Falling into the Abyss

Ethan hugged Samuel's cold body, his heart was full of hollow pain.

There was one less person who was important to him.

His connection with this world became less and less, and those ties were broken one after another, making him feel light and light, as if he was in a dream.

The sound of burning fire around, the sound of explosions, the crawling sound of skin and flesh rubbing against the ground as the humanoid insect approached, and the screams of the Benefactors believers running in all directions, all became meaningless echoes in his ears, as if they were separated from him. It was covered with a thick layer of cotton, which could not attract his attention.

He felt very sad.

He didn't even know why Samuel entered the Forbidden City.Although they were friends, he knew almost nothing about Samuel.

He never asked Samuel any questions, never asked about his childhood life, never asked about his boxing experience, never asked him what kind of music he likes to listen to, never asked who he admired most.Likewise, Samuel hadn't asked him.This seems to be some kind of unwritten rule in the Forbidden City, people will not get to know each other, they will not become friends like ordinary people outside the city, as if they are afraid of connecting the life inside the city with the life outside the city.And Ethan always felt that it was impolite to inquire about personal privacy, and they would always have a chance to get to know each other.

As a result, even though they depended on each other in the city, even though they were born and died together, and experienced despair and pain together, he still knew nothing about him in the end.

Ethan gently put Samuel on the ground, and the crowd ran around him, the hot air blowing the hair on his forehead.He closed Samuel's eyes tenderly, and wiped the dirt from his cheek pityingly.This Omega has been tough all his life, unwilling to bow to anyone, and also unwilling to succumb to fate.No Alpha has ever dominated his destiny, and no one has ever seen the despair and fragility in his heart.Even Ethan didn't see it.So he didn't find Samuel's heart eroded by hatred and pain, and he didn't see his soul shattering little by little.

Ethan leaned down and pressed a kiss on Samuel's forehead.Then slowly stood up.He saw the little Alpha cuddling up gently with some kind of nostalgia, his body forming a circle, surrounding Samuel's body in the middle, protecting him like a city wall.Ethan didn't know whether it was the male giant worm's natural desire to protect the giant worm queen who was about to be born from the corpse, or the soul of Schneider that continued in the worm's body, caring for his former lover tenderly and sadly.

Tanithel stood in the misty smoke and looked at him, putting a hand on his shoulder.Ethan grabbed that hand and murmured, "I only have you left."

Tanithel didn't speak, and the hand on his shoulder tightened slightly.

Chen Zeng died, and the thousand or so people who were already scattered instantly fell apart.They rushed like headless flies into the ruins of the city, into the black tide of humanoids.Some slumped in despair, muttering prayers to God to forgive them.Ethan felt very tired watching all this.Now in this universe, apart from Tanithel, there is nothing he is nostalgic about.

He turned around and left the city in a daze.Behind him, little Rafal let out a long cry, as if saying goodbye to him.He is about to take the newly born queen into the ground and create their new kingdom in the interior of the earth.

Countless humanoids squirmed beside him and Tanithel, as if they were floating in a black ocean, being rushed to the unknown shore unknowingly.He came to a high sand dune, under his feet, countless bloated black worms were worshiping him, the dark clouds hung low in the sky, only a ray of golden dawn appeared on the distant horizon.

Ethan looked at the barren planet, at the countless wriggling and neighing insects under his feet, and suddenly didn't know where he was.

"Come with me." Tanithel said, "I have a spaceship, let's leave here together and go to the planet Amonia."

Amonia Star, that distant paradise that doesn't care about the world of mortals.

Can he really go?Is it really possible to forget everything that happened here and go with Tanithel?He turned his head, green eyes with a hint of hesitation.The priest stretched his hand over his shoulder, put his palm on the back of his head and rubbed it lightly, and pressed his forehead slightly forward, "Let the Earth Alliance and the God of Entropy go, we can live together there .”

Is it really possible?

Can you really be happy?

"But... I'm a monster..." Ethan closed his eyes, his voice trembling.

"Monsters are only relative terms. In my opinion, they are monsters."

Ethan didn't ask who they were referring to, but the words made him almost laugh and cry.

He finally nodded, "Okay, let's go."

Tanithel's spaceship is parked not far away, a long-distance spaceship that looks a bit dilapidated, and it seems that it will be scrapped after a few more curvature flights.He followed the priest in, watched the priest set the course on the console, and heard the spaceship tremble uncomfortably before roaring into the air.The earth gradually moved away in the projection, gradually turning into a beautiful blue gem, and then they entered the sleeping chamber together, the priest kissed him on the forehead, and said to him: See you in a year.Immediately, the hatch was slowly closed, and the dormancy procedure was started.

The year spent in hibernation was like a snap of the fingers. When Ethan was awakened by the mastermind, he wasn't even sure if he just fell asleep or just woke up.He woke up little by little in the gentle voice of the mastermind, and a mechanical arm massaged his limbs that hadn't been used for a year, making him sigh comfortably.He put on his bathrobe and saw that the sleeping cabin next door was empty. An ominous fear made his whole body freeze suddenly. He fell into panic and ran out of the sleeping cabin barefoot without even having time to put on his shoes.

He yelled Tanithel's name in the empty corridor, his heart beating wildly in his chest.He didn't know how helpless he looked in fear, not at all like the man who was feared by the entire Earth Alliance.His hands and feet were cold and trembling, and he looked from room to room, knowing that he entered the lounge, and heard a familiar voice, "Ethan? What's wrong with you?"

He turned his head and saw that Tanisel seemed to have just taken a shower, with a towel hanging around his neck and a cup of coffee in his hand.

Ethan immediately experienced the whole cycle from death to rebirth.He rushed over, hugged the priest, and almost knocked off the coffee cup.The priest hurriedly stabilized his body, looking in amazement at Ethan who suddenly threw himself into his arms so enthusiastically.But right after he seemed to understand what was coming, he gently rubbed Ethan's hair, "Okay, I'm here, aren't I?"

Ethan smelled his scent, waiting for his recalcitrant heartbeat to finally calm down.But the body still trembled a little, and I don't know if it was because of the cold.He forced himself to let go of the priest, but Tanithel refused to let him go. "Why are you shivering? Is it because of the cold?" He seemed to want to warm Ethan with his own body temperature. The tight touch made Ethan sigh with satisfaction.

"I'm fine." Ethan whispered.

Tanithel let him go, then took off the robe he was wearing and put it on Ethan's shoulders, and said to him, "Do you feel uncomfortable?"

Ethan shook his head.

"hungry?"

"I... don't seem to feel hungry anymore..."

"Aren't you hungry, or do you want to eat raw meat?"

"..."

"It's okay, I guessed it a long time ago, so I prepared some in the boat." Tanisel shrugged indifferently, and then suddenly pretended to be a gentleman with one hand in front and the other behind Ethan. "Then, charming Mr. Eldridge, may I have the honor to have dinner with you?"

Ethan couldn't help laughing, poofing.He couldn't remember the last time he laughed like that.

For the next few days, Ethan lived the happiest time of his life.

There were only the two of them in the spaceship. They were like a couple who just fell in love, cooking together, watching movies together, and snuggling together to watch the vast and endless starry sky outside.He told the priest about his experiences as a child, took the memory of being locked in the closet by his father as a joke, and hummed his mother's favorite tune to him.Tanithel would hug him tightly from behind, put his chin on his shoulder, listen carefully, and occasionally caress his arm with pity.

The spaceship landed at the ferry of Amonia.It was a very primitive and beautiful planet, strikingly similar to the young Earth.There are lush plants everywhere, and the sea water is still an unpolluted indigo blue.The people there still take vehicles that need to use wheels, and strange-looking animals often appear in the forest beside the road.

Tanithel took him to the seaside, where there was a hut with a red roof.In the distance, the peacock-blue sea rolled over the plain white skirt, and seagulls soared and sang in the sky.On the sea level in the distance, a huge red sun is slowly sinking, and the purple clouds in the sky are rolling like veils scattered all over the sky. It is really too beautiful to behold.

Ethan stood in front of the hut in a daze.

"This is our new home." Tanisel said with a smile, "Do you like it?"

Ethan didn't move, as if he was stunned.After a long time, he finally murmured, "I like..."

Tanisel stepped forward first, and opened the snow-white door.He looked back at Ethan, with a smile as touching as the setting sun, "Come on."

But Ethan shook his head.

Tanithel was stunned, "What's wrong?"

Ethan looked at him with absent-minded eyes, as if he had lost his soul.

Tanithel frowned slightly, "You don't like it?"

"I like it..." Ethan's voice was filled with despair for some reason, "But...it's not true..."

Tanithel's expression became a little stiff at that moment.He blinked in confusion and looked at Ethan.

"You know, when I was a child, I used to imagine that I had a house. This house was built by the sea, just like this one, with a red roof and white walls."

Tanithel was even more confused, "Isn't this very good?"

"All of this is what I want...what I imagined...but..." Ethan closed his eyes in pain and despair, "There are no seagulls in Almonia."

After these words, all of a sudden, all the sounds between heaven and earth disappeared.

In front of him, Tanisel suddenly stopped moving.He seemed to have really turned into a doll, looking at him with dull eyes.

Then, everything starts to melt.

Tanithel, his Tanithel, melted in front of him like a wax figure, melting into a pool of indistinguishable flesh-colored things.And that house, as if it was built with frost, suddenly fell apart and collapsed.

Everything between heaven and earth has become as false as the set of a movie.Ethan felt that it was difficult to breathe. He covered his throat with his hands and struggled to stabilize his breath.

How come, how come, so many days, those vivid times of cuddling each other, those carefree chats and laughs, they are all so real.

He turned around and saw it.

In the misty mist, huge and ugly monsters seem to fill the entire world.Where the head was supposed to be, a terrifying and ugly red tentacle waved in the sky.

Nyarlathotep, whom he had been looking for for a long time, finally appeared.

"My stupid child." Some ancient and sinister voice boomed in his head, "Don't you like the dream I wove for you?"

Everything in this hallucination was something he had dreamed about before.It is composed of wishes buried in his subconscious.Everything he saw was in his own mind, and he actually spent a year in his own mind.

At this moment, Ethan has been hit too hard. There is no more cruel thing in the world to make your dreams come true, let you experience happiness, and then tell you that everything is not true.He lost the courage to fight desperately with his so-called 'biological father',

He slumped down on the ground, with black tears streaming down his face, "Why...why did you do this..."

"I wanted to make it easier for you. Wouldn't it be nice to stay here forever with the one you love?" the voice asked. "Why bother?"

"Why... I've already planned to promise you... why!!!" Ethan roared unwillingly, he wanted to release the tentacles behind him, but found that he couldn't move.

The voice said in his mind, "Silly boy, do you think it's enough to just say yes? You still have hope in your heart. If you let the core of the universe descend under such circumstances, your spirit will be torn to pieces, and you The demise of your life will be extremely painful. So, I wanted to weave a beautiful dream for you, so that your spirit can stay here forever and live the life you dream of. You can be with the person you want, and at the same time , the core of the universe will occupy your body."

That kind of tone that seemed to be disappointed with his own child turned Ethan's original despair into flames of anger.He struggled to stand up and shouted at the huge ancient god, "You bastard!!! You took Tanithel away!!! You give him back to me!!!"

Crouching Chaos on the opposite side was silent, as if he didn't hear his cry.

Ethan clenched his fist tightly and said word by word, "As long as you let him come back, I am willing to accept the core of the universe!!!"

A sigh came from the distant sky.

A sigh that traveled through time and space.

"My poor child. Tanithel is not in my hands. He has disappeared into this universe, and there is nothing I can do. Your only chance to meet him again is after the arrival of Azathoth. Only at that time, You can no longer perceive his existence."

Ethan froze, but he refused to believe it.He knew that Nyarlathotep was the god of deceit, and he didn't believe his words.

"You lied to me! I saw it! I saw those hands taking Tanithel away!!!!"

"If I really have him in my hand, is it still necessary to use these hallucinations to deceive you now?" The giant's figure began to gradually dissipate, but his regretful voice still made people tremble.

"My child, you rejected the path of hope I gave you. Now there is only hopelessness left. You have nothing to worry about in this world. What's the point of living like this?"

As the sound dissipated, Ethan opened his eyes.

He was still standing on the sand dune, under his feet, countless bloated black worms were worshiping him, the dark clouds hung low in the sky, and only a ray of golden dawn appeared on the distant horizon.

Time has not passed.

He turned his head, but there was no Tanithel behind him.

There will be no Tanithel in the future.

He finally had nothing left.

The author has something to say:

I finally finished my homework temporarily, I hope this week's homework will not be too sad...

So there are about [-] words left and it will be over~ Thanks to the little angels who have supported me all the time. Although this article is very cold, I don’t feel cold at all because of you. I offer my careful heart again~~~