Fly away the pain

It took me a while to digest that I was sick.

I searched all the monitoring records I could find from the day I met the kid.

In the parking lot of the police station on the first day, I was talking to myself alone.

In the evening, I drove out the door alone, and stopped suddenly on the road around the city for a while, and drove back alone after a while.But I'm not impressed at all.

Since it is a ghost, it is also possible that it cannot be photographed by surveillance.

But in the case of Huyang Village at that time, the "little ghost" told me that one of the group of college students killed someone and threw the body away, but the fact is completely different. In fact, it may just be my guess when talking to the object of the vision. .

And the trash picker before was not some kind of pervert who locked up women for sex. The one who was locked up was only his wife who had been insane for many years.He showed his marriage certificate during questioning, attacked me only because he thought I was a burglary, and was quickly released.

At the same time, I searched the records and found the person who saved me. I called this stranger named Qiao Yike.He said that he called the police and left after saving me that day, and it was normal that I didn't see him.So the subsequent conversation between me and the "ghost" should also be imagined by me.

The conclusion of it all is that I'm just a sad, sick-brained person.

After the inspection results were confirmed, the bureau gave me a long vacation. In fact, I knew that this was equivalent to dismissal in disguise.

Three times a week, I started going to Dr. Wu for psychotherapy.This is the third time this week.

"Have you seen any of those things lately?" he asked.

"No more, it's just that I dream of a friend I used to have every night." The reflection of me in the glass window next to me was very haggard, because during this time I could dream of Yingzhi every night.

Eiji died in the school bathroom.He got up from the blood on the floor, with a cut in his head, and looked at me with heavy eyes.

"Is it still the friend from last time?"

I nodded: "Can you prescribe sleeping pills for me?"

Dr. Wu pushed his glasses and said, "Can you... tell me about your relationship in more detail?"

I don't know how to answer.

"My professionalism tells me that your relationship is not just as simple as friends, right?" He smiled, the creases at the corners of his eyes were piled up and drowned his eyes, "Actually, sometimes it's not so wise to lie in front of a psychiatrist. "

indeed.

But the smug look of this doctor named Wu Dawei in front of me made me very disgusted.Standing on a commanding height and looking down at people, all the micro-expressions reveal "it's useless to hide your secrets, I know it all".This feeling is similar to someone asking you a question, but when you answered it seriously, you said "hey" with a smile, "I just want to test you".

This feeling wiped out all the good impressions I had of him.Of course, it was actually because I saw him accept a red envelope from a patient's family member in the corridor and touch the chest of a passing female nurse.

Walking out of Wu Dawei's clinic, I swore I would never come to this stupid clinic full of cigarette butts again.Do you think I'd be here if my salary card wasn't enough to pay for the hourly senior doctor's consultation fee?

I stayed and smoked in a small park by the road.I don't know who was trying to quit smoking some time ago.

Behind a green wall, a couple is in love.

The woman said, "Do you like me?"

The man said, "Of course I like you."

The woman said: "What do you like about me?"

The man said: "I like it everywhere."

The woman said: "Then what do you like most about me?"

The man said: "I like it the most."

I am leaving.

On the subway, I got a call from my mother.

She looked a little hesitant, probably Uncle Wang was by her side, vaguely heard what he said, and my mother said: "Tang Cheng, you left in a hurry last time, I'm going to bring you food You didn’t take anything, so give me an address and I’ll send it to you.”

"No need," I stared at the little common sense teaching you how to keep fruit fresh on the subway TV, "keep it for yourself and Uncle Wang."

"Is that so..." She cleared her throat, "It's like this, your Uncle Wang has a son, I told you last time, right?"

Did you tell me?I don't remember—just take it as telling me.

"I got the certificate with your Uncle Wang..."

Are they licensed?I'm still not impressed.

"We are a family now, and your brother is not young anymore..."

I also picked up a younger brother for nothing.

"It's also the age to start a family. Unlike you, he still wants to marry a wife normally..."

Well, this is not normal for me.Now not only is my sexuality abnormal, but my brain is also abnormal, and I might go to the streets to hack people and be anti-social one day.

"The woman wants a flat in the county seat, and the down payment is still short of one hundred thousand..."

I said, "I see."

After hanging up the phone, I transferred all the money on the card to my mother's card.After a closer look, it’s still not [-] yuan. After all, I didn’t have a few yuan in deposits. Some time ago, I posted nearly [-] yuan to Wu Dawei. Now that I think about it, I won’t give it to him even if it’s a beggar on the roadside.

The subway just arrived at the train station, and a lot of people rushed up all of a sudden, and I was squeezed into a corner.This angle just happened to see a man put his hand on the buttocks of a strange girl next to him. The girl accused the pervert but was scolded and cried by him.When I got out of the subway, I saw several young people squeezing into the elevator for the handicapped, pushing an old man in a wheelchair out of the elevator and laughing loudly. The old man lowered his head and wiped his tears with a handkerchief.Walking to the overpass to cross the street, the woman in front gave a bag of steamed buns to the begging old woman. Turning her back, the old woman rolled her eyes and threw the steamed buns into the trash can.A blind man was playing the violin on the side of the square. Someone put down five yuan and took away the 100 yuan in the piano box.At the entrance of the small hotel next door, the bearded uncle pulled a little girl in with a disgusting smile on his face.On the road, a taxi collided with a Bentley, and the well-dressed Bentley owner yelled at him to come down to find trouble with the taxi driver. The traffic was blocked the whole way, and the horns of the cars kept ringing, and the obscene words rushed into the ears.Passers-by were hurrying on the sidewalk, and a young woman wearing high heels in business attire suddenly fell pale to the ground, and everyone bypassed her and continued walking in a hurry.

I turned around and walked back.I went to the ticket office of the railway station and bought a ticket to go to the beach in 10 minutes, and after an hour and a half, I arrived at one of the locations along China's long coastline.

The weather was bad and the sea breeze was cold.

I turned on my phone and started editing text messages.

Hello Zhang,

After much deliberation, I should deal with the funeral affairs. I would like to ask you to convey to me the work of our colleagues for several years, thank you.Please inform my mother of my death, although she may not care too much.Help me return the house I'm renting now, and you can dispose of the contents as you like, you can just throw them all away.The landlord still has a certain amount of deposit, please keep it after you get it back, as my hard work for you.

I don't have to do funerals, I don't have to search for a cemetery, and I don't think my body will be left behind, so it saves a lot of trouble.

Then there should be nothing more to say.

By the way, I have a cat in my house, please help me find a shelter for it.

Tangcheng

After editing and selecting send, I turned off the phone.

Sitting on the rocks on the shore, thinking about how to die so that I can die all at once, it is not good to hesitate.I remembered a horror movie I watched a long time ago, in which the heroine committed suicide, took a large bottle of sleeping pills, and lay on the bed wearing the most beautiful red dress, trying to die beautifully, but got up in the middle of the night and vomited foam at the mouth all over herself. Disgusted and embarrassingly dead.

There is also the Japanese favorite hanging to death. In fact, after death, not only will you be incontinent, but it will also bring a lot of trouble to the person who handles the corpse. The smell of such a corpse can be remembered for life.Don't some people go to a small hotel to burn charcoal to death?You are going to die, why are you cheating on other people's small hotels? This will make them do business in the future.

After much deliberation, it is better to jump into the sea.A person eats so many fish in his life, he should also feed the fish after death.

After thinking a lot in a mess, I found a stone to hold and walked slowly into the sea.

The sea water was colder than expected. I felt my whole body shaking when I reached my calf. When the water reached my chest, my consciousness began to blur.

Faintly heard a voice mixed with the sound of the sea breeze: "Tangcheng is stupid!"

Ah, who is scolding me...

Love someone.I continue to walk into the sea.

"Tang City!"

This voice is so familiar.It's all too familiar.

I couldn't help but look back.

The young Yingzhi stood on the shore, his hair was messed up by the sea breeze, and he shouted: "Come back, you idiot!"