Belly Trojan

The smell of citrus seeps into the fingers.Ling Yanzhi wanted to remove it, but the poor-quality soap made the rough stickiness seep down.Fan Shu found a black rental house on the edge of the old city, and walked in with just a nod. The grandfather sitting at the door gave him his room card without even looking up; it looked more like a safe house.

"Won't they come after you?" Ling Yanzhi asked.

"Not yet." Fan Shu replied in the bathroom, and he turned on both the shower and the faucet.

"Are you afraid of eavesdropping?"

Fan Shu smiled, which seemed a little cramped. "I don't doubt you. If there were, we wouldn't be able to get here." He pointed to himself, "I doubt myself. The crown prince can't trust me completely."

Ling Yanzhi was speechless.Why don't you doubt it?Those things in the past can't be regarded as not happening. I once slandered you, ridiculed you, and used you; I don't regret it, I admit it.But I would rather you scold me, beat me, look down on me like everyone else, and make me feel at ease; the better you treat me, the more you treat me as usual, the more that kindness of trust will turn into a bloody knife , pierce myself repeatedly.

Fan Shu didn't notice it, snorted, took off his soaked shirt and threw it aside, and stuck his head under the shower to get drenched.He didn't even bother to avoid it, or at least close the door; but if it was the other way around, why would they be so pretentious if they didn't see each other?

Ling Yanzhi had no choice but to lower his head, no longer looking at the hazy water vapor and the man's broad back from the reflection in the mirror, and changed the subject: "The traffic police, trucks and... oranges," he couldn't help sniffing the oranges Both hands, eyebrows and eyes were filled with sweetness, "It can't be just right...?"

"There's a big traffic jam in the evening. It's not impossible." Fan Shu didn't say yes or no, but the hazy reflection of the steam hooked the corners of his mouth, and looked at Ling Yanzhi who was still rubbing his hands repeatedly. wash it?"

Ling Yanzhi paused, not knowing what expression to make.The sticky taste penetrated into the bone along with the lingering heat just now.I had to do something to suppress the shame and agitation that came up for no reason.We are together, what else can we do but drag each other down?But the body keeps clamoring not to want to leave, just like the lingering breath is hard to dissipate for a long time.

A hand suddenly stretched out from behind, wiped away the foggy glass mirror in front of him, and stood there; Fan Shu only drenched his hair and upper body casually, while hot water was still dripping from his wet head, and he closed his book The naked upper body just pressed over directly.Ling Yanzhi suddenly raised his head, but only saw his red ear tips in the mirror.When the two of them were close together, he realized that he was trembling.

"It's all right." A certain clumsy guy rubbed his temples, like some kind of animal protecting food, "It's still raining...Are you cold?"

……fool.He wanted to laugh a little, and subconsciously turned his head away, wanting to wait for someone to give him a kiss; if it didn't work out, he also wanted to peck at him recklessly and steal a piece of tenderness that he had abandoned.But Fan Shu's eyes were as calm as water, and he was waiting there like obsidian. When he turned around, he bumped into a wall silently.

"……what are you doing?"

"I have something to tell you."

"Then let me go first..."

"Then listen to me first."

Fan Shu said beyond doubt that it was as blunt as a piece of wood that could not be burned by fire.Ling Yanzhi couldn't help but rolled his eyes: "Let me start for you...'Don't go to Yuncheng, it's dangerous there?'"

ALPHA sighed, "...I'm going to Yuncheng too. It's just that this time I'm going to help the prince. If I want to gain his trust, I must completely 'wash off the old background' in this operation. It’s impossible not to touch people’s lives.” He smiled wryly, “I have to go to Yi Huazang, and most likely I have to go to you, or to someone who is in your position. The situation in Yuncheng It's really very complicated and difficult to control, too many forces are mixed with each other. At that time, even if I don't do it, someone will do it..." He closed his eyes, "I don't want to be like that, I don't want to watch But I can't do anything, I know it's wrong but I can't stop it... That kind of feeling, I really don't want to do it again."

Ling Yanzhi heard that there was something in his words, that he had been his wife for three years but kept separate boundaries and kept it secret, but he didn't know whether to ask further.They originally thought that distance was the last barrier to each other, able to maintain the precarious self and dignity.But now that they are really separated, they want to expose it even more than before, perhaps because after leaving, he is no longer a known answer, but an unknown answer: the Fan Shu he knew and the real Fan Shu , seem to be the same yet different people.

But what right did he have to ask?He can only say this now: "It doesn't matter, we are... all responsible for our own choices."

"...Yanzhi, may I ask? Why would you rather...take such a big risk and go to Yuncheng?"

"Then can I ask you too? Why did you fold yourself to such an extent... just for your 'work'?" His eyes lingered over the wound that hadn't even healed on the opponent's body, which was shocking; One was particularly big, and was repeatedly torn apart and bruised, which looked even more horrible now.Ling Yanzhi followed the reflection in the mirror, and slowly applied it with his fingertips, the hideous scars cut off the strong muscle lines. "What kind of job is that, punishing rape and eliminating evil, maintaining peace? Is it such a great reason?"

Fan Shu smiled. "No. It may be unbelievable... There is really no great reason. Even if there is, it is written for the political review above. For me, the reason for doing this... is that I can only do this... this It's the only thing I've done well."

"Haven't you ever thought of doing something else?"

"I originally...wanted to be a good husband." He whispered, "I wanted to have a good family, the kind that is really good... like in TV dramas." Speaking of this, I couldn't help but I laughed at myself, "But it wasn't until you left that I realized that... I actually don't know what being good in the true sense is like. I followed the templates written in novels, on TV, and on the Internet, and my own brain I made a model of the one I imagined in my book, copied it mechanically, and thought it was the same, and thought that other model families that were happy and harmonious were the same."

No, you are already very good, and it is me who is not good, it is me who has been scheming from the beginning, and it is me who secretly plotted against you.But I can only do this, and I have no way to go.

But Ling Yanzhi couldn't say it, the immature, bitter and indelible acid seeped into the blood from his fingers, flooded into his chest, and blocked his throat.He can only say:

"It's okay... I don't know what home is like. The home you gave me was beautiful and comfortable... But to me, that was not home, that was... a birdcage. Of course it was dangerous outside, no Wrong; but what you don’t know is that it’s not the first day I’ve lived in this danger. Even if it wasn’t OMEGA—there were no OMEGA divisions in those years—because of physical fitness, personality, and appearance, I encountered some kind of 'Dangerous' is also commonplace. I know it's not your fault, but I don't know whose fault it is. Is it Jinlinzi? Is it Yi Huazang? It's my fault, it's because I'm too weak, my body is too skinny, I look too 'female', even when I speak, I deliberately seduce others, I'm weak, I'm a scum, I should be eliminated, I'm a member of society Natural selection. So I tried my best to prove myself, since I can't resist this rule, let this rule serve me... I want to open my eyes to see, even if I break my wings, fall into the mud, and be arbitrarily Insults... I have to open my eyes to see for myself, to see why we have come to this point, and whose responsibility is it?"

Fan Shu slowly let go of the embrace that was imprisoned outside his arms.The sound of the water is still ringing; there seems to be an empty space, but the eyes in the mirror have made some kind of determination. "Do you know how to get back from here?" He quietly withdrew from Ling Yanzhi, picked up his messed up clothes and went to the outside room, where there was a simple bed, and there seemed to be some inexplicable traces left on the white sheets. unknown traces. "I won't send you off."

The conversation is over.They frankly confessed the heart of a scaly claw, without prying into other traces, but they understood that they could not change each other.Fan Shu turned his back to him, as if he didn't want to see him, he just rummaged through the pile of clothes he had taken off.Ling Yanzhi had already walked to the door, and he heard him muttering, "Fuck, where did the cigarette go..."

His heart suddenly softened into a puddle of water, and all his face and shame were thrown away; he stepped back in two or three steps, hugged the person from behind, and threw himself on the bed.Fan Shu was taken aback by surprise, and what he was holding fell to the ground with a slap; when he turned his head and was about to say something, his mouth was bumped and blocked, and his teeth hurt from being knocked. On him, the tongue pried open the jaws and plugged it up.He dimly stretched out his hands to support the clenched waist, one climbed up recklessly, and the other was pushed down in a dazed way, only to hear a thud, and the other hit his head hard. On the bed, the teeth slipped subconsciously, only to hear the other groan, covering his mouth, his eyes were red with tears, and he bent over and curled up on ALPHA's body, and said indistinctly: "Fan Shu, my **** uncle of……"

It was embarrassing and funny at the same time.The serious atmosphere, the lingering sense of tension and the bleak and desperate atmosphere were all gone. Fan Shu's whole head was black and white, and he knocked on the wound on the top of his head, so painful that he couldn't tell the north from the south. , bursts of snowflakes appeared in front of my eyes; I still said first: "...bitten you? Show me..."

Ling Yanzhi was tearful, his mouth was hurt, and there was a smell of bloody iron rust mixed with pain that couldn't go away; half angry and half wronged, but he also wrapped his legs around his waist, sticking out the tip of his bright red tongue.As the picture stirred on the retina, his head hurt like a different method, and he drilled all the way down; "Your tongue is so sharp," he said it almost subconsciously, and when he realized what he said, he had already licked it. On the bright red bloodstain that was knocked by my own teeth, I then sucked the cold tip of my tongue, wrapped the wound with my hot cavity, and led him into my mouth, even my breathing gradually blended together. group.The raging fire went down, but the simmering fire was simmering carefully, warming the lingering.They kissed each other for a long time before they parted, and even the silver threads that came out had a hint of pink after the blood had been diluted.Ling Yanzhi raised his face, and the two looked at each other. For some reason, they seemed to be on fire, and then turned away guiltily. There was a strange feeling against their chests. When they were stuck together, it seemed that there was a bird in a cage. fluttering.It's not that they haven't kissed before, both of them buried their heads and thought, it's too weird, even a little scary, thinking about it at this time, those don't seem to be called kisses, they have never been kissed so deeply, and the whole body trembled when they kissed. It looks like blood and sugar.

Suddenly, belatedly, I felt a weird sense of shame, as if I was about to be hit by something, and suddenly separated in a hurry, and they were separated by a long distance without knowing it.He lowered his head, but saw a tablet of medicine falling on the ground. He had already eaten half of the tablet, and it was squeezed into plastic packaging and it was deformed; . "...you dropped it?"

However, Fan Shu's face changed suddenly, as if it was about to flush suddenly, and then turned gray like an ebb tide; he hastily stretched out his hand to snatch it, the pounce was too violent, Ling Yan subconsciously gave way, and stood up. Standing up, the medicine board was switched to the other hand. "What kind of medicine is this?" He glanced at the label on it, and was also taken aback: "Are you...still taking this?"

Fan Shu stretched out his body to grab it, but the bottom of his hand couldn't support it and suddenly slipped, and his body suddenly collapsed.Ling Yanzhi panicked all of a sudden, he suddenly understood why Fan Shu was so anxious to let him go just now, and why he wanted to find cigarettes; looking at it from this angle, the blue veins around the eyebrows were stretched out, and fine beads of sweat were dotted together.The pain from hitting the back of his head made his drug addiction cross the bottom line of willpower, and he couldn't hold back his addiction.

"I don't eat much, just now my hands were slippery," Fan Shu lied to him, pretending that nothing happened, "Now that I still feel pain sometimes, I just eat a little."

"You're fucking kidding me," Ling Yanzhi couldn't help swearing, "You can tell that it wasn't prescribed by the hospital just by looking at you, and the mouth-cutting medicine is a habit of the black market..." He held Fan Shu's wrist, "Shaking, come out Sweating, your body temperature is high...but you still feel cold."

Fan Shu looked at him and said nothing.

Ling Yanzhi gritted his teeth, "How long has the pain been? Did it start just now, or has it been...? Did it already...?"

Fan Shu sat on the edge of the bed, followed his dragging wrist, and pulled him to his side. "good."

"What's the matter, okay?! Do you know how dangerous this is?"

"I know." He said lightly, opened Ling Yanzhi's knuckles, pulled out the medicine tablet; threw it out from the window next to him, and lightly pressed his head against Ling Yanzhi's lower abdomen, "If you don't like it, I won't take it gone."

Ling Yanzhi was stunned.Quitting is easier said than done, otherwise there wouldn’t be so many people who will fall through this level, even if it is done step by step, there must be a process; but they are here now, he has thrown away the medicine, and there is no excitement at hand In the excessive state of the drug and the sustained-release agent, it is nothing more than scraping the bone to treat poison.

Fan Shu couldn't hold back the cold sweat and shivering all over his body. He was shivering from the cold as if he was in the snow and ice.Ling Yanzhi let him bury his face in his abdomen, his hands tightly wrapped around his waist, his nails almost pierced into his flesh.He hugged the hairy head of the person in front of him, heard his teeth chattering, a sore lump was blocked in his heart, he combed the damp hair roots with his ten fingers, and slowly rubbed the top of his head with his palm.

"Don't suppress yourself," Ling Yanzhi said in a low voice, the place where his fingers rubbed seemed to have magic power, and healed the old wounds of the past. "Call out when it hurts."

The man groaned.He trembled violently, "Yanzhi..."

"Well, I'm here."

"Yanzhi..."

"It's okay, I won't look down on you."

He hugged him even tighter, filling the void and intertwining the bones.It's obviously a hug without desire, but it's more lustful than any communication.

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There was a project recently, and it was only in the middle of the night that I had time to update the article.Sorry for the slow update!The weekly quantitative tasks will still be completed, please rest assured