After being confessed by the paranoid school grass

not in an instant

Reborn

life is time and time again

Tentative

———Xi Murong

It's like the feeling of your favorite toy being held in someone else's arms.

Can't laugh.

The clothes that were drenched on the back were blown by the wind, and they were cold and glued to the body.It's so uncomfortable, Si Lang thought to himself.He lowered his head and didn't know what he was looking at, just sat and lost in thought.

He is very anxious now, he can't explain why but he is anxious.

It's like waiting for a bus that can't come, it's annoying to walk or take a taxi after waiting for so long; it's like cooking instant noodles, one bag is not enough and two bags are too much.

Just like the relationship between the two at this moment, neither advance nor retreat.

Am I really in love with him?Si Lang questioned himself.

Silang doesn't want to define liking at first sight as love. Falling in love at first sight is superficial in appearance. All love at first sight is just a physiological impulse for appearance.Silang is loyal to his heart, and at the same time respects everyone he meets on this journey of life.

Silang knew from the very beginning that if he embarked on this path, he was doomed to experience more difficulties than others.Si Lang was born in a very open family. When Si Lang was a sixth-grade pupil, he noticed that he preferred to play with boys but had little interest in girls.

It's like some people have long hair and some have short hair. It's like October has 31 days, and roses represent love.

I just prefer gays.

There are causes and consequences for everything that happens, and I just feel that after abandoning these causes and consequences, I can still walk towards you.

Si Lang recalled the scene just now in his mind, examining his heart repeatedly.In just a few minutes, Si Lang had tortured himself thousands of times.

Not a sentence: Do I love him?Such a simple question.But if I choose love, can I still peacefully accept the liking in my heart when he chooses the opposite sexual orientation and calmly let him pursue his own happiness?

Si Lang could clearly feel that his state of mind was changing with Liu Yao.

The first time this girl asked Si Lang to bring canned oranges to Liu Yao, she just thought it was very interesting. Later, a girl asked him to hand over the love letters, but he didn't give those love letters to Liu Yao, and just threw the things away on his own initiative. up.And just now, the girl brought a bottle of drink, and I felt so uncomfortable immediately, I wished I could pierce his chest to see what was going on in his heart.

Love or not love is not the crux of the problem.The crux of the problem is: if you can't get it, what kind of mood should you cherish to remember this emotion.

Liu Yao knew that the bottle of drink was for him, but he didn't touch it.Looking at the figure of the girl running away in a panic, he spat out the word "childish" contemptuously.

He looked across at Si Lang, who was stunned with his hair down, and expressed some surprise that "Si Lang didn't come over with a drink and laugh at him with a smiley face".

"Assemble! Keep practicing!"

In the practice of the second half of the class, because the students in the class have reached the high standard in Ran Gaoming's mind, they were sent back to the classroom early.

Until the end of school at 05:30, there was silence in the classroom.Liu Yao went to self-study normally, but Si Lang next to him was not in the state of a monkey like before. He neither reached out to touch Liu Yao's dull hair, nor tilted his head to stare at Liu Yao, just doing it quietly over there. An English reading.

It's just that Si Lang stared at him for three and a half hours on this English reading.

"Ding! Ding! Ding!" The school bell rang.

Liu Yao stood up and prepared to pack her schoolbag.

"Are you going home?" Si Lang, who had been silent all afternoon, finally spoke.

"I'm... not going home."

"Then where are you going?"

"I want to find a place that can recruit hourly workers to work."

Liu Yao has no source of income now, and it is definitely not enough to just rely on the 3 yuan in his bank card. Now he has to squeeze out his study time to earn money to subsidize his family.

"Oh...then you should be careful."

After Si Lang finished speaking, he lowered his head and stared at the English article.

"It's obviously abnormal." Liu Yao looked at Si Lang and thought.

Liu Yao walked out of the classroom with her schoolbag on her back.

Watching Liu Yao's figure disappear in the corner of his eye, the tight strings on Si Lang's body suddenly loosened, and he lay down on the table and buried his face in his arms.

Liu Yao first stood at the school gate for a while, thinking about where there is a place nearby that can recruit hourly workers.After hesitating for a while, the phone vibrated suddenly. He took out the phone and saw that it was a WeChat message from "Universal Invincible Handsome Deskmate". There were more than a dozen messages.

"Lingyuan Street Bookstore has been recruiting hourly workers for a long time. For details, please contact: XXXXXXXXXXXX"

"The men's clothing flagship store on Northeast Road is recruiting part-time workers. We will meet and discuss in detail. Welcome to the store for consultation."

"........."

All the information is followed by a thoughtful positioning.

Liu Yao turned over one by one, and the corners of his mouth unconsciously turned up for a long time.Open the input box and type two words: "Thank you."

Si Lang stared at these two words for a long time before turning off the screen of his phone.

Liu Yao looked at the information, and finally chose the first one, opened the location, and found that it was very close to the cafe he visited last Saturday, and followed the navigation to go there.

This bookstore is diagonally opposite the cafe, and Liu Yao quickly found the place.Pushing the door open, there is no one in the room, and the yellow decorative lights create a warm and mysterious feeling.There is a faint smell of ink and sandalwood in the air.

The owner of this bookstore is a grandfather in his 70s, wearing a Tang suit, sitting behind the cash register with a pair of reading glasses, holding a book "[-] Ways of Beef" fascinated by it, his gray hair combed meticulously .

Liu Yao first looked around in the bookstore one by one.This bookstore is not particularly large, and the books in its collection are basically domestic and foreign classics.

The bookshelf is made of hand-planed wooden boards, simple and elegant, exuding a faint woody fragrance.A few small futons are randomly placed beside the bookshelves for readers to rest and read.There are intriguing small works of art everywhere in the bookstore, which shows that the owner is very attentive and meticulous.

Liu Yao walked to the front of the cashier and politely asked about some recruitment matters.Seeing that the student in front of him looked clean and behaved politely, the old man planned to sign a contract with Liu Yao.

"There are fewer and fewer good children like you who go to school and want to earn money to share with their parents." The old man patted Liu Yao on the shoulder kindly.

"My surname is Xu, you can call me Old Xu, you can call me Grandpa Xu, you can call me whatever you like. Our bookstore usually doesn't have a lot of customers, and it mainly sells exam materials to various schools." The old man said. Introduced to Liu Yao the usual business model of the bookstore.

"Come here from 08:30 to [-]:[-] from Monday to Friday, sort out the books on the bookshelf, and help me sort out the goods when there is stock. If there is no stock, you do your homework here, and entertain guests when you have guests."

The two of them had a similar discussion, so Liu Yao signed the contract with his name and handed it to Grandpa Xu.

"Oh! Young man, your handwriting is so beautiful! You wrote it in thin gold, right?"

Liu Yao smiled and nodded.

"When you are free, you can teach me how to practice calligraphy. Good handwriting is really enticing!"

"Okay, anytime."

"Start working today. Someone should come to buy the goods in a while. Follow me and watch what I do."

Liu Yao's job is simpler than imagined, it is nothing more than checking whether the list and the actual number match.At 08:30, the old man locked the door and bid farewell to Liu Yao at the door.

"I found a job in the bookstore you told me about. The owner is nice and the work is not tiring."

Liu Yao didn't know why he sent these words to Si Lang.

I want to tell the people close to me about my small progress in life... Maybe so, Liu Yao thought to himself.

At this moment, Si Lang had just finished his evening self-study at school, and when he received such unprecedented information from Liu Yao, his heartbeat became faster.

"Kids, come on! You are the most handsome!"

"Not as handsome as you."

Looking at Liu Yao's reply, Si Lang had a silly meal in the classroom holding his phone.

Liu Yao watched Grandpa Xu go away, adjusted the schoolbag strap on his shoulder, and ran home.

There will be a sports meeting in two days, so I have to run ahead to get used to it.When Su Xiaoqing and Su Xiaoqing first came here, Si Lang would get up and run along the beach every morning. His stamina was no problem, but now the main thing is to improve his speed.

Liu Yao returned home and took a shower, then stood on the balcony to enjoy the cool breeze while she was wet.

"Hey! Don't stand on the balcony just after taking a shower! Aren't you just waiting to catch a cold!" Yu Bin hurriedly dragged Liu Yao back from the balcony, "Where did you go at night?"

"I found a job." Liu Yao told Yu Bin exactly how he found a job in the afternoon.

"Great! After the salary is paid, can you treat me to dinner?"

"Does your mind focus on eating besides studying?" Liu Yao pinched Yu Bin's waist.

"Did you tell Si Lang the news?"

"How do you know?" Liu Yao was a little surprised.

"When I saw him in the classroom holding his mobile phone and having fun, I knew it must be because of you."

"..." Liu Yao could still imagine the scene at that time in his mind: a handsome guy sitting in the corner of the classroom holding his mobile phone and smiling like an artificial retarded person.

"Actually, I'm quite envious of your relationship with Si Lang." Yu Bin sat on the bed and wiped his glasses. You can’t meet each other often, but you can know what the other person is doing. After school, you can send text messages to each other saying that I’m so tired today. You can send a message saying that I’m going to start reviewing when I’m about to start studying in the evening. If you’re tired, take a break Play for a while, lie in bed at night and call him to talk about what happened today, the last person you think about before going to bed every day is him, even if the other party has something to do and can't accompany you."

"So Xueba still has such an idea?" Liu Yao looked at Yu Bin in surprise, and dried his hair with a towel.

"Xueba is also human, Xueba also needs comfort when he is vulnerable." Yu Bin said with a sigh.

Ever since Liu Yao came to Haicheng, she never thought that she could be envied by others.But Yu Bin was right, Si Lang had indeed been playing the role Yu Bin longed for.

At this time, Si Lang was lying on the bed, the dark night had quieted his troubled thoughts, a person's face just rushed into his mind without any hindrance,

"Have you decided yet?"

[The author has something to say]: Today's second update is over!See you tomorrow morning!Looking forward to the activity of the little cuties~