Midsummer Night's Ashes

gray of night

06

The days when I was with Lou Wei was the most relaxed period in my memory, and even my colleagues around me noticed the change in me.

In the past, I attributed my increasingly severe manic depression to the hot weather, but since I got Lou Wei, the scorching heat can't do anything to me.

We had a stable life for a while, and I really enjoyed love.

However, I don't know when it started, I always felt that someone was following me, and a pair of eyes were watching me.

That person has always been hiding in the dark, hiding in the crowd.

I was driving and he seemed to be sitting right behind me.

I got into the elevator and he seemed to be standing next to me.

I'm at home, and his binoculars seem to be able to see what I'm doing as long as there's a gap in the curtains.

I was walking down the street, no matter how fast I stepped, he seemed to be able to keep up with me easily.

The first time I felt this way was when I worked overtime one day and worked until after eleven o’clock at night. I wanted to listen to Lou Wei’s program in the car on the way home, but I didn’t know what happened that day. In desperation, I had no choice but to park my car and go home, but when I got out of the car and walked towards the gate of the building, there seemed to be other people behind me.

I can't see him, but I can feel it.

I looked back and searched for a long time, but found nothing.

However, the feeling of being stared at made my hairs stand on end and I was covered in cold sweat.

This feeling of being followed and watched seems familiar, but I can't remember a time when it happened.

It may also be described in a certain movie or a certain book - it seems that a cloud of black swamp gas is sneaking towards him, and when it arrives at him one day, it will burn and explode instantly.

That's how it should feel, I don't remember seeing it anywhere.

After that night, I often felt this way, being watched closely, as if hiding in a bathroom with no windows would still be watched.

At first I didn't want to tell Lou Wei about this, for fear that he would be worried, and that he would think that I was too neurotic.

However, after a long time, I became a little nervous, and even in the daytime, I would often be distracted and startled.

I can't hide it anymore, I'm so tired, I have to let Lou Wei hug me to comfort me and tell me that he will always protect me.

Sure enough, as I said before, Lou Wei and I are a match made in heaven.

Everything I want, he can give me.

He stroked my hair lightly, running his fingers down the nape of my neck and then my back.

He comforted softly: "It's okay, isn't I here?"

Yes, he is there.

With him here, what am I afraid of?

But that being said, when I was hugged by him, I felt that there was another pair of eyes looking at us.

Those eyes were full of darkness and fierceness, hidden somewhere in the darkness, making me shudder.

And all I can do is hug Lou Wei tightly, hide in his arms, try not to think about it as much as possible.

During that time, I was like a lunatic. Whenever I felt uneasy, I would call Lou Wei, asking him to comfort me at least, or asking him to come to me immediately.

Lou Wei has always followed me, it can be said that he is obedient and obedient.

He always came to me in time to touch me, kiss me, and help me get rid of my insecurities and fears.

However, it only disappeared for a short time, and soon the feeling would come back, and the eyes would reappear.

Lou Wei also said, "How about we go to the police? Let the police handle it."

But I have no evidence, I have no evidence of being followed and monitored, will the police believe what I say?