little stutter

It's just after evening self-study, and it's not yet time to turn off the lights. The entire dormitory area is in a state of buzzing with people.On the pitch-black top floor, the night wind howled, Cheng Xin and Chen Xin embraced and kissed amidst the noise.This time, Chen Xin didn't lose his mind, he felt the kiss completely and clearly from the beginning to the end.Because Cheng Xin kissed very tenderly and lingeringly this time, neither rushing to conquer the city, nor letting it go like a superficial touch, but gently tracing and tasting slowly.

To Cheng Xin's delight, Chen Xin no longer accepted the kiss completely passively this time. During the kissing process, he also tried to respond. Although the movements were a bit clumsy and the skills were not at all, the important thing is the heart.When Cheng Xin was excited, the movements of his mouth became a little more serious. Chen Xin felt a little painful, and his teeth accidentally hit Cheng Xin's tongue. Cheng Xin snorted and quickly backed out.Chen Xin stammered, "Yes, yes, I'm sorry." He felt ashamed to death.

Cheng Xin was not angry, but smiled and said: "It seems that our skills have not passed the test, and we have to practice harder." After speaking, he lightly pecked Chen Xin's lips, "Okay, today's practice is over It's over, come back another day."

Chen Xin was dumbfounded by Cheng Xin's words, but somehow he felt his heart was full of sweetness, so sweet that he couldn't find the north.So much so that this night's dream was full of kissing scenes with Cheng Xin, both fierce and tender. When he woke up in the morning, he found that his body was still in a state of excitement. After washing his face with cold water, his excitement It hasn't completely disappeared yet.Chen Xin felt that he was too depraved. He repeatedly took a few deep breaths of cold air, reminding himself to separate study from love, and not to delay study because of love.

When I went to practice with Cheng Xin again at noon, I finally met Xie Shijie. The basketball team was obviously a little excited about Cheng Xin's return. Everyone had a close interaction with him. A bear hug is no different from the interaction between Xie Shijie and Cheng Xin. Chen Xin looked at them and thought in her heart, maybe she was thinking too much, their temperaments are just like this.

Cheng Xin played against them.Chen Xin couldn't participate, so she watched their match from the sidelines.Xie Shijie and Cheng Xin led a team each, and the two sides fought fiercely, and Chen Xin was also very involved, completely forgetting the reason why he came here.

Before the game was over, Chen Xin felt a little anxious, so she ran to the toilet, came out after using the toilet, and ran into Zhang Yihui who hadn't seen him for a while at the edge of the playground.The sun was very good, and many people took off their thick coats and put on lighter clothes, but Zhang Yihui was still wearing a thick padded jacket and was walking slowly along the playground.Chen Xin approached, and found that Zhang Yihui's face was too pale, with lazy brows and eyes, as if recovering from a serious illness, so he hurriedly said hello: "Okay, long time no see!"

Zhang Yihui looked up and saw him, showing a shallow smile, which always made people feel a little weak: "I haven't seen you for a long time, how are you?"

Chen Xin nodded: "Not bad. How about you?"

Zhang Yihui didn't hide it either: "I'm not too well, I just got out of the hospital."

Chen Xin was taken aback: "Ah? Is it important?" Could it be that Zhang Yihui, like himself, also got swine flu?

Zhang Yihui smiled: "It's okay, it's just that a tumor was found in the body, and it was surgically removed."

Chen Xin was so frightened that his whole body trembled. At that moment, his mind was blank: "Huh?" He was very familiar with the word tumor. His father died of tumor. The full name is "small cell malignant tumor". Zhang Yihui also got cancer? !

Seeing his pale face, Zhang Yihui couldn't help laughing, and said, "It's benign, it doesn't matter." To be honest, from the moment the tumor was discovered, Zhang Yihui himself was scared to death. He was only 17 years old and was about to hug him. In life, I was not prepared to die at all, but after learning that it was benign, I felt like I was alive again.

"That, that's good. You, what are you doing?" Chen Xin's high-hanging heart immediately let go, benign is fine, even if it is malignant, but Zhang Yihui must have been frightened.

Zhang Yihui raised his head, closed his eyes and enjoyed the warmth of the sun, and said, "It's a bit cold to sit in the classroom, the weather is good, come out to bask in the sun. Why are you here?"

Chen Xin said: "I, I was just playing." To be precise, I was watching the game.

Zhang Yihui nodded: "That's pretty good. After I fully recover, I will also exercise, at least to ensure my health."

Hearing what he said, Chen Xin felt that she should also pay more attention to physical exercise, instead of fishing for three days and drying the net for two days.He walked with Zhang Yihui and chatted a lot about each other's current situation.

After Cheng Xin finished playing, he found that Chen Xin hadn't come back yet, so he came out to look for him, saw him walking and chatting with Zhang Yihui, and walked over with a straight face: "Chen Xin."

Chen Xin turned around and saw Cheng Xin with a coat on his shoulders: "It's over, how about it?"

Cheng Xin glanced at Zhang Yihui with some displeasure, and said, "I won. I'm going back, class is about to start."

Chen Xin glanced at the electronic watch in her hand, and it was indeed that class was about to start, so she said to Zhang Yihui, "Go back, class is on, class is on."

Zhang Yihui nodded: "OK."

Seeing that he still called Zhang Yihui, Cheng Xin felt very upset, but he didn't get angry on the spot, but walked ahead silently by himself, and gave Chen Xin a back view.Zhang Yihui was relatively weak and walked slowly. Chen Xin knew that he was just recovering from a serious illness, and it was not easy to leave him, so she walked slowly with him.

Cheng Xin looked back at him twice, Chen Xin didn't leave Zhang Yihui behind to follow him, his nose was almost crooked, but it was hard to say anything, until they reached the teaching building, they went up the stairs from different corridors, this time just separated.

Cheng Xin said dissatisfiedly: "What are you talking about with him? It's hard to leave."

Chen Xin was taken aback, and Cheng Xin seemed a little unhappy: "He is not in good health. I will chat with him."

Now it was Cheng Xin who was in a daze: "Why is your health bad?"

"I just had an operation." Chen Xin didn't want to explain too much, what he thought was, why was Cheng Xin unhappy when he was talking to Zhang Yihui?

Cheng Xin glanced at Chen Xin, said "oh", and said nothing.

When eating in the evening, Chen Xin packed the dishes and went to wait for Cheng Xin. He noticed that Zhang Yihui was also queuing behind the line with a plate. He cooks.When Cheng Xin heard that it belonged to Zhang Yihui, his expression turned a little ugly, but he didn't refuse.Zhang Yihui naturally ate with them after finishing the meal. During the meal, Cheng Xin's complexion was not very good. Chen Xin was more careful. He noticed that the reason for Cheng Xin's depression might be related to Zhang Yihui.

After eating, they ran into Xie Shijie at the entrance of the cafeteria, and Cheng Xin greeted him warmly.Chen Xin suddenly realized, would Cheng Xin see his relationship with Zhang Yihui the same way he saw Xie Shijie?In fact, they are just ordinary friends, there is no need to be so concerned at all, and after thinking about it like this, I am relieved immediately.

But Cheng Xin didn't let go of it. After separating from Zhang Yihui, Cheng Xin held Chen Xin and said seriously: "Let's have less contact with Zhang Yihui in the future."

Chen Xin looked at him with wide eyes in surprise: "Why, what?"

Cheng Xin said: "He is not in the same class as us. He needs help. It should be his classmates who can help. We can't use it."

Chen Xin said: "I, also didn't specifically, specifically go to help him, just, just met, to help, to help him."

Cheng Xin thought about his words, and said, "I mean, you don't have any unreasonable thoughts about him, but you can't stop him from thinking about you."

Chen Xin scratched his head when he heard it, and felt that what Cheng Xin said was a bit exaggerated. There are no boys in the world who are gay, but this possibility cannot be completely ruled out. In order to reassure Cheng Xin, he nodded: " From now on, I, I will talk to him less."

Cheng Xin was satisfied now.

Chen Xin hesitated for a moment, and said, "Well, then, what about you and Xie Shijie?" This question has been in his mind for a long time, and he didn't want to bring it up at first. Since Cheng Xin doubted Zhang Yihui, he also had reason to doubt Xie Shijie.

When Cheng Xin heard Chen Xin's words, his eyes widened, and then he burst out laughing, "Did I hear you right? You mean Brother Jie? Hahahaha!" He laughed so hard that he couldn't even straighten his waist.

Chen Xin silently turned his head away, his face slowly burning up, and he would be laughed at if he found out, he said angrily, "Laugh, what are you laughing at!" He didn't mean that, what about Xie Shijie?

Cheng Xin managed to stop laughing: "No, I just think you are so cute, and I suspect that I have an affair with that guy! Brother Jie is taller and stronger than me, and I can't bear his big and thick appearance. Hahaha! But you used to be jealous, so I was so touched." After speaking, he raised his hand and rubbed Chen Xin's head vigorously, no wonder he was in a bad mood two days ago, it seems to be because of Xie Shijie.

Chen Xin slapped his paw away in embarrassment, she is a normal person, how can she be emotional, isn't it normal to be jealous?

Cheng Xin said seriously: "Chen Xin, you're doing really well today."

Chen Xin looked up at him in confusion: "Huh?"

Cheng Xin looked at him with burning eyes: "Just say what you think, don't keep it in your heart, otherwise how can I guess why you are unhappy."

Chen Xin turned her head away embarrassingly, and said whatever she thought, how could she open her mouth.But it is really necessary to speak clearly, at least there will be no lumps in my heart.

Communication is the cornerstone of building an emotional edifice. After Chen Xin's knot was untied, the two got along more harmoniously.Cheng Xin also tried his best to keep a proper distance from other people, so as not to cause Chen Xin to misunderstand, after all, he is also a man with a family now.Chen Xin also tried not to take the initiative to contact Zhang Yihui.

This was a month of turmoil, and it was also the month that Chen Xin was most impressed with, because he reaped the first sweet love in his life.Sometimes when Chen Xin calms down, she thinks about the characteristics and differences between family, friendship and love: family is based on blood relationship, it is a feeling without any impurity, it cannot be changed in a lifetime, so it is the most precious; friendship It is the most widely available, but also the most unstable, easily blocked by external forces; only love is the most incredible, two people who have nothing to do with each other will have a feeling that cannot be replaced by family affection, it does not mix Miscellaneous utilitarianism, just purely liking each other, simply wanting to dedicate everything to the other party, this kind of pure feeling is extremely rare, and therefore the most beautiful, especially when both parties are in love with each other, it is especially rare, so it should be cherished doubly just work.

As the holiday approached, Cheng Xin seemed a little irritable.Chen Xin thought that he had pre-exam syndrome, so she comforted him to treat him normally.Cheng Xin hesitated for a long time, and finally said: "Can you not go back during the holiday? Go to my house."

Chen Xin looked at him and shook her head: "No, I want to sweep my father's grave."

It was only then that Cheng Xin remembered that this time it was the Ching Ming holiday: "Then I'll go back and play with you."

Chen Xin said, "Didn't you want to practice?" Cheng Xin has not had much time to play recently. He said that his skills are rusty, and he wants to practice hard during the holidays, so he has made appointments with the basketball team.

"Stop practicing, let's go to your house to play." Cheng Xin felt uneasy. He was worried that after Chen Xin went back, seeing his grandparents, thinking of the responsibilities on his shoulders, he would break up with him when he came back.

Chen Xin said: "If you want to go, just go." Anyway, he thinks that Cheng Xin's game is very hard, so it doesn't matter if he doesn't practice.

Chen Xin readily agreed, but Cheng Xin hesitated again. He looked at Chen Xin: "You won't change, right?"

Chen Xin blinked her eyes, puzzled: "Change, change what?"

Cheng Xin scratched the side of his face in embarrassment, and laughed twice.Chen Xin reacted and blushed: "No." It can only be said that Cheng Xin doesn't know Chen Xin well enough. Chen Xin is a person who is soft on the outside and strong on the inside. He never makes up his mind or promises easily. The decision will be carried out to the end.

Hearing the simple "no", Cheng Xin felt as if he had taken a reassurance, and said, "Then I can rest assured. Forget it, you can go back by yourself. I'm going to practice and come to play with you when I have time."

Chen Xin was actually a little disappointed. He really wanted Cheng Xin to go back with him and not to practice the bad ball, but Cheng Xin was also stubborn. He had to take the special basketball route, so he could only silently support it.

After the exam, Cheng Xin said easily: "I think I did well in the exam this time, remember the promise you made to me."

Chen Xin couldn't help but blush when she thought of the one-point-one-kiss agreement, but if he could really improve, it would be worth it.

After returning home, Chen Xin found that her mother was back, and the owner of the shop came back with her. They planned to get married in the first half of this year, so they came back to recognize Chen Xin and his brothers.Chen Xin looked at the man with a short stature, who couldn't compare to his father in any way, and felt a little bit disappointed, but there was nothing he could do. No matter how good his father was, he would be separated forever.At least on the surface, this man is not bad, and he is very generous. He bought computers and mobile phones for Chen Xin brothers, saying that he treats them as his own sons, and Chen Xin brothers will have whatever his son has.Chen Xin didn't take this seriously, as long as he and his brother could continue to go to school, the burden of three children was too heavy, not to mention that their mother was not too old, and they were very likely to have another child.

Chen Xi was more able to accept the facts than he was, so he had long shouted at him.His mother wanted to take him to Guangdong to go to school, but his grandparents refused to let him. They were afraid that their grandson would take a foreigner's surname and become a member of another family. After all, they had worked so hard to drag Chen Xi away for almost ten years.Chen Xin also doesn't really want her younger brother to go to school in Guangdong. His grandparents are old, and he and his younger brother are their spiritual pillars. He will graduate soon. When he goes to other places to go to university, if his younger brother goes to Guangdong, the two old people will He also lost his spiritual support, and he couldn't rest assured.

But in the end, it was Chen Xi himself who simply refused. His mother was more symbolic than practical to him. He didn't get along with his mother very much, and the relationship was not so close, so he didn't want to leave his grandparents and follow him to Guangdong.This topic was only mentioned for a while, and my mother didn't insist on it. It was probably just a verbal statement, and finally nothing happened.

Because of her mother's return, Chen Xin didn't have the time to think about whether she and Cheng Xin could live with her family.It wasn't until the morning of Qingming that Chen Xin received a call that Cheng Xin wanted to come, and he didn't think of this, and he couldn't laugh or cry in his heart: It's really coming!