scorching cold

Li Suihan was not there on New Year's Day, and he went out the first day, An Yi went to live with Wen Ye and the other two, Tao Zhuo was bored by himself, so he went home and slept all night.

The next day, Tao Qiwei came to eat at home. His parents were in a good mood. The family cooked together. Tao Zhuo entered the kitchen and was kicked out. He was suspected of occupying his place on the sofa. He sat on the sofa looking bored. Watching Tao Zhen and Tao Qiwei chat and laugh by the way, I feel like a big light bulb getting in the way.

Every time Tao Qiwei came here, he would bring something. It was not a valuable gift, but it was very practical.The last time I came here, I brought a large carton of paper. I said it was originally a group purchase for her mother. I saw that the quality was good. By the way, I also bought a box here. After everyone left, my mother praised this child for being so caring. .

This time she brought Tao Zhuo a set of cups, which looked good, and Tao Zhuo liked it immediately, and thought it was suitable for Li Suihan.

The gift he bought for Li Suihan hasn't arrived yet, and when it arrives, he plans to save it for him when he confesses, and today I happened to take the cup for him to use together.

Thinking of Li Suihan, Tao Zhuo felt even more bored after eating, so he simply packed up his things and went back to Li Suihan's place, ready to finish painting for a while.

"Just run away? You don't like to go home this semester, and you don't talk to your sister when Weiwei comes today?" Mom was not very happy.

"Isn't this rushing to graduate school? After I graduate, I will have a day to chat with you." Tao Zhuo said.

"It's a beautiful idea." Tao Zhen said.

"I won't talk to you," Tao Qiwei sang along with Tao Zhen's husband, "Your brother still thinks I don't have time to talk to him all day."

"Everyone is busy, busy, please be busy." Dad followed the tone of the old advertisements, and suddenly answered.

The whole family laughed, Tao Zhuo hugged his mother, said goodbye to each other, and left with his cup.

The door was only closed, and he heard his mother lower her voice and ask Tao Zhen in a low voice, "Is your brother talking about a girlfriend?"

"No way," Tao Zhen didn't care, "He will definitely tell me why."

Tao Zhuo pursed his lips, feeling a little guilty in his heart, thinking to himself that it was time to talk, but maybe it wasn't a woman.

Back at Li Suihan's place, he dawdled on drawing for a while, and seemed to be dazed for half an hour in the middle of the painting. When the sky darkened, Tao Zhuo ordered a bunch of food for himself, went downstairs to turn on the TV, and planned to find some Watch movies to pass this boring New Year's Day.

When Li Suihan arrived home, he was watching "Happy Together", films by Leslie Cheung and Tony Leung, and brother's real gay films, which were always on his waiting list. Every time he wanted to watch something, he couldn't think of it. Today After watching two sci-fi films, I finally remembered.

Hearing the sound of the key turning, Tao Zhuo was stunned for a moment, then jumped up from the sofa, hooked the slippers twice but didn't hook them up, and rushed to the entrance with bare feet, Li Suihan led the winter night The cold air pushed the door open.

"Why are you back?" Tao Zhuo shouted in surprise, turned his head to look at the time, it was already 11:30.

After shouting, he leaned close to Li Suihan and sniffed, observed his expression, and asked, "Have you been drinking?"

Li Suihan was also startled when he saw Tao Zhuo, and he let go of the hand that was putting the key on the shoe cabinet. The key fell to the ground with a "slap", Tao Zhuo bent down to pick it up, and said, "A few dishes, drink like this."

"Are you at home?" Li Suihan leaned against the door frame, tilted his head to look at Tao Zhuo, and squinted his eyes.

"Why, was it delaying you bringing someone home?" Tao Zhuo poked his head behind him, tugging at the collar of Suihan's coat, "Come in first, what's the shape at the door, it's not cold."

Li Suihan laughed, and his alcohol-smelling breath passed Tao Zhuo's ears, and the next second, Li Suihan hugged him.

Tao Zhuo blinked dully, but didn't realize what's wrong... Who did he drink with?

Li Suihan's arms were very strong, clasped Tao Zhuo's back and held him in his arms. Tao Zhuo was only wearing pajamas, his chest was tightly wrapped by him, almost itching from his ribs, and he felt Li Suihan's forehead buried in him The neck fossa brings clear temperature and weight.

Tao Zhuo was at a loss with his hands open, his ears were scorching hot, just as he thought of taking the opportunity to hug Li Suihan back, Li Suihan had already let him go, changed his shoes, took off his coat and walked into the living room.

It was a very short hug, short and natural, like a tired big bird perching on a branch for a while, and like hanging a coat on the hanger after returning home.

But Li Suihan didn't have a hanger, and his clothes were always put directly into the closet or washing machine, and he didn't have the habit of hugging Tao Zhuo every time he got home.

Tao Zhuo turned his head to look at his back, feeling that Li Suihan was trying to hide some bad emotions.

"Aren't you hungry? I still have something to eat. What do you want to drink? Hey, don't you drink it?" He chased after Li Suihan, circling behind him, seeing Li Suihan go to the kitchen to get a beer, he quickly reached out want to stop.

Li Suihan didn't give it to him, he raised his hand slightly and sideways Tao Zhuo's obstruction, pushed his forehead, went into the living room and sat on the sofa.

"What are you watching?" He opened the tab with a "click", squinted at the TV, and smiled, "Happy together."

"Ah." Tao Zhuo responded, and Li Suihan didn't speak again.

Tao Zhuo stood by the side and looked at Li Suihan hesitantly for a while, rubbed his legs, and suddenly remembered the cup Tao Qiwei gave him, hurriedly took it out and showed it to Li Suihan like a treasure, coaxing him: "The new cup my sister gave me, is it good?" ?give you."

"Yeah." Li Suihan took a look, only casually tapped with his fingertips, but the focus of the topic was elsewhere, and asked Tao Zhuo: "Do you have a sister?"

"No, it's my sister-in-law, I only have a brother." Tao Zhuo said.

"Married?" Li Suihan asked.

"No, my brother just graduated a few years ago." Seeing that Li Suihan wanted to talk about this, Tao Zhuo sat down next to Li Suihan cross-legged, and enthusiastically led him to talk, "They have been together since university. They have known each other for a long time and have a good relationship. , I’m used to calling my sister all the time.”

As a result, he said a series of "duo duo duo", Li Suihan smiled and stopped talking.

"Are you in a bad mood?" Tao Zhuo raised his head and asked him cautiously, "Hongqi's investment is yellow?"

"No." Li Suihan's expression was a little sleepy, and he had enough to drink beer.

"Then you... you can tell me if you are in a bad mood," Tao Zhuo reached out to grab Li Suihan's beer, "Don't drink it, what kind of beer do you drink in winter?"

"Tao Zhuo," Li Suihan held his hand, leaned his head on the back of the sofa, closed his eyes, "I want to stay by myself for a while."

Tao Zhuo was stunned, what did he mean when he said he was at home?

"I forgot you were watching a movie," Li Suihan opened his eyes again, and smiled at him, "I'll go back to my room."

He got up and was about to leave, but Tao Zhuo hurriedly pressed him to stand up: "Don't, I just wanted to go to the toilet, and I was sleepy, so you stay here, drink, drink if you want, I won't grab your drink. off?"

Just kidding, at least he can still see Li Suihan's appearance in the living room, but when he goes back to the room and closes the door, he doesn't know if he is dead or alive.

"No need." Li Suihan closed his eyes again.

Tao Zhuo pulled the blanket over him, turned down the volume of the TV, turned off the headlights, turned and went upstairs with his mobile phone.

When he reached the stairs, he looked down at Li Suihan. The TV light was on the sofa, and there was a cold texture in the darkness. Li Suihan was drinking dull wine expressionlessly, like a lonely empty nest... handsome guy .

Tao Zhuo remembered that Wen Ye once said that Li Suihan drank alone at night, and he went to the bathroom to send a message to Wen Ye. This was the first time he saw Li Suihan like this, or more precisely, the first time he saw this This kind of "bad mood" made him very dazed and depressed, and he didn't know how to deal with it at all.

Birds of a feather flock together and people are divided into groups. Tao Zhuo has a good personality, and the friends he has made since he was a child are all compatible people, such as Qi Ya and An Yi, and even Tao Zhen and Tao Qiwei. The people close to him basically have something Whatever you say, quarrel when you are in a bad mood, talk when you are depressed, there is always a way to resolve it, in Tao Zhuo's impression, he has never dealt with this kind of communication method of not expressing emotions but changing the topic.

This is Li Suihan. Even when Wen Ye said that he was "in a bad mood recently" when we just broke up, people couldn't see Li Suihan. How uncomfortable would it be to let such a Li Suihan lose control, even just for a moment?

"Drinking?" Wen Ye didn't take it seriously, "It's okay, don't worry, he just has this personality, he doesn't say anything, his emotions are all suffocated in his stomach, and he will be fine if he suffocates to death."

Tao Zhuo: "..."

What a friend!Let An Yi break up with you tomorrow!

Wen Ye was also very helpless with Tao Zhuo's protest, and said with a wry smile, "There's no other way, he treats me the same way, I'll adjust it by myself after one night."

"Then I have to know what's wrong with him, right? What if I step on a minefield if I don't talk to him tomorrow?" Tao Zhuo was afraid of such a Li Suihan, he dared not speak up now, "Your business is really bad? "

"Go to the other side." Wen Ye "bah" him, "What else can I do, it must be his family's business again, is he going home on New Year's Day today?"

Tao Zhuo let out an "ah" and understood a little bit, sitting on the toilet and meditating for a long time.

About an hour later, Tao Zhuo calculated that Li Suihan should be better, and wanted to talk to him again.Go back to the stairs and look down, only to find that he seems to be asleep.

Tao Zhuo went down lightly. Li Suihan was sitting and leaning on the sofa, but now he was lying down, with one arm resting on the blanket and the other hanging out of the sofa. There was still an empty wine can in his hand, and his eyelids were steady. He co-authored, the light of the movie reflected his straight nose.

This guy is actually pretty lonely.

Tao Zhuo sighed silently, his heart swelled.

In the movie, Li Yaohui and He Baorong were dancing. Tao Zhuo squatted on the sofa and watched Li Suihan for a while. Tired of squatting, he changed to sit cross-legged, and the focus of his sight changed, and gradually settled on Li Suihan’s lips. The numb memories of the two of them brushing past came out inappropriately.

Darkness and heartache can breed wonderful audacity, Tao Zhuo pursed his lips, pinched his thumbs in his palms for a long time, moved his eyelashes trembling, and touched Li Suihan's lips.

Originally, he just wanted to kiss secretly, and retreated when he touched it, but as soon as he touched him, he didn't even react. With a "clang", the soda can next to his leg was knocked down, Li Suihan frowned, and opened his eyes in a daze.

It’s over.

Tao Zhuo's breathing faltered, and a row of cold hairs arose on his back.

He woke up Li Suihan!

"..." Tao Zhuo blushed and couldn't speak, the music of the movie suddenly seemed extremely loud, overlapping with his heartbeat that was about to vomit, ringing surprisingly around his ears.

How to do?

Confess directly?

In the dim light and shadow, Tao Zhuo and Li Suihan faced each other and thought, thinking closely.

I don't know how long it took, whether it was a second or half a minute, Li Suihan's arm hanging outside moved, and he regained his senses as if awakened from a start, his neck stiffened and he wanted to bounce off.

Before he could move, there was a sudden sinking on the back of his head, and Li Suihan's palms clenched up, pressing him down again.