What he sang is all fake

Residents in the villa area do not have the habit of setting off firecrackers, and Weicheng has banned private fireworks in the past two years.Xiaonian was walking steadily this evening, the kitchen utensils collided with each other, the intermittent voice was very soft, and the TV was on. Although no one was listening to the news seriously, the voices from all over the world on the other side of the screen also gave this The room became a little more angry.

Zhou's mother hadn't cooked for a long time, and she was definitely not as good as Aunt Fu in terms of craftsmanship, but she still prepared several dishes with great care and did not let her son intervene to help.Zhou Nanyu tried to reach out several times but was pushed away, so he could only sit at the dining table and wait obediently.

There was nothing to do, he looked at his phone boredly, switched back and forth between several apps, and finally returned to a certain news page.

Have you been troubled?

The conversation stops here.Then from the afternoon until now, he didn't wait for a reply.

In fact, no matter whether that person was embarrassed or not, he couldn't help him.Chu Xiaofei and the others might still be able to play a role of comfort and encouragement, but he couldn't do anything, so he didn't do anything.Pale inquiry deserved no response, he began to convince himself in disguise.But it felt special, it was normal to be too busy to reply to messages, he would do it himself, but never had he been so clearly aware that he was waiting.The waiting time was long and exhausting, so long that he began to have strange emotions.

The dull part of his chest twitched.He was worried, but also unhappy.Worry can be barely justified, and displeasure can seem unreasonable.He has been in this state for a long time, but because of habitual restraint, before today he had never thought carefully about what this displeasure meant.

Zhou Nanyu lowered his eyes and stared at the red string on his left wrist.He only has this personal accessory, which has never been taken off since his birthday last year. It is usually hidden in his sleeve, and the color has not faded even after being soaked in water when washing.As an entertainer he has a storage box full of decorative trinkets, but there's only one thing he puts on and never thinks about taking it off.

He didn't think about why he didn't want to take it off.

But he thought about the scene where it came from.The cherry blossoms flying all over the Xiangshan Mountain came into view, and the pink and white petals fell on the young man's shoulders.His eyes flicked over his slightly raised hair, the side of his fair neck, and the fluttering eyelashes when he was talking and laughing with others, and then the other party found his gaze, turned his face and smiled at him, with curved eyebrows and eyes His appearance was warmer than that of April, and he also carried a bit of shyness that he only had when facing him.He then disappeared for an entire hour when he said he was going to the bathroom, and when everyone started looking for someone worried, he reappeared with a light face.Facing those sly eyes, he couldn't say a word of reproach.

Then Zhou Nanyu found out half a year later that at that time, the boy climbed to the top of the mountain alone along the stone steps covered with petals, and knelt in the temple alone to make a wish for a red rope to ward off evil spirits.He wove it by himself, maybe he made clumsy mistakes in the process, but the finished product was so complete and beautiful, and every neatly interlaced line was written with a prayer, wishing him safe and healthy all the time.

"When will that kid from Beihe come over to play?"

Mother Zhou brought a plate of crystal shrimp to the table. Zhou Nanyu was too distracted to notice the movement, but his heart palpited because of her sudden mention of the name.It feels like when I was in a daze in class when I was a child, I was suddenly called by the head teacher, or when I was a little older, I was found out by my parents when I did something wrong... The shame and panic when the secrets of my mind that I didn’t want others to know were exposed, filled my heart at that moment. .

--how so?

"He..." Zhou Nanyu hesitated for a few seconds, "He hasn't said anything yet, I'll ask later."

Zhou's mother turned around and went to the kitchen to bring a plate of lettuce with oyster sauce. She glanced at her son's wrist with his sleeves rolled up. She touched the red string bracelet with a smile, "See, you haven't picked it off. I will also have it in the future." Take good care of people."

"Ah."

Zhou's mother continued to work on the last two dishes. In the moment she didn't notice, Zhou Nanyu's eyebrows and eyes were already a little bit at a loss, because his heart was shocked by that name.

It only takes a moment for some things to change qualitatively, even if it is a particularly ordinary opportunity.It's a pity that his epiphany came too late, even if there are traces of all this.

For a person like Bei He, once you let him go, you will never be able to catch him again.

Gu Hui's sigh-like reminder crossed the moonlight and rang in his ears again.

Don't think I'm stupid enough to let go of what you missed.

And then there's the source of all his anger, who hates the victor's stance, only to realize in hindsight that the cause of his displeasure is actually his own failure.

He thought it was impossible at first.For the sake of work and for the sake of the team, personal affairs within the team sound unreasonable and shameful.Reason has overwhelmed sensibility for too long, and he has forgotten how precious a certain feeling is.Now that person's devotion and sincerity towards him, the kind of admiration and dependence that he thought would always exist so he had no fear, he has already missed it.

When he realized that this was not just one person's love game, Beihe already belonged to someone else.

——This is probably the most frustrating kind of "sudden enlightenment" in the world.For a long time, the cause of the depression was uprooted, and all the unpleasant emotions were explained. He had never thought about it in that direction, but the truth came so naturally.

"Xiangshan." Zhou Nanyu looked down at the red line sticking to the pulse, and smiled self-deprecatingly, "Mom, have you ever been to Xiangshan?"

As soon as the voice fell, there was a bang in the kitchen.

Zhou Nanyu was stunned for a second, then stood up abruptly and rushed over.The kitchen knife fell to the side, and the woman's hand was frozen in the air. The skin on the fingertips was cut by the sharp blade, and blood was slowly spilling out.

"Mom!" Zhou Nanyu frowned, "Where is the medical kit?"

While Zhou Nanyu was rummaging through boxes and cabinets to find alcohol wipes and bandages, Zhou's mother slowly sat down at the dining table.

"Xiangshan..." Her hands and voice trembled, and it took a while for her eyes to refocus.She grabbed him violently, "Why did you ask Xiangshan?!"

Zhou Nanyu was a little frightened by her extreme reaction, and he replied worriedly and vigilantly, "Because Beihe asked for the red rope in Xiangshan Temple, I just asked casually...has anything happened to Mom in Xiangshan? "

Mother Zhou took a deep breath and let it out slowly.She paused for a while, trying to calm herself down.Zhou Nanyu carefully held her hand to disinfect and put on the band-aid, and it took her a while to answer.

"I have been." She murmured, "Before you were born, I went to Xiangshan Temple to ask for a visa."

The heart started beating faster.Zhou Nanyu did not expect that such a coincidental place name would bring him close to the secret he had always wanted to discover.Do you want to continue asking?He looked at his mother's eyebrows that were lost in thought or memory, and fell into a dilemma.If you don't ask, you don't know when the next time you will encounter such a good time, but if you ask, it will make the mother's hard-won condition worse, wouldn't the gain outweigh the loss?

"...What kind of signature did you ask for?"

Short-term pain is worse than long-term pain, Zhou Nanyu gritted his teeth and asked.

Mother Zhou blinked slowly.

"Professional visa." She replied softly, "It's really accurate to say that I will quit the mall soon after that."

"That--"

"Pack up your things, wash your hands and get ready to eat." Mother Zhou interrupted his questioning and walked back to the kitchen alone.

"……it is good."

Zhou Nanyu put away the medicine box slowly, and quickly analyzed the hard-to-get information in his mind: Xiangshan, to be precise, Xiangshan Temple.Also, ask for a sign.Is it really just as simple as a business visa?

He vaguely remembers that when he was seven or eight years old, his mother's bipolar disorder was getting worse, and she quit the business world.What kind of causal relationship exists between the two?

Because of such a small episode, the rare and warm dinner time was covered with the usual dull atmosphere of the Zhou family.Although it was peaceful and warm on the surface: Zhou Nanyu cleaned up all the dishes made by his mother, and then cleaned the dishes and chopsticks with a normal face and packed everything away.After dinner, the two watched a movie together, and then said good night to each other as the night fell.

After returning to his room, Zhou Nanyu sat on the edge of the bed in the dark for a long time.A mind full of chaos goes to the other extreme, and after the chaos, it becomes a bewildering blank.

And in this blankness, his cell phone, which had been silent for a long time, finally vibrated a few times.

Beihe: I haven't been embarrassed, don't worry :)

Beihe: But we may... return to Yidu early, if any time is possible, tomorrow?

Bei He: Can we do it tomorrow?

Zhou Nanyu stared at these three lines for a long time, tapped the keyboard with his fingers and typed "Yes", and then backspaced to delete them.The impulse he had never had before was bounced up from the bottom of the valley, he paused, and quickly typed a line.

Zhou Nan: Is it convenient to talk?

Obviously, it can be solved by short message, but now he wants to hear his voice.

Is it just okay?

"There's nothing that can't be done." Qi Mei shivered and squeezed into the door, "My mother didn't say no, but of course she didn't say yes. This is a big deal. She asked me a bunch of questions about when I knew about it. How did we meet, how long have we been together, how far has it progressed... God, what else can I say, play Tai Chi."

Liang Feng laughed a few times, "It's really a big deal. Your brother even came to my place to get drunk. This is a wonderful sight. Beihe also ate some fried chicken and fruit, and that man drank all the wine like water."

The two walked to the booth, and Qi Mei stared straight at the empty wine bottle on the table.

"The two of them should go to the bathroom. Over there, you can help." Liang Feng waved his hands, looked down at the missed social calls on his phone, "I'll make some calls."

Qi Mei sighed and walked towards the bathroom.Bei He's voice was faintly heard at the corner, and then it was Qi Chen's.

"You weren't asleep just now, I mean—"

"I'm not the biological son of the Qi family, and only, only the father knows this. He doesn't want me to mention this matter again... He said he would persuade—"

……

……What is he saying?

Qi Mei was stunned.

She loosened her hand and the bag fell to the ground with a bang.The two people at the bathroom door heard the sound and slowly turned their faces to look at her.Bei He's eyes were filled with the same astonishment as hers, while Qi Chen—

"You, what did you just say?" She asked tremblingly.

Qi Chen really drank too much, he hugged Bei He's waist, and leaned against the door railing slantingly, his expression was not sober, and he even curled up the corner of his mouth to chuckle when his eyes fell on her face.

"How is it, isn't it a miracle?" Liang Feng came over, caught a glimpse of the bag lying on the ground, picked it up, patted it and handed it to her, then raised his eyes to meet Qi Mei's terrified expression. "Uh... are you so surprised?"

Before Qi Chen continued to make some shocking remarks, Bei He was the quickest to react, and he began to rejoice that he had decided to keep himself awake.

"What nonsense are you talking about!" Beihe patted Qi Chen pretending to be reproachful, "This kind of assumption is definitely not true, or the assumption that your mother is my fan has a slight possibility, you see Scared!"

Bei He said and smiled apologetically at Qi Mei, "Your brother drank too much and started talking nonsense and guessing."

"Isn't that right, the aftertaste of drinking is strong. I think he will be more confused in the middle of the night than he is now, and you can bear it." Liang Feng continued, "No, will you go home if he is like this? Where should I go? How about I sleep upstairs and make do for the night?"

Zimei breathed a sigh of relief.It seems that she took it out of context, after all, those words are too absurd, completely beyond the scope of her understanding and acceptance. "Go back," she said, "Mom and Dad have gone to grandma's house, and they said they won't be back until the day after tomorrow. This matter must not be over, but I guess they also need to do psychological construction."

Compared to a drunkard with absurd words and deeds, Qi Chen was very silent on the way home.Other than the fact that he seemed a little dizzy when he walked, he was acting as usual.Liang Feng personally drove them back home, but Qi Mei didn't get out of the car.

"I'm not a light bulb anymore," Qi Mei pouted, "Brother Liang Feng, take me back to school!"

Although very sorry, Bei He felt that they really needed a space where no one was there.Liang Feng made jokes like "Does the family have a condom?", and Bei He watched them drive away amidst Qi Mei's blushing stop.

Every step forward is heavy.

When the night wind blows at minus five or six degrees, people will naturally wake up a little bit.Passing by the kiosk on duty, Uncle Li, who was nibbling melon seeds, greeted the two of them politely.Qi Chen's shadow was elongated by the street lights, Bei He walked beside him, holding his fingertips involuntarily.

Then he started talking.

"My drinking capacity is not that bad. It's different from Xiaomei's face when she touches a little alcohol. I discovered it by accident at a class reunion before. If I inherited someone else's gene, it makes sense."

"Two years ago on my birthday, I received a call from Uncle Li, the one who just said hello..."

Qi Chen's voice was steady, and his words were logical.The low and slow syllables hit Bei He's heart, bit by bit revealing a certain missing outline they shared.Standing in the projection hall of memories, he recounted all the scenes of that night.He was able to blurt out some details that he himself thought he had forgotten long ago.

Beihe didn't make any comments, and only acted as the most competent listener.From phone calls to document bags, bank cards, exaggerated amounts, and the cold DNA identification report behind the harmonious daily life of the family.Then there was the long stretch of self-doubt and collapse of faith. Qi Chen didn't express his feelings clearly, but Bei He fully understood it from his understatement.

The two sat together in the room without the lights on, the clear moonlight fell in, and the night sky tonight was also very clear.

"So I went to Yidu." Qi Chen said frankly, "It would be better to maintain the status quo. I dare not...don't dare to delve into it further. But it would be too strange to live together as before."

"So, I'm very selfish." He turned to Bei He's silent side face, "Using your existence, I can completely break away from this family. I even thought about it, it doesn't matter if I don't agree, it's fine if I don't agree. You can never set foot in this house again.”

After a few seconds of silence, he said again in a deep voice, "I'm sorry."

Hearing this, Bei He trembled all over, and then his whole body started to twitch intermittently.Qi Chen let out a long sigh, and said helplessly, "...why are you crying?"

Bei He also found it strange that in the short few months after meeting Qi Chen, he almost shed all the tears he had accumulated in the past ten years.Crying when the confession was promised, and crying when he heard his confession, maybe the things that make people soft-hearted are more likely to make people cry than the things that make people feel cold.

He is the person he loves the most, how can he not understand him.

"...I understand your feelings, and you don't need to apologize to me." He raised his hand and wiped his eyes vigorously, "But I think at least Auntie and Xiaomei, who don't know it, really treat you as family. But I..."

"I only have you who can be called... my family."

"Why should I apologize? I should, thank you."

Bei He finished his words holding back his sour energy, the more he wanted to force back the tears, the harder he cried.Qi Chen stopped talking, he pulled Bei He over and hugged him, and stroked his hair.

At [-]:[-], the city fell into a night dream, the bathroom was filled with the sound of splashing water, and Bei He was curled up under the quilt wearing his lover's loose shirt.The hair that had just been dried was still warm, he shook his head, belatedly feeling a little embarrassed by the way he cried just now.

He looked at his phone for a while, and half of the hundreds of messages in the group were worried about him as a missing person. He smiled and replied a few emoticons, and also included what he hadn't finished talking to Zhou Nanyu said.

Beihe: I haven't been embarrassed, don't worry :)

He paused, and decided to make a quick decision to prevent accidents.

Beihe: But we may... return to Yidu early, if any time is possible, tomorrow?

Bei He: Can we do it tomorrow?

Soon Zhou Nanyu sent a reply.

Zhou Nan: Is it convenient to talk?

……call?

Bei He hesitated for a moment.There was already the whirring sound of the hair dryer in the bathroom, and Qi Chen walked out half a minute later.

North River: Sorry for the inconvenient TT

He typed the line quickly.

He is indeed inconvenient.Qi Chen's kiss had already landed on the side of his neck, and the hot air with a faint alcohol smell sprayed behind his ears, itching a little, he giggled, threw the phone aside, and immediately offered a sticky kiss.

On the edge of the lingering bed, where the moonlight did not fall, the screen of his mobile phone lit up.

Zhou Nan: Okay, then come tomorrow afternoon.

Bei He, who was pushed to a sensitive place, let out a satisfied sigh, in exchange for a more vigorous attack.The phone screen lit up again, but unfortunately no one took care of it.

Zhou Nan: Good night.