The longest road is your routine

——Because that email was sent to you by me.

At that moment, Xiao Yu felt his head "buzzing", as if he had a brief deafness.

What did she hear? ? ?

That email was sent by Mr. Ruan? ? ?It wasn't from the old president... No one else received it, only she did! ! !

Xiao Yu stared at Ruan Yi closely, Ruan Yi leaned on the boss chair and let out a soft breath: "Xiao Yu, you should know what kind of person I am."

Yes.

Xiaoyu just knew what kind of person Ruan was, so she couldn't believe it.

Mr. Ruan... She is such a proud person, how could she send such an email to her...

Isn't this equivalent to throwing the hydrangea directly into her hands?

Although some things are hard to say, Ruan Yi still feels the need to say them, maybe after today, Xiao Yu won't listen to her anymore if she wants to say it.

"Perhaps, in your life, our meeting when we were young is nothing, but Xiao Yu, I have never forgotten you."

Ruan Yi tried her best to calm herself down, but her eye circles were still red and her voice trembled a little.

Su Xiaoyu looked at her and moved her lips: "Integrity..."

Ruan Yi smiled, a little sadly: "Do you know how lonely I have been these years? At the most difficult time, when no one understood, I really want to hear you call me honest. "

Su Xiaoyu's tears welled up in her eye sockets, it turned out...it turned out that the heartless and heartless person Mr. Ruan was talking about was her.

Ruan Yi looked at her steadfastly: "I have no other way to approach you, but to force you to approach me."

Su Xiaoyu blinked, tears fell down, Ruan Yi took a deep breath, she stood up: "Let's go, I'll take you to a place."

to a place?

Xiao Yu's mood was still ups and downs, it can be said that she was completely immersed in ecstasy, she knew that Ruan Yi must be able to see it, but she didn't give her time and took her into the car.

This time, Ruan Yi drove the car by himself.

It was a little foggy, and it began to rain hazyly. Ruan Yi's car drove very slowly, not because of the foggy weather, but because she wanted to stay with Xiaoyu for a while, even for a moment.

Now that you've told her, tell her thoroughly.

Ruan Yi has her pride. If she wants to have feelings, she needs her own uniqueness that cannot be destroyed by anyone. Those wounds that have been hidden in her heart for many years, even her grandma and she dare not touch them, are now , she showed it to Xiao Yu without reservation.

If she can accept it.

Ruan Yi will walk with her on the road ahead, to the ends of the earth.

If not acceptable.

Then Ruan Yi will retreat back to the bleak world that originally belonged to her, close the door, and not allow anyone to enter.

Xiao Yu didn't know what Ruan Yi was thinking at all, her heart was still throbbing with joy, happiness, excitement and... happiness.

Zhengzheng likes her...

And so affectionate, I can't forget it for so long.

Did she help the grandmother who lost the cow to find the cow in the previous life, and she accumulated virtues, so in this life, she can get such a person who never forgets and loves her?

After all, she hasn't really been in love yet.

Xiaoyu secretly turned her head to look at Zhengzhi, her heart was beating hard, she lowered her head and smiled secretly.

That's great, that's great! ! !

This is probably the love between the two!

"arrive."

After driving for over an hour, the car finally arrived. Ruan Yi opened the car door, and she glanced at Xiao Yu: "Come down."

Xiao Yu looked around, she seemed to be on the mountain, could it be that Ruan Yi brought her to enjoy the cold wind and watch the stars again?But judging from her expression, it seemed that it was not that simple.

Ruan Yi walked straight forward, her expression was always indifferent, but her eyes were full of sadness.

Others might not be able to see it, but Xiao Yu looked at her distressedly. She knew that she couldn't say anything at the moment, so she could only follow along.

Get to the top of the mountain.

The fog is getting bigger.

And in this mist, there is a strong smell of sandalwood.

In the distance, among the cascading mountains, a magnificent bell could be heard faintly.

"Boom, boom, boom."

It permeates the entire mountain, but there is a trace of bleakness and loneliness in the grandeur.

Xiao Yu froze for a moment, did Ruan Yi bring her to a temple?

She went to see Ruan Yi, but Ruan Yi stopped at the door which was a few steps away from the temple, tears were shining in her eyes, she stared blankly ahead.

"You go and see."

Xiaoyu nodded, and she walked forward slowly. At the door, there was a monk and nun with excellent figure and appearance. Ah, the sachet, the mantra written by Master Yi Nian of this temple is inside, it can keep you safe, own it, have a piece of faith, have a piece of... hey??? Donor, donator???"

People passing by turned a blind eye, and everyone hurried on their way.

Xiao Yu seemed to understand something, she stared blankly at the monk and nun, recalling the mage... Yi Nian...

"Little benefactor." Master Yi Nian came over, and the moment she saw Xiao Yu, her eyes lit up: "I see that your face is full of heaven, the ground is round, and your eyes are like bright stars, but at this moment, your eyes are full of sadness. Feeling sad because of the word love, it doesn’t matter, as long as you wear the peach blossoms that I personally wrote—”

She hasn't finished speaking yet.

Not far away, Ruan Yi called softly: "Mommy."

For a moment, just for a moment, Xiao Yu saw that Master Yi Nian's body was stiff, motionless as if he had been acupointed, her eyes were red, but she quickly covered it up.

Master Yi Nian raised his head and looked at Ruan Yi who was not far away: "It turns out that there is an old friend from the world of mortals, and I said why I am so restless this morning." She turned to look at Xiao Yu again, and said with a smile: "It is Xiao Yu Is it? At this age, she is also a complete beauty."

Xiao Yu was taken aback, she didn't expect that she would recognize her.

It's just the person in front of her...she is dressed in a gray monk's robe, and the glory of the past can be seen in her eyes, but the whole person...Xiaoyu can't find the shadow of the smart and beautiful aunt in her memory who always quarrels with her with integrity .

Master Yi Nian led the two of them to the Zhaitang. When passing by, many monks and nuns saluted her.

Xiaoyu thought, she should have status and status in the temple, not just in the temple, but everything behind her... How could she be selling sachets at the gate of the temple? ? ?

Arrived at the meditation hall.

Xiao Yu looked up, and the words "Yi Nian Tang" in Phnom Penh were imprinted in the golden and majestic sight. For some reason, her heart felt inexplicably sore.

What's going on?

The mother and daughter were separated.

But they all guarded the Remembrance Hall, everyone saw nothing, but it was so sad and painful.

Ruan Yi walked behind her mother, looking at her slightly hunched back, her nose was so sore, she was used to it, and at this moment she could only hold back the tears by clenching her fists and gritting her teeth.

In the meditation hall, Master Yi Nian poured a cup of tea for each of the two children. Xiao Yu somehow connected with his nerves, and suddenly blurted out: "Thank you, Aunt Youran."

Master Yi Nian, called Ruan Youran when he was not a monk, was a powerful figure in the entertainment industry at that time, and the most important thing was the ups and downs of his love story with her wife Chu Nian, which was almost a household name at that time.It's just that one died of illness later, and the other lived in seclusion in the mountains and became a nun, which is also embarrassing.

Hearing this name, Master Yi Nian smiled slightly: "Xiao Yu, I am no longer a man in the world of mortals, my six roots are broken, you can just call me Yi Nian."

Six connections...

It can also be called the Master of Remembrance.

Xiao Yu's eyes were red, she secretly went to see Ruan Yi, but Ruan Yi just stared blankly at her mother with tears in the corners of her eyes.

The faint sandalwood, the curling smoke ignited, Master Yi Nian sat on the side, she twirled the beads in one hand, looked up at Ruan Yi.

For a long time.

There was a smile on her face, looking at the sky: "Our integrity has really grown."

She said this to the sky, and she probably wanted to say it to her dead wife.

In a word.

this sentence.

Ruan Yi's tears were like beads with a broken thread, falling down in a row, and Xiao Yu also shed tears. In the end, she couldn't bear it after all. Master Yi Nian stepped forward, hugged her daughter gently, and patted her hands her back.

Temples are governed by precepts.

Xiao Yu and Ruan Yi couldn't stay for too long.

Master Yi Nian looked at Xiao Yu with a smile on his face: "The fate between people is destined by heaven. I didn't expect integrity to really find you. Xiao Yu, you are doing well."

Xiao Yu nodded, Ruan Yi was afraid that she could no longer control her emotions, so she turned to find the abbot of the temple.

Every time she comes, there will be a congratulatory donation to the temple.

This is Ruan Yi's habit, but these years, she came here quietly, never notifying her mother, and left quietly.

Seeing her leave, Master Yi Nian twirling the beads, she said to Xiao Yu: "Back then, her mother left, and I came to the Buddhist temple to become a monk in despair. We understood each other's wishes. But we were sorry for Zheng Zheng. From the beginning to the end, we gave her There is too little love and care, and in the end all that is left to her is the string of prayer beads in her hand."

Xiao Yu had seen the Buddhist beads on Ruan Yi's hand before, and secretly counted them.

One hundred and eight.

Half vermilion, half pure white.

Inside, half of the scarlet was left to her by Master Yi Nian, and the other half was left to her by her deceased mother.

In these years, Ruan Yi never told anyone that she missed her mother, but when she felt uncomfortable and in pain, she would silently stroke the string of beads by herself, and never took them off no matter when.

Now, Xiao Yu understands, but her heart is choked with pain.

Honestly, she has endured too much.

Master Yi Nian looked at Xiao Yu: "Zheng Zhi has a knot in her heart, Xiao Yu, the future depends on you, so I don't have any wishes or worries anymore."

Xiao Yu looked at her: "Auntie... Actually, she misses you."

She also imagined that maybe her aunt could come out of the mountain.

Master Yi Nian closed her eyes, and under the fog-like halo, she murmured softly: "Love doesn't know where it came from, but it goes deeper and deeper. The living can die, and the dead can live. The dead are gone, and I will return to the world of mortals." , but it’s just an empty shell, just let me stay here with her.”

Xiao Yu felt uncomfortable hearing that.

on the way back.

Both were silent.

Ruan Yi didn't go home directly, but drove the car to the back mountain where she went when she met Xiao Yu just now.

The evening wind is still as cool.

Ruan Yi's back was still so lonely, she hugged herself tightly, and murmured: "Xiao Yu, did you see it? Did you see it?"

did you see it? ? ?

How miserable her mom was when she left.

Living like a walking dead, she used to be such a lively and sunny person.

Even in many respects, the young mommy is very similar to Xiaoyu now, but now she is lifeless and no longer smiles.

Xiao Yu walked over slowly and hugged Ruan Yi from behind. She wanted to warm her with her body, but Ruan Yi's body remained stiff.

The wind messed up her long hair, Ruan Yi didn't turn her head, Ren Xiaoyu hugged herself, she murmured: "My biological mother, Chu Nian, I heard her talk with Mommy, she said, our Chu family was born to be raped. Cursed, no one in the family has ever lived past the age of 40."

"Will not."

"She has a very serious heart disease, which was detected when she was pregnant with me. The doctor suggested that she kill me and have an immediate operation, but she did not agree."

"Upright……"

"This is not the life I chose. I have been kept in the hospital since I was born. And my mother, because of my birth, spent all her efforts. If it had been earlier...she had obeyed the doctor's advice, and now she It must be the person who watched the sunset hand in hand with Mommy, not one who died of illness, one who became a nun, and recalled each other's painful life. Xiao Yu, I hate myself, very much...I shouldn't have been born, shouldn't... I am the cause of all pain..."

"Honestly, don't say that."

Xiao Yu tightened her embrace, full of fear, uneasiness and distress. How did Zheng Zheng get down all these years?She shoulders too much.

Ruan Yi murmured: "Xiao Yu, you like children very much, don't you?"

Indeed, Xiaoyu really likes children, and she is very popular with children. Every time Niuniu comes to the company, she always asks her to play alone. Looking at Niu Niu, she thought that Ruan was always too noisy, so she quickly took Niu Niu out.

Ruan Yi's voice was very soft, as if it would be crushed by the wind: "In this life, I will never have a child of my own."

In the first half of her life, she walked hard.

Leaving aside the curse, she has been in poor health since she was a child, and almost grew up in a hospital. Even now, occasionally, she still dreams about the scalpel and long needles.

If she was born to suffer, she would rather not have children in her life.

She would never want her children to suffer as she did.

That way, she would go crazy.

Xiao Yu's body trembled, she looked at Ruan Yi, and Ruan Yi took a deep breath: "My body...even if it's not because of the family, I'm afraid I can't live long."

She couldn't sleep all night and night, emptying herself day by day, it had been a long time.

Xiao Yu felt very distressed, "Integrity, we—"

"Shh."

Ruan Yi interrupted her, she turned around and looked at Xiao Yu: "Let me hug you."

The two were so close that Xiao Yu could see the tears and reluctance in Ruan Yi's eyes.

Very light, very light hugs.

But Xiao Yu felt her neck wet, and she knew Zheng Zhi was crying.

Ruan Yi hugged her and tried to restrain her heart, "I took you to see Mommy today because I want you to choose, Xiao Yu, you still have a bright future, I don't want your tomorrow to be like Like Mommy."

Xiaoyu also cried, she shed many tears, bit her lip and looked at Zhengzhi: "Then why did you find me?"

Yes.

why?

I just can't bear to...

No one wants to be alone.

People are selfish, she wants to see Xiao Yu, she wants to see her smile, even for a minute and a second.

But that day, Mu Xin's words reminded her.

She can't be so selfish.

She wants to tell Xiao Yu everything, and then let her choose.

"One month."

Ruan Yi got away from Xiao Yu's embrace, and stared at Xiao Yu deeply with tearful eyes, as if she wanted to keep everything about her in her heart, "One month, Xiao Yu, think about it carefully, if you choose to leave, I will will disappear from your world."

Every sentence, every word, cut Ruan Yi's heart like a knife. Although it hurt and she was reluctant to give up, she had to say: "If you choose to stay."

Her voice choked: "I will wait for you here, just like when I was a child, I have been waiting for you."

……

How long can life wait?

Ruan Yi didn't know.

She never waited for anyone.

But for Xiao Yu, she waited half her life.

When Xiao Yu returned to Yi Feng, she was devastated, and her heart was full of Ruan Yi's last words.

——Don't answer me right now, don't act emotionally for a while, what I want is a lifetime, Xiao Yu, you go and think about it.

think about it...

Seeing Xiao Yu coming back, Li Yan went up to meet her, she was surprised: "Xiao Yu, what's wrong with you? Why did you get drenched in the rain."

Allen also came over, with a lollipop in her mouth: "It's strange, just now Mr. Ruan called and said that he would give you a month's leave, saying that you have been yelling that you want to see your parents? I promise you Paid vacation is too biased."

Li Yan was also surprised. She took Xiao Yu's hand and walked to the corner: "Xiao Yu, what happened?"

Xiao Yu didn't dare to speak, but just shook her head, she was afraid that tears would flow down when she spoke.

Li Yan stared at her for a while and sighed softly. She opened the drawer and took out a key and a piece of paper.

"Mr. Ruan is a bit strange. I didn't let you tell me before. Xiao Yu, this is a repayment contract. Mr. Ruan paid back the money you owed outside before, but she didn't let you tell me before. And this key, she Let me tell you, didn't you always want to open your own coffee shop and be the proprietress? She has already prepared it a long time ago, and all the procedures are in the file bag next to her."

Everything is installed.

Xiaoyu walked out with the file bag. The original light rain became heavy, so she didn't hold an umbrella and let the rain hit her body.

The agreed one-month consideration time.

But Xiao Yu still walked to the studio with tears in her eyes. She opened the combination lock according to the same habit as before. After entering the room, Xiao Yu choked up and shouted: "I'm back."

She looked inside the room, usually at this time, Ruan Yi would pretend to be bored and sit on the sofa and read the newspaper.

He said he was reading newspapers, but Xiao Yu knew that it was because of integrity that he was waiting for her.

On Saturdays or Sundays, she would often go out to meet friends and do some things on her own. At that time, Ruan Yi would just sit on the sofa and wait for her to come home.

Her world can have many choices.

But honesty is only her.

In the kitchen, there are still piles of dishes that Ruan Yi bought, all of which are Xiao Yu's favorite flavors.

Along the way, Xiao Yu cried all the way. She reached the door of the study and knocked on the door lightly.

No one answered.

Xiao Yu's tears fell all over the ground: "Integrity, integrity, open the door!"

Ruan Yi is a decisive person.

She said, give her a month to think about it, and in this month, she will definitely not meet.

This is Xiaoyu's first time entering Ruan Yi's study room. Before, she always felt that the study room was a particularly mysterious and private place.

After all, that's how it's played in TV dramas. Many CEOs' offices have hidden compartments that store all kinds of confidential documents.

Now, when she walked in, when she looked up, she saw a group photo of a family of five.

The little Zhengzheng was held in the arms of two grandmas, and beside her, two young mothers hugged each other with smiles like flowers, and each of them mischievously grabbed a small tug of Zhengzheng.

At that time, the family of five was so happy.

And directly below the photo is a woman who is more than one meter tall and made of tens of thousands of Lego pieces.

Xiao Yu just took a look, and she squatted on the ground in tears.

The long hair, the smiling eyes, and the bad curve of the mouth.

Isn't it her?

It turned out that she was the Lego that Ruan Yi had been building since she first met her.

At that time, Xiaoyu thought Mr. Ruan was too patient and had nothing to do, so he built Lego during his break.

Sleepless days and nights.

Integrity is here, with heart, a little bit of her appearance.

Next to Lego, there are rose petals in plastic packaging. They are the playthings that Xiaoyu picked up when she believed in metaphysics and counted "she likes me" and "she doesn't like me". A few affectionate words are written below - I like you.

Xiao Yu cried and closed the door.

she left.

According to what Ruan Yi said, give each other this month's solitude and free time.

A rainy day.

Xiao Yu walked alone at the intersection.

Everything she held in her hand was once what she most wanted to have.

She has no more debts...

And the coveted coffee shop.

Now, Ruan Yi has given her everything, she has everything.

But at this moment, she felt that she had nothing left.

All that echoed in her ears was the deep voice of Master Yi Nian.

——I don’t know where it started, but it goes deeper and deeper. The living can die, and the dead can live.

Upright, upright, upright...