SAYE

After walking around the old dormitory area twice, neither of them spoke again.

Jiang Cheng didn't know what was going on in Gu Fei's mind, and what kind of feeling he was feeling. He himself felt that there were countless things he wanted to say, but when he was about to speak, he couldn't say anything, not even a word that came to his lips.

What the two of them have experienced in this month is unknown to each other, but judging from their expressions and state, Jiang Cheng can tell that Gu Fei is not doing well.

"Go in and sit for a while," Gu Fei finally pointed to a small cake shop by the side of the road and said, "The wind is too strong."

Um.Jiang Cheng responded.

But no sound.

Fuck me!He quickly cleared his throat and hummed again.

This time there is sound.

Is this still a stress response?Jiang Cheng was really helpless, or was it a sequelae of stress?Just like that, he wanted to laugh when he heard it.

There was no one in the cake shop, so Gu Fei bought two cups of hot milk tea and two pieces of cake, and put them on the small table by the window.

Jiang Cheng sat down, and just as he stretched out his hand to bring the milk tea in front of him, Gu Fei took the milk tea away from him again: "I forgot to get angry, so let's not drink the milk tea, I'll go get another..."

"No need," Jiang Cheng grabbed the sleeve of his coat and tugged, "It's not that serious, don't bother."

Gu Fei hesitated and sat down.

The two faced each other with straws in their mouths in a daze.

"Have you bought a new lens?" Jiang Cheng asked.

"En." Gu Fei nodded.

"Originally," Jiang Cheng bit his straw, trying to slow down his speech so that his voice would not be so hoarse, "I wanted to call you first, but I didn't know if I could get through, so..."

"I changed back to my old phone," Gu Fei said softly, "I went to Pan Zhi and wanted to ask him where you went on vacation, he..."

"Have you been deleted?" Jiang Cheng smiled.

"Yeah," Gu Fei took a sip of the milk tea and pushed the cake in front of him, "This...it's delicious, I tasted it when I bought it for Er Miao."

Jiang Cheng didn't speak, took the cake and took a bite.

Didn't taste it.

He couldn't say whether he was in a good mood or a bad mood at the moment, but he was bored, very bored.

After forcibly eating all the cake, Jiang Cheng wiped his mouth: "Let's... let's get down to business."

"Okay." Gu Fei said.

"I made up my own mind about this matter, and I didn't tell you because I was afraid you would feel pressured." Jiang Cheng took a sip of milk tea, "I just wanted to see if Er Miao's illness can be cured."

Gu Fei didn't speak, just lowered his head and swirled the cup.

"I went to several hospitals and asked the doctors. If Ermiao can't go there, there is nothing I can do." Jiang Cheng cleared his throat, "So I thought about reading psychology books by myself first, and then I told Zhao Ke This thing..."

Jiang Cheng glanced at Gu Fei, a little worried that Gu Fei would be upset if others found out about this, but Gu Fei didn't have any special reaction and kept his head down.

"Zhao Ke's sister, who happened to be a graduate student in clinical psychology at B University, introduced Xu Xingzhi to..." Jiang Cheng swallowed.

"Xu Xingzhi?" Gu Fei raised his head.

"Just that..." Jiang Cheng cleared his throat again, "That senior just now."

"En." Gu Fei nodded and stood up.

Jiang Cheng was stunned for a moment, watching him go to the water dispenser next to him to get a cup of warm water before sitting back.

"Forget about drinking water." Gu Fei put the water in front of him.

"Oh." Jiang Cheng took a few sips of water.

The water is quite hot, and the steam hits the face, making the eye sockets a little hot.

"When you called that day..." Jiang Cheng said this, and suddenly remembered what Gu Fei said on the phone that day. Every sentence was like a needle, piercing his heart. Thoughts, but he still stopped and slowed down, "I wanted to tell you, but I didn't have time."

"I'm sorry." Gu Fei said.

sorry.What Jiang Cheng didn't want to hear was this sentence.

He didn't know who was sorry for whom, and there was no right or wrong in this matter, and there was no way to distinguish between right and wrong.

"Xu Xingzhi is the only person who can come to see Er Miao and give Er Miao treatment." Jiang Cheng took another sip of hot water, "Although he hasn't graduated yet, he is a student who is valued by the tutor, so..."

Jiang Cheng bit his lip, and looked up at Gu Fei: "I want him to try and get in touch with Er Miao."

"Yeah." Gu Fei also looked at him.

"This matter requires your consent and cooperation," Jiang Cheng said with some difficulty, "If you feel... that it's inappropriate..."

"Okay." Gu Fei said.

Jiang Cheng looked at him: "Do you agree? Are you also willing to cooperate?"

"En." Gu Fei nodded.

Jiang Cheng didn't speak, he lowered his head and stared at the hot steam coming out of the cup, and let out a soft sigh of relief.

But then, the hot feeling in the eye sockets reappeared, as if the breath had exhaled some barrier in the body, and tears gushed out suddenly.

He didn't even have time to react, two big tears just dripped into the cup.

Fuck me.

Jiang Cheng felt that his grief was coming from the bottom of his heart, and he had a strong desire to find out if there was any lacrimal gland surgery.

He had to lower his head very low, blinking desperately at the mouth of the cup.

"Brother Cheng," Gu Fei took out a tissue, hesitated and stuffed it into his hand, "I remember everything you do, I really..."

When Gu Fei stuffed the tissue into his hand, his fingertips touched his tiger's mouth.

Very light, almost imperceptible to the touch.

This is the only physical contact they have had since October.

"Gu Fei," Jiang Cheng grabbed the paper and wiped his eyes randomly a few times before raising his head to look at him, "You know what? I don't want you to remember this, it's because you remember it too clearly of."

Gu Fei looked at him without saying a word.

"Before I came back, I felt that I had a lot to say." Jiang Cheng took a deep breath, leaned back in his chair, and turned his head to look at the empty street outside the window. He hadn't seen such a clean scene for a long time. The coldness can be seen in the emptiness, which makes people calm down slowly, "I'm a little excited now, so I can't say anything."

"Me too..." Gu Fei held the cup of milk tea in his hand, unconsciously drawing circles on the table, "Yes."

"Let's put other things aside for now," Jiang Cheng said, "Xu Xingzhi will only stay for a few days, let him get in touch with Er Miao first, judge her condition, see if there is any treatment plan, and How to continue treatment in the future."

"Well, good." Gu Fei nodded.

"I'm afraid that Er Miao will resist." Jiang Cheng turned his head to look at Gu Fei, "You go back to tell her first at night? See a big brother tomorrow?"

"Well, let me talk to her first." Gu Fei said.

Looking at him, Jiang Cheng really wanted to ask, what happened to Gu Fei that day, why he suddenly cut off contact and said "Forget it" all of a sudden.

But in the end, he didn't ask. Gu Fei's scars were nothing more than his family members, and there was no need to uncover them to make Gu Fei suffer again.

After leaving the cake shop, the two of them went back in silence, and when they walked downstairs to the rented room, Gu Fei said, "I'll call you tomorrow?"

"En." Jiang Cheng responded.

"Then... I'll go back first," Gu Fei said, "Tomorrow... let's have dinner together?"

"Yeah," Jiang Cheng nodded, "Then I'll go upstairs first."

Gu Fei turned around and left. Jiang Cheng stood still and looked at Gu Fei's back. This back was still familiar in his memory. He could even remember the walking posture and steps.

...don't think about it for now.

Thinking too much, wanting to say too much, on the contrary, both of them were at a loss.

When he turned around and walked into the corridor, he saw Gu Fei turn his head back from the corner of his eyes.

"Jiang Cheng, you are too mean," Zhao Jin said while gnawing on the ribs, "you didn't tell me about your relationship before you came here."

"I... forgot." Jiang Cheng said.

"This is my treat." Zhao Jin took a sip of the soup, "To commemorate the days when I plunged into a bunch of gay guys."

"Sister," Pan Zhi looked at her and said sincerely, "I'm not, little gay."

"Oh," Zhao Jin also looked at him, "Isn't it a pity?"

"I..." Pan Zhi sighed, "Yes, yes."

Zhao Jin smiled for a long time: "Have you been here before? Let's take my sister out to have fun tomorrow. They are going to see her, so let's not make trouble."

"No problem." Pan Zhi nodded immediately.

The hotel where Zhao Jin and Xu Xingzhi lived was booked by Pan Zhi. After dinner, Pan Zhi sent Zhao Jin to the hotel first, and Xu Xingzhi and Jiang Cheng continued to chat for a while at the hotel.

"That's about it. Tomorrow, I'll probably talk to Gu Fei first," Xu Xingzhi said, "After the communication, I will contact Gu Miao. Is there any convenient place for you to talk?"

Jiang Cheng thought for a while, "Maybe it's our school. There's a cafe that feels like it's going to close down. When it's on holiday, there's almost no one there."

"That's fine," Xu Xingzhi smiled, "Go back and rest, your face is a bit ugly."

"Yeah." Jiang Cheng touched his face.

The weather today was fine, there was no snow, and the sun could be seen early in the morning. Gu Fei stood at the door of the shop with a cigarette in his mouth, watching Gu Miao who was speeding past on a skateboard against the north wind.

He looked down at the time on the phone, it was a little early to call Jiang Cheng.

He got up too early and didn't fall asleep all night. He didn't know if it was because he was too confused, or because he slept all afternoon in the rented room yesterday.

If it wasn't for Jiang Cheng's sudden appearance, he might have been able to sleep until night.

When he opened his eyes and saw Jiang Cheng, he still felt like he was in a dream when he thought about it.

Jiang Cheng had lost a lot of weight, and he no longer had the look of "I'm the best" written on his face that was always radiant in his memory.

His voice was also hoarse, and it definitely wasn't because of getting angry. He used to eat barbecue for several days and didn't necessarily get angry. He had known Jiang Cheng for so long and hadn't seen him get angry.

Is it because you are too tired, or because you are in a bad mood?

Gu Fei leaned against the door and sighed, his mind was like an obsessive-compulsive disorder, repeatedly recalling every detail of the period from when he opened his eyes and saw Jiang Cheng, to when Jiang Cheng turned and walked into the corridor.

Can't stop no matter what.

Jiang Cheng has pretty good self-control, which can be seen when he reviews his sprints, but he doesn't control his emotions very well, and he doesn't hide himself very often.

When he saw Jiang Cheng trying to control his emotions yesterday, he felt very distressed.

He wanted to say sorry, wanted to hug Jiang Cheng in the past, thought a lot, but in the end he could only sit there.

There is now a subtle sense of distance between him and Jiang Cheng, not only because of his phone call, but also because of the blank period of no contact.

When the phone rang, Gu Fei was still staring at the snow in a daze. Liu Li, who came out to throw out the trash, said, "Is your phone ringing?" and he came back to his senses.

The call was from Jiang Cheng. There was no Jiang Cheng's number on the old phone, but he could recite Jiang Cheng's number.

"I thought you weren't up yet," Gu Fei answered the phone, "I thought I'd call later."

"Just got up, I guess you've already got up," Jiang Cheng's voice was still a little hoarse, "Xu Xingzhi and I are going over now, have you talked to Er Miao?"

"Well," Gu Fei said, "Tell her that Brother Cheng is coming over today, and a big brother is also coming to play with her."

"Is she willing to see me?" Jiang Cheng's voice trembled a little, he was probably going downstairs.

"I'm not sure," Gu Fei looked at Gu Miao in the distance, "Anyway, she can't express any thoughts, I think she is a little excited today, and she has been skateboarding in such a strong wind."

"Look at it for a while, if it doesn't work, I'll avoid it," Jiang Cheng said, "Is she afraid of cats?"

"Not afraid, why?" Gu Fei asked.

"I brought a very docile cat over to let her play with it," Jiang Cheng said. "Let's see if she likes it."

"Yes." Gu Fei responded.

"Then... I'll hang up first," Jiang Cheng said, "I'll be there soon."

"Okay." Gu Fei took a look at the intersection and hung up the phone.

For some reason, he was suddenly a little nervous. Gu Fei hadn't felt this way for a long time.

Want to see Jiang Cheng.

And a little scared to see Jiang Cheng.

When there was no Jiang Cheng at the intersection, he was a little anxious.

When he saw Jiang Cheng coming out from the corner, he quickly lifted the curtain and entered the store again.

After standing facing the cash register for a while, he turned around, lifted the curtain and walked out, his heart beating violently.

Jiang Cheng and Xu Xingzhi walked over, Gu Fei went up to meet them, and nodded at them: "Good morning."

"Morning," Xu Xingzhi held out his hand, "I didn't have time to get to know each other well yesterday."

"Yesterday... I'm sorry," Gu Fei shook hands with him, then looked back, "I asked her to come over."

"Well, is that the little girl over there?" Xu Xingzhi asked.

"Yes." Gu Fei nodded, and then whistled.

Gu Miao over there immediately whistled back, then stepped on the skateboard to a sudden stop, turned around and slid over here.

"Do you usually call her that?" Xu Xingzhi asked with a smile.

"Yes, when she was skateboarding, she was so far away that she couldn't hear her." Gu Fei said.

"It's very interesting," Xu Xingzhi smiled, looking at Gu Miao who was sliding towards them, "It's very beautiful, little sister."

"Thank you." Gu Fei also smiled.

Jiang Cheng was a little nervous. Although he was holding out hope for everything and refused to give up, he kept telling himself that Gu Miao would make progress.

But when Gu Miao stepped on the skateboard and approached them 1.1 meters away, he became nervous.

Gu Miao is not the key to solve the problem between him and Gu Fei.

But Gu Miao is the bondage that Gu Fei can't let go of.

He was afraid that Gu Fei would be disappointed.

He was suddenly very scared, if Gu Miao really did not make any progress in the end, what kind of abyss Gu Fei would face.

Gu Miao was already very close to them, and he could already see the somewhat excited expression on Gu Miao's face.

"Er Miao," Gu Fei squatted down, and gestured to Gu Miao with his hand, "Slow down."

Gu Miao's speed slowed down. When the skateboard rushed in front of them, she stepped on it and stopped. When she jumped off the skateboard, she raised her toes and caught the skateboard under her arm.

"Brother Cheng is back." Gu Fei said.

Gu Miao's gaze passed over Gu Fei and landed on Jiang Cheng.

Jiang Cheng smiled and bent down: "Er Miao."

Gu Miao looked at him without any reaction.

Jiang Cheng snapped his fingers and gave her a thumbs up.

Gu Miao hugged the skateboard, and after a while, she raised her hand, snapped her fingers, and then gave a thumbs up.

"That's great," Jiang Cheng almost burst into tears at this moment, "Er Miao is awesome!"

Gu Fei looked back at him.

Jiang Cheng smiled, and Gu Fei curled the corner of his mouth: "She still misses you very much."

"Yes." Jiang Cheng nodded.

"Er Miao, this is Uncle Xu...brother," Gu Fei pointed to Xu Xingzhi, "Brother Xu, say hello to Brother Xu."

Xu Xingzhi stood by and watched all the time, Jiang Cheng knew that he was observing the way of communication between Gu Fei and Gu Miao and Gu Miao's reaction.

Gu Miao hugged the skateboard and bowed to him, Xu Xingzhi smiled and squatted down: "Hello."

Gu Miao seemed a little dazed, seeing that he didn't respond.

"Is this your skateboard?" Xu Xingzhi pointed to the skateboard she was holding.

Gu Miao looked down at the skateboard, Xu Xingzhi said, "How do you play?"

Gu Miao glanced at him, turned around and put the skateboard on the ground, stepped on it with one foot, the head of the skateboard was tilted up, and she turned back to look at Xu Xingzhi.

In her eyes, Jiang Cheng saw the provocative little eyes that Gu Miao had shown when he was skateboarding with him before.

"And then?" Xu Xingzhi asked.

Gu Miao also stepped on the skateboard with her other leg, leaned her body, and took advantage of the slope to rush forward.

"Can she usually communicate with people like this?" Xu Xingzhi asked Gu Fei.

"Not necessarily," Gu Fei said, "Half and half, sometimes when you're nervous and unhappy, it's okay."

"Well," Xu Xingzhi nodded, stood up, and looked at Jiang Cheng, "Then let's go to... that cafe you mentioned?"

"Then let's go." Jiang Cheng said.

Gu Miao was stepping on a skateboard in front of her, and Xu Xingzhi kept looking at her.

Gu Fei walked beside Xu Xingzhi, and Jiang Cheng followed behind with a cat bag.

He was a little hesitant, should he just walk behind, or go up and walk side by side with Gu Fei, or side by side with Xu Xingzhi?

This inexplicable sense of embarrassment that suddenly appeared made him very depressed.

Gu Fei seemed to have the same feeling as him. Jiang Cheng saw him turn his head a few times, looking back from the corner of his eye, his footsteps slowed down a bit, and then sped up again.

"That," Gu Fei finally turned around, "Is there a cat in the bag?"

"Well, it's called Fat Sheep." Jiang Cheng picked up the cat bag, "it's the senior's cat."

"Let's see Gu Miao's reaction to small animals later. My cat is very friendly, like a dog. It is more suitable for getting in touch with children." Xu Xingzhi said.

"When I was young, my neighbor raised rabbits," Gu Fei said. "She liked it quite a bit. Now the only animal she knows how to draw is rabbits."

"You can show me what she draws today," Xu Xingzhi said, "What she writes or draws is fine."

"Okay." Gu Fei nodded.

After walking a few steps, he turned around again: "Shall I take it?"

"...No need." Jiang Cheng said.

Xu Xingzhi didn't know whether it was intentional or unintentional, he took out his mobile phone, looked at it while quickening his pace, and walked in front of them.

Gu Fei was a step slower, Jiang Cheng went up and walked forward side by side with him.

"Brother Cheng," Gu Fei whispered, "How do you calculate the cost of this treatment...?"

"He's helping," Jiang Cheng said. "This time, I just got in touch with Er Miao to find out what Er Miao's problem is. There is no fee. If there is treatment later, he will not charge for it. He just needs to have some kind of examination and so on. Yes, and those for rehabilitation, those costs should still be affordable."

"En." Gu Fei nodded.

Jiang Cheng didn't say that he could help with the fee, he didn't want to make Gu Fei feel any pressure, and it wasn't time to discuss the fee in detail yet.

"Did you pick up work during the holidays?" Jiang Cheng asked.

"Got it, Ding Zhuxin has work over there," Gu Fei said, "but you can turn it down for a few days."

"It shouldn't be necessary, it won't last a whole day," Jiang Cheng smiled, "It won't affect it."

The two of them didn't speak any more, and walked along the road to the school.

The two of them have walked this road countless times, walking, driving motorcycles, driving steamed buns, and riding bicycles. Today's trip was the one that impressed Jiang Cheng the most.

Every step is full of flavors.

Sure enough, there was no one in the cafe. Not only was there no one, but there was nothing to order except coffee. It was a very dedicated cafe.

So they ordered coffee and a glass of milk for Gu Miao.

Xu Xingzhi wanted to chat with Gu Fei first, so Jiang Cheng took Gu Miao and sat down at the table next to him.

"It's called Fat Sheep." Jiang Cheng pulled the cat bag away and pointed it at Gu Miao, "Er Miao, does it look like a rabbit?"

Gu Miao's eyes lit up when she saw the fat sheep in her bag.

"You can touch it, Er Miao." Gu Fei said.

Gu Miao hesitated for a moment, and stretched out her hand. Before she reached into the cat bag, Fat Sheep stretched out his paw and placed it in the palm of her hand.

Gu Miao suddenly turned her head and looked at Gu Fei excitedly.

"It likes you very much," Xu Xingzhi said, "Do you want to play with it?"

Gu Miao didn't speak, but turned her head, lay down on the table, leaned in front of the cat bag, and stared at the fat sheep.

Jiang Cheng heaved a sigh of relief, just like Gu Miao, he had a faint surprise in his heart.

It can be seen that Gu Miao likes the fat sheep very much. When the fat sheep rubbed against her face, she kept touching the fat sheep.

Xu Xingzhi and Gu Fei sat down at a table away.

Jiang Cheng couldn't quite hear what they were talking about, but he could almost guess what Xu Xingzhi wanted to know. Considering the psychological knowledge he had stuffed into his head intensively this semester and hadn't fully digested it, it should touch Gu Fei. Those who do not want to mention the past.

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