bandage, and one arm was also bandaged.Ling Yanzhi stood there suddenly; he recognized that it was the mountain guide he "killed" yesterday.Zhouquan stood beside them, walking, gesticulating and talking, and pointing at the two of them.When the gauze-wrapped mountain people saw Ling Yanzhi, they couldn't help cursing, as if they were saying, "What the hell are you doing? I thought you were kidnapped!" Jumped up again, repeating, "I'm so desperate!"

Ling Yanzhi sat down on the ground.The mountain man didn't notice it at all, but kept complaining: "What are you doing, don't want to see me? You're like seeing a ghost! I just saw a ghost, okay? It's so strong that you almost opened your head... I What did you do to me? I was frightened to death by you in the middle of the night, and I went all the way down the river to find no one. I really treated myself like a donkey..." He stared at Zhou Quan and another hunter, "According to me, I shouldn't save you. They. These OMEGAs never know how to be grateful, they want to die."

Another strange Orion came over, and Fan Shu immediately stood up, pushing and shoving the opponent's chest with one hand.Zhou Quan made a gesture, "Let me be a guarantor. Don't be so nervous. These two people are not in any danger. This guy just has a bad mouth." An Orion introduced, "I have inspected these two children. It is rare to see such a young man now. He is the person we are looking for. I think you will have a lot to talk about."

The Orion took off his heavy gloves across the front of Fan Shu, and stretched out his hand to Ling Yanzhi: "Mr. Ling, I'm afraid we have a little misunderstanding. We don't mean to force you. We just want to help you .”

Ling Yanzhi looked at that hand, it was calloused, rough and black, the nails were thick and yellow, and there were many wounds on it, which seemed very sincere.But what does this hand want from me?Is there anything else I can offer?Even Yi Huazang would not want a lover with Myers' disease.But I can still take advantage of this, I don't want to die in obscurity.

"We don't want anything." The man frowned, asked Zhou Quan a few words, then turned around and continued, "We help OMEGA escape from the municipal hospital, or rescue them from black doctors and pimps, or Stop them from entering the hunting area of ​​Yuncheng, um, if you want to say something, maybe you want a little conscience?"