I'm just hungry for your knowledge

Han Shen looked at him: "You still want to hold grudges?"

Chen Chen smiled, and dragged his voice: "No, you don't learn the shining points of my body, but you learn how to be gaudy?"

Han Shen just wanted to trick him into telling him a few more truthful words, and he came up with a series of rustic love words, seeing that he was not used to it, so he didn't force it anymore.Picking up the kite and stepping on the gravel, he was shaken by a gust of wind, and heard a low voice behind him.

Chen Chen said: "But I like to be ambiguous. You can let me have this temper. She is a cute kid."

Han Shen turned around and hooked the hem of his clothes, with an unbearable expression on his face: "Ghost feeling, take it easy?"

Chen Chen smiled and said, "This is an expression of love."

While chatting, Han Shen ran against the wind when he walked to the open ruins, and the kite flew into the sky precariously.Chen Chen judged the direction of the wind, occasionally rescued the little kite that was blown by the strong wind, and followed Han Shen most of the time to watch him play.

Lao Qin and his classmates in Class 1 looked up unintentionally, and saw the beautiful scene of the two of them chasing each other and flying a kite. They had already run far away along the river.Lao Qin yelled: "Be careful! Come back quickly!" I don't know if the two of them heard it.

Running with the kite, Han Shen stopped.

I don't know where this is.

Far from a picnic spot.

In the field of vision was a demolished housing area, paved with gravel, dusty, and behind two prefabricated panels stood a small single room in a tile shed. Han Shen thought it was a nail house at first, but when he got closer, he found it was a convenience store.

The owner's big hairy legs were raised up on the glass table, he half-closed his eyes and looked at them, turned up the volume of the TV, and the hurt song was deafening——

"The world of mortals comes and comes, goes and goes, and it's empty. It's all a dream... It's hard to fill a bottomless pit with true love..."

This small shop that is broken and stubbled all reveals the owner's sense of seeing through the vicissitudes of life.

Just as Han Shen was about to ask if there was something wrong with the shop owner, seeing Chen Chen standing in front of the shelf and looking down at the cigarettes, he bent his fingers and tapped on the glass cabinet: "Come make 'Taishan'."

The shopkeeper said, "It's quite choking."

"Interesting, thick taste." Chen Chen handed one to the boss.

The boss lit the fire first, and moved his hands closer to warm him up.

Mars shined brightly in his eyes, and Chen Chen relaxed his finger bones: "Thank you."

This set of actions is well coordinated.

A little tacit understanding between strangers.

Without saying anything else, Chen Chen came back with a cigarette in his hand. Han Shen fished out the cigarette case in his hand and looked at it for a while: "Give me the lighter."

Chen Chen handed over the lighter.

Han Shen started to light a cigarette.

Chen Chen said: "What are you doing?"

"What's so good about this thing?"

Han Shen pinched his lips, his expression was as usual, he was not choked by the smoke and he didn't feel anything.Chen Chen raised his hand to grab the cigarette, Han Shen took a few steps back, but Chen Chen didn't intend to stop at all, annoyed: "You can smoke, but I can't?"

Chen Chen raised his hand to compromise: "Okay, I'll throw it away now."

After speaking, he threw the cigarette case and lighter into the garbage dump, and opened his five fingers to show Han Shen for inspection.

"Snapped!"

The palm was slapped heavily.

I'm so annoying.

Han Shen turned around and walked towards the river ditch. The clean water flowed through the ruins and the polluted mess, and the water in front of him was still green and clear.He picked up the broken stones and played a few water floats. As soon as Chen Chen approached, he immediately walked to the next position and continued to water floats.

After repeating it several times, Chen Chen understood that he was angry and stood where he was.

"What's wrong?"

The air stagnates.

Han Shen didn't know how to say: "I don't want to see you like this."

Chen Chen was stunned for a moment, then calmed down: "Oh?"

Han Shen looked at the sky and described his inner feelings: "I have always felt you before, and my whole body is glowing."

Chen Chen's voice was laughing, but indifferent: "What about now, are you disappointed?"

Han Shen said, "Well, disappointed."

Chen Chen's hands trembled violently, as if he couldn't find anything to say, he murmured as if asking for help: "Then what should I do?"

Not far away, the owner of the tile shed walked out the door with a water bottle, locked the door with a rusty lock, and wandered away.Chen Chen slowly squatted down on the ground, stroking the earlobe with his finger bones and grasping it tightly, but was suddenly grabbed by a pair of hands and lifted up.

The tobacco smell rubbed the tip of his nose, and when Han Shen's voice was bitten, Chen Chen's longing was overflowing: "So, immediately, give it to me, change back."

Chen Chen hugged him tightly.

Han Shen's voice hit his heart.

One word at a time, very cruel, but also very gentle.

"If you can't change back, leave as soon as possible."

Chen Chen didn't slow down, and smiled in his ear after a while: "You are so fierce..."

The next sentence continued quietly: "I like it so much."

Han Shen lowered his gaze: "I like it, but if I can't change it back, I still have to leave."

"Never leave." Chen Chen repeated this sentence.

Han Shen let go of his twist, and when he turned his head, he saw the kite was dancing along the spring breeze, and the river was rippling.

Everything is fine.

And Chen Chen should understand.

Although he didn't ask anything, he didn't say anything.

—I don't know what happened to you, and I don't know why you are suffering.

But I hope you get better.

***

Hospital Gynecology Building.

From time to time, a few disgruntled women walked by in the aisle, chatting and gossiping in the waiting chairs, and when they heard the beep of the elevator, a tall and tall young man walked over, immediately attracting everyone's attention.

"What a handsome boy, who's child?"

"I haven't seen it before."

Chen Chen stayed at the door of Zhuang Nianying's ward. His school uniform was snow-white, his finger bones were white and clean, and he was as clean and comfortable as the breeze and the moon, but his eyebrows and eyes were cool.

The whispers in my ears are getting louder and louder.

"I heard that this female professor has a son, and it turned out to be him!"

"The female professor has been in the hospital bed for five or six weeks, and the son just came to visit?"

"I heard that the female professor's cervical cancer was not caused by her husband? She only got this disease after giving birth to a child. Now it's at an advanced stage and it can't be cured!"

Repressed.

Chen Chen felt out of breath, closed his eyes, took out his phone and sent Zhong Hai a message.

- Uncle, I'm outside the door.

The fingertips unintentionally turned up the historical records.

The last chat ended badly.

- When will you come to the hospital to see your mother?

- Uncle Zhong, she probably doesn't want to see me.

- She doesn't want to see you, so she can obliterate the fact that you are his son? !This is your excuse?The lamb knelt down to breastfeed, and Lu Ji was pregnant with oranges!Chen Chen, even if your mother scolds and hates you again, it will be your mother!Even if she kicks you out, it's still your mother!

Chen Chen paused with his fingertips, no longer looking at the news records, the voice in his head had already surfaced.

"Besides, you don't want to think about it, why did your mother suffer from this disease?"

"Isn't it because of your runaway dad?"

"It's not because of you!?"

Chen Chen felt a little cold, so he tightened his school uniform, and the door opened to reveal Zhong Hai's chubby face.His wife's terminal cancer made his mentality on the verge of collapse, and he couldn't get better for Chen Chen: "Finally, I invited you, a great god."

Go in, there are other people standing in the ward.

Four or five young men and women are doctoral students led by Zhuang Nianying.

They were very surprised by Chen Chen's arrival, and they all looked him up and down.

The hospital bed was by the window, a piece of snow white.

Chen Chen turned his back, didn't look at it, and called out softly: "Mom."

Chen Chen felt his heart throbbing when he heard a slight sound, but he didn't hear Zhuang Nianying's words.

Zhong Hai expected Chen Chen to kneel on the bed and cry when mother and child met each other, but he was obviously avoiding his body posture, and was very angry: "Turn around and take a good look at your mother!"

Chen Chen adjusted his breathing and turned around.

He backed away as if he had been stung suddenly.

There was a small lump on the bed, as if he couldn't feel that there was someone lying here.

Zhuang Nianying's hair fell out, her face was dry and sallow, her jaw was narrow and shriveled, and her bones were bony, her eyes turned to him, and her lips could not make a sound.

Advanced cancer.

Chen Chen stepped back, the turbidity in those eyes became more and more obvious, his throat quivered and uttered a few onomatopoeia.

Chen Chen's heart beat with her breathing, watching her turn to Zhong Hai, shed tears.

—I don't want to see him.

"Your mother doesn't want to see you, go out!" Zhong Hai coaxed this terminally ill person, felt her pain, and therefore hated the frightened boy in front of him.

Hearing these words, Chen Chen ran out as if fleeing.

Sighed behind his back: "Run fast, merciless!"

Chen Chen sat on the cold iron chair, another voice in his mind was talking crazily.

Word order confusion.

But it is becoming clearer.

As if to be the only voice in the world.

"Zhuang Nianying, Zhuang Nianying's life, a leader in academia, a talented woman, a pioneer writer... an infinitely brilliant life was ruined by me! So many wonderful lives were unfinished, and they were all ruined because I was born with cancer. She has reason to hate me , she should hate me!"

"It's all my fault..."

As if under a spell, a breathless suffocation spread, Chen Chen seemed to be strangled by the neck, suddenly remembered something, and tremblingly typed with his mobile phone.

Click to send successfully.

The words that were suppressed in my heart finally came out.

This made him feel better, and his unbound body slowly slid down.

The phone was tightly squeezed, as if it was the only remaining light.

"Om-"

When the special pass news jumped, Han Shen was walking behind Lao Qin to the school gate.

After the picnic, all boarding students have to go back to the classroom for self-study obediently. Day students have an amnesty order and can come back for self-study at night.

In front of Lao Qin, Han Shen couldn't take out his mobile phone, so he retreated behind the yellow horn tree and fumbled it out.

He didn't understand the few paragraphs Chen Chen sent.

- Let me ask you, if you knew that the final trial would pronounce your death sentence, would you refuse to attend or would you go there?

- I have been reluctant to attend.

-But now, I have heard the judgment that has to be fulfilled.

- What should I do, will the world be okay?

Han Shen stood on the street, and a gust of hot wind blew over, but he shivered.

Chen Chen was patted on the shoulder, and a young man wearing glasses came out from the ward and smiled at him: "Have you left yet?"

This person is Zhuang Nianying's student, Chen Chen has an impression.

"Ms. Zhong asked me to come out to see you."

The young man is obviously very interested in him, it's not surprising that when he saw Chen Chen for the first time, he would think he was quite dazzling.

"Still in high school?"

Chen Chen got on the elevator: "Well, I'm going back to study by myself at night."

The young man sent himself into the elevator before talking casually: "I didn't expect Teacher Zhuang to have a son, and I never heard her mention you."

Chen Chen said, "Really?"

His eyes fell on the advertisement, but he couldn't see it.

The voice continued: "Mr. Zhuang has always held a critical attitude towards marriage and childbirth, unlike people with children. How have you been doing since childhood?"

Chen Chen repeated in a low voice: "How are you doing?"

Unlike the answer, the young man was surprised and raised his eyebrows at this distraught and inappropriate appearance.

The elevator opens.

Chen Chen walked out quickly.

作者有话要说：感谢在2020-06-1520:14:53~2020-06-1709:27:34期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angels of irrigation nutrient solution: 10 bottles of Gu Qing; 1 bottle of Qiyi;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!