Falling into the Abyss

It was two months after the car accident that Ethan first started to suspect Roland.

Excluding the time spent in the hospital for the first month, life for the next month was like a dream to Ethan. When he got home, he could see Roland limping in the kitchen preparing dinner.Although they are all very simple food, they taste good, not to mention the handwriting of my sweetheart, even dark dishes can be eaten with relish.In the evening, the two of them would watch a movie together, and Roland would lie on his lap, and from his angle, he could see the other's slender eyelashes fluttering occasionally.He likes to gently stroke Roland's slightly longer brown hair than the average man, likes to touch Roland's rough jaw, likes to listen to the sound of the other person's steady snoring after falling asleep, and likes all the small flaws on his body.

Ethan felt that he would never get tired of living like this for the rest of his life.

Then one day, Ethan turned back halfway because he forgot to bring a document.Instead of texting Roland, he opened the door and went home.

After he opened the door, he didn't see Roland who was still downstairs drinking coffee and watching the news when he went out, so he called out, "Roland?"

Roland's voice came from his study, "I'm here."

Ethan frowned slightly.The door of my own study is always closed, and a combination lock is set up.He had only left home for half an hour, how did Roland get in?

When he walked to the door of the study, Roland just came out and saw him raise his eyebrows and smiled, "Forgot something?"

Ethan asked, "Why are you here?"

Roland shrugged and said embarrassedly, "I saw that you didn't lock the door of the study, so I wanted to go in and see what you hid in it. It's so mysterious and locked all day long. But you caught it right away."

Ethan raised his eyebrows, "Did I not lock it?"

"No, there is a gap."

Ethan saw his natural expression, not like he was lying.

Ethan nodded, went into the room to get the documents, and checked all the furnishings on his desk carefully.He always put things in a fixed position, and deliberately put a hair or a scrap of paper in some inadvertent places.In this way, as long as someone moves his things, he will know.

But everything was in place, and he didn't store any important confidential documents at home, and the only time he brought Project Zero home had deleted the documents in time.He thought he might be overthinking it.

After that he changed the combination on the door and all the encrypted passwords in the computer.He is more careful, making sure that he locks the door of the study every day before going out and before going to bed.

After two months of living in peace, Roland had returned to the Energy Bureau to start working again, and Ethan gradually relaxed.

But not long after, the person who was placed in the Ophiuchus Alliance contacted the intelligence department of the Earth Alliance, saying that a person in Ophiuchus was likely to be placed in the Earth Alliance to investigate the plan on Mars.It's unclear when the person came in or what department he was in.After getting the news, the Intelligence Agency immediately started an investigation on the staff of relevant government departments. Those who bear the brunt are those who have access to the specific information of Project Zero, including Ethan.

The moment Ethan heard the wind, he felt a chill leaking from his heart and lungs, and he immediately remembered the time when Roland came out of his room.

However, he didn't want to believe this conjecture, and wondered if he was being overwhelmed.After get off work, Roland was still waiting for him beside his aircraft, talking about a strange researcher in the laboratory.Ethan has been quietly watching Roland when he can't notice, watching him make coffee freely, washing dishes by the sink, and listening to him humming while taking a shower in the bathroom.He can't see anything, all he can see is a man he loves.

However, when two investigators from the Intelligence Service secretly summoned him to a separate room and checked with him the number of times he had logged into Project Zero's intranet, he could no longer lie to himself.He didn't know when Roland used what method to crack the encryption of his identity information, and he didn't know where he logged into the intranet. The IP addresses are obviously altered and are not informative.He thought of his study, and imagined that after he fell asleep, the man quietly got up, used a glass piece to extract fingerprints from his fingertips, and then entered the study and turned on his computer...

For so many days and nights, when he thought he was sleeping in the embrace of his lover, the person next to him was always calculating.The thought made him fall into an ice cave.He looked at the series of time periods when it was impossible for him to log in to the intranet, tried his best to control the expression on his face, and nodded with a slight smile, "Yes, I did log in during these times."

On the way home he wondered why he was lying, why he was helping a spy, why he hadn't been arrested right away.However, what he understood was that the lie he said just now was enough to ruin his reputation.

Maybe I still hold the last ray of hope, maybe I want to listen to that person's explanation and tell myself that there is no malice in all this.

Roland was not at home, and Ethan hurried to the apartment prepared by the Energy Bureau for the researchers of the Third Reich, but there was no sign of him.His colleagues say he never returned.Ethan's heart was sinking, and the feeling of suffocation made him dizzy.But he couldn't stop now, he must find Roland.

Even if he knew, it is very likely that Roland had heard the wind and evacuated from the Earth Alliance.

He couldn't find it anywhere, so he had no choice but to return home dejectedly. After opening the door, he suddenly found that in the dark room, Roland was sitting on the sofa, looking at him without saying a word.

Ethan took a few steps forward, and just wanted the smart housekeeper to turn on the lighting system, but he heard Roland say, "Don't turn on the lights."

The neon lights of tall buildings outside the apartment poured obliquely from the window, illuminating the profile of that Alpha.His brows and eyes were still handsome, but his smile was gone, and his blue pupils were now dyed deep purple by the light, which seemed too deep to be seen through no matter what.

Ethan's Adam's apple was sliding up and down, he didn't know where to ask, and he was afraid of hearing the answer.

"I'm leaving." Roland took the initiative to say.

Ethan felt that his heart was twisted hard, and there was a dull pain in his chest.He asked with a slightly trembling voice, "So...you approached me, it was all planned?"

Roland looked at him quietly, and nodded slowly.

Ethan gritted his teeth tightly, and asked word by word, "Why me!"

"Because you are the most suitable." Roland's voice was still so charming, but what he uttered was the most hurtful words, "All you have handled are important materials from the Energy Bureau, which makes you my first choice for this operation. One of the targets. After a series of investigations, I found that you are the easiest one to break through."

"……easy?"

"First of all, although your family seems to be complete, in fact, your mother focuses on her music theory research and affirmative action career, and sometimes ignores you. And your father is strict and strict, but he is very respected by you. You grew up A series of important life decisions made by Da, including choosing a university and a job, are all following the path set by your father. Obviously, you are deliberately trying to please him, hoping to gain his affirmation in exchange for the warmth you lacked since childhood. And although you are serious and quick-witted, you are very simple emotionally. Your first boyfriend was an Omega, but they broke up in less than a year. The second is a Beta, which also didn’t last long, and there was a gap between them. Several years. It seems that you did not initiate the two breakups, but your cold and passive attitude was the main reason for the other party to break up, in other words, you forced them to break up with you.

People of your age have so little emotional experience, and there are no more than three one-night stands during the gap of several years, either you are sexually frigid, or Omega and Beta can't satisfy you.You yearn for an Alpha who is as strong as your father, but you also hope that the other party can give you the warmth that your father can't give you, but you are a Beta who can't attract that kind of Alpha.You are only superficial, but in fact you have no sense of security and low self-esteem. As long as I give you what you want, you will be full of flaws. "

Ethan felt his eye sockets sore, but he resisted it, and he managed not to shed tears.Those words were like sharpened knives, stabbing his numb chest one by one.

He would rather Roland just disappear, at least he can deceive himself, maybe the other party is somewhat sincere.

Roland stood up and approached him step by step.Ethan backed away unconsciously, like a prey being approached by a hunter.

"Then what are you doing now?" He felt so stupid, why did he lie for him?Why didn't he send someone to investigate him when he just noticed something strange?

It can be seen that what the man said was not wrong at all.

"Ethan, what I just said is just my initial thoughts. But after getting along these days, I don't have no feelings for you. I told you that I like your eyes, and I like your eyes when you are nervous. The posture of the glasses, and the way you pretended to be calm when you were embarrassed. Those words are all true." Roland's deep eyes wrapped around him like a thick night, making him nowhere to escape, "I This time, I want to take you away."

Ethan laughed loudly, "How stupid do you think I am? Come with you? Are you trying to kill me?"

"No! Ethan, maybe I was scheming against you at the beginning, that's my duty, I have to do what I have to do. But now, I can't bear to keep you!" Roland's face at the moment was so focused that it was terrifying, but the dark The uncertain light and shadow made Ethan even more unable to see through him, "If you don't come with me, you will be considered my accomplice. Even if you try to prove that you don't know, they will still deduct more than half of your money." moral value. At that time, do you think you can still live a human life? Even if you have not been deprived of moral value and thrown into the Forbidden City, from now on you can only do the most dirty and dangerous jobs. In such a There is no place where there is no freedom, what do you still miss? Come back to the Ophiuchus Alliance with me, or even the Third Reich, I will take you to see the sights and scenery you want to see, to those places you have always wanted to go distant planet!"

Ethan knew that although what Roland said was scary, it was true.Even if he can find a way to get rid of his relationship with Roland, the lie he told today is enough to make him lose everything.

Seeing that Ethan didn't speak, Roland seemed to think that the other party had been persuaded.He stepped forward to gently embrace Ethan's body, and Ethan did not resist.

"I really like you, come with me..." Before he finished speaking, his body was slightly stiff.

Ethan holds a small pistol/gun to his stomach and lifts cold, sad eyes in his arms.

"Hehehe, even if you think I'm easy, you shouldn't think I'm an idiot, right?" Ethan wanted to speak in a cold tone, but his voice was unsteady, not harsh at all, and even a little pathetic. "Take me away? You are just afraid that I will report you before you take out the Earth Alliance, so you can't cross the border?"

"Ethan, I really want to take you away! You can only die if you stay here!"

"Who caused that!!!" Ethan shouted, his eyes were full of heartbreak.He finally fell in love with a man so much, finally waited until the two fell in love, and dreamed that he wanted to spend the rest of his life with him, why was it all a lie?Why is it him?Ethan laughed again, with a distorted smile and a little despair, "I recorded everything you just said in the portable capsule, I will kill you first, and then hand in the recording!"

He should have pulled the trigger right now, but he still hesitated for a moment, after all, he had never killed anyone, let alone the man he liked so much.Such a moment is completely enough for Roland.There was a sharp pain in Ethan's wrist, and the wrist bone was suddenly broken by the other party.Lost fingers loosen and the hand/gun falls to the ground.Then he felt kicked first in the stomach, then in the temple.The two consecutive attacks made his whole body go limp at once, his eyes turned black, and his abdomen and wrists were excruciatingly painful when he moved.He resisted the severe pain and turned over, only to see that Roland had already picked up the small pistol/gun and pointed it at him, and there was no warmth in his looking down eyes.

Look, it was another skill that did not belong to the Roland he knew.

He suddenly had hallucinations, maybe there are two Rolands in this world, and his Roland is not the ruthless man in front of him.

The warmth in Roland's eyes disappeared, replaced by a strange indifference.He sighed and said, "Obviously you were given a chance to live, but you didn't want it."

Ethan stared at him, exhausting all his hatred, as if hoping that his gaze could turn into a sword and cut the man in front of him into pieces.He felt so illusory in front of the black muzzle of the gun, as if what he was facing was not death.The pain in his heart was colder than death, making him temporarily lose the sense of fear.

"Goodbye, dear." Roland said, raising the gun in his hand.

Ethan closed his eyes reflexively, waiting for the moment when his head was pierced by bullets.However, what he really felt was that the carotid artery was hit hard, and the darkness quickly engulfed him.

This was the last time he and Roland met.

The author has something to say:

My god, even hand/gun are sensitive words..._(:з)∠)_