Midsummer Night's Ashes

gray of night

10

I'm out of the hospital.

In fact, the doctor let me out of the hospital a long time ago, but I refused to leave the hospital desperately. Now, there is no other way. If I stay here, they will call the police.

At two o'clock in the afternoon, I followed Lou Wei out of the building of the inpatient department.

I haven't had a decent face-to-face for a few days, and the sun is still as vicious as usual.

Lou Wei helped me carry the luggage. Actually, there was nothing in it. The most important thing was the recording of his program. Recently, I listened to the recording of his program almost all the time with earphones on. Otherwise, I would not be able to lie down peacefully like a normal person. over there.

Let's go home, back to my house.

Lou Wei said, "Don't worry, I checked, and there is no suspicious person in the house except us."

Since he said so, then I believe it.

Lou Wei is the only one I can believe, and I am willing to believe, although recently I always seem to see strange shadows from him, the shadows are gloomy and chilly, making me shiver even on hot days .

But I feel that all of this is my problem, a hallucination that appeared before my body recovered.

Lou Wei must be worthy of my trust.

We got home and didn't come back for a few days, the house was the same, even the cherries I put there before I left were still on the plate.

The cherries that were intact before I left are now slightly rotten. Time has not left traces on my body, but it has taken away the moisture in their bodies.

Lou Wei said, "Go take a shower, and then have a good sleep."

He kissed me and it reminded me suddenly of our first sex.

"You stay with me." I said.

He pinched my earlobe, as if apologetic: "I'm going to record a show."

He said: "In this way, I can come back to accompany you at night."

Well, I can only let him go.

Fortunately, even though Lou Wei was away for the next few hours, I didn't feel a trace of fear. As he said, my home is safe, no outsiders come in, and no one continues to stare at me.

We had a couple of days off, or rather, the person who was watching me from the shadows gave me a few days off.

I used to think that in his eyes, I might be a poor wretch at all. He saw how miserable I was, so he only took a few days off to let me breathe.

But only for a few days.

A few days after I left the hospital, that feeling came back.

I'm sure someone is watching me, and sometimes I can even feel that person's increased malice while walking on the road.

He not only wants to spy on me, but also wants to harm me.

He probably wanted to skin me, scrape my flesh, and drain my blood.

Anyway, I don't know why, he wants to kill me.

He was everywhere and I had nowhere to hide.

Because of this situation, I can no longer go to work, I can't let my colleagues think I am a neurotic idiot, so I have to find an excuse to take a long vacation, I have no time to worry about whether I will lose my job because of this, I just want to be alive, to keep my life as long as possible.

I told Lou Wei about this and asked him to be with me all the time.

Lou Wei finally showed me an impatient expression.

He looked at me very seriously and said: "I don't know why you feel this way, but you have been tracked and monitored for so long, but every day because of this trance, your work and life are seriously affected. .”

I looked at him and suddenly felt that Lou Wei had become very strange.

He should tolerate me unconditionally and protect me, why did he become so scary all of a sudden?

Lou Wei said: "Either call the police, or calm down and live a good life."

He is getting impatient with me.

He doesn't trust me anymore.

He thinks I'm mentally ill.

I had such a big fight with him that I picked up a knife.

I didn't want to hurt him, I wanted to hurt myself.

I can't do anything to Lou Wei, because I love him, I love him too much, I can't hurt him, but I never feel sorry for myself, I don't know why, when I cut my arm with a knife , I feel happy.

But it is a pity that Lou Wei did not see the scene where I scratched my arm, because at that time, he had already slammed the door and left.