Midsummer Night's Ashes

gray of night

07

I didn't call the police because I knew very well that if I went, no one would believe me.

I have no evidence, I can't say who is following me, and the reason I can give the police to call the police is just "feeling".

If you call the police based on your feelings, it will be ridiculous if you say it.

So I can only continue to endure and continue to suffer from this kind of suffering.

I don't know if there are other people in this world who have experienced this kind of feeling. It should be. The world is so big, there must be someone who is going through the same pain as me.

It's just that I was a little surprised that I never imagined that when I was 27 years old, I would have to experience this cold sweat repeatedly.

Even though it was scorching hot, I was shivering from the cold.

I said to Lou Wei, "I seem to be back again."

He asked me, "Where are you going?"

When I was talking about this, I was curled up on the sofa. I just called Lou Wei who was outside half an hour ago. The reason was that that person entered our house and hid in the corner, watching with me.

Lou Wei hurried back and asked me where that person was.

I told him that it was hidden in an inconspicuous corner of the house.

He looked everywhere, but couldn't find it.

But, I'm sure, that person must be there, I can feel it.

I can really feel, even feel the other person's breathing. As long as I close my eyes, I can hear the heavy breathing, a little short, like a crazy beast seeing its prey.

I am that prey.

Lou Wei did not find him, and told me that I must be too nervous.

I don't understand why Lou Wei doesn't believe what I said anymore.

"I'm back there," I said.

He asked: "Which place?"

Back to my teenage years, back to that house, back to that man's gaze.

that person?

"Who?" Lou Wei sat down, held my hand and asked me, "Li Zhao, do you know who is following you?"

"I don't know." I withdrew my hand, I don't know why, just for a moment, I even felt that kind of fear towards Lou Wei.

Suddenly I was afraid of him.

But why?

Obviously he is the one I love, obviously he is the only one who can make me feel at ease.

"I'm going out for a while." I stood up from the sofa.

I have to go out, I have to bask in the sun, stand under the sun, this cold feeling must be dispelled.

However, the cold feeling was still there, and I passed out due to heat stroke and was sent to the hospital.

The hospital is a good place. I like the hospital because people come and go.

I don't like crowds, but at times like this, the more people there are, the more secure I feel, at least when there are crowds, I can hide behind them.

At first, I thought so.

I want the crowd to be my cover and make it a little easier for me.

But I was still disappointed, the reality let me down, that person is still watching me, even though I live in a multi-person ward.

There are four people in the ward where I live. People often come to visit the patients, and the small room is always full.

At first I was very happy, and even had a rare good sleep, but something went wrong from the second day on, those eyes were still there, and that person was hiding behind those people.

I can't escape, I finally realized this problem, fled to the ends of the earth, as long as I am alive, I can't escape.

Lou Wei said, "Is it better?"

I looked at him, even in a trance for a moment, feeling that that person was hiding behind him, and would suddenly appear and smile at me at any time.