little stutter

At the end of the year, the whole world is busy.Students are busy with final exams, office workers are busy with year-end inventory, and businesses are busy with year-end promotions.Naturally, Chen Xin and the others were not exempt. The New Year's Day performance, the monthly exam, and the final exam that followed were not easy tasks.

The school caters to the students' preferences and arranges the art performance on Christmas Day. After the performance, the monthly exam will be held immediately, and the holiday will be off after the exam. This arrangement is very popular, and even the monthly exam, which has always been ugly, has become gentle and amiable. .

Christmas Eve coincides with Sunday, and there are big red apples and bright red roses everywhere in the school, and there are people who are full of energy and love.Cao Ji gnawed at the apple in his hand as if venting his anger: "I think those people are sick. A good Christmas is like Valentine's Day. What kind of peace fruit do you want to give? Damn, isn't this just an apple? Damn, One is still selling for 20 yuan, what a fucking cheat!"

Xu Junshang patted his shoulder sympathetically: "Xiong Er, don't be discouraged, the apples were not sent out this year, let's make persistent efforts next year."

Xu Junshang's words made everyone turn their heads and giggle. Cao Ji chased Liu Nian for almost a year, but the girls still refused to accept him. The apples he bought were eaten by themselves in the end. Do you feel distressed? , The money for one apple can usually buy two or three catties.

At this time, they were preparing for the last rehearsal before the performance in the club activity room. Before the rehearsal started, Cao Ji's emotions rose, and he gnawed on the apple that had just been rejected as if venting his anger.It was the first time for Chen Xin to feel such a strong Christmas atmosphere. He wanted to buy some fruits in the afternoon, but found that the apples that usually sell by the catty were sold by the catty today, and one was more expensive than a catty. He had no choice but to give up the idea of ​​buying apples. Bought some local citrus.

The door of the office was kicked with a muffled voice. Cheng Xin, who was closest to the door, opened the door and saw Xie Shijie coming in holding a big cardboard box: "Everyone is here, come, everyone who sees has a share, eat some Apple, I wish you all a safe and sound year ahead." He was the first to deliver the box to Cheng Xin.

Cheng Xin looked at it and couldn't help laughing: "Where did you get so many apples?" He reached out and took one out, which was still wrapped in a white foam net bag.

Xie Shijie said with a smile: "The wholesale in advance is waiting for the day to come in handy. Otherwise, according to today's price, I will not go bankrupt? Everyone come and get it." He put the carton on the desk, He turned his face and went to talk to Cheng Xin.

Everyone went to get apples and praised Xie Shijie for his thoughtfulness.Chen Xin didn't move, he looked at Xie Shijie and Cheng Xin, they didn't know what they were talking about, they were all smiling, Chen Xin obviously didn't eat the apple, but he felt his mouth was sour, and his heart was also sour, Quickly turned away and stopped looking.

Cheng Xin turned around and saw Chen Xin standing alone looking at the notebook in his hand, so he took an apple in his hand and walked towards him: "Hey, why don't you take an apple? I picked a big one for you. "He said and handed the apple to Chen Xin.

Chen Xin looked up at him, but didn't pick up the apple: "I, I don't like to eat." In fact, he is not picky eater, his family situation does not allow him to choose food, usually eat whatever is available, and say he doesn't like it, It's just that I don't like eating what Xie Shijie bought.

Cheng Xin said with a smile: "It's just for the occasion. I don't like apples either. I always find them tasteless."

Xie Shijie suddenly poked his head into the middle of the two from behind: "Brother Xin, my heart is broken when you say that. I worked so hard to bring you apples to eat, but you said they were not delicious! You are sorry for me Is this the heart?"

Cheng Xin raised his hand and hit him on the head with the apple in his hand: "Why are you haunting like a ghost, don't be so nasty here. Go away, we are going to rehearse."

Chen Xin's emotions were about to collapse at this moment. He only felt a strange emotion sweeping through his mind like a tsunami. It was so strong that he almost ran out of the door. Concealing his familiarity and intimacy, he suddenly took a few steps back, turned his back to Cheng Xin, his eyes couldn't help but feel a little sore.At this moment, he regretted so much that he wanted to hit the wall. Why did he encourage him to play basketball? If he didn't play basketball, wouldn't he have no interaction with Xie Shijie?

Xu Jun gave a high-five and said, "Okay, everyone is here, and we will rehearse for the last time. The rehearsal will be tomorrow afternoon, and the official performance will be in the evening. Chen Xin, what are you doing? Hurry up."

Chen Xin knew that he was not in the right mood at the moment and had no intention of rehearsing at all, but he couldn't delay everyone's affairs, so he stayed.During the rehearsal process, Chen Xin was full of loopholes, and his lines were messed up, not to mention acting with emotion.Cheng Xin rushed to the rescue and reminded him of his lines. As soon as Chen Xin saw Cheng Xin, he became more impetuous and spoke even worse.It's a vicious circle, and the acting gets worse and worse.

This is the first time Xu Junshang saw Chen Xin like this. Chen Xin has a superhuman memory. Although he can't read his lines fluently, he never made a mistake. His performance today is even worse than when he rehearsed for the first time. , which meant that something was wrong with Chen Xin at the moment, but he didn't say it clearly, but guided him very patiently, and finally passed his part.

The people behind continued to perform. Cheng Xin, who was standing next to Chen Xin, looked at him and asked in a low voice, "What's wrong with you? Is there something wrong?"

Chen Xin pursed her lips tightly and did not speak. Firstly, he was not a person who liked to express his feelings. Secondly, he was afraid that if he opened his mouth, he would lose control of his emotions. Because he was so embarrassed that he wanted to cry, so he chose to remain silent. No matter how much Cheng Xin tried to persuade him, he would not open his mouth.Cheng Xin hadn't seen Chen Xin like this for a long time. He felt as if he had seen him again when he first met him. He was taciturn and silent, and no one knew what he was thinking. This kind of Chen Xin made him inexplicable. Some uneasy.

After the rehearsal was over, everyone clamored for supper again.Cheng Xin put his arm around Chen Xin's shoulder: "What's wrong with you today? I think you're a little out of shape. Are you uncomfortable?"

Chen Xin pushed the hand that was on his shoulder, and two words came out between his teeth: "It's okay." He didn't want to have supper, so he walked towards the dormitory alone.

Cheng Xin chased after him: "Say what you have to say, you are so silent, who knows what you think?" Ever since the incident about the same-sex couple in the third year of high school, Chen Xin has kept a distance from him, unlike before. The intimacy has grown, and the communication has naturally declined. The two of them no longer talk freely like before, and they lost the tacit understanding in the past, and couldn't figure out what the other person was thinking. So now when he saw Chen Xin, who was a little beyond his understanding, he was a little impatient. , The tone of the speech is also a bit heavy.Cheng Xin felt that if you have something to say, you should say it. If you don't say it, who knows what you think.

How could Chen Xin tell Cheng Xin what he was thinking in his heart? He wished that he had never had such a thought, but he couldn't control his thoughts, so he could only try his best to suppress his thoughts and kept his head down in silence. Cheng Xin's questioning.

Cheng Xin stretched out his hand and grabbed Chen Xin's arm: "What's wrong with you? You're talking, don't act like this, okay?"

Chen Xin lowered her head and still didn't say a word, nor did she look at Cheng Xin.

Xie Shijie called from behind: "Brother Xin, are you still going to have supper?"

Seeing that Chen Xin was in such a low mood and no longer in the mood to eat supper, Cheng Xin was about to say no more, when Xu Junshang came over: "Brother Xin, Chen Xin seems a little unhappy, how about I talk to him?"

Cheng Xin nodded: "Okay."

"Then go and have supper." Xu Junshang said, "Just bring us some."

Cheng Xin remembered that he still had something to do, so he let go of Chen Xin's arm, looked at him worriedly, then at Junshang, and nodded.

Chen Xin was free, turned around and left.Xu Junshang caught up with Chen Xin: "Chen Xin, wait for me."

Chen Xin didn't stop, but walked quickly with her head buried. The night wind was very cold, and the cold air hit people, making people feel chilly, but this coldness also just cooled Chen Xin's restlessness.After walking a certain distance, my emotions gradually calmed down, and then I slowed down.Xu Junshang followed him without saying a word, and when he slowed down, he said, "What's wrong with you, Chen Xin?"

"No, nothing, just, just tired." Chen Xin shook his head slowly, he could say this kind of thing, he hated Cheng Xin and Xie Shijie getting so close, if he said it, what would Xu Junshang think he?You might think he's narrow-minded and selfish.This has gone beyond the boundaries of ordinary friends, his feelings for Cheng Xin are no longer so pure, this kind of thing can't be said anyway, so he can only let it rot in his stomach.

Xu Junshang knew that he wasn't telling the truth, but he didn't want to ask more questions, and said: "If it's because the performance is too stressful, then you can relax a little, it's okay, just play as you like."

When Chen Xin thought about performing tomorrow, she suddenly felt dizzy. It was too late to quit at this time: "I, I will try my best."

Xu Junshang patted him on the shoulder: "That's right, it's all for self-entertainment anyway, don't take it too seriously."

After a while, Xu Junshang said again: "I've been very upset recently. There are performances and monthly exams, and the final exam will be coming soon. You can't relax at all. You have to learn to regulate yourself."

"Yeah." Chen Xin nodded gratefully. He knew that Junshang was very kind, but he still couldn't confide his troubles to him. Even if Junshang would keep it a secret for him, it would be hard to say such a thing.He knew what Jun Shang said was right, he had to learn to regulate himself, and he couldn't bring his emotions to other things, especially acting and studying.

Xu Junshang said: "If you are bored or in a bad mood, you can tell us. It's always good to let it out, and maybe we can give you some advice. Don't try to get into a dead end."

"Well, thank you!" Chen Xin thanked again.

After returning, he didn't wait for Cheng Xin's supper, and went to bed directly after washing up.

When Cheng Xin came back, he saw that Chen Xin had fallen asleep like a cocoon, so he ran to Xu Junshang's dormitory to ask about the situation. Xu Junshang shook his head: "He won't say why."

Cheng Xin sighed: "I don't know what's going on with this guy, why it suddenly became cloudy and uncertain, it's really unpredictable."

Xu Junshang didn't say a word. Everyone has different personalities. Some people have something on their minds and they wish the whole world would know about it. For example, Cao Ji. Accompany him, enlighten him more, maybe it will be fine."

Cheng Xin had no choice but to nod. He was also puzzled by Monk Zhang Er and had no idea why Chen Xin was suddenly unhappy.

The next morning, Chen Xin saw a letter in his desk, a light orange envelope without any pattern, with "Chen Xinqi" written in block letters on it.Chen Xin hasn't accepted love letters for a long time, and it's not that no one has written to him, but he rejected them all. Now that he saw this letter, he suddenly remembered the love poem he received on April Fool's Day. This method is exactly the same as the last one. Could it be written by the same person?Chen Xin glanced at Cheng Xin quietly, and found that he hadn't noticed her, so she quietly pushed the envelope back and covered it with a book.

Chen Xin didn't sleep well last night, Cheng Xin came in and went out, he knew when he fell asleep.He thought about it for a long time and a lot in bed, and analyzed each one in his heart. Cheng Xin was very kind to him and helped him a lot. The two get along day and night, and their relationship is closer than ordinary people. It's not normal to be nice to yourself, it's a manifestation of selfishness, it's not right.In the future, he must calmly handle his relationship with Cheng Xin. He cannot rely on Cheng Xin for everything, and his life cannot always revolve around Cheng Xin alone. He still has too many things to do. The first thing to do is to try to maintain Distance, less circle around Cheng Xin.After thinking about all this, he felt relieved and fell asleep in a daze.

However, when I woke up in the morning, I found it was not easy to keep a distance. For example, Cheng Xin was asking himself English questions early in the morning, and he couldn't ignore him.He thought that it wouldn't work to change the seat with Cheng Xin after the monthly exam that he had planned last night. After he changed, what would happen to Cheng Xin's study?Who will give him a lecture?When eating after class, the two worked together to make meals.Chen Xin thought, what would Cheng Xin think if he said that the two of them should not eat together in the future?Do you dislike him?What would everyone think, I had a fight with Cheng Xin?In any case, he didn't want to embarrass Cheng Xin.