After being confessed by the paranoid school grass

above me

from dark to light

Human Desire

under me except the abyss

still abyss

—— "The Notes of a Desolate Man"

In December, in a small town in the north, Liu Yao was finally discharged from the hospital.

For a month, Liu Yao became weak due to countless nightmares and countless electric shocks, and his whole body looked pale and powerless.On the day he was discharged from the hospital, he tightly tugged on Sheng Yuan's sleeve so as not to be knocked to the ground by the fierce cold wind.

Liu Yao borrowed to live in Shengyuan's small villa in the north.

During the day, Sheng Yuan had to deal with the business affairs accumulated over the past month, and Liu Yao stayed in bed to recuperate.Exhausted by the nightmare, Liu Yao struggled on the verge of depression.He gradually could not remember what happened before drowning in the sea, and those people and things that happened in Haicheng gradually left his mind.He just quietly looked at the bare trees outside the window.The nanny in the villa brought the food to the bed regularly every day, and took the plate away after Liu Yao finished eating.When Sheng Yuan comes back at night, he will sleep with Liu Yao.When Liu Yao's nightmare flooded, he hugged his trembling body tightly.

A week later, the doctor from the hospital came to give Liu Yao a reexamination: severe depression.

Sheng Yuan knelt on the ground.

He expected that the bad memory that Xue Jian left for Liu Yao on the boat would slowly destroy Liu Yao's body.However, the rapid development of the situation has exceeded the scope of his control.

For the next month, he took Liu Yao everywhere to seek medical advice.The result is always the same: waiting to die slowly.

The countdown to death several times made Sheng Yuan think of going back to find Xue Jian.Once he goes to Xue Jian, then Liu Zhengze will die waiting for him when he is released from prison in two years.

Either Liu Zhengze died, or Liu Yao died.

Where in the world can there be a more cruel choice than this.

Winter is approaching.

Only on Chinese New Year's Day, the outside world is allowed to make a 5-minute phone call with Liu Zhengze in the prison.

Sheng Yuan dialed the number with trembling hands, until the familiar "Old Sheng" came from the phone, and his tears could no longer be held back.

Sheng Yuan quietly talked about the period from when he was caught on board to when Liu Yao was depressed, but Liu Zhengze remained silent over there.What is Liu Zhengze's expression now?Sheng Yuan couldn't figure it out.Every day in prison, he thought about how to get revenge, right?

"Let's go to Africa and look for it." Liu Zhengze's voice trembled, "When I was doing charity in Africa, I once helped a village that made a living by collecting herbs."

As soon as the voice fell, there was a "beep beep" notification sound from the phone, and it was up in 5 minutes.

Sheng Yuan wiped away the tears from his face, and looked at Liu Yao who was in a daze on the bed with red and swollen eyes.

"Secretary Wang, help me book two tickets to Botswana tomorrow."

As the sleep time became shorter and shorter, Liu Yao's eyes were no longer as shiny as before.The eye sockets are sunken, the limbs are no longer as strong as before, and the body is covered with scars from the electric shock.There was no trace of anger in him.

On New Year's Eve, thousands of houses are lit up.

Numerous hanging red lanterns decorate this small northern town, fierce, reunion, festive and peaceful.

However, that excitement does not belong to them, nor does it belong to every lonely figure staring at the moon at this moment.

Si Lang was lying in a room with no lights on, and the cold moon shone into every crevice deep in his memory.

The 63rd day since I left you, I miss you so much.

The shadow of the prison railing fell on Liu Zhengze's face, and his sad face looked vicissitudes and melancholy under the moon.

The fourth month of imprisonment was very anxious.

In the white room, there was no decoration. Li Na and Scomman next door were sitting with their backs to the wall of the detention center, silent and silent.

The second month of detention, yearning for the truth.

For them, the Spring Festival is just a feeling that tears up time and space, and wants to touch the original peaceful and stable years across thousands of people.

Life and death are the most difficult sufferings.

The next day, Liu Yao, Sheng Yuan and the accompanying assistant boarded the flight to Africa.

After many days of tossing and turning, I finally saw a deserted village in a secluded wilderness.Sheng Yuan and a group of people approached the village and found "Willow" written on every door.One of them had a handful of dried herbs hanging in front of the house.

This should be the village that Liu Zhengze mentioned.Sheng Yuan knocked on the door, and after a while there was a sound of footsteps from the other side of the door, the wooden door was opened a small crack, and a wrinkled face squeezed out.The interpreter who followed explained the purpose of coming to this wrinkled person, and the people inside immediately showed a surprised expression when they heard the word "Liu Zhengze", opened the door and invited the group of people into the room.

The courtyard is not big, and the herbs spread all over the floor give off a fishy smell.Wrinkled invited people into the house, and there was an old man cutting herbs with a short knife on the ground.

The translator explained the situation to the old man, and the old man hugged Liu Yao and began to cry.Seeing this, Sheng Yuan's brow was sweating, "Why is this old man crying?" Sheng Yuan asked the translator angrily.

"He said why doesn't the child eat more." The translator replied softly.

"... Hurry up and tell him the important things, those who don't know think Liu Yao is hopeless." Sheng Yuan rolled his eyes at the old man.

After the old man cried, he didn't listen to what the interpreter said to him after chasing his ass, and went directly to the kitchen to cook a plate of unidentifiable dishes.

"There are so many of us, this old man only cooks a dish. It seems that this village is not just poor." Sheng Yuan curled his lips.

The hot dishes were served on the table, and he didn't say to invite everyone to sit down, so he dragged Liu Yao to the table to eat, but the old man didn't eat, and made signs for Liu Yao to put vegetables into the bowl.

At this time, Sheng Yuan and the translator were already stupid.

The wrinkle who opened the door for them sat on the wooden stake next to him and washed herbs, and the translator who went up to chattered a few words and chatted with wrinkle.

It turned out that the village suffered from plague at that time, and as a result, the whole village was infected. No doctor came to treat the disease, and everyone waited for death to come.When Liu Zhengze rushed over with medical supplies, only the village head and his wife were left alive in the village.They rescued these two people, and rushed to other places to save others.

The village chief and his wife continue to live here, selling herbs for a living. In order to express their gratitude to their benefactor, all children born in this village have the surname Liu.

"Where is the village chief's wife now?" the translator asked.

The wrinkled white glanced at the translator, and talked with the translator for a long time with a thick accent.

Oh, Wrinkled is the wife of the village chief.

Wrinkled has a good temper. After the bald talk, he chatted with the translator, and the translator relayed these words to Sheng Yuan in detail.

The crumpled herbal medicine that is being washed is going to be brought back to Liu Yao to nourish his body.

As for the antidote, Liu Yao was taking it.

The plate on the table can't see what it is, it is detoxification.

Sheng Yuan thought that this old man was quite good at showing off.But I still have to thank them for their life-saving grace. Sheng Yuan is going to do it again after the incident is over, and help these old men and women get rich.

Liu Yao had no expression on his face, and quietly ate the food bite by bite, coughing from time to time.

At night, they huddled together in the village head's room and slept on the kang.This night, Liu Yao finally had a long sleep without dreams.

During the long night, the drug effect quickly absorbed and disintegrated the toxin through the stomach and intestines, and the fragments of memory were being assembled into the original picture one by one.

Like the white porcelain that has finally scraped off the dirt on the surface, Liu Yao woke up the next day and became a brand new person.

He remembered everything, including Su Xiaoqing, the black house, Haicheng, and that Si Lang who was vague and hard to explain.

The piece of frosted glass in front of his eyes disappeared, and all the causes and consequences emerged in Liu Yao's mind.

Sheng Yuan burst into tears when he saw Liu Yao's eyes were as bright as before. He held the village chief's dry wood hand and bowed repeatedly.

The village head gave Sheng Yuan a disdainful look, and murmured a lot of incomprehensible words.

"What did the old man say?" Sheng Yuan asked the translator.

"He said why you, a fat man, fed yourself like a pig and made Liu Yao so thin."

"..."

Sheng Yuan smiled, but bowed seriously, also bowing for his good brother.

The village chief always remembered Liu Zhengze's life-saving grace back then.He didn't tell them that the herb that Liu Yao ate was a divine herb that only grew one plant in 500 years.

Tat for tat, they are just very simple ordinary people.

On the plane back, Sheng Yuan asked Liu Yao what he wanted to do next.

What do you want?

I want to go back to China, to the south, to Haicheng, to that small rental house.

I want to sit in the classroom and attend classes, I want to work part-time in a bookstore, and I want to drink milk tea in a coffee shop.

I want to go to the beach to meet my mother.

I want to meet that Si Lang who has always been good to him.

I want to be able to see him when I open my eyes when the nap rings.

The humid fog that only belongs to February shrouded Haicheng. Liu Yao did not take the bus, but walked along the streets and alleys, crossed the bridge hole, and redefined this city just like when she and her mother first came here. City.

haven't seen you for a long time.

After 10 minutes, he realized that his sentence "Long time no see" seemed to be too early.

When he stood in front of the rental house, he suddenly became messy.

What about the building?The building is gone?

During the five months since he left, a lot of changes have indeed taken place. For example, in order to rectify the appearance of the city, this single building standing in a shantytown was demolished, and the surrounding shantytowns disappeared.Now it is a small square, surrounded by corridors covered by tree shade sheds, with stone benches and several fitness equipment in the middle of the square.

Another example is that Grandpa Xu's income was good in the first half of the year, so he expanded the store.

Another example is that now that he has the strength of Uncle Sheng Yuan, Liu Zhengze's case has a chance to be overturned.

Another example... Sitting on the high-speed train to Haicheng, I saw the news that Si Lang's parents were detained from the newspaper in the hand of the uncle next to me.

A lot of surprises, some of which caught people off guard.

I don't know if Si Lang is doing well now.

Thinking back to the three of them singing happy birthday together around the cake, thinking back to Si Lang being drunk but very happy that day, saying that this was the first time he didn't celebrate his birthday alone.Like a cane, pulling Liu Yao's heart one by one.

He walked slowly along the road and came to the door of Grandpa Xu's bookstore.After looking at the new facade, he opened the door and went in.

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