silently love you

Su Yu has changed a lot recently.

The whole class was discussing "Is Su Yu bewitched?".

Su Yu, who had never stayed honestly for a whole day, actually came here for half a month in a row, never leaving early or late!

Moreover, he happily quarrels with his classmates every day, never gets angry, and seems to have forgotten that Huang Sheng is still in the hospital.

The results of the mid-term exam also came down. As he expected, Mo Mo had regressed a lot, and his ranking dropped to No.3. The unprecedented ranking and the frowning of the teacher made him nervous, so he put all his time on For study, she hardly went to Su Yu's house anymore.

"Oh~" Su Yu lay on the table, sighing one after another.

Shen Mo raised his head from the book and looked sideways at him, "This is the 180th time you have oops in this hour."

Su Yu propped up his arms, resting his head on his palm, feeling aggrieved, "This is the first sentence you said to me today."

Shen Mo closed the book, thinking carefully that he had been neglected recently, and held his hand under the desk apologetically.

Su Yu held it instead, and his wounded heart finally found some relief.This was the first time they had such an intimate act in class, Silence didn't want others to know, so they generally kept a distance.

Mo Mo held him in his right hand, held his mobile phone in his left hand, opened Su Yu's wechat, and typed with one hand.

Su Yu knew that he was sending herself a wechat message, so she also took out her mobile phone. This was the way they usually communicated at school. Some secret words could not be said face to face, for fear of being heard by others, they were all passed on through wechat.

Silence: Today is Friday, going to your house in the evening?

Su Yu: I can't ask for it.

Silence: Brother Cai is coming back soon.

Su Yu: If you are unhappy, do you have to mention other men?

The front desk suddenly turned around and called for Shen Mo, who immediately let go of Su Yu's hand, and naturally asked him what was the matter.

Su Yu withdrew his hand and put the phone away helplessly.

Although Shen Mo was solving problems for the front table, he still saw Su Yu's disappointed expression, and suddenly felt a little uncomfortable in his heart, but he didn't know what to say.

Su Yu didn't feel happy until after school.He has never had any trouble with Shen Mo, they are always unhappy, and he coaxes him with a good temper.

The two walked on the road, silent all the way.Mo Mo wanted to speak several times, but seeing Su Yu's expressionless face, he swallowed the words back.

He knew what Su Yu was angry about, angry at Silence for ignoring him, angry at him for always being afraid of others knowing and deliberately alienating him, angry at him for being cowardly, angry at him for being weak, angry at him for worrying about this and that.

But silence is fear!He still can't protect this relationship, he doesn't want them to be exposed to the sun, silence can't make everyone shut up, and he can't do nothing.

He felt that Su Yu should understand him.

It was a cool night, and Silence pulled the coat zip on top.

Mo Mo walked a few steps quickly, grabbed Su Yu's arm to stop him.Su Yu's face was sullen, and he hadn't asked him what he wanted.Silence broke out first.

"Why are you angry?" Shen Mo's tone was not kind, he wanted to get angry but deliberately suppressed his voice so as not to attract others' attention.

"I'm not angry." Su Yu's face was cold.

"Su Yu, you're not me, you don't know my pressure, if I relax and play every day, then what can I do in the future so that my dad and I can live a good life?"

Su Yu wasn't angry at first, but just wanted to deliberately cool him down and make him care more about herself.But Mo Mo's appearance of knowing his mistakes and not correcting them and being reasonable made him very unhappy.

"Then do you know the pressure I'm under? Liang Ruonan almost got me kidnapped and sent directly to the army. I can't bear to let you drag me to a stalemate. Why don't you cherish me?"

Shen Mo let go of Su Yu's hand, "I never said that I don't want you to go. You can live the life you like. I'm with you, and I want to be with you for the rest of my life. I don't want you to wrong yourself. Go after your dreams."

There are many thoughts in silence. What he thinks of is that the two of them will last forever, not the kind of life tied together like conjoined twins. What he hopes to see is that Su Yu can finally get rid of all the shackles, and freely follow what he likes. Live like that.Shen Mo will try to make himself an equal person like him, instead of only living in his house and spending his money to drag him down in the future!

After the silent words, Su Yu only heard that he could leave, and the temperature of his whole body dropped a few degrees.

"You want me to go?" Su Yu asked him.

"That's not what I meant." Mo Mo knew that he had misunderstood, and wanted to hold his hand to explain, but Su Yu avoided him.

This was the first time Su Yu avoided him like he was bored.The silent heart is like being pinched fiercely by someone, making it difficult to breathe.

"You know that's not what I meant..." Silence's voice was low, and he withdrew his hand that was hanging in the air, and he lost the courage to continue speaking.

Su Yu knew how hurtful his reaction was, and wanted to hug him immediately to comfort him.

But he didn't do that.He hoped that Shen Mo could rely on him, and that he didn't have to be so strong, chasing dreams and so on was nonsense, he just wanted to be with Shen Mo all his life.

He has to let Shen Mo know that I am the person you can't live without all your life, don't always think about letting me go.

"Then do you think I should go to the army?" Su Yu looked at the silence and asked in a deep voice.

Silence did not speak.

Su Yu suddenly smiled, and looked at him mockingly, "You also think I should go to the army, don't you? Listen to Liang Ruonan, and you will be able to stand out and become a master in the future. I, a rambunctious person, will starve to death in the future! "

Su Yu always wanted to misinterpret what he meant.

Shaking his head silently, "You are not me, don't always put what you think on me."

"You always say I'm not you. So are you me? I don't know what you think, do you know what I think?"

Silence is the least likely to quarrel, and people around have already looked over, he covered his ears, and stepped back step by step, "Stop talking, don't talk. I'm going home first."

Su Yu grabbed him, with an attitude of insisting on explaining things clearly, and pulled him to the alley beside him.

"There is no one now. You can talk." Su Yu pushed Shen Mo against the wall and supported him with one hand to prevent him from running away. Now that he can't speak clearly, there will be a gap between the two of them, which is not conducive to the future development .Su Yu advocated: Speak clearly.

I thought for a while in silence, and then said slowly, "I don't want you to go to the army. I haven't thought about it before, I haven't had it now, and I won't have it in the future. It's something you don't like to do. I don't want you to go to the army." You do things that make you unhappy."

Su Yu nodded, "I understand what you said, but I misunderstood what you meant." Su Yu nodded very reasonable, but silence was taken aback.

"Then what do you want me to do?" Su Yu asked.

Seeing that he wasn't so angry anymore, Shen Shen was also slightly relieved.

"I want to be a lawyer in the future. You said that you want to be a policeman. Maybe I will study law in college, and you will go to the police academy. Then we will work and live together."

That is the life of silent longing.

Su Yu never thought that Mo Mo had thought so far.Suddenly I felt that my inexplicable temper was a bit too much.

Mo Mo went on to say, "It is not difficult for you to enter the police school, but I think it is not so easy to go to Tsinghua University to study law. I have to work harder than others, otherwise I will not be able to keep up with you in the future. "

Mo Mo squeezed himself to death, he didn't have time to accompany Su Yu, he just couldn't let himself make a little mistake in this matter, he couldn't take chances.

Su Yu completely lost her temper, and hugged Shen Mo into her arms to comfort her distressedly, "I'm sorry. I don't understand you too much, but I just want to stay with you."

Silence wrapped around his waist, gripping the center of the earth and finally let go, "I should spend more time with you."

The two people who were facing each other just now are now actively admitting their mistakes, as if they were not the ones who felt that they were right just now.

Su Yu sighed, "A good Friday was just wasted in quarrels."

As soon as the silence relaxed, he felt a little hungry. He got out of Su Yu's arms, looked at his phone, and asked, "After seven o'clock, the night market is still there. Let's go there to eat."

The night market is on this street, and it will take about 10 minutes to walk forward.

Su Yu was already hungry, so she led Shen Mo to the outside, stopped after a few steps and looked back at the two holding hands, and asked, "Can I walk hand in hand?"

Shen Mo smiled and shook the hand he was holding: "If you dare to let go, I will bite you."

The night market is a place where young people like to hang out. Don’t underestimate the night market. The food here is very delicious and there are many varieties. If you want to try everything, you will definitely not be able to eat it all in one day. You will have to eat it for a few days.

Shen Mo and Su Yu strolled around, their hands full of food bags, so they found a stall selling crayfish and sat down to eat.

Surrounded by a group of people on the opposite side, there are homeless singers who are playing guitar and singing original music. The voice is vicissitudes, and the lyrics are simple and casual. People who listened unconsciously began to yearn for a free life.

Shen Mo wiped his mouth, looked at Su Yu, and made a decision that he admired himself.

"Didn't you say that I am not you?" Silence smiled and stood up.

Su Yu looked up with a dazed face, biting the little ball in his mouth, and said vaguely, "Why are you going?"

"I'll just be Su Yu once today." Mo Mo reached out and patted Su Yu's head, and said with a smile, "Wait."

In Su Yu's bewildered eyes, Shen Mo swaggered to the side of the homeless singer, lowered his head and said a few words to him, Su Yu felt something, quickly put down his food and surrounded him to see what Shen Mo wanted What are you doing.

The folk singer was taken aback when he heard Shen Mo's words, then nodded with a bold smile, and made an "ok" gesture. He picked up the microphone and said, "The little brother next to me wants to sing a song. I don't know if he sings well, but he is so handsome, I kind of want to hear it, how about you?"

Most of the onlookers were girls, and they wanted to sing when they saw Silence, and they all cheered and wanted to listen.

The singer handed the microphone to Silence.

Although a little shy, Shen Mo took the microphone, looked around the people in front of him with a smile, "Hi everyone, my name is Su Yu."

Su Yu raised her eyebrows, looked at such a fussy silence and smiled, looking forward to seeing what he would do.

Probably because he didn't expect his voice to be so pleasant, the applause was even more enthusiastic.

"I want to sing a song for my boyfriend Shen Mu." Mu Mu's gaze was always on Su Yu.

The girls were all stunned, and Su Yu didn't expect Mo Mo to be so bold, everyone looked over, Su Yu thought for a while, put both hands on his head, and made a gesture.

Everyone around laughed together instantly, and the silent and clear laughter was transmitted to everyone through the speakers, and passers-by also took out their mobile phones to record the pair of super-looking "gay people" in front of them.