nemesis obsessed with my tail

"Help me lock the door." Gu Songyan walked towards the kitchen with his sleeves rolled up.

Tong Juan locked the door and followed him, watched him boil water, turned to open the refrigerator, took out vegetables and vermicelli and put them on the table, hanging down his eyes and began to cut the seasoning.

When the water boiled, Gu Songyan took out the onion and ginger and poured it into the trash can, boiled it for a few minutes, then put the seasonings into the pot one by one, and finally cracked an egg skillfully with one hand.

Tong Juan's drinking capacity is average, and two bottles of beer are within the range he can accept. For some reason, he drank only half a bottle today and became dizzy.

Gu Songyan's back was split into two, dangling in front of him.

"Gu Songyan."

"Ok?"

"Can you stand still and don't shake, I'm dizzy."

Gu Songyan looked back at him leaning against the door in pain and shaking his head vigorously. He became more and more dizzy and almost fell to the ground. He walked over quickly to support him, "It's hard?"

"It's not uncomfortable, it's just a little dizzy. I'll just take a break. You're going to cook. You're hungry."

"I'll pour you a glass of water." Gu Songyan helped him to sit down at the dining table, poured him a glass of warm water and came back, "Wait a little longer, drink some water first."

Tong Juan was very obedient when he was drunk. Although he was not really drunk, he still sat on a chair and held a cup in both hands to sip water. Occasionally, he looked at Gu Songyan who was busy, and then lowered his head to take a sip of water.

His mind was chaotic, and he always felt that something was poking and hurting, but he couldn't tell what it was, which made him extremely uncomfortable.

Tong Juan lowered his head and wiped his eyes, feeling sore, and rubbed them twice, making his eyes red.

When Gu Songyan came back, he almost finished drinking a glass of water, reached out to take it and pushed the noodles to him, "Try it, it might not be very tasty."

Tong Juan's mind was wandering, but fortunately he could still hold the chopsticks firmly, and picked up the white of the poached egg, and the runny heart flowed out, so he picked it up with the tip of the chopsticks and licked it.

The tip of the tongue swept away the runny heart.

Gu Songyan's eyes were hot, and he suddenly became jealous of a pair of chopsticks, and secretly wanted to turn around and split the pair of chopsticks.

Tong Juan has been worrying about eating well during this time, so far he has not been able to adapt to this tail, he has been anxious for more than half a month, and somehow he was appeased by a bowl of noodles.

He buried his head in eating for a while, and found that Gu Songyan's eyes kept falling on his mouth, "Why do you keep staring at me, are you hungry?"

"Yeah." Gu Songyan still hasn't looked away.

hungry.

very hungry.

"Do you eat?" Tong Juan couldn't finish eating so much by himself, so he got up and got a bowl and a pair of chopsticks, and picked half of his own bowl for him, "You don't think I'm dirty, do you?"

"I don't mind."

Tong Juan ate all the leftover noodles, and even drank most of the soup. After a full belch, he felt a little better from his dizziness.

Gu Songyan: "Are you still talking to Auntie?"

Deng Shuyi tends to care for Tong Juan, but he does not allow him to stay out all night for no reason.

"I told her that it's fine to live in the parrot's house. I used to play games and play ball with him often." Tong Juan said as he took out his mobile phone to send a text message to Deng Shuyi. After sending, he looked up and saw Gu Songyan staring at him. It was a little colder, a little scary.

"What, what?"

"You often live with Qin Yingwu?"

Tong Juan didn't understand why he asked, "Yeah, what's the matter? We still share the same bed, but this guy is so annoying when he grabs the quilt. Every time I live with him, I can't grab him."

Gu Songyan's eyes were almost locked on his face, "You two share the same bed?"

"Yes, yes, what's wrong?" Tong Juan always felt that he was unhappy.

It's not the first time he and Qin Yingwu lived together, why are you so angry, everyone is a boy.

"Do you know his orientation?"

Tong Juan nodded, "I know."

"You know he likes boys, and you still share the same bed with him?" Gu Songyan's fingers were about to be cut off, and he wished he could drag Tong Juan over and tell him that Qin Yingwu likes boys!

He actually shared the same bed and a quilt with the other party!

"Are you upset?"

There was a faint hostility in Gu Songyan's body, as if he had been robbed of some treasure, or jealousy.

In fact, Tong Juan was a little scared of Gu Songyan instinctively. Although he usually bullies him when he fights, but when he is really angry, he subconsciously subconsciously softens.

"I know Qin Yingwu is crooked, but he doesn't like me, and I don't like boys either. Even if he is interested in me, can he still hold him on my lap? It's just a bed, not him Not that much."

Gu Songyan didn't know which sentence brought him back to his senses, and he blinked his eyes to hide his hostility.

Tong Juan watched him wash and put away the dishes in silence, wondering why he was upset in a daze, when Deng Shuyi called.

"Mother."

"At the end of the evening self-study, you said that you won't be allowed to pick up the ball. Why haven't you come home yet? Are you causing trouble for me outside again?"

Tong Juan was afraid that Tong Licheng would know that he had been drinking, so he whispered, "Mom, I'm staying at Brother Songyan's house, and I want him to help me with my homework. I won't go home tonight, okay?"

Gu Songyan slipped his hand and smashed the bowl into the sink.

This soft and loose word, brother, is more seductive than the one that forced him to shout when the tail came out, and all the jealousy and burning possessiveness in his heart disappeared.

Tong Juan really knows how to pinpoint his weak point.

Deng Shuyi already liked Gu Songyan, and hoped that Tong Juan could learn from him, so she was willing in every possible way, "You are not allowed to fight with him at Yanyan, he can't beat you."

"Understood." Tong Juan was afraid of her nagging, so he called "Brother Songyan", but in the end, she still urged for a long time, and shouted that it was too bad.

Tong Juan: "Mom, I'm studying, but Gu Songyan is urging me."

"What is Gu Songyan, brother Songyan!"

In order to get rid of her nagging as soon as possible, Tong Juan endured the humiliation, "I'm going to study with Brother Songyan, good night mom."

Gu Songyan finished picking up the pieces calmly, and waited for him to hang up the phone before saying, "Go upstairs and take a shower, it's getting late."

"Oh."

His room was still the same as before, with simple to boring furnishings, except for trophies on the table, there were medals, and the walls were full of framed awards and photos.

The latest one is a group photo of this provincial competition, and the room is filled with the heinous smell of a school bully.

"Just wear my clothes and let me wash and dry yours." Gu Songyan filled the bathtub with water, went out and took out a set of old gray pajamas from the cabinet.

Tong Juan has nothing wrong with not wearing other people's clothes, so he took it and prepared to go to the bathroom.

"Can you do it? Are you still dizzy?"

In fact, Tong Juan doesn't feel very good, but he can't ask Gu Songyan to help him take a bath. He wears all his clothes in the gymnasium at night, and it's not like he has no hands or feet.

"Of course nonsense is fine!"

He slammed the bathroom door shut, took a breath and shook his head to wake himself up. After taking off his clothes, he subconsciously looked at the tailbone, and there was no tail anymore.

He stretched out his hand to touch it by accident, but he didn't feel the numbness of his limbs and bones like an electric shock.

Every time Gu Songyan's hand touched him, he trembled and limp in his arms.

Stepping into the bathtub, the warm water flooded over his tired body after playing, temporarily throwing Gu Songyan out of his mind, Tong Juan closed his eyes and let out a long sigh of relief, "It's comfortable!"

When he came out, Gu Songyan was changing clothes.

The lean waist and abdomen curves are unobstructed, the long legs are straight and slender, even the shoulder and back muscles are smooth and beautiful, and the thin but not thin body is full of strength.

He turned around, and Tong Juan saw several criss-cross wounds on his chest, one of which was still fresh and the scab was still tender.

"you……"

Gu Songyan didn't change his expression, put on his pajamas to cover the scar, "Did you finish washing?"

Tong Juan suddenly bald his tongue, "Ah, after washing, you can go take a bath."

"Well, the hair dryer is in the left drawer."

Tong Juan watched him walk into the bathroom, his mind was still full of old and new scars on his chest, and his heart was so constricted that he couldn't breathe.

The strange feeling made him at a loss, he wanted to grab him and ask what was going on, but he was afraid that he would poke his wound without asking.

Did someone bully him?

Tong Juan nestled on the sofa with his mobile phone and searched for a certain degree. What is the situation with the many scars on the male high school student.

There were all kinds of answers, some said it was in the letter circle, and even posted the address of an article. Because the content was not harmonious and was not allowed to be described, it was blocked by the website and Tong Juan couldn't see it.

Some said they were bullied on campus, and others were self-harm.

Will Gu Songyan be bullied on campus?

He left first in the equipment room last time. When Gu Songyan came back, he had a little bruise on his hand, but it was not serious. Could it be that Min Jiarong and the others bullied him?

Tong Juan really couldn't figure out why, so he searched for a long time and found everything, including a psychopath who self-harmed.

The more he watched, the more dizzy he became, propping his chin bit by bit, but finally fell asleep, his fingers still on the screen.

This is what Gu Songyan saw when he came out. He fell asleep while playing with his mobile phone, and his hair was not blown. He sighed helplessly and picked him up. Out of the corner of his eye, he caught a glimpse of the entry in the circle of letters accidentally touched on the screen of the mobile phone.

It means sadism and masochism, and the tradition is to get pleasure through sadism and masochism.

What is he watching?

Gu Songyan hugged him back to the bed and sat down, took the hair dryer and turned it to the lowest setting to dry his hair. The person was lying in his arms so limp that he couldn't hold it up, and he dried it with difficulty, and he was almost covered in sweat.

He covered the person with a quilt and went to sleep on the sofa by himself.

Gu Songyan's sleep was very shallow and restless, and he would wake up at the slightest disturbance, and the sleeping part would dream of Gu Yushu and the bloodstains on his chest.

Tong Juan woke up in the middle of the night and called him softly, "Gu Songyan, are you awake?"

"Ah."

He couldn't hold back anymore, "Zhang Gan said that you are going abroad."

Gu Songyan looked at the cold moonlight, and said softly, "I'm just doing a paper, I won't go abroad."

"Aunt Xu? You have such good grades. If it was my mother, she would definitely support you. After all, Jiangcheng is too small."

Gu Songyan asked without answering, "Do you want me to go?"

Tong Juan was slightly stunned: "I don't know, but I know that staying in Jiangcheng is definitely not as good as going abroad."

"I'm asking you, do you want me to leave Jiangcheng and you without considering what's good for me?"

Tong Juan was silent for a while. He really didn't know whether he wanted it or not. He was stunned when he heard what Zhang Gan said at night. Although he knew that the outside world was more suitable for him, he was unprepared to be told such a thing. Still feel suddenly.

He and Gu Songyan have been together since birth. In the kindergarten, he wrote about his favorite person hanging on the Christmas tree. He wrote about his parents and Gu Songyan.

Later, when he grew up, he knew that people always have to separate, coupled with tit-for-tat, the signs that they were about to part ways were already very clear, but he still felt flustered when it was actually brought up.

That kind of instinct, the heart became a separate entity, and the panic made him at a loss.

Tong Juan nestled himself under the quilt, the tip of his nose was filled with the smell of Gu Songyan's body.

The voice muffled in the quilt said, "Do you think I'm selfish, obviously our relationship is not that good, and I still pester you to let you help me with my tail."

silence.

Tong Juan whispered again: "Although I need you very much, I won't pretend to be sentimental and think that you stayed because of my tail."

Gu Songyan asked him, "Why?"

Tong Juanjiu woke up, and the drowsiness passed, "I always say that others are cowardly, but in fact I am really cowardly. I dare not go to the hospital for an examination, and I dare not ask my parents. I am afraid that the examination will tell me It's a monster, and they won't want me by then."

Gu Songyan didn't speak.

Tong Juan didn't intend that this iceberg could comfort him, so he rambled on, "Although my dad beats me all the time, I've probably received more beatings than you have won since I was a child, and my mother is also very fierce. I still remember that Lan Ze asked her where she came from some time ago, my mother put her hips on her hips and yelled at us, you were born from my mother's belly, otherwise you would still jump from the cracks in the rocks?"

"Are you saying that my mother is a murderer, and you are still using you to scold me. You are so kind, Aunt Xu must never scold you."

He said with a smile, "But I still think they are the best parents in the world. They never force me to do something I don't like. I don't like to study and they don't talk about me. Zhang Gan and Parrot pressure me. No, the only requirement they ask of me is not to move my hands without reason, and no matter what I do, I must start from good intentions and not do evil."

Gu Songyan kept silent, Tong Juan thought he was asleep, "It would be great if Uncle Gu was alive, he was the one who protected me when I was beaten when I was young."

"Hey, do you remember that once I went to pick mulberries with you, I fell from a tree and broke my hand, it was Uncle Gu who took me to the hospital, he was so incompatible with my dad, I thought he wouldn't Leave me alone."

Gu Songyan's eyes were a little cooler than the cold moon outside the window.

Tong Juan picked mulberries for him to eat that day, so the responsibility for falling from the tree naturally fell on Gu Songyan.

That night, Gu Yushu made him kneel in the room all night, and promised not to eat anything Tong Juan gave him in the future, and promised not to let him be in danger because of himself.

At that time, he didn't understand, he just felt guilty.

Gu Yushu didn't allow him to see Tong Juan, and told him to contemplate behind closed doors at home. In the end, Tong Juan came to play with him before meeting him.

"It's a pity that you didn't get that mulberry. I leaned on the tree and tasted it myself. It was so sweet."

Tong Juan looked at the moonlight outside the window, "Gu Songyan, are you asleep?"

"No."

"Oh." He suddenly didn't know what to say. After a moment of silence, he asked him again: "Are you cold? Otherwise, I'll live on the sofa, and you can come to bed."

"Need not."

Tong Juan thought he was bored, so he stopped making him unhappy, "...then go to sleep."

After a long time, Gu Songyan said: "You are not a monster. Some people will suddenly like to eat broken glass one day, and some people will suddenly become bloodthirsty. These just become different from ordinary people."

"Ok?"

"You still remember what Uncle Tong and Aunt Deng taught you not to be evil. Compared with many people who harm others for their own self-interest, you just have a very cute body part. I don't care about others. To me, it is the same as fingers, Your nose and eyes don't make any difference, you're not a monster."

Tong Juan nestled under the quilt, "Then you really don't think I'm scary? You don't want to laugh at me?"

"never."

Tong Juan knew that it is impossible for one person to be with another person forever, so Gu Songyan was probably coaxing him.

He couldn't find anything to say, but he couldn't sleep, he wanted to ask him about the wound on his chest but he was afraid that he was the real letter, rustling for a while.

"You haven't slept yet?"

"I can't sleep." Tong Juan turned over and lay on his side, moved to the end of the bed and looked at the person on the sofa, "Gu Songyan, let's chat."

"Not talking all the time?"

"You didn't say a word. Zhang Gan and the others were talking about the university entrance examination today. What do you think about it in the future? When I was young, I thought about being an astronaut scientist or something, but later I found out that my grades are really insulting. These two noble people I just gave up my career, how about you?"

Gu Songyan's voice was very calm, "I never thought about it."

He has been burdened with the responsibility of protecting the person in front of him since he was a child.

Wherever Tong Juan is, he must be there, unless one day he no longer needs himself, otherwise he has no choice at all.

"Then you are too boring, but I think if you do scientific research, you must be a very powerful scientist. Maybe you will build the spaceships in the future. I want to see you on TV."

Gu Songyan smiled lightly, "You think so highly of me?"

Tong Juan stood up and propped his chin, "To be honest, although you are very annoying, the parrot is right, you are not someone we mortals can control."

"What did you and Qin Yingwu say about me behind my back?"

Tong Juan was a little guilty, "I didn't talk about anything, I praised you for being handsome, our brother Songyan is the second most handsome in the world!"

Gu Songyan laughed nicely, with a hint of coolness and pampering, "What about number one?"

"Nonsense, of course it's me."

Another low laugh, "Well, the number one will always be you."

Tong Juan likes to hear him laugh, much better than that world-weary and withdrawn Gu Songyan, as if he has been burdened with so much darkness, nothing can keep him warm.

"You should laugh. If it wasn't so cold, more people in school would like you, and there would be twice as many people giving you snacks."

Gu Songyan changed the topic, "Uncle Tong promised you to enter the military academy, do you know what the score line is for the military academy?"

"I do not know."

Gu Songyan was completely helpless by him, "Then do you know that Uncle Tong graduated from a university where Zhang Gan's grades can't even touch the door?"

Zhang Gan can be ranked in the top five in Class Nine, and in the top [-] in his grade.

"Is it that difficult?"

Gu Songyan smiled, "You have to get at least 670 to get into this university. According to your current level, have you ever thought that Uncle Tong might ask you to give up?"

Tong Juan suddenly turned over, "Are you educated people so insidious! This designation was thought up by my mother, and even my own son was planning it! It's too bad!"

Gu Songyan: "Are all your school bullies so innocent and easy to deceive?"

"How can I be innocent!" Tong Juan jumped off the bed and jumped onto the sofa, grabbing Gu Songyan's neck, "Eat me and choke my throat!"

He sat cross-legged on the quilt, the pulse under his palm changed from calm at first to chaotic, behind Gu Songyan was the misty cold moon, against which his eyes became deeper and deeper.

"Do you really want to enter the military academy?"

Tong Juan was a little bit hard to get off, and withdrew his hand and got off him with a little embarrassment, and gave a soft "um".

"So have you ever thought about this tail, you know that every time you exercise vigorously and get emotional, it will pop up, and the military school has both of these and is more intense, what do you do?"

"……I forgot."

Gu Songyan couldn't help sighing, "You, you."

Tong Juan seldom got up early, and when he was woken up by Gu Songyan, he kicked him angrily, "I'm sorry."

Gu Songyan held his foot and pressed it hard on the sole of the foot, the pain made him burst into tears.

"pain."

The force was lighter and changed to kneading.

"I'm sorry, I'm going to be late for self-study early."

Tong Juan retracted his head under the quilt, thinking he was talking to Deng Shuyi at home, and unconsciously acted like a baby in a low voice, "You are so noisy, you just got up at 06:30, call me again in 5 minutes."

Gu Songyan fished the person out of the quilt, "Aren't you bored?"

Tong Juan woke up now, "Why the hell is it you!"

"Otherwise, who do you think it is? Qin Yingwu?"

Tong Juan's head was still calm, he didn't realize the meaning of Gu Songyan's words, rubbed his head and yawned, "I thought it was my mother, the way of waking people up is so rude, if you say lift the quilt, you can lift the quilt, in case I don't wear pants what to do?"

Gu Songyan boiled eggs for breakfast, but Tong Juan was still angry when he got up, so he forced him to peel the shells for himself, and said that the porridge he cooked was not sweet, and Gu Songyan got used to him all morning, so he calmed down a little.

Zhang Gan joked at him, "Oh, why did the concubine Yao's face smell like this after sleeping all night, what did you see in the morning?" After speaking, he leaned towards Gu Songyan who was beside him with an expressionless face, "Mr. Faint, what's wrong with this person?"

Tong Juanxin said that the worst scenery is your stupid king!

Qin Yingwu handed him a bottle of milk, "Brother Juan, this is for you."

Tong Juan took it and was about to insert the straw when someone took it away. With his puzzled eyes, he took out a bottle of milk and put it on his desk, "You brought it."

"Huh? When did I bring it?"

Why doesn't Tong Juan remember that there is still a bottle of milk in his schoolbag?

Qin Yingwu took back the milk, thinking he was careless, and even delivered milk to his people in front of the squad leader, he wouldn't silence himself, he carefully looked at Gu Songyan's expression.

The way he looked at himself seemed a little... scary.

Qin Yingwu shrugged his shoulders, what did he do wrong?

"Squad leader, what did I do to upset you?"

Gu Songyan: "No."

Qin Yingwu felt that there was, and the heart of a foolish king is hard to fathom, so he had to say cautiously: "That... my mother brought me an extra bottle of milk, so I can't finish it..."

Gu Songyan glanced at him.

Qin Yingwu immediately promised: "I won't bring any more in the future!"

Gu Songyan averted his gaze lightly.

"Then...then what monitor are you free this week?"

"What?" Gu Songyan asked.

"I heard that there is a new grocery store in Xijiao that is really amazing. I plan to go and see it with Brother Juan. Are you going?"

Gu Songyan tapped the tip of his pen, noncommittal.

Zhang Gan came over: "What grocery store? Sells scissors and stainless steel washbasins?"

Qin Yingwu found the webpage and showed it to him. Zhang Gan was startled, "It's interesting, brother Yan, let's go together. I'll see if there is a notification letter from Tsinghua University and buy two. When the time comes, you will share one with each of you."

Tong Juan made a "tsk" sound, "You should be a fool."

Gu Songyan smiled.

Chen Leyu ran in from the outside: "Come here!!"

"What's the matter?"

Chen Leyu stood on the podium, "This year's campus male god selection has begun! They have all started participating in the canvassing."

Cai Wu: "Sisters, look at the group! Wow, Bai Jiaping's votes are actually ahead of Chai Yiyuan!"

Seeing the news in the group, Tong Juan clicked on it. Bai Jiaping is in the eighth class of the key class, and his grades are good and he looks good. Unlike Chai Yiyuan, he followed the route of Gu Songyan, a high-cold student.

"Bai Jiaping also posted a canvassing video?" Qin Yingwu clicked on the video and placed it on the table, a soft and delicate sound of bubbles flowed slowly.

"What's the matter, baby? Which question can't be done, this one? You have forgotten such a simple question, but with me here, it doesn't matter if you can't, I will be fine."

Zhang Gan leaned his head over and his scalp went numb after hearing a sentence.

"This is Bai Jiaping? Why does it feel like a parrot's waves? It's not as loud as a parrot's. The parrot doesn't pant."

Qin Yingwu punched him, "That's not true! He's super fierce!"

Zhang Gan dodged his fist and turned his head to look out the window. In the noisy playground, a large group of girls were holding up signs to canvass for the boys they liked.

"Oh my good boy, it's so grand, it's like a beauty pageant around the world."

Qin Yingwu: "I read in the group that this year's campus male god selection is over, and the one who wins the championship can dance with the campus belle at the Christmas party. No wonder they put in so much effort. They all want to dance with Wan Wangshu."

Zhang Gan said "tsk", "Forget it, the squad leader is not interested in Wanwangshu, hey wait!! Who reported Brother Juan! Fuck, look!"

Tong Juan looked down and saw that the sneak photo he was lucky enough to see back then was taken by someone and signed up.

Among the carefully edited selfies and video canvassing, the photo of him sleeping on the table is particularly unique. "Who voted for this?"

Tong Juan was born well, the photo of him sleeping on the table looked like a candid shot, but the angle was perfect, the sunlight fell on him through the window, and even his eyelashes were shining.

He was very obedient when he was asleep, completely different from the usual school bully who bared his teeth and claws, and added a bit of prettiness.

"Brother Juan is so beautiful, I'm so careful."

Zhang Gan hissed, "Can you keep the parrot? The water splashed on my face."

Qin Yingwu was shy, "There's no water yet."

Zhang Gan was pissed off by him, "I said you are too sloppy!"

Tong Juan didn't care about this, he reported what he liked, and in the end, he was elected and it was over if he didn't go.

Gu Songyan never participated in such activities, and no one dared to ask him.

Tong Juan dared, "University bully, Gu Damei, don't you want to participate in the selection of campus male gods? Really, I think if you go to the election, those people will have nothing to do with them. Do you want me to vote for you?" ah?"

"Not interested in."

"Why are you not interested in anything? You just like to study? Qin Yingwu's orientation is male, and your orientation is test papers? I love studying, and studying loves me. I'm very enlightened, you college bully."

Gu Songyan looked at him, "Yes."

Tong Juan just forgot after joking, and was taken aback by his serious answer: "Ah? What's there?"

"I'm interested."

"What is it?"

Gu Songyan hooked his fingers at him, and Tong Juan leaned over suspiciously. When he got closer, he felt a breath on the fine hair of his ears, "Your tail."

Tong Juan kicked him reflexively.

Gu Songyan dodged it easily, and looked at him with a smile on the corner of his eyes, "Are you still asking?"

Tong Juan was so choked by him that he couldn't speak, and angrily snorted coldly, "Don't ask!"