prison love

Cangyang Gyatso has a poem: First, it is best not to meet each other, so that you will not fall in love.

Lin Lin is adopting such an attitude now. He refuses to meet Zhuo Xingyuan, and hangs up after a quick chat on the phone. It happened that he had a cold for a few days before, so it was the best excuse to hide from Zhuo Xingyuan.Lin Lin's evasive attitude was too obvious, which made Zhuo Xingyuan obviously feel that something was wrong.

So he took some time on the weekend to go to Lin's house in person to see what happened to Lin Lin, and visited Lin Pingchuan and Li Erya by the way.However, the timing of his visit was not right. There were only Lin Yue and Lin Lin at home. Lin Yue went to work on his own and told him that Lin Lin was upstairs and asked him to go upstairs to find him.

Zhuo Xingyuan and Sheng Shi lived in the Lin family for a long time when they were young, and in the eyes of the Lin family's parents, they were not much different from their son, so he was familiar with the Lin family, and found Lin Lin's room with ease. Zhuo Xingyuan knocked on the door lightly, and Lin Lin was Practicing calligraphy, I thought it was Lin Yue, so I asked him to come in directly, but I didn't expect that it was Zhuo Xingyuan who came in.

Lin Lin's pen tip stopped, scratching the copybook in an instant. He stood up in a panic, the copybook was knocked crooked, and the chair was moved back by his touch, making a "creaking" sound, with a look of surprise on his face. It's too late to cover up.

Zhuo Xingyuan walked up to him, stroked his hair with a smile, and said, "So excited to see me?"

Seeing that Lin Lin's face was a little pale, thinking that he was seriously ill before coming here, Zhuo Xingyuan's eyes flashed with distress, and Lin Lin stammered, "Okay...Brother Xingyuan, why are you here?"

Zhuo Xingyuan raised his eyebrows and said, "Come and see you, what's the matter? I'm not welcome?"

"No." Lin Lin quickly waved his hands and said, "Brother Xingyuan, sit down, sit down, and I'll change clothes."

Lin Lin was still wearing pajamas, and he didn't bother to change because he didn't go out. He didn't expect Zhuo Xingyuan to come over. This attire was not very polite after all.

After Lin Lin entered the cloakroom, Zhuo Xingyuan looked at his room. It was more in line with his personality. The sky blue curtains, dark blue sheets, dark blue wallpaper, and other furnishings. The furniture was all black and white. The color tone, the whole room faintly reveals a feeling of depression.The only bright color in this room is the cactus on the window sill, which is green and refreshing.

On Lin Lin's bed was a copy of "The Detective Sherlock Holmes" casually, and there were mobile phones and chargers on the bedside table, as well as a card bag, which contained various bank cards and membership cards that Lin Yue had issued for him.There are all kinds of books on the bookshelves, basically classics, and some professional books.There was a copybook on the desk, a thin page was accidentally scratched by Lin Lin, and the cap of the pen was not closed, showing the panic of the owner.

Zhuo Xingyuan felt that Lin Lin was not as cute as before. He was no longer the young man who called him "Brother Xingyuan". The reason is to stay at home and refuse all gatherings with him. Zhuo Xingyuan couldn't figure out what happened to Lin Lin. Did he have something to make Lin Lin angry?

Lin Lin changed into casual clothes and came out. He wore a short sleeve with Bugs Bunny printed on his upper body, and a pair of khaki trousers on his lower body, making him even thinner. Zhuo Xingyuan beckoned, "Come and sit."

Lin Lin pretended to be sitting next to Zhuo Xingyuan as before, but his wandering eyes had already betrayed him. Zhuo Xingyuan rubbed his hair and asked, "What's wrong? Are you absent-minded?"

Lin Lin avoided Zhuo Xingyuan's touch calmly, stood up and said, "Brother Xingyuan, what do you drink, I'll go downstairs and get it for you."

Zhuo Xingyuan saw that he was avoiding intentionally or unintentionally, and didn't want to do what he wanted, so he pointed to the water dispenser in the corner and said, "I'll just drink water."

Lin Lin had no choice but to take a glass of water and hand it to him. Zhuo Xingyuan took a sip and asked, "How is the cold? Is it better?"

"Well, it's much better." Lin Lin lowered his head and whispered, not looking into Zhuo Xingyuan's eyes.

Zhuo Xingyuan still wanted to reach out and rub his hair. After thinking about it, he had to figure out why Lin Lin was avoiding him. With Lin Lin's character, he probably couldn't ask anything directly, so he could only ask sideways.

Zhuo Xingyuan: "What are you doing at home recently? I don't see you going out to play."

Lin Lin pretended to be relaxed, and said, "It's nothing, just read a book at home and cultivate yourself."

"I was always on business trips before, so I was quite busy. Now that I am not busy with work, I can play games with you when I have time." Zhuo Xingyuan said softly.

"Well, but I don't play games much." Lin Lin was still trying to avoid the intersection of the two.

Zhuo Xingyuan didn't speak, and Lin Lin didn't speak, the room was silent, the sunlight came in through the window, and sprinkled on the gap between the two, leaving a faint shadow, and the curtains also swayed slightly with the wind, falling on the ground. Cast a light shadow.

In fact, it took Lin Lin a lot of effort to restrain himself from thinking about Zhuo Xingyuan. He felt that after this period of time passed and the two of them seldom saw each other, he would naturally give up his shameful thoughts about Zhuo Xingyuan, and then You can go back to the old days again.

But everything fell apart when Zhuo Xingyuan arrived. Lin Lin found that Zhuo Xingyuan was like a plant. He didn’t know when it took root in his heart. At first it was a seedling. Lin Lin didn’t care. When I got rid of it, I found it was too late, and as long as I had the slightest intention to get rid of it, my heart hurt unbearably.

Lin Lin lowered his head, not knowing what he was thinking, Zhuo Xingyuan also looked at the ground and thought deeply, in the end Lin Lin couldn't stand the silence, so he took the initiative to speak out, and found a safe topic: "Brother Xingyuan, I have to stay here at noon Have lunch?"

Zhuo Xingyuan looked at him for a while without making a sound, and only spoke when Lin Lin thought he didn't want to answer: "Do you want me to stay? If you want me to stay, I will stay."

Lin Lin didn't know what to say, he couldn't drive Zhuo Xingyuan away, but it seemed a bit weird to say to stay, and the atmosphere fell into silence again.

Zhuo Xingyuan's fingers tapped lightly on the bed, the bed was soft and there was no sound, but Lin Lin saw Zhuo Xingyuan's pretty fingers tapping restlessly.

Maybe the atmosphere was too weird, Zhuo Xingyuan stood up, stroked Lin Lin's hair, and said with some reluctance in his voice: "Okay, since I'm not welcome, then I'm leaving, and I'll see you again when I have a chance."

Under normal circumstances, there is no chance if there is a chance. Lin Lin knows that this is just being polite. Zhuo Xingyuan may not come over next time. He will come to the Lin family, but he will not come to look for him.

Zhuo Xingyuan walked out, and Lin Lin wanted to ask him to stay. He felt that if Zhuo Xingyuan was allowed to leave this time, they might be alienated from now on. His heart turned back and forth, but in the end Lin Lin said : "Brother Xingyuan, let me see you off."

"No, you have a good rest." Zhuo Xingyuan stopped Lin Lin at the door and went downstairs by himself.

Lin Yue tried to persuade Zhuo Xingyuan to eat here again and again, Zhuo Xingyuan always used the excuse that he had something to do, Lin Lin hid at the stairs, hoping in his heart that Zhuo Xingyuan would stay, but in the end Zhuo Xingyuan still left.

After saying goodbye to Lin Yue, Zhuo Xingyuan started the car and left. Lin Lin watched the car get farther and farther upstairs until he couldn't even see the shadow.

Lin Lin's heart was like a leaky balloon. He felt like he had lost something, but he didn't dare to get it back. He thought he could be ordinary friends, but now he might not even be able to be ordinary friends. up.

Zhuo Xingyuan and Lin Yue have a good relationship, and they won't break faces with him, but they won't be as close as before. Lin Lin sat on the ground, buried his face between his legs, feeling extremely sad in his heart, but felt that he was not qualified to be sad , Now all of this is his own fault, he is the one who actively wanted to cut off the connection with Zhuo Xingyuan.

He was always so stupid and pushed everything to the worst possible edge. Before Zhuo Xingyuan knew that Lin Lin liked him, the two of them had a deadlock.

To be honest, Zhuo Xingyuan was very kind to him, he really treated Lin Lin like a younger brother, took care of him, kept him drinking, cooked for him, watched movies with him, invited him to dinner... and helped him solve his troubles, Lin Lin Lin felt that he was really a wolf-hearted man just now, repaying his kindness with revenge, he scolded himself in his heart: Zhuo Xingyuan treated you so well, how could you get rid of popularity!

At night, Lin Lin suffered from insomnia again. He kept thinking about the scene of Zhuo Xingyuan leaving during the day. Zhuo Xingyuan had not stayed in his room for a long time. Drive people away.

Lin Lin regretted it now, he didn't want to lose his relationship with Zhuo Xingyuan from now on, but he didn't have the courage to call Zhuo Xingyuan and say: "Brother Xingyuan, I miss you."

Zhuo Xingyuan went back to his home directly during the day, and it was empty when he went home alone. He might as well go back to his home to accompany his parents. His ability to adjust his emotions is very good. He didn't say that he went to Lin's house. Even if Zhuo's father and mother could see his mood No, I don't know that he had an unpleasant relationship with Lin Lin.

Zhuo Xingyuan had already thought about it when he was on a business trip abroad. He planned to pursue Lin Lin when he returned home, but he didn't expect that Lin Lin kept avoiding him. Lin Lin hung up without saying a few words, and the two of them didn't even have a chance to meet, Zhuo Xingyuan died of depression.

Today, if Lin Lin said to keep him, he would not leave, but Lin Lin didn't say anything, and even said that he would send him off. Zhuo Xingyuan felt that he had never been so aggrieved in his life.

That is to say, he likes Lin Lin. If someone treated him like this, he would have already done it.

The more Zhuo Xingyuan thought about it, the more he couldn't fall asleep. Lin Lin's figure was in his mind, and Lin Lin's "Brother Xingyuan" seemed to be ringing in his ears. Zhuo Xingyuan turned over in boredom. It happened that Shengshi called Zhuo Xingyuan was in a bad mood when he drank, so he agreed without hesitation even in the middle of the night.

Zhuo's family members were all asleep, and Zhuo Xingyuan went out quietly without anyone noticing.

When he arrived at the bar that Sheng Shi said, Zhuo Xingyuan ordered a lot of wine, saying that he was drinking with Sheng Shi, but he drank more than Sheng Shi, pouring bottle after bottle into his mouth, not like drinking water.

Sheng Shi hadn't seen Zhuo Xingyuan drinking like this for many years, so he quickly stopped him, "What's wrong with you, what happened?"

Zhuo Xingyuan's eyes were blurred, he put down the wine glass, rested his chin on his hand, and said, "It's okay, I'm in a bad mood, drink less, if I drink too much, you still have to send me home."

"...You don't have to be so confident to let me send you off! What's the matter, tell me to make me happy." Good brothers are used to hurt each other.

Zhuo Xingyuan didn't speak, just kept drinking, Sheng Shi secretly moved the wine aside, guessing: "It has something to do with Lin Lin?"

Zhuo Xingyuan was silent, but he drank even more fiercely. Sheng Shi knew that he had guessed right, and comforted him, "Why did he mess with you? Don't you always treat him like a son?"

Zhuo Xingyuan glared at him, but because he was drunk and had no deterrent effect, he lay down on the table and said sullenly, "Why do you think he is avoiding me?"

Sheng Shi didn't know how to answer him, he was not Lin Lin, how could he guess what Lin Lin was thinking, he could only pat Zhuo Xingyuan on the shoulder to comfort him: "Where is there no grass in the end of the world, don't be too sad."

After speaking, he felt something was wrong, and Zhuo Xingyuan didn't say whether he liked Lin Lin, so it seemed wrong to comfort him like this, but seeing Zhuo Xingyuan's distraught appearance, it should be hurt.

Zhuo Xingyuan didn't know if he heard Sheng Shi's words, he thought he probably didn't hear it, because Zhuo Xingyuan was still drinking, Zhuo Xingyuan drank almost all the wine on the table, and Sheng Shi only drank a few glasses.

"Li Bai said that if you cut off the water with a knife, the water will flow more, and you will make your sorrows worse with wine. Don't drink." Seeing him drinking so much, Sheng Shi was really worried that he would not be able to carry him in a while.

"I thought we were already close enough, but I didn't expect that I was still self-righteous and self-indulgent." Zhuo Xingyuan said sadly while drinking.

Zhuo Xingyuan was out of his mind at the moment, Sheng Shi quickly settled the bill and took him out, both of them were drunk and could not drive, Sheng Shi asked the driver to drive to Zhuo Xingyuan's house, and Sheng Shi didn't bother to go back when he was sent back to Sheng Shi. Yuan got into bed and simply went to sleep in the guest room, anyway, it's not like he hasn't slept here before.

Seeing Zhuo Xingyuan's prosperity now, he couldn't help but think of himself in the past, who gave up his ideals for such a person, but in the end there was no good result.He hoped that Zhuo Xingyuan and Lin Lin would have a good result, after all, Zhuo Xingyuan's heart, which had been silent for nearly 30 years, was beating violently once in a while.

The author has something to say:

Zhuo Xingyuan: I'm unhappy, or something.

Lin Lin: No, no, do you want a 40-meter broadsword?

Zhuo Xingyuan: Daughter-in-law, don't be so heartless, I already missed one last night.

Lin Lin: To reward you, you won't have to go to bed for a week.