What he sang is all fake

Bei He never had a nightmare every night when he slept next to Qi Chen, this night was the first time.To be precise, this cannot be called a nightmare, but a memory, a secret.The secret is led by warm dialogue, it has been waiting for the opportunity to move.

Beihe has many secrets, such as his real name, his parents, and for example, he once seriously wanted to commit suicide.This last point, apart from himself, no one else in this world really knows.

It was obviously something that he wanted to forget in the future, but he condensed this memory and attached it to the word "Beihe", which was awakened day and night, and passed on from word to mouth.These two words are his new life, and the place where these two words are located also represents his past and nightmares, which is one of the most irreconcilable contradictions in his life.

He has said many times that when he was a child he had a dream in which he was lost in a field of reeds.Then a voice told him to go north.He walked and walked until he came to the end of the reed field and saw a river.

This is the well-known part.

Then he plunged into the river, the water was over his head in a few steps, he tried to swim to the other side, but failed, and he drowned.

This is the part that he accidentally told Qi Chen when he first met Qi Chen.

But the fact is that such a river does exist. The dream is not a dream, but a reality that has happened in an area less than a hundred kilometers away.In reality, the ten-year-old Bei He staggered and ran into the reed field. This was the place where he watched the stars at dusk day after day. This was the place where his mother led him and hummed nursery rhymes. He knew where the river was. Stretching north to the borders of his small world, he had thought the world ended where the river ended, and never dared to venture beyond alone.

He spent his childhood by the river, and his initial belief was that there are spirits in the shallow water, but in the end he could only see his own reflection.The golden reeds withered to the ruined flaxen color, and in winter they were covered with snow, and they were vast. This was his entire impression of the world in the first few years of his memory.So much so that he is used to the silence of everything, to only the sound of wind and water patterns, how simple it is, he used to be so simple that he didn't know what loneliness is.

If there is no desire, there will be no pain, but he will grow up, he will understand the origin of the hostility when the curse is heard, and he will analyze the core of sympathy or pity in the eyes of the tutor looking at him.He will understand that glass can scratch people, and he will die if he bleeds out. He will understand that his mother is crying in the middle of the night not because the flowers in the living room are withering, but because of his own existence.

Why is the existence of a person itself a crime? He spent a long time thinking about this question, and also deliberately eavesdropped on the conversations of adults.He concluded that he was a child who "shouldn't have been born", an illegitimate child who "doesn't need to be registered, so he can't have a status". of".The old man, whom he saw less than once a year, waved his heavy cane and looked at him with contempt and disgust, while Bei He covered his mouth in surprise, for no other reason, he always thought it was a dead thing, just like the creature in the movie The skeleton specimens placed in the laboratory, but the other party was actually a living person, and even spoke to him.

People always want to find a reason and an outlet for resentment, and he is pulled out as the root of the evil of fleeting years.He didn't know what entanglements had happened in the previous generation, and never would.Because in a certain winter, he heard that the person wielding a cane died of illness, and before the beginning of spring in the coming year, the person who sang nursery rhymes to him and those who scolded him also died together.He stood in the firelight and watched them lie at the foot of the stairs, so close, as close as they really were in love.One of them half-opened his eyes and didn't move, and the other sighed a long, long sigh, and then told him, let's go north.

Go north, he's going to find the river.Whether there is any elf in the river waking up, and whether there will be an end of the world when walking along the river, he will know when he falls into the water: this is the end, a sweet dream, and a Happy Ending that makes everything return to nothing.He has no fear of death except that it is a comfortable return.

It would be nice if it really stayed here.

The sharp sound of the ambulance pierced the night sky, strangers lifted him up hurriedly, pressed his chest with cold hands, squeezed his flesh and blood, the feeling of suffocation at the edge of drowning was too uncomfortable, his lungs were burning Burning and stinging, his physiological tears overflowed his eyes, and he spit out water from his nasal cavity and mouth.The dirty and messy child was surrounded by people celebrating his escape from death, but it was too painful. He had never felt that the wind on a winter night was so cold, so cold that it pierced bone marrow and nerves, and the reeds were full of rustling ghosts , They and they are telling him that living is the most painful thing.

——why wake me up?

你 叫 什么 名字？

Someone asked him that when he woke up in a trance again.

My name is... Beihe.

"Bei He, wake up quickly."

Opening his eyes to see the sky, someone put his palm on his cheek, it was warm.The thumb brushed the corner of his eye, where the fluid was also hot.He was calling his name, Beihe, Beihe, over and over again.

He pursed his lips and smiled.

"You call it a few more times, and I will like these two words if you call it a few more times."

The world before Bei He's eyes became clear. Seeing Qi Chen's worried expression, he put his face on his stomach and shook it coquettishly.Even if he didn't continue to look at it, he knew that his boyfriend's brows were frowning again. He guessed that the other party was worried, whether the conversation last night reminded him of the worst part of his life.

But no.

I never really forgot it, and every minute, every second, every time someone says the name, I'm reminded to remember it.Remember that I was not expected, not needed, remember that I could bring bad luck and misfortune, remember what it was like to be near death, but also remember new life, remember to escape, remember the lights and eyes, remember that being alive is the most painful and possibly the most Good thing, remember I waited for you.

"Don't worry," Bei He squeezed Qi Chen's palm comfortingly and flatteringly, "I will defeat it."

It was 10 minutes before Qi Chen had to go out to work before Bei He slowly got up from the bed.He was reluctant to let him go, because his own vacation was less than a day, and he didn't know when the next meeting would be.He didn't even have the heart to send him off, so he stretched his feet to say goodbye to him.

But when Qi Chen was carrying his bag and was about to open the door, he still stood at the door, holding his handsome face and kissing him again and again.When Qi Chen pressed the doorknob, he looked back. Bei He was wearing his pajamas and blinked at him. There were also two cats lying at his feet. Holding his paws, he reluctantly persuaded him to stay.

well.Qi Chen sighed helplessly.He let go of the doorknob, put the bag on the shoe cabinet, and changed the shoes back.People who were praised as role models soon after joining the job took half a day off.

However, they did not do anything special during this half day.Big Dipper and Lucky Star lay in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows, basking in the sun and sleeping, Qi Chen held the computer and tapped, and Bei He leaned obediently and quietly by his side.The atmosphere is just right, so it seems to be able to live forever.

But Beihe's phone started ringing exactly at eleven o'clock.After confirming where he was, who he was with, and what he was doing, Song Yixiang solemnly emphasized the time for returning to the team, and Barabara gave a lot of advice.Bei He responded repeatedly, squeezed his head into Qi Chen's arms, and fell silent.

"I can visit you on weekends," Qi Chen said comfortingly after he hung up the phone, "It's not that I don't have time at all, and I don't think Song Yixiang is difficult to persuade."

Bei He didn't speak for a long while.

Qi Chen thought he was still wronged, so he reached out and rubbed the top of his hair.And Beihe was silent for a while, then asked in a low voice, "If you have time to go back to Weicheng, would you like to go to another place?"

Qi Chen's hand froze.

Bei He remembered that someone asked him to do something, but he never found an opportunity to speak up.Even if he opened his mouth, he just clicked to the end. He believed that Qi Chen would be able to understand what he was talking about.It was too difficult, he didn't want to interfere with Qi Chen's attitude and choice at all, but now, he also started to be afraid.

"I'm afraid you will regret it in the future." Bei He said softly, "...It's not regret, I'm afraid you will regret it in the future."

It would be a lie to say that there is no grudge, Qi Chen is not a kind person with a heart of the Virgin, there is no blind hatred, and it is absolutely impossible for him to have intimacy that he wants to take the initiative to approach.The description of being abandoned may not be entirely appropriate, but after all, subjectively speaking, this is the truth, and it cannot be easily forgiven.

"Has she deteriorated?"

After being silent for a long time, Qi Chen asked so lightly.Bei He didn't know what to say. Although he hadn't been told the exact news, he felt that Zhou Nanyu would ask him for help, which meant that he had reached a point where he couldn't wait any longer.

"If you don't want to forget it, I'll just mention it once." He raised his head to find his gaze, stretched out his fingertips to stroke his brow, "No matter what you decide, I think you are right."

Qi Chen's gaze was still as calm as water, like water under the moonlight in the night. "regardless?"

"Well, it doesn't matter." Bei He nodded vigorously at him.

Time can't be paused or slowed down, after lunch, it's time for Qi Chen to go to work again.Reluctantly saying goodbye, Bei He played with the two cats for a while, and thought about cleaning up, but found that the house was actually very clean.

Compared with the messy rental house half a year ago, Qi Chen has developed the habit of tidying it up regularly.This is a good thing, but Bei He looked at the empty living room, imagining Qi Chen slowly tidying up here alone, and couldn't help but feel sore in his heart.Qi Chen himself doesn't know, he occasionally shows a particularly distressing expression, indifference and loneliness are the same thing in a sense.

Bei He sat blankly on the sofa for a while, then suddenly remembered something, ran upstairs in a hurry, and found out a small book of sticky notes.

When Qi Chen came back at night, he found the first sticker on the shoe rack.A crooked grimace expression, with a line of small words attached below: Let's go treasure hunting!

Then there is the cup of drinking water: don't drink coffee all the time!I ordered a quick delivery, and the milk and juice are in the fridge!

Then there is the refrigerator, there are some extra ingredients in it, and there is a picture on the milk bottle: It's not summer yet, warm it up a little before drinking!

Upstairs, too, the one on the bathroom mirror has a nosebleed face painted on it: I want to spy on you taking a shower!

Along the trajectory of his life, there are too many, on the computer, in the books, in the drawers, in front of the corner of the table and the window, and finally to the stickers and small characters on the desk lamp, they are in love with him at midnight.

Goodnight husband!I love you.

"……Fool."

Looking at this line of words, Qi Chen smiled lightly.

I love you.Bei He wrote down these three words stroke by stroke, and at the end he put the sticky note on his lips and kissed it.The sunlight at two o'clock filled the window sill, and Bei He pasted the last sticky note on the window.Returning to the team at six o'clock, there are still a few hours left, and he has things to do.

While changing clothes, he called Chu Xiaofei, rang four or five times, and the other person answered.It didn't have the cheap opening remarks as usual, Chu Xiaofei's voice was a little fluttering, as if he had just woken up.

"Xiaofei? Are you sleeping?"

"No, I'm awake." Chu Xiaofei was very quiet, only the sound of a quilt being turned. "what?"

"Where are you?"

"I am home."

"I know you're at home, which one is it? I'll come to see you, okay?"

"Okay, here in the city."

Bei He armed himself, quickly dragged his small box to Chu Xiaofei's private apartment, and knocked on his door.The person who opened the door for him presented a standard appearance of a teenager with Internet addiction: his hair stood tall, he was wearing pants and slippers, his eyes were slightly squinted without contact lenses, and he still had a toothbrush in his mouth.He murmured something, Bei He understood after two seconds, let him sit down first.

Chu Xiaofei tidied himself up and went out to eat something from the refrigerator, Bei He paused for a while and sighed, "Why are you living rougher than me..."

"Are you rough?" Chu Xiaofei glanced at him with distaste, "I think you are very moist."

His room is full of wires, cables for various musical instruments, power supplies, game consoles, projectors and a bunch of other things.Bei He stepped over them carefully, pulled out a rug and sat down on it, then blinked and looked at him sincerely.

"Come to chat?"

Sunlight fell through the cracks in the curtains, and there were fine dust particles in the room doing Brownian motion.Chu Xiaofei sat at the end of the bed with the guitar in his arms, moved his legs and pulled away the stack of piano scores under him, and casually threw it aside with a wave of his hand.The papers scattered by the goddess flew to Bei He's hand, he picked up a sheet and looked at it, Chu Xiaofei's big and cursive characters made various annotations on the side of the stave.

He casually touched the strings, "What are you talking about?"

This was not an easy answer, but when Bei He saw Chu Xiaofei who was staying at home after work, he suddenly knew what he was going to say.Things that were vaguely felt at first became very clear at this moment:

"Aren't you very happy recently?"

"Huh?" Chu Xiaofei casually dialed out a few chords, "No, I'm just too tired."

The word tired is really easy to use, after all, it is the most obvious product after all troubles are concretized.Bei He leaned closer to him, and asked softly, "Will you always be an idol?"

Chu Xiaofei didn't answer, as if he was really stopped by the sudden question.He asked Bei He back, "Did I live too heartless before?"

Bei He shook his head violently, "No, you are fine!"

"Don't issue me a card," Chu Xiaofei smiled, "I mean, I only recently realized that it is really troublesome for this person to live among a group of people."

He didn't go into details, but asked Bei He again, "What about you? Don't want to do it anymore?"

Beihe didn't have the nerve to say that he really thought about not being an artist anymore, but he said frankly, "I definitely won't be an idol forever. But I don't know when it will end."

The most important thing is, "...have I been causing you trouble?"

Chu Xiaofei knew he was going to say this.He sighed helplessly, "No."

Without saying a word, Bei He picked up a certain data cable on the side and rolled it up in his hand.

"Do you want to listen to the truth?" Chu Xiaofei paused, and then said, "Everyone will inadvertently cause trouble for others, and I will too. Unintentional things, no need to apologize, sometimes unavoidable. After all, people live in groups Animals, we ourselves are willing to care about each other and involve each other first."

Chu Xiaofei who let go of his flamboyant smiling face and said such words so calmly and earnestly made Beihe sigh.It would be nice to be able to live without a heart, but neither of them could.Chu Xiaofei is also a very emotional person, and he values ​​affection, he likes what others like and tires others, how lucky he is to be cared about, but being cared about will bring him more or less pressure and burden.

People are always in conflict.

"...Why do you say you will, for example?"

Chu Xiaofei twitched the corner of his mouth, "For example...my mother?"

Bei He lowered his eyes and stopped talking, he was seriously sorry, but sorry was not what Chu Xiaofei needed.

"Do you remember when we were still trainees, one night, I was scolded by Uncle Xiang for sulking in the room and not eating, and you hung a bag of fried chicken on the doorknob of my room?"

"...Huh?" The topic was too jumpy, and Bei He didn't even react.This daily life is too ordinary, he only vaguely remembers such a thing, "So?"

"There was another time when I went to an Internet cafe all night, you and Li Qi'an sneaked out with two cans of beer to accompany me to have fun?"

Bei He was puzzled, "What's the matter?"

"I think you look like you want to ask 'why are you so nice to me', such a vulgar and stupid question, so I will answer you directly, because you are Bei He, idiot."

"It's also because I am me, Qi'an is Qi'an, Gu Hui is Gu Hui, and Zhou Nan is Zhou Nan, so we are what we are now, do you understand?"

This is a relationship made by our nature and choices, and the cause of everything is ourselves.

This seemed to be sophistry, but Bei He seemed to understand what he meant. "...It's really strange to talk to you about this." He shook his head from side to side, resting his head on the edge of the bed, "But recently, I heard you call me Bei He, and I began to think that these two words sound pretty nice."

Chu Xiaofei raised his eyebrows, "You didn't think it sounded good?"

Bei He smiled lightly, but did not answer.

Chu Xiaofei played the guitar for a while and then went to touch the keyboard. Beihe collected all the things that could be sorted out within his sight range, and sorted out a thick stack of piano scores from various corners.There was an acquainted friend beside him chatting without saying a word, and the various unknown worries in Chu Xiaofei's heart were relieved a lot.

Looking at Beihe, Chu Xiaofei suddenly remembered something, "How is Qi Chen?" He asked pointedly.

Bei He would feel happy when he heard this name, "It's good, he skipped work and stayed with me all morning."

"...Who asked if Qi Chen was okay with you?" Chu Xiaofei rolled his eyes when he was suddenly fed dog food.He leaned back, lay on a ball of quilt, paused for a while before sighing, "I mean, he and..."

"Oh," Bei He replied, "It's still the same as before. I asked him in the morning if he wanted to visit Zhou's house, but he didn't respond."

Chu Xiaofei was stunned for a moment, then sat up abruptly, "You brought it up on your own initiative?"

Bei He was a little dazed, "Why, shouldn't I mention it?"

"..." Chu Xiaofei lay back again, and murmured softly, "Anyone can mention it, but you are the strangest."

Bei He caught the key word, he patted Chu Xiaofei's leg in fear, "Did you know something but didn't tell me?"

"No."

Chu Xiaofei turned over, not wanting to talk about this anymore.

It is said that curiosity killed the cat, and Bei He did not believe in evil. "You have to tell me about Qi Chen." He rushed over and shook Chu Xiaofei's arm, "Ah, tell me, I'm really worried."

Repeating the above general idea, Beihe asked Chu Xiaofei a dozen times in a tricky manner. Chu Xiaofei couldn't get enough of him, and said with a bitter face, "... 12-year-old brothers are against each other, and 24-year-old brothers are fighting each other. I don't know why. The prophecy of the great immortal on the mountain is the reason for their separation. Sounds really evil, right?"

"……what?"

"God, my head hurts just thinking about it." Chu Xiaofei covered his face with a pillow, "Little Ancestor, don't ask me, just follow the fate."

Chu Xiaofei completely pretended to be dead, and he didn't have time to see Bei He behind him froze in place as if struck by lightning, with a blank expression.

Beihe actually didn't fully understand the so-called prophecy he said, but when he was suddenly reminded, he realized something.He once thought that if, if, even if there was only a one in ten thousand possibility, Qi Chen could adjust his relationship with his original family, that would be really good.But now it seems that this small expectation has become very funny.

The villain in my heart sighed mockingly, do you know what is the most irreconcilable thing that directly affects them as a third-party cause?

What do you think is absolutely uncompromising, a gap that cannot be melted?

It is also something written in the fate, which is believed, feared and hated by people.The old man wielding a cane many years ago stood in front of him again, and asked with a sneer, do you know why the pair of brothers split?

Because of what?

Bei He blinked slowly.

Is it because of... me?

65. Final Chapter Departure

One week before Beihe's birthday, all major support stations put up birthday support.When Qi Chen passed by the light box with Beihe posters hanging in the subway station for the eighth time, Qi Mei also called him.

"It's almost Xiaobei's birthday, what gift have you prepared?"

Qi Chen didn't answer this question, but just hummed.

"Hmm, what do you mean! Besides, you haven't seen each other for so long, as the saying goes, a little goodbye is better than a newlywed, so don't put on a cold face every day!"

"understood."

Qi Mei muttered and chatted a lot, Qi Chen got out of the station and walked home while listening.

The fact that the target is an idol sometimes provides some unexpected conveniences. For example, if you search the Internet, there are a lot of Beihe's likes and dislikes. Counting from three or four years ago, it is too late to fill in those things that Qi Chen didn't have time to read. One understands the details.In fact, he has been thinking about some birthday present for Bei He since a while ago, no matter what aspect he can refer to the strategy to prepare, but he didn't spend too much time thinking about it, the first idea is the best idea.

He once found a small circle of red string in the corner of the drawer, which was the same as the red string tied to the bookmark Bei He gave him.The small circle was exactly the thickness of a finger, Qi Chen flipped through his storage box, took a few rings from the artist's handful of accessories for comparison, and he made up his mind.

He wanted to give Bei He a ring.

It wasn't that there would be any more sweet confessions, he couldn't say those words, he just simply thought of giving Bei He a ring.He didn't even think too much about the promise or the future, their promise and ceremony should have been engraved in every second of the annual ring, so there is no need to be so solemn or grand, this is just a sunny day in a certain year, he thought It's as simple as giving him a personal accessory.

After making this decision, Qi Chen's habitual efficiency caused a ring box to lie on the corner of the table the next night. The dark blue velvet box cleared his salary since he joined the job, and he didn't even blink when he swiped his card. .Qi Chen reflected for half a minute, he must not be led off by that guy who often flaunts his wealth.

He held the box in his palm and turned it around for a while, hesitating for a second whether to take a photo for Qi Mei to see, after thinking about it, he decided to forget it, he didn't want to hear her screams resounding through the three buildings.Only the round eyes of Big Dipper and Lucky Star saw it. Why did this usually cool host laugh alone at home?

At eleven o'clock on Saturday night, Qi Chen stood by the French window and called Bei He.

"Hey," Bei He's tone was full of tiredness, but his voice was still so pleasant when he pronounced his name, "Qi Chen?"

"Well, have you returned to the dormitory?"

"I'm back, I just came back."

Qi Chen asked directly, "Are you also busy on your birthday?"

He could understand his dynamics from Weibo hotspots, but this should actually be something that Bei He could have told him earlier.The receiver was silent for a few seconds, Bei He hummed lightly.

"There are birthday parties in previous years, and this year is also the same. It just happened to come back, and I will hold a small con to warm up the tour that day."

Qi Chen didn't answer immediately.The Bei He in my memory would immediately say something like, do you want to bring Qi Mei to see the VIP, do you have time to celebrate his birthday with him, and you will definitely talk about Song Yixiang taking a day off to meet him.

But not this time.The two breathed in silence until Qi Chen hummed.Obviously there are a lot of details that can be said, but Bei He didn't add any more during the call.Qi Chen looked at the black river water outside the floor-to-ceiling windows, and the moonlight fell in his eyes, soft and quiet.

"Okay, go to sleep."

They haven't seen each other for almost a month since Yidu signed the contract in April.Beihe has an intensive itinerary, and at the same time, he is also involved in the training for a new round of tour. The frequency of the phone calls between the two has dropped to once every five or six days, and the call time is getting shorter and shorter.When Bei He was in a different place, he would contact him every day no matter how tired he was, but now Qi Chen would check his phone for unread messages from time to time.Such a clingy guy has become so silent, it seems that he is really busy.

Or something else, slowly corroding eagerness in the moment outside his control.

It's strange, most people should want to ask dissatisfiedly when their lover is so abnormal.But Qi Chen's worry and displeasure dissipated after only a few minutes, and he had no doubts in the little Jinniu's loyalty to him.What's more, in the huge room he was in, there were dozens of post-it notes with corners turned up everywhere, staying in the same place they had arranged on the day he left, expressing love to him instead of him.

According to Qi Mei's words, this is the performance of Qi Chen's single-mindedness, he will think of many things very simply and directly.But the fact is that he is indeed not wrong, the love has never diminished, and it is impossible to diminish, it is just that someone got into the dead end by himself.

Bei He stared at the page after the call was over, leaning against the bay window in a daze.The night wind in early May brought the fragrance of summer grass and trees, and the sound of cicadas hovered over the city, like a spell that could not be escaped.

Then until May [-]th, neither of them contacted again.

When Bei He was sitting in the dance room and lost his mind, Chu Xiaofei pulled him out the door. Two bottles of Coke fell out of the vending machine with a clang. Chu Xiaofei pulled the tab and looked up to take a sip.

"Do you want to go to the bathroom and look in the mirror, why do you turn on the con at night with your face?"

Bei He reacted for two seconds, "...huh?"

Zhou Nan asked for leave, and Chu Xiaofei assumed the position of captain, and also shouldered the heavy responsibility of a close brother.He let out a long sigh, "Be honest, what's your situation?"

"It's okay...fuck me!"

Bei He pulled the tab, and was sprayed all over his face by the gushing soda, he was so distracted that he didn't notice that Chu Xiaofei shook the Coke a few times before handing it to him.

Chu Xiaofei laughed a few times, "I'm abducting you to sell you now, and you are so stupid as to count the money for me." He dragged Bei He to the stairwell and sat down, "Tell me, what's the matter."

The two of them looked like high school students hiding from their teachers and looking for a place to smoke. They were a little ruffian in a casual way, and they also had a bit of hypocrisy and stubbornness unique to adolescence.Chu Xiaofei noticed that Bei He had changed a little bit, he turned back to the insecure little guy with thorns all over his body when they first met.Some time ago, soaked in the honey pot of love, the soft and sweet breath subsided a lot, but now Bei He's eyes are clear and light.

"Have you quarreled with your brother Qichen?" After speaking, Chu Xiaofei felt cold for a second, "I can't, he doesn't seem to be the type who can lose his temper."

Bei He smiled with the corners of his mouth pulled, "There is no quarrel, but we should break up soon."

This time it was Chu Xiaofei who reacted for two seconds, then widened his eyes, "...Ah?!?!"

"why?!"

"I made it myself." Bei He raised his head and drank the Coke that was sprayed down to only half a bottle, his bangs were wet and drooped in front of his forehead, his slightly embarrassed appearance also fit the content of the conversation at this time. "I snubbed him first, and then it's been almost a week. I haven't contacted him until now, including today. This should be regarded as... just what I want?"

Chu Xiaofei was overwhelmed by his logic, "What the hell are you talking about..."

Bei He didn't look like he was joking, so Chu Xiaofei was still in shock.Although he didn't pay close attention to his friend's relationship, but for some reason, Qi Chen and Bei He always gave him the feeling that they would not break up if the sky fell.

Bei He patted his butt, got up and left, and dropped a sentence in an understatement.

"It's okay, it's me who is too troublesome."

Qi Mei painted a very delicate makeup and changed into her most satisfactory outfit recently. Like thousands of lucky girls who grabbed tickets, they lined up outside the venue.

"Brother, where are you?" She looked at the VIP ticket in her hand, there was only one, which was sent directly to her by his legendary brother, "I have to line up to enter the venue, how long do you have?"

"Go in, I'm already in the arena." Qi Chen said.

"... Huh?" Qi Mei was stunned for a moment, and randomly imagined a different kind of romance. "Oh, oh, not bad, what kind of surprises will be played. Who brought you in?"

Qi Chen was silent for a while, then slowly uttered a name.

This time Qi Mei was really stunned.

"You, you, no, why are you..." Qi Mei was a little incoherent, she lowered her voice, "What kind of progress is this... Did something happen that I don't know about?"

Someone knocked on the wall of the backstage corridor, and Zhou Nanyu, who lowered the brim of his hat and dressed in a low-key suit, pointed towards Qi Chen in a certain direction.

"Let's not talk, see you later." Qi Chen hung up the phone, followed Zhou Nanyu and walked towards the stands beside the stage.

There are indeed many, many things that Qimei doesn't know have happened, are happening, and will happen.Anyway, they are all very gentle people. No matter where they are due to happiness or misfortune, there will always be someone who is willing to break the deadlock, take a step back, and even do many things that they have never thought of.Qi Mei may not be able to complete all the details of this story after a long time, but she also later learned that they have been going retrograde and defying God's will, or God's will is just like that.

Does the god of the world love people?He stretched out his hand to cover it, and as night fell, water-colored fluorescent spots lit up in the venue, covering the entire stands, like a miniature of the Milky Way.The young and fresh lives in the audience gathered together because of the shining people on the stage, humming songs together, being moved and laughing together.

The small con with one member missing was simple and relaxed, and there were many interactions between song performances, mainly to distribute benefits, and the four of them kept walking to the venue.Bei He behaved as usual, smiling when he should laugh, lowering his head and blinking slowly when he should be touched.At this moment, he was walking to one side of the stand and throwing a signed ball. Chu Xiaofei stood on the diagonal line of him, looking at his back and sighing in his heart, until Li Qi'an hit his back with the ball. back.

There was a burst of screams from around, Chu Xiaofei laughed, and whispered when the two passed by, "Why, business? Sticking to me?"

Li Qi'an didn't answer his question, he quickly leaned over and said, "I saw Zhou Nan, in the right-hand stand of the main stage, in the unopened section." The biting movements of the two made the girls scream again, Chu Xiaofei almost didn't hear his last few words clearly - "...and Qi Chen, I must have read it right?"

Chu Xiaofei walked in that direction purposefully, and Gu Hui who met on the way also mentioned this matter.

Gu Hui looked rather dazed, thinking that he had forgotten which project in the script, "I saw Zhou Nan and Qi Chen... Is there any special arrangement for cutting the cake right away?"

Chu Xiaofei couldn't answer this question, but after cutting the cake, he had an increasingly strong premonition that something big would happen.He couldn't help but stared at Bei He all the time. The latter had crooked eyebrows and eyes. From the angle of the audience from a distance, he really couldn't see anything unusual.But maybe because of the inconclusive conversation in the stairwell in the morning as a foreshadowing, he looked at Bei He as if he was looking at a taut string, and felt that he was about to break.

Bei He closed his eyes and made a wish.There are thousands of people here with him, wanting his wishes to come true, but is that powerful enough?

——Sincerity leads to spirit.

Someone sighed softly, and along with some ancient words of advice, Bei He blew out the candle with a loud slap.

I really want to see him.

"The last song today is the first song I wrote by myself. It's called..." Bei He put his lips close to the microphone, and read out the title of the song softly.

"Happy Broken Day."

The other members all left the stage, leaving only Beihe to take off the microphone from the microphone stand, walk to the edge of the main stage and sit down casually.The lights were also turned off, leaving only the most straightforward white spotlights on him.

He narrowed his eyes in the halo of whiteness.

"It wasn't originally that name, but..." He lowered his eyes and pulled the corners of his mouth self-deprecatingly, "I think it's more appropriate now."

The venue fell silent, and everyone held their breath involuntarily.The deep and slow piano accompaniment sounded, and Bei He exhaled lightly, and spoke in a blank space:

"I remember, I wrote miss you on a sticky note

Every inch of time is filled with such memories

I like to hug you when you open the door

Set the anniversary as a password, from cold autumn to this summer

I also want to go to the movies with you

Look at the recorded expression when I was thinking of you"

There was a little hoarseness in the sweet voice, together with the singer's emotions, it was conveyed to every corner of the venue through the microphone, and even the air was filled with that gentle and sweet but painful smell.

"He, what is he doing?" Song Yixiang's heart skipped a beat. He heard something was wrong from the beginning of "the film that appeared in the scene".

His hunch was right, he had reviewed all the scripts and lyrics, but now Beihe has revised the lyrics.In the original ordinary love songs, the protagonist can be anyone, but now he stands in a more special perspective and sings the love that cannot be seen.

He is singing about himself.

"Now, can I forget that you love others again?

At this point, can I leave you and start again?

All the good things have been said, no

All the marks of loving you have said, no"

The spotlight, gaze, and fluorescence light up every subtle expression of him, and the camera is clear enough to capture the fluff on his skin, so he will not let go of his glistening eyes, and his memory The sweet and painful expression displayed by something.He wanted to sing these with a smile, but the faintly trembling fingers and the continuous swallowing of his throat revealed his suppressed, scourge.

"but if

I'm always so self-willed, I always live up to love

Is it that I am not so lucky to have you alone

if if

I will bring misfortune, I will cause separation

Should I just leave you and go retrograde again?

i am willing baby

For you I will"

Qi Mei gasped.Such a movement by one person was inaudible, but there were voices of distressed sighs in the audience, because they clearly saw that their little prince was smiling and weeping.

The crystal clear liquid overflowed those eyes, and finally fell over the eye sockets.

"It's time for the repeat, do you want to cut it?" The sound controller tapped on the keyboard and asked while grabbing the headset.

Even if they were not from the perspective of the audience, many staff members seemed to be infected, staring blankly at the big screen, forgetting to speak.Li Qi'an forgot to screw on the bottle cap after drinking the water, Gu Hui frowned and stared at the people on the stage, Zhou Jing raised his arm, bit his nails and did not speak.Song Yixiang had already gone through [-] worst possibilities in his mind, but just as he was about to say something, he was dragged out by Chu Xiaofei.

Song Yixiang: "?? You brat, let go!"

"Don't stop, let him sing." Chu Xiaofei looked at the people not far away calmly, no matter the image on the screen or the real person sitting on the steps had a soft halo, "Let him sing , just sing it out.”

"I remember, I wrote love you on a sticky note

Every inch of the annual rings is full of memories

I like it, hug you and raise your face to kiss you

Day after day, year after year, every day is an anniversary

I also want to see the place where I was born with you

Looking at the river going north, watching the stars and the evening

Now, can I forget that you love others again?

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