What he sang is all fake

Chapter 43-Snowmelt

The world in the eyes of some people is different after something happened and before it happened.

Bei He was lazily nestled in a corner of the sofa, the sun at two o'clock in the afternoon penetrated the floor-to-ceiling windows at an oblique angle, sprinkled on the end of the sofa, and fell on the back of his feet.He shook his feet in cotton socks, able to feel the warmth from the distant universe.His senses seem to have become more sensitive, and those details that he used to take for granted and considered insignificant now look particularly beautiful.

For example, the little noise caused by the Big Dipper pulling the cat climbing frame with his claws, the rhythm of the washing machine and the dryer next door colliding with each other, and the lover's footsteps from far to near when they come back with takeaway.He even hallucinated the sound of snow melting outside the window, a very small "hissing" sound, and the edges and corners of ice crystals invisible to the naked eye collapsed and turned into water, and the water droplets rolled down and converged into a river.

The fish porridge was still steaming, so Qi Chen put it in a bowl and brought it to him with a spoon.Fortunately, Qi Chen took good care of him and didn't ask any questions other than carrying him downstairs from the bed, otherwise Bei He would be even more ashamed to admit the fact that he had temporarily become a third-level disabled person.

The sequelae of having sex for the first time were fully reflected in him.Backache and neck aches are fine, but the hard-to-speak parts of the back hurt the most.Fortunately, the sofa was soft enough, and the person was very idle. He lay limp and basked in the sun without doing anything, and happily listened to the sound of his boyfriend tidying up the house and tidying up his things.

Would Qi Chen also feel a little bit shy?

Bei He chewed the fish fillet, and peeked at the side faces of the people around him.

In fact, upon waking up at noon and seeing him, Bei He's first reaction was to turn over and cover his head.Night is really a time when people think a lot and lose some rationality. He said whatever he thought of last night, and now he can get smoke in his head when he recalls what he did.Fortunately, Qi Chen didn't reject him again. If presumptuousness is a crime, they are accomplices.

And Qi Chen seemed to be a little bit different.

Why is it different, Bei He can't say for the time being.While he was puffing his mouth to think, Qi Chen put half a marinated egg into his bowl, and asked slowly, "What's wrong?"

Bei He turned to him, "What's wrong?"

"What do you keep watching me do?"

Bei He was stunned for a moment, then burst out laughing, and asked very naively: "Then what are you looking at me for!"

"Ok?"

"How do you know I'm looking at you if you don't look at me!"

After Bei He finished speaking, he felt so speechless, what kind of vulgar elementary school student dialogue.But maybe he's got a low laugh and he can really keep grinning.Anyone sitting next to him might just roll his eyes and end the conversation, but Qi Chen didn't, and he actually raised the corners of his mouth, infected by his silly childishness.

Qi Chen's icy appearance is very cool, and when he smiles, he gives people a kind of steady gentleness, and people in love have a filter as thick as a city wall, Bei He thinks this person is simply perfect.He spent half a bowl of porridge thinking about it, and came to the conclusion: Qi Chen really has no shortcomings.

"I was thinking," Bei He bit the tip of his chopsticks and looked at him, and asked bluntly, "Do you have any shortcomings?"

Qi Chen paused, "Of course."

Since he didn't show the expression of "what nonsense are you talking about", Bei He tacitly agreed that he was willing to discuss with him.He immediately asked, "What shortcoming?"

As if looking for the most appropriate word, Qi Chen really thought about it for a few seconds.He simply put away the bowls and chopsticks on the table and stacked them on the dinner plate. He bought some of the tableware when he moved in, and chose the white porcelain and wooden materials that Beihe likes.

Then he gave Bei He an unexpected answer:

"Be selfish."

"……what?"

"I'm very selfish." Qi Chen didn't explain, but repeated it on his own.With a "???" expression on Bei He's face, he rubbed his head with his hand, "Don't think so well of me."

"Don't care!" Bei He rushed over and hugged his waist, saying love words without hesitation, "You are a model 24 filial husband!"

Look at the crookedness, Big Dipper didn't even notice it, and scrambled his legs to get under the sofa.Qi Chen smiled and embraced him, without further explanation.And Bei He pressed against his chest, restrained his smile from an angle he couldn't see, and blinked thoughtfully.

——Qi Chen has something on his mind.

This is for sure, just like Beihe himself has a bunch of shitty things that he hasn't seen in the light of many years and hasn't told anyone about it.There must be a reason for the "selfishness" he clearly said, but he didn't take the initiative to say it, and Bei He would not directly express his curiosity.

Likewise, he doesn't believe that Qi Chen has no doubts about his past, but the two of them have maintained a subtle distance since they met, not the kind of distance that would separate their intimacy, but—— don't you say I don't ask, there is no need to mention the old grievances, the ups and downs that have nothing to do with you and me-such a state.

This kind of mentality looks good at first glance, but this time when Chu Xiaofei broke out, Bei He deeply realized that it is really impossible not to clarify some things.As long as it has happened, it will always exist. Sooner or later, what people owe will be repaid, and the ugly and embarrassing truth will not disappear. After being wrapped in time, I don’t know how big a snowball will roll out, and when and what will happen. smashed down.

Beihe decided to have a good talk with Qi Chen. This is not something that can be progressed immediately, but a process that requires them to guide each other slowly.Starting from the unresolved matter right now, I have to pull him to the nearest place by my side.

So, first of all—

"Speaking of which..." Bei He withdrew from his embrace, and was sitting on the side and asked earnestly, "I want Xiao Fei to come home and have a chat, can I?"

"Yeah." Of course Qi Chen wouldn't say no, "When will I go to school?"

"That's not what it means," Bei He leaned back helplessly. He didn't expect that this simple movement would cause his back to hurt. He had a grim expression for a moment, and said aggrievedly, "Aren't you wondering what happened to me and him? Let's listen together." .”

Qi Chen was silent for a few seconds, then nodded, "Okay."

OK.This side answered, Bei He immediately looked for Chu Xiaofei on his phone. The group in AB5 was unusually quiet after FM, Chu Xiaofei, who talked the most, didn't speak, and the others were also lost in silence.Thinking about it this way, Gu Hui and Li Qi'an should have been fooled by what they did, and they should explain and apologize to some extent.

And... Zhou Nanyu.

Qi Chen's choking on Zhou Nanyu's words was enough for him to have fun for a long time, but he was simply happy because Qi Chen took the oath of sovereignty forcefully, and he didn't mean to laugh at Zhou Nanyu.And from what Qi Chen said, it seemed that Zhou Nanyu had some thoughts about him, which was obviously impossible.No matter how you put it, whether as a friend or a colleague, he also owes someone an explanation.

Bei He had an idea.

He poked the screen and hit everyone in the group.

Beihe: @all, you're all still here, aren't you qaq?

The first one to reply was Li Qi'an, basically in seconds.He was almost suffocated, worry and curiosity coexisted, he was afraid that Bei He and Chu Xiaofei would keep silent, he had already thought of the worst possibility, such as their combination gradually disbanding or something.

Li Qi'an: No!I'm lying in the hotel with Gu Hui, I'm watching an American TV series.

Qi Chen got up to wash the dishes, Bei He lay down on his side, his fingers flicked on the keyboard.

Beihe: Hey, why didn't Xiaofei stop there?

In the hotel suite two kilometers away, Li Qi'an said "Ah!!!!" Song Yixiang, who had just returned from the gym outside, glared suddenly. He was really scared to death by these children.

"What's wrong?!" he yelled.

"Xiaobei took the initiative to mention Xiaofei 555555 Xiaobei is still not confused..." Li Qi'an rolled around on the bed.

Gu Hui & Song Yixiang: ...

Gu Hui just woke up from a nap, he squinted his eyes at the phone, and replied: Uncle Xiang opened a suite, we live together.

"We" refers to him sharing a room with Li Qi'an, Zhou Jing sharing a room alone, and then Song Yixiang sharing a room with Zhou Nan.

Li Qi'an: The captain seems to be still in the gym, what's the matter!

Beihe: @楚笑飞@楚笑飞@楚晓飞

Chu Xiaofei:.

Chu Xiaofei: Why?

Beihe: Let's come to my house tomorrow night, how about cooking a hot pot?

After he finished posting this sentence, he poked Chu Xiaofei privately: Come early, if you are free, come in the afternoon, let's chat.

The two sets of bowls and chopsticks are ready to be washed after 5 minutes. Qi Chen wiped his hands, took out the sheets and quilt covers from the dryer, and carried them upstairs to lay them down.He was the one who came to clean up these things. Although there was no expression on his face, he was still a little embarrassed to look directly at the big bed.

It's definitely not that Bei He is shy alone, one or two are as pure as they care.

congratulations.

Qi Chen waited for the temperature in the pinna to dissipate before he picked up a book and went downstairs, but before he reached the sofa, the little guy caught up with him with a wicked smile.After he sat beside him, Bei He was also ready to act coquettishly, roll around and act cute.

"Boyfriend, I have something to discuss with you."

"Ok?"

"Tomorrow night, I called everyone to eat hot pot at home, can I?"

"Ah."

"It means the hot pot that you also eat together, Haidilao tomato and butter spicy pot? Or do you like the three fresh mushroom flavor?"

Qi Chen paused for two seconds, "Can you eat spicy food, so it won't cause acne?"

Bei He was stunned for a moment, his eyes slightly widened in surprise.Qi Chen actually answered his question just like that, why should he act like a baby and beg him.

"Are you, yes?" Afraid that he didn't understand well, he added slowly, "...you want to see them, as my partner?"

Qi Chen was much more natural than he imagined, so he asked, "Isn't it a matter of time?"

It was indeed a matter of time, Bei He thought about it from another angle, and felt that he was worrying blindly.He was happily preparing to seriously discuss the issue of hot pot ingredients, when Qi Chen spoke again in a deep voice.

"You don't have to be so careful with me."

He looked at him peacefully, but his eyes could throw people's hearts into the flames.Bei He was stunned by what he said, subconsciously asked: "I, do I have it?"

Qi Chen nodded, "There has always been."

Bei He opened his mouth, but his eloquent teeth disappeared, so he was speechless.Qi Chen, who was always on the point, said a lot on his own initiative today, and then he said, "It's not too much, and there's no need to say sorry."

It is true that he asked the question of whether it is possible twice in a short period of time, but "sorry" means...

Bei He only thought for two seconds before miraculously understanding what he meant.Qi Chen was referring to the sorry sentence he said when he interrupted the FM and bowed to the stage last night on stage.He did apologize to him, sorry for letting him see such a bad performance, sorry for almost getting him involved, but he didn't expect this sorry to be conveyed so directly, and it had the weight for him to mention it the next day.

——Don't be careful, don't say sorry, you can do whatever you want.

"...Okay." Bei He replied extremely slowly.

This winter's sugar water is all flavored with lemon, why is it always so sweet that it makes people feel sour from the bottom of my heart?Although he had already confirmed that Qi Chen also liked him, it was only at this moment that he strongly felt the fact that he was being pampered.

Also, he does have a problem.If you get a little response, you will be satisfied and moved, ignoring the part that the other party should bear in the two-way relationship.Because he likes him so much, he has always been cautious, but being self-willed is also a privilege that he has as a lover.

In the past, he felt that he had no love, so how could he love others beautifully.Now it is discovered that there is more than one problem, he can't even be loved.

Qi Chen didn't say anything before, but he was watching with his eyes, listening with his heart, and remembered everything.Beihe didn't have that kind of fear and shyness of being seen through, only slowly rising, sincerely grateful.

"Do you remember, when we first met?" He lowered his eyes, put Qi Chen's unread book aside, and then took his hand, "We had dinner once, and you said that I am an adult now. Stars don’t lack anything, I say I lack it.”

Before he finished speaking, Qi Chen ended the topic succinctly. It would be hypocritical to say more, he only talked about the most important thing:

"I will give you what you lack."

He will give him the love and sense of security that he cannot ask for.

"Okay." Bei He didn't feel embarrassed any more, he returned his blunt and hot gaze, "You must always give it to me."

- Then I will give you all I have.

Chu Xiaofei backed the car into the temporary seat, and sat in the car for a while before going upstairs with the key.He stroked two handfuls of his hair facing the phone screen, and stood downstairs for a while with his neck shrunk.

Gee.

I still feel awkward, super awkward.Chu Xiaofei tried his best to recall how he resolved the conflict with his friends last time, and after thinking about it, he found that he had never had conflicts with others, and not everyone is qualified to let him play with his temper.In fact, he and Zhou Nan had a few quarrels, and he and Li Qi'an often quarreled, but this time there was no such real feeling, all matters could be resolved in as short as 10 minutes or as long as two hours.

Bei He ran out to meet him stepping on a pair of canvas shoes, the shoelaces were loose, his heels were still exposed, and he was shivering from the cold wind. "Come in," he pushed the door open for him, then turned to the elevator to swipe his card, frantically poking the up button with his fingertips.

Chu Xiaofei couldn't laugh or cry when he looked at his happy expression like nothing happened, he was the only one who was embarrassed.What he didn't expect was that what made him more embarrassed was still behind.

As soon as the door opened, Chu Xiaofei saw Qi Chen holding a cup of hot fruit tea, and there was a steaming cup in front of the two empty seats next to him on the marble bar.

Bei He rubbed the tip of his nose in embarrassment, "Well, let me introduce you formally."

He pointed to Chu Xiaofei, "My colleague, teammate, good brother, Chu Xiaofei."

He pointed at Qi Chen again, "My boyfriend, roommate, boyfriend, Qi Chen."