Lost New Street

Autumn is high and airy, and the sky is high and cloudy.

Yongxin is still the same Yongxin, Xinjie is still the same new street, the sun rises as usual every day, and Chen's noodle restaurant is still in full swing every morning.

The earth will not stop turning because of the disappearance of any dust, and time will not stop passing because of the disappearance of a person.

Everything is proceeding step by step, except for one person's world, which seems to have completely collapsed with Lin Junxi's disappearance.

A few days ago, a servant just accidentally knocked off a dead leaf on the half-dead potted plant, and was almost dragged out to hang it from the tree for a few sticks.

Everyone in the Ni family is walking on thin ice, just keeping their heads down and doing things, not daring to take a breath, for fear that if they are not careful, they will be the next to suffer.

That was not long ago, the young master brought it back from the outside, the tattered plastic flower pot, like garbage, was about to die.

But the young master treasured it very much. As soon as he entered the gate, he stared and called for people, and asked where Uncle Li who was cleaning the garden was, and then ran over with the potted flower himself.

The wronged servant hid aside and cried, and others came to comfort him. Are you stupid? We hide from that potted flower when we clean up the room. Don’t underestimate it. Hey, the young master is precious. Take it back and personally The soil I changed was almost fainted by Uncle Li who was tidying up the garden...

When Ni Xiaotian was free, he just stared at the potted flower, and it took him an entire afternoon just to look at it.

The first thing I do when I get home every day is to look at it to see if it is better than yesterday, to see if the withered branches and leaves show signs of turning green, and to see if the incomplete petals are broken again. Go down a corner.

"Don't die...please...don't die..."

In the dead of night, I also want to look at the potted flowers.

Ni Xiaotian sat on the ground alone, hugging his knees and begging for something, and his energy deteriorated day by day.

People in the Ni family are spreading rumors that the young master is crazy.

It must be because of the car accident before, I have become stupid before, but now I have "resurrected from the dead" with great difficulty, and the illness has not recovered at all, and I fell ill in the middle of the night.

Maybe it's really crazy, Ni Xiaotian has lived for 26 years, and it's the first time he experienced what it means to completely lose himself and be uncontrollable.

Lin Junxi left just like that, disappeared without a trace as if the world had evaporated.

Everyone is looking for Lin Junxi all over the world. The police have no clues, the bank account has no clues, and all available methods have been tried, but there is still no news.

Where can I go?

Ni Xiaotian almost pulled out his hair.

The tearing pain in his chest almost made him unable to hold on any longer, mixed with an indescribable hesitation and helplessness.

Dreaming back in the middle of the night, as soon as he felt the emptiness around him, he remembered that Lin Junxi had already left, so he was about to suffocate, and his forehead was covered with sweat.

He didn't care before.

That's okay, he's already gone home, he's recovered from his illness.Lin Junxi wasn't here, but it didn't matter, he knew where he was, and if he missed him, he just went to see him.

But it's different now.

He doesn't want him anymore, that person doesn't want him anymore.

These words are all over my head, and my whole body hurts from the stabbing. People don't know whether to cover their heads or their chests, and they feel so sad that they are broken.

But the most painful thing is probably the ridicule from the depths of the soul.

How strange, when you were stupid, you were so afraid of losing him, and when you were stupid, you knew that you couldn't have nothing, why did you finally change back, but you didn't understand anything?

Where did you get the confidence to think that you can live without Lin Junxi if you are well?

Ni Xiaotian started to suffer from insomnia, and couldn't sleep the whole night.

The pills prescribed by the doctor seem to be cheating money, it's better to pour a few glasses of spirits into the manager.

He has to sleep, he has to sleep.

You see, who is there to meet tomorrow, what projects are there, and there are so many things waiting for him to do.

The Ni family now wants him to fight against the big head, what qualifications does a man have to be decadent.

He had performed quite well at first, but Ni Xiaotian was still the same Ni Xiaotian, the eldest son of the Ni family who was admired by all, his business was going smoothly, and wherever he went, he could talk and laugh happily as usual.

Just turning around, I know what kind of life this day is like.

Uncle Fang is an old man of the Ni family, seeing Ni Xiaotian going down like this day by day, he quietly called the eldest lady.

If you don't come back again, this person will be useless.

Ni Xiaolan, who had already returned to her parents and helped manage foreign business, rushed back.

After getting off the plane, he went straight to Ni Xiaotian's mansion, and before he reached the door of the bedroom, he smelled a strong smell of alcohol.

Ni Xiaolan looked at her younger brother expressionlessly, look, look at this, sitting disheveled on the carpet in front of the sofa, with thick blue eyes, unshaven, looking so sick.

There were empty wine bottles on the table and on the ground, and the room was full of smoke and alcohol.

When Ni Xiaolan went up, he splashed water on Ni Xiaotian's head.

"What has become of him, a big man, he can't be ashamed of himself! He's worthless! He doesn't live up to expectations!"

Ni Xiaotian was so dizzy from drinking, he let his sister hold his collar, her eyes fluttered, "I'm just useless, I don't live up to it, I'm ashamed..."

Ni Xiaolan nodded, and called a few people, "Sober up the young master."

Several subordinates stared at him for a while, but no one dared to move.

"Let's go soon!!"

This time there was no other way, several people gritted their teeth, carried Ni Xiaotian to the bathroom, pressed him into the bathtub and showered his head with cold water.

The next day, Ni Xiaotian woke up.

Staring blankly at the ceiling for a while, he finally got up from the bed, and the first thing he reached out for was not a wine glass.

Bai Bing was the first to be targeted by Ni Xiaotian, and he had already been given a lot of money, but he still couldn't come up with anything useful.In the end, he had no choice but to take him to a deep mountain forest and hang him upside down on a towering tree.

Then there were several people digging pits with shovels.

Bai Bing was so frightened that he was dumbfounded, is this Ni Xiaotian a lunatic? !are you crazy? !Abnormal? !

Ni Xiaotian came to him, and there was no special expression on his face, he just looked at him without pain, and asked in a kind tone, "Where is he?"

At this time, the weather is cold and the forest is foggy and heavy.

"What the hell did I say?! Did I stop talking? I don't know! I really don't know! Have you finished yet?!"

Ni Xiaotian lowered his eyes and took two steps back.

There was a ferocious dog barking from far away on the other side, and Bai Bing's eyes were about to pop out. Seeing a few people coming over with a few Rottweilers on their hands, each of them bared their fangs, saliva splashed, and they were extremely ferocious. He yelled at him all the time, jumping up and down on his head.

Bai Bing was about to pee, and his eyes were red.

"Fuck! Big brother! You are my big brother! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!"

Ni Xiaotian stood aside and asked again sullenly, "Where is he?"

"I really don't know! I know, how can I not tell you! You don't even think about who I am! Open your eyes! Doesn't Asi know me yet? He might tell me where he went!"

Ni Xiaotian didn't speak, and watched the chain that tied the dog loose again.

"Brother! Grandpa! Ancestor! I really don't know!"

The men had already squatted down and started to unchain the dog.

"Stop stop stop!!! I only know one, only one! When Asi leaves, when he leaves, tell me..."

"say what?"

"He said he was going to a place without your Ni family. He said he didn't want to see anything related to the Ni family... Then I asked him. I said that the Ni family is so famous. What news is there on the Internet? No, and then he said, he said that he will go to a place where there is no TV or Internet... That's all, I really, all I know, brother, I beg you... Please let me go !!!”

Ni Xiaotian frowned, thinking about the place where there was no TV or internet, turned around and left.

"Hey! Hey! I said you should let me down first! Hey!!!"

"I won't let you die."

The bleak moonlight shone in through the window, Ni Xiaotian whispered to the pot of little roses, raised his head, and looked at the illusory figure outside the window.

"I won't let you leave me just like that."

Lao Chen never thought that he would see Ni Xiaotian again.

That was after Lin Junxi left, the person he thought he would never see again came to the door again.

At first Xiaobai stopped him, he didn't want to be a big brother, he didn't want to be a big brother, he didn't want to be a supporter, this person lost his brother, he hated him to death.

"What are you doing here? We don't welcome you here!"

The subordinates around Ni Xiaotian immediately stared, but before they could make a move, Ni Xiaotian stopped him.

Ni Xiaotian ignored no one, who can stop him from going where he wants to go?

The noodle shop is still the same noodle shop, the restaurant is right after entering the door, and the stairs leading to the second floor are on the right hand side after a few steps.

Ni Xiaotian walked up step by step, and every step he took, he could see Lin Junxi's figure, or ran up in a hurry and disappeared around the corner, or walked down briskly, passing through his body, or, Lin Junxi's figure There was another figure in his hand.

Ni Xiaotian stopped in the dark corridor, gently stroking the wooden walls.

He remembered here, how he used to press Lin Junxi on it, hugging him, kissing and rubbing together.And the small bathroom, on the shallow sink, he asked for Lin Junxi for the first time.

He told him that he was his Ah Tian, ​​and he said it so beautifully and affectionately.

Lin Junxi believed it, really believed it, he could see how the boy who was originally imposing was defeated by his simple sentence "I want you".

Ni Xiaotian came to the empty bedroom alone, was stunned for a while, and then fell down.

When the bodyguards came to him, they saw Ni Xiaotian curled up on the bed with a pillow in his arms like a child.

When he left later, Ni Xiaotian stood on the steps at the entrance of the noodle shop, looking at the street corner for a long, long time.

That figure resembled the little fool from a long time ago, standing there eagerly waiting for the next figure to turn the corner, which would be his beloved little bastard.

Ni Xiaotian became more and more depressed day by day, even in front of outsiders, he never showed it.

What kind of place can it be without TV or internet?

He searched all the corners he could find, remote mountainous areas, or isolated villages, and he cast his hands on everything that could be touched by people.For anyone who sounded like Lin Junxi, he immediately dropped everything he was doing and went there himself.

But all the efforts were in vain in the end. Every time he regarded Lin Junxi as someone who must be Lin Junxi, what finally appeared before him was always a strange face.

Ni Xiaotian felt that he was going to explode. The thing that was beating in his chest kept falling from high altitudes into the abyss again and again, and was ruthlessly trampled and crushed by reality.

The weather is getting colder every day, and it only snowed overnight yesterday.

A driver opened the door, and Ni Xiaolan got out of the car, scanning the surrounding scenery.

In front of me is a dilapidated small park, and there are simple sandpit and swings for children to play.

She hadn't been to Yongxin very much, if it wasn't for her younger brother, she probably wouldn't have come to such a place at all.

It was a pile of huge plastic pipes, a play facility for children to drill around.

It's freezing cold, and icy things feel biting to the touch.

Ni Xiaolan came to the front of the pile of buildings, bent down, and saw Ni Xiaotian who was huddled inside, holding his head on his curled knees, not knowing what he was suffering from.

Perhaps hearing the sound, Ni Xiaotian turned his head abruptly, the light in his eyes was fleeting, and when he saw Ni Xiaolan clearly, it turned into a burst of visible disappointment.

Ni Xiaolan lowered her eyes, neither caring about being unclean nor being too cold, a pretty elegant woman actually got in along the pipe and sat next to her brother.

"Why, you are so childlike, why don't you come to play a game?"

My sister spoke very briskly, with a smile on her face.

Ni Xiaolan wanted to talk to Ni Xiaotian, not about business matters, nor about family matters, but about things that were pressing on her mind.

If you continue to be bored like this, you will get sick sooner or later.

Ni Xiaotian leaned against the wall of the tube, raised his eyes to look at the small space, "I slept here when I couldn't find a home."

When Ni Xiaolan heard this, her eyes became sour, and she covered her younger brother's hand.

"...This is also the place where I kissed him for the first time..."

Distress turned into surprise.

Everything in the memory, the hot summer, the torrential rain, the little fool was in such a place, carefully touching the corners of the little bastard's painted lips.

Ni Xiaolan lowered her eyes, turning the surprise in her heart into clarity.

She knew that there must be an abnormal relationship between the boy named Lin Junxi and his younger brother.

But she had never thought deeply about what that relationship meant to her younger brother.

"Is it because of him that you rejected your parents' request to marry you?"

Originally, he understood it when he woke up that morning, when he held Lin Junxi in his arms... He originally planned to explain it clearly to him when he came back.

But it was too late, he did too many wrong things.

"It's weird. I didn't have anything at that time, and he didn't know who I was. In fact, I can't even imagine how big a person must be to like a fool who begs for food on the street. , so dirty, so rotten, won't you feel sick? Would you like a beggar?"

After seeing that filthy ugliness, even if it is washed clean, can you accept it?

Ni Xiaolan was silent.

"I didn't understand before, a person who could handle it when I was stupid, but now that I'm good, how could it be impossible to handle it. At first he disliked me and hated me, but I liked him so much, my mind and my heart were full of thoughts. It was him, I followed him and looked at him every day, and later he treated me very well, even though he didn’t have much money, he would give me whatever I wanted, he would protect me when someone bullied me, and when he couldn’t protect me, he would hug me, I would rather be beaten than let people touch me... But it's so strange, when I had nothing, he was willing to like me, but now that I have everything, he doesn't want me anymore..."

Ni Xiaotian's eyes were empty, and he said dully, "Actually, I didn't do it on purpose, I really didn't do it on purpose...I gave him money and a car, not just to get in his car...I couldn't give him things when I was stupid, Now I can do it, so I want to give him everything... I, I will only be nice to people like this... I thought that was being nice to people... I really want to be nice to him..."

"But he didn't want anything, he didn't even wear one of my clothes, he didn't touch a penny in that card... And now he doesn't even want me..."

As Ni Xiaotian spoke, his voice trembled, "It's just because of one sentence...just because of one damn sentence...I told him that I don't want anything in this world, I only want him...he believed it ...Are you talking about whether he is stupid or I am stupid..."

Ni Xiaotian is in too much pain, if this is the so-called love, if this is what it feels like to fall in love with someone, then love is really tormenting, why is it so painful.

"I can't take it anymore... Sister... I don't want it anymore..." Ni Xiaotian couldn't hold it anymore, "If I had known today, I would rather be a fool by his side for the rest of my life... I don't want it anymore..."

Ni Xiaolan choked up for a moment, put her arms around her younger brother and leaned on her shoulder, patted his shoulder, feeling the visible trembling.

This was the first time Ni Xiaotian saw her brother like this since she became sensible.

The flamboyant underworld young master of a generation just leaned on his sister's shoulder on this sunny day after the snow, weeping to the point of failure.