prison love

Loneliness can be really torturous at times, especially when almost everyone else is happy as a family and you're the only one wandering around with nowhere to go.

Zhou Lin lost his job again today. He was fired after only five days at the construction site because he didn't look like a good person.This kind of reason is ridiculous, but Zhou Lin must also accept the reality.He is not good at communication, and the contractor wants to fire him, and he is too lazy to argue.

He's gotten used to this kind of thing after going through a lot. It's been almost three months since he was released from prison. It's too late, you don't look like a good person...

After hiring him, the boss will always use various methods to investigate his information. As long as he sees his information saying that he has been involved in the bureau, he will look at him with a kind of contempt, even spurn, and some may even It will bring some fear, after all, he went to prison for murder.

Then he will drive him away with various reasons after he has worked for a few days. He just hangs around like this and has been out for so long. He always thinks that the future life will be good, but the reality seems to be not in favor of it. He did this, and his life is not much better until now, with only 800 yuan for his whole family.

Sometimes he really wants to live the kind of life of "drinking today, worrying about tomorrow", not thinking about the future, just living today's life well.

But he may not even have the money to buy wine... Zhou Lin thought negatively, it seems that it is not easy for a person to live like him. At night, when he was tossing and turning in bed alone.

When the sun rises the next day, Zhou Lin will cheer himself up again in his heart. Don’t be discouraged. There are too many people in the world who are worse off than you. They are all working hard to survive, so don’t feel sorry for yourself. Live well.

Every night Zhou Lin was pessimistic, and then he gave himself hope in the morning, and so on, Zhou Lin was indeed living seriously, but the result seemed to be unsatisfactory.

Today I wandered outside for another day. Zhou Lin couldn’t find any job. With his hands in his trouser pockets, his shadow was stretched very long under the street lamp. In the dark night sky, there was nothing but a bright moon. Zhou Lin looked up at the sky, even There were no stars, and the moon seemed as lonely as he was.

Zhou Lin always likes to look at the night sky when he is sad, look at the brightest North Star, and tell himself that he can also be the brightest.There are also times when he can't see it, such as today, so he is extremely disappointed in his heart.

It was as if his only partner had abandoned him. He had nothing to worry about in this world, no relatives or reason, and he didn't know what the purpose of living was. Sometimes he felt that he was a walking dead, living in the world without thinking.

When he was almost home, Zhou Lin paced even slower. It was meaningless to go back anyway. He was alone, without a light, and couldn't even read a book. He could only lie on the bed and wait to fall asleep, as if waiting to die.

The closer he got, the clearer Zhou Lin could see. The place where he lived seemed to have a fire spreading. At first Zhou Lin thought he was wrong, because the place where he lived was dark and humid, and it was not easy to start a fire.

But the sound of the fire engine ringing in his ears proved that he was not mistaken, it was indeed on fire, at the place where he lived.Zhou Lin walked over quickly, only then could he see clearly that the whole building was on fire.

There were also people who were carried out by firefighters. There were old people, young people, and children. The ambulance was waiting nearby. The whole scene was in chaos. Just passed out.

"It seems that I'm lucky, otherwise the fireman might have me on his back." Zhou Lin thought in his heart, it turned out that God hadn't given up on him, and still wanted him to live.However, it is also possible that God is sorry that he is too poor and has no money to pay for medical expenses.Zhou Lin thought to himself mockingly again.

Zhou Lin stood there for a while, wanting to go up to help, but within a few minutes of his hesitation, the last person was rescued, so Zhou Lin left without hesitation this time without looking back.

He didn't even bother to think about the cause of the fire, since he couldn't save it anyway, he might as well think about where to sleep tonight if he had the time.All his luggage was in that small basement, as well as his rations for the next half month—half a box of instant noodles, all of which had been burnt to nothing.Fortunately, he put the money on him, although it was not much.

At this moment, Zhou Lin actually wanted to laugh, laugh at himself, laugh at life, he remembered a poem by Pushkin, "If Life Deceives You", "If life deceives you, don't be sad, don't be impatient, melancholy days Calm is needed here, believe me, happy days will come."

Don't wonder why Zhou Lin suddenly became literate. Although he has been in prison for 12 years, he still read a few books in it, and he vaguely remembers that it seems to be the text he learned in the first year of junior high school before he entered it.

Zhou Lin covered his face and squatted under the street lamp. On the main road, the terrain here was remote, and there were no cars, so no one saw a lonely figure who didn't know where he was tonight, except for the bright moon in the sky.

Zhou Lin stood up until his feet were numb from squatting. He didn't cry. He was already 26 years old. How could he be so worthless? Life in prison was much crueler than now, so there was nothing to cry about.Zhou Lin comforted himself in his heart again.

It was so late, and Zhou Lin didn't have a place to live yet, so it seemed that he could only spend another night on a park bench, but the park seemed far away.Then walk slowly, maybe it will be dawn when you walk to the park, so you don’t need to sleep.Zhou Lin said in his heart.

The weather in the morning and evening in late autumn was very cool. Zhou Lin only had a thin, broken sleeve on his body. The evening wind was blowing on his body. I don't know if it was because of his mood, but he actually felt much colder than before.But even then he didn't hold his arms tightly because he was lazy.

He was still walking slowly, slower than the tortoise, but his steps were bigger than the tortoise, so he should still be faster than the tortoise.Zhou Lin didn't care about these things, he would only think about it when he was bored, what he cared about was when it would be dawn.

He felt that he had been walking in the night for a long time, walking alone in this darkness for many years, facing the world of darkness since he was born, until now.When will it be dawn?

Zhou Lin still didn't make it to dawn, because he was hungry halfway there, very hungry, so he went to a noodle restaurant and ordered a bowl of beef noodles extravagantly. There was a hint of warmth, even though Zhou Lin was the only one in the noodle shop besides the boss.

The beef noodles were hot and spicy, Zhou Lin ate very slowly, not because of anything else, but because the noodle shop was very warm, eating slowly would allow him to stay longer.and.Procrastinate as long as you can, and wait until dawn.

No matter how slow the food was, half an hour was enough to finish a bowl of noodles. Zhou Lin ate very cleanly, there was not even a little soup left, and his body was much warmer. Zhou Lin paid the bill and went out to find an Internet cafe for the night.

Don't ask him why he didn't leave, because people want to sleep when they are full, and they have eaten such luxurious things as beef noodles, and they are still short of the money for the Internet cafe?If there were no hotels nearby, he would not have thought of going to an Internet cafe.

Fortunately, the newly issued ID card was in his pocket, otherwise he would not be able to enter the Internet cafe.

Zhou Lin wandered outside for several days. He couldn't find a place to live, so he could only stay in the Internet cafe every day. This was not an option. Sooner or later, he would run out of money, not to mention that he didn't have much money in the first place.

The clothes on his body should also be changed. It has been three days since the basement caught fire, and he has always been wearing a set of clothes. If he doesn't make money, he will really be penniless, although it is about the same now.

Zhou Lin finally found a temporary unloading job. After working for a few days, he earned less than 400 yuan, which was very good for him. He bought several sets of street stalls for himself and spent about 200 yuan.

Finding a place, he counted all his belongings, 740 five yuan, three sets of clothes, one ID card, all gone.That's all there is to him.

No matter where to look for a house, the rent is very expensive for Zhou Lin now, but he can't live without a fixed place all the time.He found a dilapidated house in the slums, which is the legendary "no-control zone".

It just looks broken on the outside, but the inside is still good, at least there is a plug, so he can soak instant noodles in the future.There is also a light, although the light is weak, it is still barely enough to read a book.What satisfies him the most is that there are windows here, allowing for ventilation.

The landlord wants to sell the house for 600 yuan.

When Zhou Lin heard the price, he thought it was a scam, but when he thought about it, he thought it was impossible. Who would use such a dilapidated house to cheat a poor man like him!

"I've been wandering here long enough. This kind of bustling city is not suitable for people like me. I'm going to join my relatives now, so I'll sell this house to make some money for my trip." Zhou Lin bought the house on the day the owner said explain.

Sure enough, there are many people in this world who are as miserable as him. For example, the homeowner has no travel expenses and has to sell the house to make up for it.Zhou Lin thought of what the homeowner said again. He said that this city is not suitable for people like them. Zhou Lin deeply believed in this, and he also thought so at the beginning.

After living outside for a period of time, he felt that his idea was correct.People like them, living in the cracks, are as humble as ants, and anyone with a little bit of power can trample them under their feet and make them incompetent.

But why can't they adapt to such a city?Why do they have to live in a small place?If the mountain is not just me, I will be the mountain. Whether they don't want to adapt or can't adapt, it's all due to personal efforts.

For example, the people in this slum, who are not poor and struggling, but they still insist on being here, maybe they have nowhere to go, but it is also possible that they have not given up hope, they want to change their mediocre lives, even if they My starting line is farther than others, but it is always good to have hope.

Who knows if there will ever be a man of great fame who was once one of these humble people.

No one can tell what will happen in the future, each of them may become that shining star in the night sky, bright and dazzling.

Zhou Lin is always very contradictory. On the one hand, he feels that life is meaningless, and he is melancholy and confused about the future. On the other hand, he feels that life cannot be lived like this.

It's like two split personalities, one is telling him, that's all you have in your life, don't think about living better, you are destined to live at the bottom of society all your life.The other said to him, you can't give up, you have to live bravely and tenaciously, and you have persisted in prison for so many years, isn't it just to live a better life after you get out?

During the day he is full of hope, but at night he is decadent.Zhou Lin himself couldn't figure out what he was going to do and how to do it.

The author has something to say:

Zhuo Xingyuan: My daughter-in-law is having a terrible time... Woooo... When will I be able to appear on stage?

Lin Lin: I'd rather you not show up, and I want my waist to live a few more days!