Xueba confesses every day [Rebirth]

01

When I heard the news of Qin Ge's suicide, my first reaction was not sadness, but jealousy.

For Wang Ye, he would do anything.

Me too, obviously so similar.

At that time, I was sitting in front of the sunny glass window of the office building, holding a cup of hot tea, which I planned to give him in the morning.

Now there is a crowd of people downstairs.

Only there is no Wang Ye.

I remember the phone call last night.

He was still in a calm mood, "I will bear all the responsibilities, and the debt letter has been signed."

I said, "This is only temporary, and I'll find a way to get the money together."

Qin Ge's tone was cold: "How long? For a lifetime?"

"At least before your wedding with Wang Ye." I said.

This is of course a lie to him. I don't want Qin Ge and Wang Ye to get married, and I don't even want them to appear together in my sight.

Qin Ge and Wang Ye came to Huagai after graduation, which was the relationship between the front foot and the back foot.

Even though the time was short, I still fell in love with Qin Ge at a glance.

One afternoon, out of breath, Qin Ge went upstairs carrying the documents.

Qin Ge blushed.

I often take him with me and drink a lot, and I find that he has a bad stomach and gets drunk easily.

I started testing him.

Every time he stopped the drink for me, he would sit on the steps in front of the hotel to rest, and would always call Wang Ye immediately.

I stopped him with a smile: "Wait a minute, I have stomach medicine in the car."

He waved at me, his face was flushed, and his eyebrows were furrowed together: "I have a friend to pick me up, sit here and wait."

I knew why and asked, "What friend?"

He said, "Boyfriend."

I was excited about his sexuality at first, and then frustrated that he had a partner.

But immediately the excitement overwhelmed the frustration.

Aptitude is objective, object is subjective.

I can take the initiative to change his subjective thinking.

It's mean, but I like it.

For a long time afterwards, I would always take him with me when I went out to socialize, and he would also get drunk, and would blush when he was drunk, but I have to be honest, I love him so much when he is drunk.

I have observed that Qin Ge's physique is cold, and he usually doesn't touch things that are too cold.

Fingertips are cold all year round.

So every time I have a dinner party, I will choose a good seafood restaurant nearby, order some crabs, or rabbit meat from the game restaurant, and I will also prepare a box of honeysuckle in his office.

All are for him.

02

I have a big cigarette addiction, and I never shy away from Qin Ge.

When I smoked, his face was visibly unnatural, and he even blushed, in some extreme cases, when I was smoking half a pack an hour to be exact.

I could almost hear every inch of his face screaming.

Usually in a smoky environment for more than 15 minutes, I will take the initiative to talk to him about today's meeting arrangements or the coffee I asked him to make in the morning.When he was talking to me, he would very politely look me in the eye, and that was all I was looking for in his eyes with very honest reasons.

His eyes are grey-blue.

I don't know if Wang Ye has said that it is very beautiful.

My intuition told me that I must have said so, and I exhaled to make the smoke in the confined space more intense.

His face will be redder.

I will be more excited.

03

I've seen Qin Ge's smile.

To Wang Ye, to me.

totally different.

I'd ruin my day with it, and I'd even dismiss the stray cats following me by the side of the road.

Probably the one I just fed three 10 minutes ago.

If I remember correctly, it is a cow cat, only the tip of the tail is yellow.

"Don't laugh at me." I said to Qin Ge before I got off work.

He would still smile and nod to me, saying, "Got it."

It's useless to say.

But I will say it anyway.

I have two cars, and I will use the other one to track Qin Ge.

After get off work, he would meet Wang Ye for dinner at a hotel quite far from the company, whose name was easy to remember.

Fuchun River.

The floor-to-ceiling glass allows me to see clearly from the opposite side.

Wang Ye gave him a watch, and I saw it on Qin Ge's wrist the next day.

Wang Ye didn't have much money, and the watch was only a few thousand yuan.

But Qin Ge smiled, very happy.

The waiter next to me handed over the menu, and I waved.

I ordered Qin Ge's favorite dish.

Then continue to look towards the opposite side.

Their meeting lasted two hours, and I packed up the leftovers from my dinner table and drove home.

When I got out of the car, I met the cat again.

It barks at me twice.

I don't like the sound of the cat, it started whining against my pant leg.

I knelt down and said, "Don't yell at me."

"Meow~"

To show seriousness, I tapped its nose with my finger: "Don't bark at me."

"Meow~meow~"

04

I took it home and gave it a bath.

Also discovered a secret.

What I thought was a dark spot was washed away by the water and turned yellow, the same color as the tail.

I suddenly became interested in it.

It strongly reminds me of Qin Ge.

I started to be more cautious about its diet. I turned on my phone, and any website I searched told me that cats are best to eat cat food.

But I don't have cat food.

I called the secretary while holding the cat's head between my thighs, one-handed to help him find lice.

"I now need cat food, cat scratching posts and cat toys, and they will be delivered to me downstairs in half an hour."

The other person asked thoughtfully, "Where's the cat's nest?"

I said, "No need for this."

After hanging up the phone, I pinched it by the back of the neck and took it to the bathroom.

Put a towel on it to clean it up.

After everything was delivered, I didn't leave the secretary for dinner.

I went back to the bathroom to continue, it was waiting for me.

It has big eyes.

Gray blue.

05

I did and missed many things.

One of the big ones was to Qin Ge.

I am familiar with several loan companies, they are small and not clean.

I know that Wang Ye needs money, buying a house, and everything needed for getting married.

Later, it was only half a month from the accident to Qin Ge's suicide.

I only heard later that Wang Ye started to pursue Qin Ge in his sophomore year, and it took him two years.

I figured it out, the beginning when I met Qin Ge was the beginning when Qin Ge accepted Wang Ye.

Obviously almost.

Shit, I'm two years late.

I don't feed my cat either, but he's smart enough to find food on his own (I keep cat food piled under my bed).

Still, I attribute the incident to my goodness.

Don't laugh, I repeat, my kindness.

Sorry, I laughed out loud, you can do whatever you want.

I didn't sleep well for the next few days, and it made me even more uncomfortable to think that Wang Ye was still alive.

He's the one most to blame, isn't he?

No.

I suddenly wanted to send the cat away.

I called my secretary, but he was allergic to animals.

It stays for now.

06

When I stood on the roof and looked down, I didn't feel dizzy.

I admit that the way I do things is a little off.

No one came to reprimand me, not even the two people who were the only ones who qualified.

I didn't jump right away.

I first sat on the side of the building for a while, looking at the Dingcheng under my feet.

I didn't notice it before, it's a beautiful building.

The color reminded me of Qin Ge's eyes, the cat's eyes.

I called the neighbor and asked if he was eating the cat food on time.

Neighbors said the cat was lost.

I wanted to scold him, but I said thank you.

Nothing to worry about.

07

When I opened my eyes, I was lying on the bed.

My university dormitory.

I touched the phone next to my ear, and when the screen lit up, I felt unprecedentedly clear, and all my senses were mobilized. I climbed out of bed and saw myself in the mirror on the wall.

The way it was six years ago.

The sun outside shines in, and I see a person.

Someone who takes my breath away.

They are taking pictures, very leisurely.

Wang Ye is also here, which I can't figure out.

But I still only took a deep breath and went out to say hello.

The other party left angrily.

Qin Ge's angry face was also very nice.

He blushed.

He blushed when he didn't drink and I didn't smoke.

08

I began to live with peace of mind in the world with him again.

I thought I had a unique and wonderful opportunity.

09

I'm wrong.

10

Life is like countless boring movies, rolling before my eyes.

In the hospital, Wang Ye pointed to Qin Ge on the bed and said to me: "I am his boyfriend."

I knew it.

This is my retribution.

I was going to accept life's revenge.

But something unexpected happened.

Emotions are uncontrollable.

Under the premise of desire, people often make many unreasonable actions, which we call "desire|desire impulse".

The night before I knew I had lost.

Qin Ge was invited.

I might be doing another irreversible thing.

Desire | hope it says: do it.

I just did it.

Maybe the life that took revenge on me didn't want to let me go like this. He deliberately showed his feet and let me miss.

Invincible.

11

I give up resistance.

Go back to my own bed and wait for the next morning.

I was going to give up resistance again, but I couldn't take a breath, and this breath was about a problem.

I will die calmly, and Wang Ye will live alone.

In the sense of "love", do I go beyond the word "love" itself?

I found the parties separately, and rectified my name on the topic of "love".

I slyly dodged moral judgment and found a gap called "love".

I asked Qin Ge if I could make it up.

He unequivocally refuses.

I found Wang Ye and tried to prove that I have more than "love".

It's very one-sided, he said.

12

I'm closed.

On the way home, I smoked and kicked everything I could with one foot.

Everything I used to hide with less words, I don’t need anymore.

I was smoking and swearing.

I don't know what I'm cursing, a tree with a crooked neck that doesn't agree with me.

A broken shoe that was discarded.

Stores that close early.

A downpour that drenched me.

13

I met old friends.

The cat that got lost by itself, the cat that made me die with peace of mind.

I still take it home.

Give it everything it needs as a cat.

After that, give him to a neighbor.

14

I sat on the roof for the second time.

I'm smoking again, probably waiting for life's third revenge.

It was hot, so I went downstairs to buy a beer, and then sat back.

I dare not stay too long, lest someone persuade me to go back.

"Meow~"

I turned around and found that it was a stray cat.

"Meow~meow~"

I stretched out my hand and it came over and I played with it for a while.

I pinched its cat's head for a while, and there were faintly newly grown orange hairs on the top of its head. I said, "I have to jump down. As a cat, you'd better not look at it."

It seemed to understand, its tail swung twice, and it ran down the stairs.

Afterwards, I bid farewell to the world once again.

15

I opened my eyes again.

Sure enough, God is going to take revenge on me for the third time.

"Awake?" said a voice.

I lay on the bed and tilted my head, and saw a man I didn't recognize.

But I know him well.

It's a contradiction, but it's just a feeling.

For example, when you are walking on the street, nodding and smiling at the person who happens to be walking across from you, you think you have spent your whole life with him.

It's silly, but true.

I turned over and put my face on my arms and asked, "Who are you? Who am I?"

There was heating in the room. The man was wearing an orange open-neck sweater and his skin was very fair. He was wearing an apron and putting plates on the table. Then there were two pairs of wooden chopsticks on the beige tablecloth.

He smiled at me: "Let's eat."

Although he didn't answer my question, he smiled nicely.

The eyes are light blue.

I sat up in bed and the man handed me a pair of slippers before I went barefoot.

It fits very well.

I go to the mirror and I am still me.

I decided to have a full meal before continuing to ask questions. During this period, the man kept helping me with food.

Ordinary homemade dishes, fried very tasty.

After dinner, he helped me take a shower.

Was bathed by a strange man.

So far, I'm not surprised.

Finally, the two hot and fragrant men faced each other.

I'm still insisting: "Who are you? Who am I?"

He stretched out his head, rubbed against my hand, and fell into my arms:

"Stop dumping me on the neighbors."

16

People like me are saved by God.

It is an orange cat with blue eyes.

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